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Spiritual Awakening

My spiritual awakening was the realization that I am a multi-dimensional, infinite soul having a 3D experience on this planet. We are all co-creating this reality and the universe is this live interactive matrix that acts as a mirror to your internal environment. Through this process I became more appreciative of life and my physical body while also developing a healthy sense of detachment to it. Instead, I think of my body as an avatar in which my soul projects itself into; a portal to spirituality, a channel for higher frequencies.

It’s like I am navigating my way through a maze and I can use my intellect to solve certain puzzles but it’s my intuition (higher self/God) that is standing on top of a mountain telling me which way to turn next. She can see the bigger picture. She can see my past lives, the future, and all possible timelines for every decision that I make. So trust was the most crucial lesson I’ve had to learn on my spiritual path. There are decisions that I’ve had to make that didn’t make much logical sense in the moment but I had to trust my gut and have faith that it was leading me in the right direction. It just got to the point where I could no longer ignore it and I kept pushing for things but kept running into blocks so finally I had no other choice but to stop and listen. It’s so much easier to go with the flow then to push against this force of nature. Trust that you came here for a purpose and everything is happening in divine timing. Everything moves in perfect synchronicity once you align yourself with your soul’s mission. Life actually does not have to be so hard or scary. I used to be so afraid of change. Now I embrace it. Resistance is actually what causes the most pain.

I’ve come a long way. I was an atheist for years and I am such a control freak so allowing this invisible force to guide me was so terrifying. I had so many doubts! In the beginning, spirituality was more philosophical for me. I was fascinated with astrology/tarot, and I would pray and do moon rituals but I was more so interested in it for the psychological benefits. On a conscious level, I didn’t really feel anything. My higher chakras were still closed off. It wasn’t until I got into yoga and meditation that I started to feel this strange energy inside of me (the meridians opening) and I started to notice that my sensory perception had shifted. I became more sensitive and I was activating all these extrasensory abilities. It really was like an Alice in Wonderland moment that took months to build up and suddenly I had entered a new reality. It was something that only psychedelics could have prepared me for but I was completely sober. I realized that I really was communicating with something and it was REAL with a capital R. And even though I used to be an atheist I still grew up in a christian society so finding spirituality outside of the church came with a lot of fear and guilt. Is this God? Is this an angel, are these my guides, or is this a demon?

The Spiritual awakening process can be super blissful and super stressful, it was an emotional roller-coaster. Some days I would feel invincible, I felt this mystical oneness with the universe that’s hard to put into words. Finally I understood what people meant when they said they felt the holy spirit or they talked to God. Opening the higher chakras led to an influx of high vibrational energy and it felt amazing, like true love, but you can’t remain in that state forever, you have to ground this energy. This process is NO JOKE, especially if you’re going through a rough time or you’ve experienced any sort of major trauma. Then the opening of your higher chakras can take a scary turn, it will show you whatever is inside of you. The dark night of the soul is NO FUN. All of your subconscious junk bubbles to the surface in order to get healed and you have to face your fears and process everything you used to repress. All the while, you still have to function in the world while you do this inner work so it can be very isolating. I felt so out of it. Had I not come across the term ‘kundalini awakening’ I would have thought that I was experiencing a psychotic episode.

It’s a lifelong process. No one on this earth has fully ascended, even your favorite guru has flaws. It was really intense in the beginning but it was so worth it. It’s a restructuring of your ego but it really does feel like a death and rebirth. Once you have access to this higher conscious awareness you begin to feel more powerful and you start to see life in an entirely new way. You manifest quicker, you’re able to free yourself from mindless karmic loops, make better decisions, learn your lessons, and heal yourself from things you never thought you’d be able to get over.

I found God and she was inside of me the entire time, separation was just an illusion. All I had to do was stop and listen.

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Jupiter in the 12th House - A Blessing in Disguise

Jupiter in the 12th house is commonly mentioned in Astrology circles as the "Guardian Angel" placement. Indeed, the support and help that Jupiter offers reaches its height here, in the Apex of the Zodiac, the culmination of all previous house energies, the 12th house. As it reaches its energetic height, it does however remain one house behind the Ascendant, the physical life path. Which means, that the help you are offered here has an intangible, ephemeral nature, where the free-flowing Jupiter thrives, but it can be hard to catch with a naked eye.

There is however, another side to this story, that is talked about less often. A necessity for an ultimate level of otherworldly protection in one's natal chart is a compensation for difficult themes of loss and abandonment. This energy is The Fairy Godmother that stayed, when no one else did.

Jupiter in the 12th house most commonly manifests as divine protection, that the individual is forced to rely on in direst times due to a heavy lack of external physical support, especially early on in life. Parents or caregivers of this native could have been either absent, distant or troubled or unable to provide a feeling of basic physical stability and happiness, especially concerning the male/paternal figure's in one's life. To compensate for an absent fundamental support system, the individual instead benefits from additional spiritual protection, to replace the one that they were unable to get in the material world, as this physical incarnation didn't provide it sufficiently early on in life. Instead, the whole Universe congregates heavily to support this native. Such a high level of support, however, is not without reason, as the whole cosmos has a further endgame in providing for the individual so intensely.

