what hurts the most is finally realising that the person you thought were special to - doesnât and wonât ever care about you like they say they do and it hurts. so much. to come to that realisation that youâve denied for so long and to see that you are not special to them, you mean nothing.
it takes time to heal, from the hurt, the crying, the scars that they end up leaving.
but they donât see that side of you because you try to remain strong. keeping your head high you try to move forward and try to push the hurt to the side like itâs not slowly fucking you up but it is. it ends up winning every single time. and they donât know, they donât want to know.
cause they donât care.
for anyone who needs this as much as i do right now:
if someone truly cares for you, they will do anything in their power to never hurt you. theyâll do anything protect you and nurture you so that you never feel pain. theyâll be mindful of details, theyâll hide things if they really have to. just to not risk a possibility of hurting you in the slightest. most importantly, they would NEVER take the risk and possibility of losing you for good.
you know someone really doesnât care when they take actions that may hurt you, they act wreckless and not think of your feelings whilst committing those actions, not thinking how it would affect you if you were to see those things -
âhow will it make them feel if i do this, if they see this?â these are the thoughts of someone who values you as a human being, who truly loves you for you, someone who couldnât for a second stand the thought of losing you forever, someone who really wants to see you happy, someone who wants to see you laugh and bring you all the happiness that they possibly can - instead of pain and hurt and darkness.
when you love someone, theyâre the first thing that comes to mind when you do anything and everything.
but you gotta realise sometimes people donât value you like they say they do. start believing in actions and stop falling for words. a mistake we all make way too often.
they have the power to change all that pain and turn it into something beautiful, but they simply do not care enough about you to take those actions.
and when that happens, open your eyes, see it for what it is and accept it. that is all.
