hyperfixes control me haha

She/her [Rus] but I use a translator haha I'm from Kazakhstan aroace :3

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Sooo, I'm not sure if anyone will really show interest, but I want everyone to know: I fucking love to chat, sometimes I miss communication and I'm especially happy to chat about the hazbin hotel and Alastor×Vox in almost any of their interpretation, I have a damn strong hyperfix haha) And if someone wants to write to me? Oh, please, I'll be damn glad to chat!! Really, I will be very happy, it is very desirable, if someone wants to talk, I will be happy <3

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It's so strange, like I can't say that I consider Mimzy and Alastor to be 100% friends, mainly because they both seem to enjoy carefree and fun, with no labels/obligations, although they both treat each other positively.

But God… I LOVE MIMZY SO MUCH

She's one of my favorite characters. The fandom doesn't talk about her enough, I want to see her in fanfiction, tiktok, and art… I absolutely do not have enough content.

My favorite characters are like:

1) Alastor 2) Vox 3) Mimzy/Husk/Niffty/Valentino.

And yes, I'll put them all under one number because I love them equally and I can't choose who I like more lol. I just love radiotrio, vees and Mimzy! Although I'm not so impressed with Velvet as a separate character from the three Vees, but only because she has little screen time, and so I sympathize with her)

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Disclaimer: there are a lot of rude and very harsh expressions and outright anger in the post, which is directed exclusively at the part of the fandom that condemns that Sera was canonically made a lesbian, please do not take it personally, good luck to all and happy pride month💖🏳‍🌈

FUUUUUCK, how the fuck I hate the Russian-fandom of the hotel hazbin, I'm already shaking. For days now, since the release of the merch in honor of pride month, I've seen an incredible hate fall on Sera for being canonically a lesbian.

And I'm like that: what the fuck is wrong with you… YES, it's a queer show, there will be queer people here. YES, the religious theme was taken, but only as the basis of the IDEA - a lot of things in the Hazbin Hotel will not be fucking according to the rules of the Bible. I thought it was obvious to people who have more than one brain cell…

I hate these completely illogical ideas…. What the fuck kind of arguments: "when Vivien realizes that not everyone needs a relationship" "Sera is actually a seraphim, a heavenly being, she should love everyone equally or even be indifferent to sexual and romantic relationships"

WON'T YOU GO FUCK YOURSELF.

Sera is not some mythical, unattainable, sexless being who thinks only of the highest good and service to God. NO, this is a full-fledged character, she has a consciousness, her own opinion, her own problems and burdens, EMOTIONS, her own life, her attachments to people. She's not perfect, she's truly human, even though she's never lived on earth.

And it's fucking OBVIOUS she might be a lesbian. And that's OKAY.

Fuck I really can't… it's homophobia. Homophobia in pride month. It's disgusting to see. Especially as massively as I see it, there are literally dozens of videos and thousands of comments of consent

And fuck talking about the "canons of the Bible" in a show where they should never bу! This show is NOT "canon of the Bible"

Bottom line: any canonical orientation of the characters is FINE, and they won't be able to convince me otherwise.

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Actually, I think everyone has already talked about Vox's inner homophobia, but I'm interested in thinking about Alastor's inner a-phobia? Or about the a-phobia that he could encounter both during his lifetime and in hell.

And this is interesting because Alastor is not aware of his orientation at the moment, and even more so during his lifetime. As far as I understand it, he just thought that he hadn't met "the one" yet or something like that?

So in fact, he probably could have dated 1-2 girls during his lifetime who showed interest in him first, just because it seemed like a logical continuation. In those social conditions, it was kind of strange not to have a couple at all and never enter into a relationship throughout his life, even if he died relatively young.

And by the way, could Alastor have been traumatized by some form of sexual violence/forced intimacy during his lifetime? And could this be another step towards his behavior: no one can be trusted, control = safety, constantly wearing a mask = surpassing others?

