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𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚘𝚗 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚖𝚙𝚒𝚘𝚗 .    𝒇𝒊𝒏𝒊𝒔𝒉 𝒊𝒕 .

[nydoorn]

——————–            𝙾𝙽 𝙼𝚈 𝙺𝙽𝙴𝙴𝚂 𝙰𝙽𝙳 𝙾𝚄𝚃 𝙾𝙵 𝙻𝚄𝙲𝙺 ,    𝕀 𝕃𝕆𝕆𝕂 𝕌ℙ .  

     this is an independent ,   selective ,   and private rp blog for  𝚢𝚊𝚜𝚑𝚊 𝚗𝚢𝚍𝚘𝚘𝚛𝚒𝚗   from   𝚌𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚒𝚌𝚊𝚕 𝚛𝚘𝚕𝚎'𝚜 𝚌𝚊𝚖𝚙𝚊𝚒𝚐𝚗 𝟸 .   contains spoilers for campaigns 1 ,   2 ,   and 3 as well as the legend of vox machina .   contains dark ,   adult themes that may be triggering ,   and some nsfw .   please read rules before you follow .

freed by leah. 24. she/they.

𝚛𝚞𝚕𝚎𝚜 .   𝚐𝚘𝚘𝚐𝚕𝚎 𝚍𝚘𝚌 .   𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚝𝚛𝚊𝚌𝚔𝚎𝚛 .

[nydoorn]

yasha origins comic got me on writhing on the floor

[widogastc]

LORD, I WORRY THAT LOVE IS VIOLENCE

→ the dissection of yasha nydoorin

black leopard, red wolf - marlon james // home is not a country - safia elhillo // slut - daphne gottlieb // birthright - george abraham // mural - mahmoud darwish // the only truth left in the box - katie maria // stephanie peters // mother - michał elwiro andriolli // angels in america: parestroika - tony kushner // john martin // tracey emin // monet // heavy - mary oliver // death kit - susan sontag // john martin // nocturne - e.e. cummings // they can't turn back - james baldwin // goodbye tsugumi - banana yoshimoto // les misérables - victor hugo

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[eggzumii]

"come on champion. you're so close. fucking finish it."

[kroovv]

✨We are The Mighty Nein✨

[nydoorn]

☾✶☽  (  dyn ; the mighty nein  )   i had the time of my life fighting dragons with you .

[nydoorn]

WHAT  TRAGIC  HORROR  TROPE  ARE  YOU?

frankenstein's monster .    this plight is the simplest of them all: you did not ask for this. you were never given a choice. no part of yourself feels human, just a collection of traits you've picked up from mirroring anyone you could, even the people you meet through a television screen. it's alienating to live that way- yet someone has called you the alienating one. maybe too many people to count. maybe they treated you so uncomfortably inhuman that it's all you can understand now, or you've dug yourself into such a deep hole in an attempt to keep safe that you can't remember a person living in the home of your body at all. being alive is confusing and painful and lonely and loud but living is all there is to being human- you're already there. just take air into your lungs and breathe. close your eyes and picture a beautiful sky. you made that. you painted that yourself.

tagged by:  me :) tagging:  you !

[nydoorn]

this is yasha’s phone background

[nydoorn]

level 1   vs.   post-campaign

[nydoorn]

i told cecil that yasha would have asked molly to assign her a birthday and she was assigned july 7th (or whatever equivalent in the exandrian calendar) so…happy birthday yasha 💜

[nydoorn]

—–    @moondrrops said :          It’s clear he’s been up alllll morning. Molly gives Yasha a kiss on the cheek first thing when she opens the door, tray of pastries sedan-wrapped balanced in one hand. After setting that down, turns to her and offers a brightly-wrapped parcel. “Happy birthday, love!! I wasn’t sure which flower to choose, so U chose them all.” Inside? A lovely shawl, embroidered with lines and lines of flowers as found in the notebook she keeps. The thread is dark blue and twinkles a delightful silver in the light.

          it is not her real birthday , not really . objectively she knows she was born in the dead of winter , but she doesn't know what exact date , and never really has . her clan had not cared for celebration of days of birth , and she had not even heard of such a thing ... until molly . they had asked her once , tucked into her side as the light of dawn crept through the the entrance of their shared tent , and yasha had not been able to answer them . and she had turned to press her cheek against their hairline , whispered softly into their skin " can you pick a day for me ? "

they chose a day in the summer . it would become her favourite time of year , just because of the feeling of sunlight on her skin , the warmth a welcome comfort when she had been cold for so , so long .

yasha beams as she opens the door to allow molly to enter , meets their kiss on her cheek with a kiss on theirs , eyes immediately spying the package they present to her . upon unwrapping the gift , tears unwillingly fill in her eyes at the sight ; she recognizes the flowers decorating it , could name every single one off the top of her head , right down to the silk bloom molly had gifted her in zadash . she shudders , thumbs brushing across the surface of a small yellow embroidered bloom she had picked up in alfield , on that very fateful day they had met their friends . she gently dons the shawl , and admires the contrast of her hair against the colours . " molly ... i love you so much . thank you . "

[nydoorn]

i told cecil that yasha would have asked molly to assign her a birthday and she was assigned july 7th (or whatever equivalent in the exandrian calendar) so…happy birthday yasha 💜

[nydoorn]

what   part   of   this   haunted   house   are   you   ?