As much as this can make for a difficult childhood and troubled youth, there is a very positive side effect to this placement. Over time, as the native grows up and adults and caregivers stop being necessary for basic functioning, the person can even come into great wealth and happiness, as you can see from the charts of many accomplished and famous people with this placement. However, the early life deprivation and the challenging upbringing forges a permanent focus on spiritual matters, giving this individual a unique insight into how we are all inherently divinely protected, one way or another. Even if spiritual caregivers of this placement are particularly powerful, the gift here really lies in being able to harness their wisdom and energy and use it to create physical happiness and material success by uplifting society in various ways, depending on astrological aspects and the sign placement.

Through being so familiar with this process due to being forced by difficult circumstances, this individual becomes a guide to others on how to reach their own highest potential. That becomes particularly useful for other people with difficult 12th house alignments, especially with malefics or hard aspects present there, which can make other 12th house natives struggle more to thrive and connect with the power of their own 12th house energies. It is my experience as a 12th house Jupiter native myself, that I attract friends or even clients I do private readings for, that have very heavy Saturn, 12th house, 8th house, 6th house or karmic Nodal aspects and energies.

Ironically, people who have well placed planets in more physical houses, especially a more physical Jupiter, can get blinded, distracted and swallowed by shallower compensations, as they never had to reach higher in order to find satisfaction and protection in their lives, which can leave them feeling unfulfilled deep down. Because Jupiter in the 12th house sees and understands the meaning of the highest Divine Mercy, it is an oracle that helps people expand their own vision of the world, and get in touch with a very real dimension of higher energies and how they operate through our physical lives. Jupiter in the 12th house in fact represents the height of mercy and luck, just like the 12th house represents the epitome of spiritual accomplishment. Even if the native needed to wait a bit for the more physical blessings to arrive, ultimately they end up with both the mundane and spiritual pleasures fulfilled. They can taste what is normally privy to those who have Jupiter in previous houses, but also with the extra ability to find the ultimate divine grace in all of existence. Because of this power, they make some of the best philanthropists, as they don't get blinded by money and superficial success, even if they achieve a lot in that department, as they understand the value in the world beyond it.

These people are in touch with the invisible hand of the divine, that was always there to guide them gently through life and make sure they end up in the right place, even if other people failed to provide counsel. There is a deep wisdom to this placement, that reflects the awareness of the fact, that as other human beings are simply struggling souls with their own baggage, the Universe understands the bigger plan for our individual destiny, and if we only follow, we are assured to arrive at the right place. Precisely because this placement is so in touch with this process, as it walks through life and becomes more at home with themselves, it can effortlessly guide others to reconnect with their own spiritual guidance, that was given to them at birth, thus being uniquely equipped to show others the road to their own spiritual potential, expanding into real life solutions. The abandonment and struggles suffered in early life become a blessing, as the lack of superficial cushioning makes one tapped into the awareness of the biggest consolation of all - that we are ultimately part of the infinite universe expressing itself, and so we are inherently secure, no matter how dire our physical life may be. Through being forcibly exposed to this truth, one finds ultimate comfort in highest values, which bestows these natives with unflagging morality, that as a result leads to the highest material and spiritual abundance.

There is warning with this placement, if spirituality is not properly developed, and that is excessive greed and materialism. If this Jupiter in a chart is heavily afflicted or placed in a difficult stellium, the person becomes so desperate for the physical fulfillment and protection they never had in their childhood, that they look for shortcuts to obtain what they want as soon as possible, hoping for fast, huge windfalls of money and engaging in reckless spending, without doing spiritual work on themselves or understanding the true depth of life. That only leads to more loss and disappointment, or situations that make one fall out with society due to the destructive actions that might be taken here. All of this happens as a result to refuse to see the bigger patterns within this universe and sticking to lower energies, obstinately clinging to the mainstream ideas of a path to success, devoid of the awareness that this energy demands.

As much as this placement may demand this kind of higher wisdom, it also gives one all the necessary tools to tune into it. There is a natural understanding of emptiness of excessive greed with this placement, through a deep awareness that only connecting with one's elevated soul essence and bringing it into this incarnation can offer the ultimate satisfaction, that simply can't be bought or provided through any other means. There is a constant, natural high available through this placement that can be shared and spread, an infectious positivity, that is deep and real, as it is born out of understanding, that even the most dire suffering carries with it a message of hope.

The test of the 12th house always lies in a fundamental feeling of loss of physical support, until you realize you have the support of the Whole Universe. With a 12th house Jupiter, you have to realize how lucky you are, and how provided for, for this force to fully manifest and work in your life. Look for the beauty of cosmos creating perfection in your life, even if you lost faith early in life because of your caregivers not providing for you.

Human help can fail. The Universe never fails.

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