In fact, he was probably under pressure about the relationship. And if he succumbed to this pressure, the partner could well, even without any initially malicious intentions, but press and persuade him to have sex when he did not want to do it or was not sure that he wanted it. And as far as I remember, is Alastor on the spectrum of asexuals who feel averse to sex?

But given the social conditions, in his understanding, in fact, it would not even be violence that a partner demanded sex in a relationship. Because it was probably normal in his head, and the strange thing was that HE didn't want it. And it could leave its mark on the psyche. Including as another confirmation that he was different from others, even before he became a murderer and even more so a serial killer.

Of course, the basic trust in the world could be disrupted simply because of a bad home environment or racism and oppression.

But the violation of trust in interpersonal relationships and the need to lie and disguise oneself in all areas of life: the work sphere, in the sense that a non-white person works on the radio, was controversial at the time. Personal - did he also not meet the standards of society there, and in fact even some ofhis hobby. Cooking?Not typically for a man. Is murder and cannibalism? It's not legal. Going to underground bars? That's why they're underground. Dancing/playing musical instruments? This also usually happened in the context of underground bars, as far as I understand.

And of course there was a percentage of his interests and personality that was socially acceptable, he was a radio host and his work was VERY important to him. People gave him their attention, genuinely enjoyed his voice, etc. But masking about 70-80% of himself due to forced circumstances clearly did not contribute to the development of any trust in the world in him.

He has a whole whole complex of all sorts of injuries related to trust, or rather to its absence - it shows. And maybe one of them is to one degree or another, but sexual violence/coercion to sexual intimacy?

Many asexuals, especially those who did not realize their orientation, faced the fact that their partners pushed them to physical intimacy. And it seems like a logical addition to Alastor's story? I think

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I rarely write about something like this, but I just want to pour it out somewhere

As a autistic person, I DREAM of creating a universal written work manual for socialization among peers and, in principle, the establishment of friends, close friends, or queerplotonic relationships. I have one close friend who is also autistic and we have an absolutely unique dating story that I cannot repeat in ordinary life again. This is an absolute accident. And I have a group of friends at dances with whom we sometimes communicate, sometimes go to some events… but I can't even sincerely call them really riends. Because I don't communicate with any of them personally, and any initiative of mine to get closer to the group in hopefully someone first took the initiative towards me was is absolutely a failure. I behave in a friendly manner, I show tactile attention to those who are friendly to me and to whom I sympathize and who sympathize with me. I ask if everything is okay, I try to ask questions or show interest. I took over the organizational aspects in order to congratulate all the participants on their birthdays. I created and printed greeting cards in the printing house on March 8 and treated everyone to cupcakes I baked about 3± times, which everyone incredibly praised. I was the first to agree and participate in all the more intimate meetings outside of dancing. I took care of those who were most interesting to me individually - I personally came to give cupcakes to a person who could not attend class due to a leg injury and we chatted after that, I came home to another person when she was very physically ill due to illness and she did not want to be alone to support her. I offered to meet her after that to watch her favorite anime, which is not very interesting to me, but I wanted to watch it with her to get closer. She agreed, but after that I reminded her several times and she did not show initiative or interest, saying that she was busy now. And just… I think I've done my best with words, actions, gifts, and temporary investments to show. That I want to get closer and make friends with them. And I mean, everyone expresses a positive attitude towards me, but IN THE GROUP. No one is interested in me personally. I don't like superficial communication. I really want close companionship. And I DO NOT KNOW how to get it. Loneliness often comes over me and eventually I need to vent these feelings somewhere. Because I have no idea how to make friends with someone in a group of common interests, at an event, on the street. I just don't have enough social skills, most of the time I show interest in actions. I do not know how to properly start a conversation or get to know someone.

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Actually, I want to add another layer of reasoning about why Alastor doesn't like labels and doesn't directly call anyone a "friend." And to confirm once again that perhaps Alastor is not as averse or incapable of friendship and close relationships as is commonly believed by the fandom.