YOUR   RESULT   :  the windows

Tell me, do you look inwards or out? You’re a dreamer who feels just a little too much about things just a little too out of reach. There’s a longing trapped inside of you, to be a part of the nature that you look over every day, and you resent the way people look through you with that same longing. They don’t get it. You watch them in the garden, see them get absorbed into nature little by little. They don’t feel it as strongly as you do. Still, when a new tenant moves in, a baby with them this time, you have to look inside as the house moves to absorb them before nature can. It hurts what remains of your heart, your still beating heart that feels just a little too much.

tagged   by   :   me :) tagging   :   YOU !!!

[nydoorn]

                   SHOW ME WHY YOU’RE THE   FUCKING   CHAMPION !

[ohisms]

↪  𝑼𝑹𝑩𝑨𝑵 𝑭𝑳𝑶𝑹𝑨 .   (  a  collection  of  lyric  starters  originating  from  the  musical  works  of  alina baraz .  adjust  phrasing  as  necessary .  )

i’m  not  asking  for  too  much .

why  did  i  let  this  get  out  of  hand ?

take  advantage  of  the  moment .

don’t  you  keep  me  waiting .

is  it  hopeless ,  or  can  we  try ?

look  me  in  my  eyes .

can  you  promise  that  you’ll  be  honest ?

now  that  i  grew ,   i’m  finally  ready  for  you .

you  take  away  the  hurt .

how  could  you  forget  that  i  believe  in  you ?

i’ve  got  so  much  left  to  say .

i  just  wanna  get  you  all  alone .

nothing  lasts  forever .

stay  the  night .

i’ve  got  a  lot  on  my  mind .

if  you  really  want  to  know  how  i’m  doing ,  just  ask .

i  only  miss  you  when  the  sun  goes  down .

you’re  the  only  one  that  i  want .

love  me  like  i’m  never  gonna  leave .

anybody  else  would  be  gone  by  now .

you  ready ?  let  me  know .

call  it  what  you  want ,  darling .

you  love  a  little  chaos .

right  now  we’re  not  crossing  lines .

you  should  come  over .

i’m  finally  ready  for  you .

let  me  be  your  peace  of  mind .

i  wonder  where  the  time  went .

can  we  just  let  it  go  for  a  moment ?

you’ve  got  a  way  with  words .

if  you  need  me ,  come  and  find  me .

all  that  really  matters  is  you  keep  showing  up .

you  are  more  than  enough .

we  could  sit  inside  in  the  silence .

i  keep  running  from  all  the  things  i  want .

at  the  end  of  the  day ,  would  you  do  what  it  takes ?

your  voice  is  my  favorite  sound .

everything  you  touch  is  tainted .

just  cause  we’re  in  love ,  doesn’t  mean  that  we’re  right  for  each  other .

would  you  push  your  pride  to  the  side ?

if  you  stay  the  night ,  you  could  change  my  mind .

don’t  you  wanna  know ?

i  need  you  to  hand  it  over .

you  know  exactly  what  i  want .

we’ve  got  things  to  work  through .

i’m  gonna  make  it  okay .

say  the  word  and  you  know  i’ll  follow .

i  don’t  mind  the  sleepless  nights .

i  don’t  like  your  energy ,  keep  that  shit  away  from  me .

is  it  me ?  is  my  intuition  wrong ?

i  can  see  my  whole  life  when  i’m  with  you .

what ?  is  it  over ?

i  don’t  want  to  stay  here .

i’d  like  to  think  i’m  deserving  of  something  better .

why  do  you  have  to  be  defensive ?

you  were  what  mattered .

you’ve  been  gone  for  a  long  time .

if  you  want  my  love ,  i  could  blow  your  mind .

you  know  i  love  it  when  you  say  my  name .

tell  me  that  you’ll  stay .

i  can’t  remember  the  last  time  i  took  a  minute  to  myself .

i’ve  got  this  tendency  of  seeing  what  i  wanna  see .

hold  me  like  you  mean  it .

i’m  home  with  you ,  no  matter  the  place .

you’re  just  what  i  need .

say  you  know  me .

you’ve  got  my  attention .

how  far  would  you  go ?

i  don’t  like  playing  games .

