just a girl trying to write again

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

[starrose17]

Race ya to the exit!

[obsessionsaremyhobby]

Ryland Grace x Wife Reader

Summary: After months in therapy, Ryland's wife finally admits to her therapist that she’s married to Ryland Grace, a man on spaces death row.

Warnings: swearing, mentions of vomiting, angst/sadness, therapy session

WC: 1.78k

A/N: I was walking this evening and this conversation (or at least bits of it) really just came to my brain and I needed to get it out. I haven't written in years so be gentle lol

The routine was simple

Tuesdays.

4:15pm.

Every week is the same.

I clock out. I get in the car. I drive to her office. Like clockwork.

Luckily it’s only 10 minutes away. I usually drive in silence. My mind is loud enough going over everything I’m trying to avoid at these appointments. It’s been 9 months since the launch. 9 months since I heard his laugh over the static filled signal of his phone while on the ocean. 9 months since my world was here. In my world. On my world. Physically a part of my world. 

I started attending these appointments 7 months ago. I would normally sit politely and make small talk, talk about some previous childhood emotions, explain my relationship with my parents. I never spoke of him. I couldn’t.

I walked in the office and flicked the light switch, signaling to Dr. Melanie Walsh that I was here. She was supposed to be one of the best therapists in town. It didn't matter. She couldn’t help with what I didn’t tell her. The first 20 minutes of the appointment go by like normal. She asks how my day was. I tell her some bullshit about my coworkers and how my boss is grinding my gears as always. She gives me some advice, a few coping skills, everything feels surface level. I notice a small object on her desk behind her while she speaks on the benefits of CBT. It sucks the air out of my lungs. 

Sitting on her desk is a small hacky sack, designed to look exactly like earth. I want to scream. I want to cry. I want to throw up. Please don’t fucking throw up in this office. I have no idea what she is saying anymore. My mind has fully drifted away from this office. Away from this day, this planet, fuck, this entire solar system. I’ve drifted so far out, but my body remains frozen in the same spot. I don’t know how long I was somewhere else, but I realized that she stopped talking. Judging by the stillness surrounding me, I’m assuming she’s been done speaking for a decent bit. I don’t know what she said to me, what I was supposed to say back. I feel small. I feel cold and clammy. I feel so suffocated in this small room. I’m looking down. I’m picking at my fingernails. I don’t know what compels me to say the next part. Maybe it’s the claustrophobia, maybe it’s the expectant look crossing Melanie’s face, but it rises out of my throat faster than my brain can comprehend. 

“I’m married.” I say. It burns like bile. I’m staring off into the space slightly to her left. The sunlight is shining on the dust particles around us. It looks like stars. I wonder if he still sees me in them. I see her eyes instinctively flick down to my left hand. I haven’t worn my ring since the week he left. I took it off in anger. I was so angry with him for leaving. I haven’t been able to bring myself to put it back on. 

“Oh. Wow. That’s interesting.” It’s painfully awkward how long the silence drags on. It’s clear she doesn’t know what to say. “How come you’ve never brought that up before?” Because, I’m scared that if I talk about it, I’ll break down into the most horrific collection of sobs and tears one could witness. There’s no judgment in her tone, but I can feel the heavy curiosity. 

My throat clenches. My stomach clenches. I wince like she just slapped me across the face. I take a deep breath, and look her dead in the eye for the first time today. “Because I’ll never see him again.” I see it. The flash of sympathy. Her eyes are filled with a warmth I haven’t allowed myself to accept since he left. I see her contemplate what to say next. 

“I’m sorry to hear that. How did he die?” Anyone would make that assumption. It’s the only logical one. I break eye contact. I feel naked and raw. I take another deep breath.

“He’s still alive. At least, I believe so. There’s no way of knowing for sure.” It burns again. I feel the bile actually rising this time. The last thing I need is to be sick in my fucking therapists office. I dig my nails into my palm to ground me back from the nausea. It works for now. “My husband…” I pause. I haven’t said those words since the day of the launch. I don’t even remember the last time I said his name out loud. “...is Dr. Ryland Grace.” She cocks her head ever so slightly. If it weren’t a habit I was so acutely attuned to from my many conversations with Ryland, I might not have even noticed. It takes her 13 seconds. 13 very quiet, very uncomfortable seconds where I see her wrack her brain for why that name sounded familiar. It hits her hard. Her eyes widen, the warmth leaving them, replaced by dread at her realization.

“Oh my god…” I don’t blame her. I’ve had months to wrap my head around it and I still don’t have more words to say about it than that. “Oh my fucking god. Shit! Sorry. I–” I look back to her eyes. She’s avoiding mine now. It’s a nice change of pace for a moment. “I’m sorry, that was wildly unprofessional. I don’t mean to be crass.” 

“It’s okay, Melanie.” It really is. “I don’t even know why I’m talking about it. Or how. I suppose it’s the main reason I started coming to you, but every time I considered bringing it up, I felt like I was going to throw up. I kind of feel like that now.” She reaches down to grab her trash can and slides it towards the couch. 

“If you have to, please feel free. It won’t bother me.” Somehow, I fully believe her. Melanie has never given me reason to not trust her. She’s been incredibly patient and kind towards me. I knew she knew there was something I wasn't telling her. She’ll never understand how much I appreciate her never bringing it up. “How do you feel? Are you able to put any of it into words?”

There’s no better time than now for brutal honesty. “I feel like someone took the single greatest, most perfect pure parts of myself, and ripped them out of me. Everyday I wake up and have this hollow feeling that the most amazing, irreplaceable parts of me were stolen right out from under me.” I feel the sting of salt trailing down my cheek. I don’t wipe it away. The sting reminds me that he was real. “Ry was the single greatest person in the world. Knowing that he’s not on this world anymore…I feel like I want to tear my skin off.” 