I'll start from afar - in fact, we know that Alastor has always preferred female company, he likes to communicate and spend time with girls in a friendly platonic sense.

BUT

He also lived in a time when friendship between a man and a woman was something unthinkable. Even in our time, there are still ongoing discussions about whether friendship exists between a man and a woman.

And it's likely that almost any girl he wanted to talk to/spend time with automatically assumed either a romantic or sexual context. And moreover, the people around them, too, seeing Alastor's friendship with the same Mimzy, probably thought that they were together in a romantic or sexual context.

All of this is united by the fact that other people thought they knew how him to live and how to feel better than him.

In fact, probably of him was constantly given a label that contradicted reality and put pressure on him to adjust to their perception. He can constantly encountered misunderstandings of his intentions and expectations from society or other people. At the same time, with the feeling that this perception of ALASTOR is not correct from a public point of view.

I'm not saying that this is 100% why Alastor avoids labels. It may well be related to completely different things, but I also like this interpretation. This may be one of the reasons.

If he said "friendship" and the "relationship/sex" paradigm was imposed on him and it was impossible to be friends with girls, he could well end up just freaking out and refusing to use any labels in any cases. Just to refuse to give other people the opportunity to define his reality instead.

Thus regaining the freedom to interpret your relationship with someone. In the end, this could well become not just a trauma of attachment to an example, but also a fundamental issue of freedom, control and autonomy.

Because it seems that he is quite happy to communicate with someone in an obviously friendly way for years without any concern - he communicated with Vox for several years quite calmly, relaxed and happily until he offered a partnership, and in that situation, for the most part, Alastor was hurt by the fact that he thought Vox wanted to use him.

Besides, there was nothing in Vox's entire speech that bothered Alastor before the offer of partnership and the outstretched hand, the entire opening speech of Vox BEFORE that was normal for him. He agreed with Vox's other statements.

"Well, look, I'll just get to the point. We've been close for a few years now, right? I mean, people know us, the love us. And with new overlords popping up every day. And before you hit me with a "Well, you're pretty new yourself," I know, okay? But I'm much more forward-thinking, so it's in your best interest to hear me out."―Vox-box, to Alastor

And at this point, Alastor did not object in any way

He's been talking to Mimzy for decades. With Niffty, as far as I understand (?) although there are no exact dates, it is clearly years. Alastor is communication with Zestial, although it's not a fact that they communicate very often or closely, but Alastor is friendly. It's debatable with Rosie, but the fact having her in Alastor life should be mentioned.

In general, it seems that Alastor is not embarrassed and he is quite good at communication, even quite close. And it is the intersection of some borders that triggers him. He is an avoidant yes, a very avoidant person who hates showing vulnerability, hates losing control, fiercely guards his freedom and autonomy as one of his main principles, yes he does not like labels.

But maybe he's not as avoidant as it might seem at first glance :3

[skeletal-spire-man]

THE LIKE BUTTON IS GAY FOR PRIDE MONTH??????

Edit; you need to reblog the pride tags for it to work on reblogs (On web at least)

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Happy Pride Month to all :3

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Fuck, can you imagine how those sinners who literally just died appeared in hell and the first thing they saw was the general panic, horror and hatred because of Vox's murder-suicide?

Think about it, someone could LITERALLY have died on earth a second ago and immediately received a charge of angelic weapons that Vox fired at the city.

I understand that new sinners appear in a certain place (?) probably not in the Vox area either. But could this still happen IN THEORY? Under certain circumstances

AHAHAHAHAH

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To be honest, I LOVE that Alastor expresses his disapproval of Vox's actions or words… Just by Alastor turning away from him. AND IT WORKS.