you  know  that  i  won’t  let  go .

i’m  done  with  you .

it’s  you  that  i  came  for .

you  don’t  have  to  tell  me  about  it .

i  don’t  want  to  let  you  down .

i’m  not  yours  and  you’re  not  mine .

everything  you  do ,  i  want  to  do  it  with  you .

i  don’t  know  much  about  love .

i’m  feeling  used  but  i  keep  running  back  to  you .

you  know  what  i  need .

another  day  losing  sleep  over  bad  nights .

why  do  i  keep  running ?

i  just  forget  about  me .

we  could  smoke  a  little .

call  me  when  you’re  alone .

i’m  getting  tired  of  you  and  me .

i  can’t  explain  something  i  don’t  understand .

maybe  i’ll  get  you  out  of  my  head .

why  do  i  stay  if  i  know  you’re  not  mine ?

you  know  what  to  say .

can  i  make  you  feel  okay ?

i  want  to  hold  you .

you’ve  gotta  crave  it  and  chase  it .

you  could  be  my  everything .

here’s  to  good  people .

don’t  play  that  mind  shit .

i  know  it  wasn’t  you .

you  know  that  i  want  you .

i  don’t  wanna  wait  long .

i’ve  never  felt  like  this  before .

you  just  keep  playing  me  like  a  fool .

i  can  give  you  what  you  need .

you’re  mine .

i  love  the  taste  of  you .

show  me  where  nobody  goes .

i  never  meant  to  hurt  you ,  i  fucked  up .

call  me  when  you  get  home .

say  you’ll  never  go .

i  just  want  to  put  my  weight  on  you .

you’re  just  what  i  need .  i  don’t  even  know  why ,  though .

we  can  take  it  slow .

what  do  i  do  when  there’s  too  much  of  me ,  too  little  of  you ?

i  know  you’re  not  here  to  stay .

when  it  comes  to  you ,  i  lose  all  control .

you’re  walking  poetry .

all  that  you  are  is  all  that  i  need .

i  can  make  you  feel  alright .

why  do  i  let  you  cross  the  line  every  time ?

i’m  all  yours .

don’t  keep  your  feelings  to  yourself .

i’m  searching  for  the  thrill .

let  it  go ,  it’s  behind  you .

[infinityrph-deactivated20230819]

RICHARD SIKEN’S CRUSH SENTENCE STARTERS

 **disclaimer:** may have been slightly altered to better fit the needs of the rpc. 

✰ ❝ tell me how all this, and love too, will ruin us ❞

✰ ❝ there are so many things i’m not allowed to tell you ❞

✰ ❝ i touch myself, i dream. i pretend that this skin is your skin, these hands your hands ❞

✰ ❝ i swallowed your heart and you made me spit it up again ❞

✰ ❝ i didn’t want to see it this way, everything eating everything in the end ❞

✰ ❝ i’m sorry the world is no longer mysterious ❞

✰ ❝ this little tune tells the story of what the night is thinking: it is thinking ❞about love ❞

✰ ❝ i want to be like you, my hands no longer an afterthought ❞

✰ ❝ explaining is an admission of failure ❞

✰ ❝ there are many names in history, but none of them are ours ❞

✰ ❝ i wanted to be wanted, and you were beautiful ❞

✰ ❝ i’m finding myself sleepless, and you’re running out of lullabies ❞

✰ ❝ sorry about the blood in your mouth. i wish it was mine. ❞

✰ ❝ i wore your jacket for the longest time ❞

✰ ❝ there is no way to make this story interesting ❞

✰ ❝ i want to tell you this story without having to be in it ❞

✰ ❝ tell me we’re dead and i’ll love you even more ❞

✰ ❝ you will be alone always and then you will die ❞

✰ ❝ love always wakes the dragon. and suddenly? flames everywhere ❞

✰ ❝ i can already tell that you think i’m the dragon. that would be so like me, but i’m not. i’m not the dragon ❞

✰ ❝ and sure, i’ll sink the boat of love, but that comes later ❞

✰ ❝ shut up, i’m getting to it ❞

✰ ❝ i thought i was the princess, young and beautiful and in love and waiting for you with ❞ confidence ❞

✰ ❝ okay, so i’m the dragon. big deal. you still get to be the hero ❞

✰ ❝ hello darling, sorry about the scene at the bottom of the stairwell ❞

✰ ❝ i ruined everything by saying it out loud ❞

✰ ❝ i take the parts that i remember, and i stitch them back together ❞

✰ ❝ i forgive you, even if you don’t deserve it ❞

✰ ❝ this doesn’t look that much different from home ❞

✰ ❝ you said i could have anything that i wanted, i just couldn’t say it out loud ❞

✰ ❝ love, for you, is larger than the usual romantic love. it’s like a religion. it’s terrifying ❞

