nothing's for keeps except that we must keep going @nutuporshutup - Tumblr Blog

gqgonzales-blog1

I had a dream last night we

drove out to see Las Vegas

nutuporshutup

lost ourselves in the bright lights, i wish you could have seen us

its crazy the life i used to live

nutuporshutup

dear zach,

i’ve been sitting here thinking of all the things i want to apologize to you for. all the pain we caused each other. everything i put on you. everything i needed you to be or needed you to say. i’m sorry for that. i’ll always love you because you helped make me who i am. i just wanted you to know there will be a piece of you in me always, and i’m grateful for that. whatever someone you become, i’m sending you love. big yes.

love, amy

nutuporshutup

i don’t even know when this was, but tonight this is it.

my toxicity has been taking control of everything around me and i’m just so fucking scared. i wish i could scream into the void about how sorry i am for everything and the decisions i continue to make but it seems like i’ve run out of listeners. i keep trying to “better” myself but as soon as i take one step forward i take at least thirty steps back. love is definitely and absolutely never enough, and we have both always known that but i really do think he could be what i need forever if i could just get my shit together. i wish i had someone to advise me or tell me how to handle my situation. i’ve even decided to give up drinking once (and if ever) he comes back. i’m going to stop policing people and do more of policing myself. i’m going to try to actually become one of those people who i’m always jealous of – those people who are open and kind and positive. my options at this point are to completely fall apart if he doesn’t come back or try and pull myself up and be the best i can be if he does come back

daturanerium

the thank u next video really is a perfect example of how to love yourself. ari really went out after one of the worst years of her life and said “i’m going to write a song thanking my exes and make a music video with all of my friends remaking famous chick flicks because i want to and i DESERVE IT” and then she did it. she truly had the time of her life making this vid and you can tell. we love healing

l-amouur

thatbard-deactivated20180402

anyone else in this thread a slut for garlic

bob-belcher

onyxheartbeat

A new book to help fill my lonely life.

80sduh

Donnie Darko (2001)

timbllr

via weheartit

hrm00-deactivated20150924

I want to be loved so bad it’s pathetic and embarrassing

place0fperfecti0n

“if we can’t grow together we must grow apart” this was the reasoning i gave myself for so long without really understanding the meaning of the words. i never thought i would grow apart from you. you were tangled in every piece of me. the roots ran so deep that by trying to cut them out you took pieces of me with you, they left holes behind. but in place of those holes grew flowers, grew trees, plants i had never seen before. without those roots tangled in me i was so free to grow and everything around me became brighter after a while. new parts of me grew and grew and grew until i was unrecognizable. i never through that growing apart from you would only be the beginning of my growth.