In fact, Alastor does this mainly to provoke Vox into anger/to express dissatisfaction or disapproval/or to attract all the attention of Vox (as in the case of Valentino lol)

This is a very cool detail, it's the body language of the characters)

I started thinking about it a lot when people started talking about Vox taking his hands off Alastor when he pulled away and stuff. That is, that Vox, in fact, consciously or not, but observes certain boundaries that Alastor sets. And the fact that Alastor will only have to TURN HIS HEAD AWAY or turn around completely to show his displeasure, and this will be very clearly and clearly PERCEIVED by Vox… Hardly consciously, but in their case, their actions say more.

I hate the "Vox raped Alastor" theory. The more details I see, the more it sounds like nonsense. It's enough for this weirdo that Alastor turned away + a couple of verbal provocations to immediately start dancing to his tune lol

Next, just a small selection of shots with Alastor turning his head/entire body away from Vox and it WORKS.

I REALLY LOVE THEM

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I love that hazbin's fandom literally openly ignored the claims that Alastor has no tail and draws/writes Alastor with a tail EVERYWHERE

It's perfect lol

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So, maybe this is a bit controversial, I'm not sure (?) the opinion in the fandom is especially among Vox fans. (i'm Vox fans too btw)

But I don't think it would be better for Vox to "let go and forget Alastor forever, finally feel indifferent to him."

It would be better for Vox to stop copying and imitating Alastor and everyone else he constantly copies so much, to find his own individual self, independent of the approval of others.

But the problem of Vox's perpetual plagiarism isn't really directly related to Alastor. Vox had started doing this during his lifetime, copying the image of each of his next victims.

I just hear statements very often that people dream that Vox will finally forget Alastor, stop depending on him and stop imitate him… That people want to see the real Vox, that Vox itself would be better off if it renounced its attachment to Alastor.

But if Vox doesn't imitate Alastor, he'll imitate SOMEONE ELSE.

He is literally a plagiarist, he copies everything, and builds his image on imitation. It's not Alastor's problem…. He didn't start doing that BECAUSE OF Alastor((

Vox has known Alastor for longer than he has lived on earth, and has been obsessed with him for almost as long as we know. And such a long history of incredibly strong affection seems to me almost impossible to just throw out the window like garbage.

What would be really good for Vox in my opinion? Resolve the whole mess of misunderstandings between yourself and Alastor and work on your mental health :D

But when has this weirdo ever done anything to benefit his mental health? Never lol

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It seems to me it is simply impossible to describe what feelings I have for vox-box...

HE'S SUCH A CUTE LITTLE SILLY BOY, I CAN'T. I look into his funny or sad, but always CUTE eyes... Or at his antennae expressing his emotions as if they were ears.. He's such a silly boy, I love him so much!!!!

He makes such a cute gesture with his hand, as if he's tucking a lock of hair behind his ear... AAAAAAAH

I want to bite him, he's so damn CUTE.

Yes, I remember, he's still a cruel man, a murderer, a manipulator, a ruler, a cult leader...

BUT HOW SWEET HE IS, MY SILLY LITTLE PICTURE BOX

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Actually, this is not exactly the topic of my blog, but there are a lot of people in the a-spectrum in hazbin's fandom and I would like to speculate on the topic of my aromanticism.

It's just that I'm still learning about that part of me. I haven't understood for a long time and in fact still don't fully understand the line of a positive/neutral/negative attitude towards romance or romantic relationships? In terms of the fact that I have a positive attitude towards peyring, it does not cause me any discomfort to see open displays of affection in the romantic relationships of my friends, I love to ship characters, I am not particularly annoyed by romance in the media, and sometimes I like to discuss someone's romantic relationship, for example, if my friends want my advice in their romantic relationships.

Do I also like a certain aesthetic of romance? Romantic gestures like flowers/candlelit dates, I like aesthetics.

And it's not like I'm against people having romantic feelings for me? If no reciprocation is required or expected of me - it's okay

But I have an incredibly STRONG aversion to being in a romantic relationship myself. I have a very strong aversion to the fact that a person who is in love with me will expect reciprocity from me.