✰ ❝ this has nothing to do with happiness ❞

✰ ❝ i’ve told you where i’m coming from, so put it together ❞

✰ ❝ your mystery is that there is something to keep the light from passing through ❞

✰ ❝ i wanted something simple, something generic ❞

✰ ❝ i’m no good. i’m just no good ❞

✰ ❝ you wanted to be in love, and i got in the way ❞

✰ ❝ no one can ever figure out what you want, and you don’t tell them ❞

✰ ❝ i will get inside of you, and i will ruin you ❞

✰ ❝ i don’t trust you to love me ❞

✰ ❝ i take the things i love and i tear them apart ❞

✰ ❝ can i pin you down and pretend you’re mine? ❞

✰ ❝ my hands keep turning into birds and flying away from me ❞

✰ ❝ do you love yourself? ❞

✰ ❝ everyone got here somehow, and everyone will have to leave ❞

✰ ❝ i shouldn’t have to clean up our dreams like this ❞

✰ ❝ there’s nowhere to go, there’s nowhere to go ❞

✰ ❝ we are not traitors, but the lights go out ❞

✰ ❝ your mouth is heaven. your kisses fall on me like stars ❞

✰ ❝ we laugh, and it pits the world against us ❞

✰ ❝ because you want to die for love, you always have ❞

✰ ❝ you didn’t think you’d feel this way with a gun in your hand ❞

✰ ❝ i’m always saving and you’re always owing and i’m tired of asking to settle the debt ❞

✰ ❝ there’s only one thing i want, don’t make me say it ❞

✰ ❝ you say you’ll give me everything, but you never come through ❞

✰ ❝ i feel empty, like you’ve taken something out of me ❞

✰ ❝ if you love me, you don’t love me in a way i understand ❞

✰ ❝ it’s always the same ‘running from something larger than yourself’ story ❞

✰ ❝ they want me to love the whole damn world. but i won’t ❞

✰ ❝ i want to see the future, but i only see the sky ❞

✰ ❝ what can you tell me? what can you possibly tell me? ❞

✰ ❝ there should be just one safe place in the world, at least ❞

✰ ❝ i don’t like the way this song goes ❞

✰ ❝ i’ve been driving a long time and i want to stop, but i can’t ❞

✰ ❝ this is not harmless ❞

✰ ❝ we are the same, and we are not the same ❞

✰ ❝ i invent monsters to get you to sleep next to me ❞

✰ ❝ does love even care? ❞

✰ ❝ i sleep. i dream. i make up things that i would never say. ❞

✰ ❝ let me name the stars for you. let me take you there. ❞

✰ ❝ monsters are always hungry, and they’re only a few steps behind you ❞

✰ ❝ i had to make up all the words myself ❞

✰ ❝ we are all going forward, none of us are going back ❞

[nydoorn]

—–    @chaoshe​ said :          she's nervous, all skill for lying and deception out the window with the force of her blush, fingers curling and unfurling in the shawl she'd wrapped around her shoulders to ward off marquet's scorching sun. when she speaks, it all comes out as one big jumble of words, "ithinkyoushouldkissme, maybe, i dunno-"

          yasha is not the smartest person ,   that may be true ,   but she is not totally oblivious .   there has been a strange energy between her and jester recently ,   something thrumming electric and alive ,   a feeling she is ultimately familiar with in a way .   with zuala ,   it had been like an invisible string tying them together ,   an unseen force pulling them close and destining them to fall hard ,   and fast ,   and be close to certain doom .   around jester ,   it is like touching something electric and being unable to let go ,   joints fused in place ,   and not wanting to let go lest she lose the feeling it gives her .   jester is electricity ,   sharp and bright and beautiful ,   even terrifying .

          marquet is hot .   yasha can’t recall a time she has ever been to a place that was this hot ,   not even the menagerie coast could compare to this .   but the heat on her skin is nothing compared to how she feels with jester’s gaze fixed on her .

          “   huh ?   you  ...  oh ,   really ?   ”     she fumbles for something to say ,   something smooth or attractive or cool ,   but comes up with only stutters and half-words .   she would probably be embarrassed if jester wasn’t looking up at her like she had hung the stars in the sky by her own hand .   she doesn’t really think after that ,   just leans down to jester’s eye-level ,   hands cradling the sides of the tiefling’s face ,   calloused thumbs gently caressing the smooth skin ,   and presses their lips together gently .   just shy of being chaste ,   like a kiss shared on the schoolyard .   if jester was the lightning ,   yasha is the thunder ;   ever present ,   chasing after the lightning’s electric pull ,   roaring loud enough to rattle the skies .

[nydoorn]

she’s a 10 but every time her crush walks in the door she panics and loudly goes “helloooooooo-”