The Introductory

Interests and thoughts.

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"Our faith in Allah will not get rid of our grief. And our faith in Allah will not get rid of our sadness and will not get rid of our fear. But it will make us strong enough to overcome them."

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I thought I was happy, and I couldn't be any happier. But I can, and that surprises me.

I thought I was fine being alone. But being together is finer, and that surprises me too.

I thank God every day that He sends me someone who holds my hand whenever I can't get a hold of myself.

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Not related to the picture, but I have been feeling a little tingle on my heart, in a good way. And that feels sooooo weird. .

Now I'm talking about the picture. This was arranging-on-a-limited-budget kind of thing. But in the middle of arranging this, my mind kept saying, "I should've bought more roses, I should've added this and that."

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Today is one of those days.

I wish I had someone who could hold my hands whenever I experience an attack.

It feels like no one can understand what I feel and how it affects my actions in life. It stops me from doing things. Even things that seem like nothing to most people. I have had anticipatory anxiety for as long as I can remember to the point that it has made me a timid person.

Yet, no one can really understand it because they don't experience it themselves. I probably am like that too to other people. Although I have one, I feel like sometimes I am not able to resonate with what they are feeling.

In conclusion, anxiety disorder 👎

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I wanted to make some "living with gad" type of posts, but my therapist didn't really agree with me because she thought I was not ready yet for that, and honestly tho, I agree with her lol.

But when I am, I would love to share how I had my panic attacks and how uncomfortable it was until I finally was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder and was given some anti-anxiety & anti-depressant pills. I did take them, but not anymore. My therapy sessions and how therapy has helped me in coping with my anxiety. Also, how the people around me reacted to that.

Yet, as for now, this video sorta sums it up.

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(Kinda) 360 view of yesterday's arrangement class.

It was fun; although my flower selection is almost completely different from the guide, I like it so much!

Anw, if you happened to stumble across this post, you like my work and want to make the pics your lock screen. Feel free to save the pics! x

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Arranging almost a week old chrysanthemums. Anw, I am on a journey of finding my bouquet making style. Wml!

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I made a ring bearer glass dome a couple months ago. Did not look like what I have imagined or sketched lol. Did not like how it turned out as well. Because it looks chaotic (exactly like how I felt around that time when making this), but the more I see it, the more I dig it.

IMO it resembles Alice in Wonderland in a way. The bowl sort of looks like the white rabbit's house, and the rest is just the path Alice went through.

And now I can't stop thinking how pretty it looks from above!

Oh, and also, can you see the carnations?! I preserved it myself! Like, I'm so proud because it was the first time the preservation method worked lol.

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Tried to make a floral vintage-y vibe of clay hair pins but did not really work because my drawing/painting ability is below average lol

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The container was a clay candle jar that can't be reused because it cracked (as you can see on the top left picture). The flowers were from the leftover.

The color combinations and compositions might seem off to you, but I like it this way. I always like my made-out-of-scraps craft.

When I made this, I thought of the abandoned city somewhere in Japan that I saw one day in an article. So, the reds, whites, pinks, and yellows symbolized the city. The tall flowers are the towers, the lagurus and phalaris were the other skyscrapers, and the greens portrayed the "abandonment."

If I had to give it a name, I'd call it "It's the apocalypse, can you survive?" lol. Because I always thought of the zombie apocalypse. Hence, this name! I'm sorry I must be sounding like a nerd to you lol.

[juejack]

i’m going to post this again because people are saying it does help! this is JUST some tips that i find help me, i am not a therapist!  if you have some more advice to add that i may have missed, pls by all means add a comment to the post. do not message me, thank you <3

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Thank you for doing this.

And for anyone who has experienced this. I am so sorry. I hope life will always treat you well because you deserve all the best in the world.

Also, it's in your thoughts. Your thoughts are not forever. You can get this over with. Happy thoughts only <3

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Frank is me. I am Frank. Not related to whether MBTI is scientific or pseudoscience, I just feel like there are a lot of people who think and feel like me because we have the same MBTI type - which means I am not alone. If that makes sense.

Also, his eyes match his shirt lol.

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Been into air dry clay lately. Really enjoying the part when you have to roll the clay and sand paper-ing the clay. Sand paper-ing lol. I’m sorry I don’t know the words.

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I think this is the most eye-opening video on Youtube that I find in 2021, even though today is still Jan 31.

I have no idea that tactile packaging, emboss or even scent that makeup/skincare/body care products use helps blind people.

I used to be skeptical and sometimes despise products with scents and many ornaments in their packaging because I thought they were unnecessary. But they actually do!

I wish more brands are more accessible for blind people as many high-end products (+maybelline) did, as shown in this video.

Also, Molly Burke is really really pretty!

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Happy Seruni Day!

All my friends and family members know how much I love Seruni. I can guarantee that they are so sick of me talking about this and me posting my crafts lol. I am so sorry but I can’t help it.

I honestly can’t believe how can people trust me by buying my work lol. I have a very low self esteem about things I do but without any formal education/training. You know, like....the feeling of not good enough? Ngl I am becoming more and more of a people pleasing kind of person. To put it nicely, I have to observe and actually do the trends. I never have been the sort of person who understands or follows the trends, so there were times when Seruni feels uncomfortable to me.

But, I find solace most of the time by making flowers arrangement. The more hectic I am the more things I make. Because crafting is an act of stress relieve to me.

One most important thing that keep me going is how great it feels when I receive the feedbacks. I even considered a major career change! After reading about how happy they were when they got our flowers, how can I not? Well, they’re happy because they receive a heartwarming gift from someone else, not us, but still. We made that! Lol.

Can’t thank my friends and family enough for always excited and supporting me even though I know they’re sick of me hyping about this lol. Super grateful as well to the adopters (buyers) for trusting us to be in their most intimate happy moments. Birthday, anniversary, graduation, wedding.

So, yeah. This giveaway is nothing but our sincere thank you. I don’t know what will happen next. But I believe God has planned the perfect thing to me and Seruni.

#HappySeruniDay

[nuraini-101]

"You’re a tough girl.”

I honestly can’t remember the last time people told me that I’m tough. Probably I have too many people “baby-ing” me or, on the contrary, (indirectly) telling me to “suck it up” to the point that it makes me subconsciously feel weak and fragile. But when my friend told me that I’m tough, I feel great. Maybe I am indeed a tough girl.

On that account, for whoever is reading this and happen to be in the most vulnerable state, don’t worry. You’re a tough girl. You’re a tough guy. You’ll get this.