Pursuit of Happiness

" I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself , and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. " - Marilyn Monroe meraki - Doing something with soul, creativity, or love Have a mind that is open to everything, and attached to nothing. Focus on making yourself better, not thinking you are better. var count = "narytang"; // Change Your Account? var type = "microblack"; // Change Your Counter Image? var digits = "5"; // Change The Amount of Digits on Your Counter? var prog = "hit"; // Change to Either hit/unique? var statslink = "no"; // provide statistical link in counter yes/no? var sitelink = "yes"; // provide link back to our site;~) yes/no? var cntvisible = "yes"; // do you want counter visible yes/no? The following text will not be seen after you upload your website, please keep it in order to retain your counter functionality Free Trackers Help

[punchthemoon-deactivated2020091]

Disney Princesses as birth control methods *sparkle sparkle*

[kushandwizdom]

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[nurhhhz]

(lol yes I google’d it)

With the amount of people I know, why do I still feel so alone? Is it my fault for isolating myself from everyone? Is it my fault I’d rather hang out by myself? I have a hate/love thing going on with socializing.

I try my best to not care, but sometimes it does get lonely. It does hurt a little to not be included in things. It sucks. But who am I to complain when I probably caused it on myself? After all it is a two way street. Is that how the saying goes? Blah.

Can’t win it all.

[thequotejournals]

I fear I will always have to chase the things I want. I’ll always have to wonder whether I’m truly wanted or whether I’ve just been settled for.

Libba Bray, A Great and Terrible (via wordsnquotes)

[kushandwizdom]

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[prettymelaninqueen]

You think you’ve seen her naked because she took her clothes off? Tell me about her dreams. Tell me what breaks her heart. What is she passionate about, and what makes her cry? Tell me about her childhood. Better yet, tell me one story about her that you’re not in. You’ve seen her skin, and you’ve touched her body. But… you still know as much about her as a book you once found, but never got around to opening.

Anonymous  (via powerchuff)

[kushandwizdom]

You don't always need closure to move on. Actions and behavior speak volume. Trust the signs you were given and gracefully move forward.

- Unknown

[nurhhhz]

The breakdown

Are mental breakdowns normal? Obviously something is wrong when it occurs, because why else would they happen?

I’ve always believed that it is ok to let out a good cry every now and then. Let it all out..

I haven’t had one in..probably two years? Idk, I don’t keep track of those things. But yeah, that was when I was pretty depressed. The one I had earlier was pretty bad. I couldn’t control my crying and had to remind myself to breathe. I know right? Me crying? Wells, everyone has their days.

Anyways, but it had happened. And I usually don’t like to talk about it. But as I was bawling my eyes out, I realized a few (more) things about myself. I have to really control my thoughts. I don’t know how to explain it but once I get into this certain mindset about something..it’s hard to change my mind. I’ll go through these phases where I just want to be left alone for no apparent reason. And I don’t really want to see anyone. Sometimes it’s because I’m so bothered by something or because I really don’t want to be around people. Idk. As I get older, I’ve realized that I don’t need to be around a lot of people. It’s draining. And I don’t think many people understand. But I feel like I’ve always been on my own. I don’t feel the need for social gatherings.

Am I weird for not wanting to be social? I’ll go out when I’m ready. But most of the time I have to mentally prepare myself. The thought of back to back events, with crowds, just sounds exhausting to me. I’ve always preferred hanging out with just 1 or 2 people.

I need to focus on myself. It is happening to me again. I’ll do all these things, go to all these places, suggest stuff..and end up feeling blah about it later. I need to be okay again.

Yeah. It is really strange and hard to explain. It’s more of a personal thing..I guess. It’s just me.

I don't get too attached to people.

[nurhhhz]

Grinch

Hello.

I wanted to take the time to write a post about this, because I don't think the person I was talking to about this understood my perspective. Not like that individual is on Tumblr to even read this, but I just wanted to put it out there.

If we are friends, and I'm sure I have written a post about this before, but you would know that Christmas is not exactly my favorite holiday. Actually, I could care less for it.

My point is, I told this person that I'm not very fond of Christmas. And that person called me a Grinch. Why? I told that person that I don't have anything against people who do like Christmas. Who am I to judge, right? Long story short, I felt like I was being attacked for not liking Christmas. I was telling that person that Christmas is just not my preferred choice of a holiday. And then it just lead to me explaining how I am usually alone during the holidays, because my family is not very much of the festive type. At least not the ones in CA.

That person continues to try to convince me that maybe it is because I have not had a legit Christmas surrounded by family and friends. I'm like sure, maybe. But it doesn't bother me that I'm alone most of the time during holidays. I've always been by myself, except if when I'm celebrating with friends. Pretty much this person was making me seem like I am crazy for not liking Christmas. Chill! I told that person it's like how some people prefer dogs over cats, or penis vs. vagina. You can't look at them any differently because they don't have the same likes as you. I'm not criticizing you for liking Christmas. I mean I like all the lights and stuff, but I'm whatevers with that holiday.

That person also said it is because you are home and do not understand what it is like to miss family. I'm like uhm, how many more times do I  have to tell you that all my family is in Texas? And even when I'm home, my mother and brother are usually off doing their own things. Like I said, I'm alone very often. Holidays are just like any other day to me minus the occasional day off from work and/or good food. Don't tell me how to feel, PERSON!!

Happy Holidays.

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[drunkenhills]

I really wanna go on a car ride with her

[queenfaithmarie]

Me in my car😂😂

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