sunshine lollipops and rainbows

[ichbinniko]

masturbating together on the phone and listening to each other moan

[akalacrm7-deactivated20231009]

This!

[f-r-u-s-t-a-t-e-d]

[quetiapine19-deactivated2024011]

Suicide attempts are traumatic

I don't hear anyone talking about this. But attempting to take your own life is traumatic.

The moments before the attempt are the most heartbreaking. The planning of it. Writing the suicide notes. You imagine all the pain will stop, but you wake up in the morning in your bed/floor/hospital bed/after a coma. Still alive. The ambulance rides. Your friends/family yelling/crying/asking questions. Trying to find the words to doctors why you did it. All you wanted was for it all to stop, but it was the most heartbreaking, painful both mentally and physically, draining thing you went through. Maybe you woke up with regret, maybe with relief.

But after you get back out in the real world, you have to act like nothing happened. You have to keep living surviving after something so traumatic. You still think about that event over and over. What would it be like if it worked? Why didn't it work? The way you did it, triggers you every time you see that thing/place. You get flashbacks. Ambulances make you re-remember everything all over again.

If you've survived, I'm proud you're still here. You're a survivor. Life might not look like it's worth it sometimes, but your future holds something amazing for you, I promise it does get better. Little by little. Don't give up just yet.

[barelyliving-barelybreathing]

After 10 years I still struggle to take tablets and if I do have to, I can't use juice to wash them down cause it floods my memory to when I attempted the first time

[angelstrap]

my plan B is always suicide

[a1m05t-en0ugh]

I don’t think he likes me back.

I just feel kinda empty rn. He’s the one who kept me going for the last couple of months. I know I shouldn’t base my mood on how he feels about me, but I can’t help it. I really, really liked this boy.

I know this is such a basic post and thousands of people have probably felt the same at some point, but it just hurts so much. I can’t just let him go.

I don’t remember feeling this way about someone ever. I’ve had crushes in the past but I fell harder for this boy than I could ever imagine.

What do I need to do to make him like me?

This is crushing me.

[ojibwa]

[open]

[tooweirdto-live-toorareto-die]

from time to time I like to come back to Tumblr to check in on things, just to find that everything is still there where I left it. This reminds me of how, as we move on with our lives, we leave traces of ourselves that don’t just disappear but will always be there to reminds us of what we used to be. I hope your present is better than your past and if you’re reading this, I’m glad you made it. Keep going.

[suicidalteenagenightmares]

I did it again. I fucked up another friendship I was building. Why do I have to be this way? Why do I have to be so fucking broken and fucked up

~SuicidalTeenageNightmares

[fdsfjdsfjkf93723679267-deactiva]

being mentally ill + suicidal at a young age (before 18) is. strange, because you grow up with this idea that one day you’ll finally snap, turn off, be brave enough to kill yourself, so you don’t really plan for the future. adulthood- further life, it isn’t for you, nor do you feel included within the future of it. it isn’t.. it isn’t part of your life plan.

and then before you know it you’re 18 and you’re an adult but you never thought you’d get this far and sure it’s great that you’re still alive you guess but also. you feel so alone + lost in a world you never expected or planned to be a part of.

[monachopsis-people]

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[depression-took-over-my-liiife]

maybe if i go to sleep tonight i will never wake up again