mara

[ritikajyala]

There'll be a moment when you realise you're 27 when yesterday you were just 17; and you wouldn't be able to tell how a decade passed away and your life got divided into before and afters. The fury of youth will subdue and nothing will really change but everything will feel different when you look at old photographs and blurry videos taken on cheap mobile phones. Scents will remind you of childhood and certain friends you don't talk to anymore, hangouts will become reunions and mom's burnt pie will become the best food you ever had. And I know on some days you won't be able to show anything of those 10 years but I hope you remember to breathe, and let go of the knot in your chest. I hope you go out in the sun and live a little, because tomorrow is 37.

Edit- I added the visualizer for this piece on my YT, check it out here

-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The Flesh I Burned

[batstolovers]

𝔊𝔬𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔠 𝔄𝔢𝔰𝔱𝔥𝔢𝔱𝔦𝔠 (x)

[heatherscomet]

art, intimacy, romance.

[hiatuse]

To be desired means nothing. To be truly understood and deeply loved is everything.

[stardustemotions-deactivated202]

In love with being noticed and afraid of being seen

[stardustemotions-deactivated202]

One day you think: I want to die. And then you think, very quietly, actually I want a coffee. I want a nap. A sandwich. A book. And I want to die turns day by day into I want to go home, I want to walk in the woods, I want to see my friends, I want to sit in the sun. I want a cleaner room, I want a better job, I want to live somewhere else, I want to live.

[lynnvtc]

[ab-initioo]

we are dying from overthinking. we are slowly killing ourselves by thinking about everything. think. think. think. you can never trust the human mind anyway. it’s a death trap.

— Sir Anthony Hopkins

[fillo-sofia]

One of my favourite things about The Secret History is how one of the most famous quotes is “beauty is terror” and the whole aesthetic of the fandom embodies that exact sentiment, most times unknowingly. The piles of teacups with old dregs around the living room, the whisky stains, the cigarette butts, the description Henry’s apartment when Richard goes to get his book or the twins’ apartment when they have their first dinner. It’s terrible, the whole thing is a mess, and we all found such beauty in it, it’s amazing.

[fillo-sofia]

I'm written by Donna Tartt. Not in the way that I'm ethereal and smart and well-read. But in the way that I will do anything to be perceived well by a bunch of pretentious people. In the way I never feel smart enough, worldly enough, or that I'll ever fit in, but I'll pretend that I do to a fault. In the way that despite it all, I still have a god complex regarding my intellect

[x3nshit]

another shitty thing about being the eldest daughter who based her worth on academics and how useful she can be to others is that it physically hurts to ask for help even when we desperately need it. it's an internalized belief that we should we able to figure out everything on our own and it sucks

[academia-lucifer]

@academia-lucifer

[paracosmoon]

i think im way too young to be the age that i am

[fatimazainab]

Unknown

[uncut-feelings]

the intimacy of sharing feelings and thoughts that were buried deep inside with someone who understands and listens to them patiently and acknowledges them and does not make you feel like you're too much is everything

[ab-initioo]

we are dying from overthinking. we are slowly killing ourselves by thinking about everything. think. think. think. you can never trust the human mind anyway. it’s a death trap.

— Sir Anthony Hopkins

[deviika]

Fyodor Dostoyevsky // Alanis Morissette