I don't mind being loved romantically if I don't have to reciprocate, If the other person doesn't expect me to have romantic feelings for each other. And if the other person does not have to ANY hidden expectations about romance.

But the truth is, one of the most traumatic things in my life in recent years has been a relationship with a girl I was friends with and with whom I wanted to continue to be friends, she was my good friend, I didn't want to lose her.

She knew that I was aroace, but she confessed her feelings to me, and I, not wanting to lose her as a friend, agreed to a romantic relationship IF she was satisfied with the lack of reciprocity.

She agreed, but in hindsight, I understand that she was not satisfied with the lack of reciprocity, she wanted constant confirmation of love, including romantic love. Her wanted romance, in a completely traditional sense. And I couldn't and didn't want to give it to her, but I was just under pressure from my own decisions and fears - so I just forced myself to lie to her about it, and adjust to her expectations, even though she knew I was an aromantic and it was never hidden, and sometimes I even reminded her of it, thinking it was something will fix it.

And now I understand what I meant by giving my consent - QPR and the aro/allo dynamic. But I didn't have enough information and awareness to explain my boundaries to another person. I didn't fully understand myself. I just didn't know about the existence of QPR.

And God, it turned out to be an incredibly bad experience for me, just terrible to be honest. I have almost never experienced such strong disgust, feelings of guilt, and by the end, just forced apathy and fatigue in my life. It was terrible and I felt bad even 3-4 months after I broke off this relationship., and not in the sense that I couldn't forget the person, I did it very quickly. But I've been recovering my mental health for a very long time.I didn't feel better until about 5 months after the breakup.

But now, a year has passed, and I understand my limits and desires much more… But I still honestly don't understand which part of the spectrum I'm in. Positive/neutral/negative? It's difficult because I also have clearly positive feelings about romance, which doesn't concern me, shipping, or some romantic gestures as aesthetics. And i don't think I'm averse to being loved by someone? It's really okay if there aren't obvious expectations and pressure on me. But I definitely have a very strong aversion and negativity to romantic relationships in my personal life. I will never join them again. I am disgusted even by the idea that reciprocity is expected of me, this is the worst thing in general in romance - the expectation of reciprocity…

And in the end, where is my place in the aro spectrum? I do not know hahaha

I just wanted to pour out my thoughts, my experience and maybe get some advice or just discuss the experience with other aromatic/aroace)

I am still continuing the process of exploring myself and my orientation :3

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I really quite like what happened! It's been a long time since I've been happy with my art :3

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I've hardly seen anyone talking about it on Tumblr, but everyone knows that Alastor and Vox have the same fighting style, right?

WE NEED TO TALK ABOUT THIS MORE.

They have similar abilities in many ways:

1) Alastor has tentacles, Vox has wires

2) Alastor turns into a shadow while dodging an attack, Vox teleports in electricity

And they use their abilities in combat in almost identical ways.

They BOTH binds each other with tentacles/wires.

They BOTH throw each other into the walls.

And they BOTH throw objects around each other, for example, a car.

They both literally threw cars at each other with the difference between these events being literally a couple of seconds of screen time... Their battle is almost mirrored.

I've already written a post about it, but it didn't really fly, and I want the whole world to know about it

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Why does it seem to me that Vees would obviously put on a bunch of stupid sadistic shows, like:

"answer 10 questions from the host or fall into an aquarium with a hungry shark!"

(Vox would be delighted, God)

[operating-system]

i lowk think i can prove vox has every disorder under the sun if you give me 20 minutes with the icd / dsm and access to pubmed or smth. and a monster energy

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OOOH YEAH!

If it weren't for my laziness, I would have figured this out and written a post on why Vox is on the spectrum of neurodivergence. HE MAKES SUCH A VIBE OF A PERSON ON THE SPECTRUM. Every time I see him in a state of obvious hyperfixation, I have only one thought: please diagnose him. just PLEASE