so, the thought of returning to playing minjun came up a few times this year, but i did a lot of thinking and have become uncomfortable with a lot of minjun’s backstory and traits now that i’m older.
minjun was an outlet for a lot of my past traumas and abuse, and that’s all well and good back when i was barely an adult and when i was a minor, but i’m close to twenty and the idea of projecting my history onto a 15 year old is very icky.
there’s also the whole catfishing adult men as a minor thing, which is very much not an okay topic in my eyes now. especially considering mysme is a romance game first and foremost and having adult muses unknowingly flirt with a child is very gross and something i wish i had realised back when i was creating him.
am i going to miss minjun ?? absolutely !! the found family tropes that came up while writing him are near and dear to my heart, and i will always treasure those threads. however, rather than scrapping the character completely, i have repurposed parts of his backstory and characteristics onto a different oc that is also repurposed to be an mysme mc.
thank you all so much for the memories, and i’m glad you all enjoyed this sassy catfish. please look forward to my new content @nunchiis !!
listen i don’t wanna be That Guy but i’ve got some stuff i need to uh... discuss... sorry for the lowkey drama...
ok it is time for The Discourse hold on to your butts because this is a long one.
so aside from irl stuff keeping me busy, the reason i been active these fast few weeks is that i had a huge falling out with someone who i thought was my friend. not naming names.
so we were talking about new blogs we wanted to make and i brought up how i kinda wanted to make a v/l/d rp blog for shiro and they asked if i wanted to ship with their keith if they made one. i said no. they asked why. i told them that i didn’t want to say anything that might hurt their feelings. they were like ‘it’s ok!!!! i won’t get mad :)’
so i told them that even though keith is 'officially' 18 i still feel uncomfortable with the ship due to the age gap regardless and that the vast majority of sheith shippers made me aversed to the ship due to their treatment of other fans of voltron. keep in mind i’m 18 myself and was abused by someone six years my senior for many years.
and my friend flipped out at me. calling me an ‘anti’ and how it was all legal so it was okay and that i should be ashamed for ship-shaming. which i wasn’t?? i just said i didn’t like it.
and so i told them that as someone who was taken advantage of by someone older than me that most age gap ships that are between two ‘adults’ still make me very uncomfortable.
they kept going on and on about how i was a grown man and shouldn’t be so sensitive and that it wasn’t their job to babysit me and kids in the fandom. how it was my responsibility to block out the stuff i didn't like. we're talking about a ship between an 18 and 25 year old. one which was defended by shippers even when no one was sure if keith was 'legal'.
so i said i was blocking it out by saying no to shipping with them.
the last thing that said before blocking me was ‘i hope you remember getting raped every time you think of voltron for not being able to tell fiction from reality’.
a nearly 30 year old told me, an 18 year old, that they hope i remember getting raped because i don’t like a ship between and 18 year old and a 25 year old.
this is completely unacceptable behaviour and i’m extremely disappointed in the culture that has let this become normal online.
and you know what?? if you try to justify a ship like sheith to the point where you tell someone who has disclosed to you their abuse that you hope their remember that abuse every time they think of something they love because they said something that wasn’t positive about it?? maybe there is a fucking problem with you.
voltron is a kids' show. adults are the ones who are the invited party to the fandom, not the children. why are you complaining about kids (or in my case someone who was a minor until this year) getting uncomfortable at adults in their space making content that they'd rather not see??
idk what i’m even trying to accomplish with this post aside from making myself feel better and maybe if the person i’m talking about will feel bad or maybe someone else might understand why i’m upset. my brain is fuzzy from the flu anyways.
also the whole ‘people can tell fiction from reality’ is a bullshit argument that has been debunked by a fuckton of people fiction does influence how people are irl just look at the studies on people’s reactions to sharks after jaws you fucking egg
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