Spiritual Awakening
My spiritual awakening was the realization that I am a multi-dimensional, infinite soul having a 3D experience on this planet. We are all co-creating this reality and the universe is this live interactive matrix that acts as a mirror to your internal environment. Through this process I became more appreciative of life and my physical body while also developing a healthy sense of detachment to it. Instead, I think of my body as an avatar in which my soul projects itself into; a portal to spirituality, a channel for higher frequencies.
It’s like I am navigating my way through a maze and I can use my intellect to solve certain puzzles but it’s my intuition (higher self/God) that is standing on top of a mountain telling me which way to turn next. She can see the bigger picture. She can see my past lives, the future, and all possible timelines for every decision that I make. So trust was the most crucial lesson I’ve had to learn on my spiritual path. There are decisions that I’ve had to make that didn’t make much logical sense in the moment but I had to trust my gut and have faith that it was leading me in the right direction. It just got to the point where I could no longer ignore it and I kept pushing for things but kept running into blocks so finally I had no other choice but to stop and listen. It’s so much easier to go with the flow then to push against this force of nature. Trust that you came here for a purpose and everything is happening in divine timing. Everything moves in perfect synchronicity once you align yourself with your soul’s mission. Life actually does not have to be so hard or scary. I used to be so afraid of change. Now I embrace it. Resistance is actually what causes the most pain.
I’ve come a long way. I was an atheist for years and I am such a control freak so allowing this invisible force to guide me was so terrifying. I had so many doubts! In the beginning, spirituality was more philosophical for me. I was fascinated with astrology/tarot, and I would pray and do moon rituals but I was more so interested in it for the psychological benefits. On a conscious level, I didn’t really feel anything. My higher chakras were still closed off. It wasn’t until I got into yoga and meditation that I started to feel this strange energy inside of me (the meridians opening) and I started to notice that my sensory perception had shifted. I became more sensitive and I was activating all these extrasensory abilities. It really was like an Alice in Wonderland moment that took months to build up and suddenly I had entered a new reality. It was something that only psychedelics could have prepared me for but I was completely sober. I realized that I really was communicating with something and it was REAL with a capital R. And even though I used to be an atheist I still grew up in a christian society so finding spirituality outside of the church came with a lot of fear and guilt. Is this God? Is this an angel, are these my guides, or is this a demon?
The Spiritual awakening process can be super blissful and super stressful, it was an emotional roller-coaster. Some days I would feel invincible, I felt this mystical oneness with the universe that’s hard to put into words. Finally I understood what people meant when they said they felt the holy spirit or they talked to God. Opening the higher chakras led to an influx of high vibrational energy and it felt amazing, like true love, but you can’t remain in that state forever, you have to ground this energy. This process is NO JOKE, especially if you’re going through a rough time or you’ve experienced any sort of major trauma. Then the opening of your higher chakras can take a scary turn, it will show you whatever is inside of you. The dark night of the soul is NO FUN. All of your subconscious junk bubbles to the surface in order to get healed and you have to face your fears and process everything you used to repress. All the while, you still have to function in the world while you do this inner work so it can be very isolating. I felt so out of it. Had I not come across the term ‘kundalini awakening’ I would have thought that I was experiencing a psychotic episode.
It’s a lifelong process. No one on this earth has fully ascended, even your favorite guru has flaws. It was really intense in the beginning but it was so worth it. It’s a restructuring of your ego but it really does feel like a death and rebirth. Once you have access to this higher conscious awareness you begin to feel more powerful and you start to see life in an entirely new way. You manifest quicker, you’re able to free yourself from mindless karmic loops, make better decisions, learn your lessons, and heal yourself from things you never thought you’d be able to get over.
I found God and she was inside of me the entire time, separation was just an illusion. All I had to do was stop and listen.
