“That must be really challenging to navigate alone. Thank you for trusting me with this, I know it can’t be easy to talk about.” It’s not. “This might not be the most professional of things to say, but in getting to know you this last year, I don’t think you’ll mind.” I probably won't. “You hide this void of emotion very well.” I don’t know if I should take that as praise or scolding. “It’s more surprising than anything.” Shit. I must have said that last thought out loud. 

“I don’t want to have to hide here anymore. I have to hide everywhere else, so much so I feel like I’m hiding from my own brain. I need to face this because I need to accept the facts. I’ll never see him again.”

There’s the bile once more. I’m unable to stop it this time. I grab the trash can and spill the contents of my stomach. I see Melanie move slightly, and she then reaches out to hand me a tissue. I take it, wordlessly thanking her. I wipe my mouth and throw it into the mess.

“I’m not super familiar with the details of the mission other than basic ‘what played on the news’, are you able to talk to him at all?” Look, I know I just threw up, but facing what she just asked me, I wouldn’t be surprised if I did again. 

“No. There’s not a satellite signal strong enough to make interstellar phone calls, unfortunately.” I laugh quietly to myself. “Even if there were, he’ll be asleep the next twelvish years. It’ll only be four for him, but time dilation is a bitch. Who knows what will happen in that time.” I feel my heart break all over again as I prepare to say this next part. “When he wakes up, it will have been 13 years. I’m sure he’ll be working for about a year or two. His supplies will run out maybe two years after that…and NASA will officially pronounce him dead after 20.” I’ll be widowed. “We had this whole briefing when all this shit happened. NASA and I. It was so official and cold. They kept calling him a hero.” He is. “They kept saying his sacrifice will be regarded as one of the highest in history.” It will be. “I threw a stapler at the director of NASA’s head.” It felt good. She laughed unexpectedly. Inappropriately. It’s like music in this horrific moment. She slaps her hand over her mouth and attempts to cover her outburst with a cough.

“I’m so sorry, that must have been terrible.” I can feel the sincerity. It softens the blows of my memories. My eyes catch another dust particle in the sunlight. I think to myself that Ryland will never see or feel the sunlight ever again. There's that stinging down my cheek again. There’s a beat. She’s trying to find the words to say. She looks at me with the same look as earlier. Warm, comforting, full of sympathy. “I must say…you have such a positive and warm energy surrounding you. How have you kept that?” I ask myself this question almost every day. I know my answer to a T.

“Ryland gave up his life in order to give humanity a chance. He was the best of all of us. I’d be a fucking idiot if I gave up my humanity because of his sacrifice. I won’t let myself…I won’t let him down.” I take a shaky breath, slightly watery from the tears freely falling at this point.

“You may be the most extraordinary person I’ve met.” I believe her. 

“That’s because you’ve not met Ryland.” My heart swells with pride. God, I miss him.

[obsessionsaremyhobby]

project hail mary but it’s grace and stratt both sent up and neither remembers what happened and become friends and then slowly remembers they knew each other only to find out stratt sent grace against his will and now they’re stuck together as different versions of themselves forced to face what she did

[obsessionsaremyhobby]

I wanna write again but for so many new characters!!! it’s been forever and I need the creative outlet but I feel like i’ve just lost steam?? I let this blog die 4 years ago and wanna come back but ughhhhhh

#I wanna write for #lip gallagher #carmy berzatto #stiles stilinski #jj maybank #someone help me lol

[ptersparkers]

study sessions (sneak peek)

summary: upon realizing you lack skills in the bedroom when a touron asks you out on a date, you turn to jj, a self-proclaimed sexual deviant, for help.

warnings: dirty talking and general awkwardness, yup! 

notes: this story will be co-written by @storiesbymads! she’s a talented writer and i am very happy she said yes to co-authoring. 

***

JJ sat in his red snapback and black collared shirt when you entered the Chateau. In truth, you were hoping to find him alone without the company of the other Pogues for fear that you’d be too shy to talk to the boy. He watched as you entered the living room and turned the volume of the television down when you stood in the threshold, looking at the empty room like you had never been in there before.

“Y/N, you okay? You look like you just saw a ghost.” You didn’t say anything as you walked into the room with quiet footsteps. Your shoes were soft against the wooden floor and JJ looked at you peculiarly. “The others aren’t here, if that’s what you’re wondering.” You let out an audible sigh.

“Oh, good,” you said. JJ quirked an eyebrow.

“Good?” He could see your cheeks turn red. They always did when you were shy.

“I just mean,” you started, “I wanted to ask you something but I don’t really know how to ask it.”

JJ laughed. “Come on, Y/N. You’ve never been afraid to ask me anything. Remember when you asked to try weed for the first time?”

“You laughed at me when I coughed.”

“Because you took too big of a hit!” The both of you laughed at the memory. “But seriously, are you feeling okay? I’ve never seen you this nervous.”

JJ could recount all the times you’d been too shy in front of him. The first was your first introduction to him at age ten after having been friends with Pope long before the Pogues were a tight knit group of friends. The second was when your bikini top had nearly fallen off (you had caught yourself before it completely fell, but JJ had to redo the straps to avoid strangers looking in your direction). The third was when you asked him to teach you how to surf. The fourth was now.

“I’m not very experienced when it comes to certain things,” you said as you played with your fingers. “And I think you, of all people, have had your fair share of experiences.”

“Okay?” JJ sat up straight and rested his elbows on his knees, trying to follow your train of thought.

“So, I met a guy the other night and we went on a date yesterday.” That was news to JJ. His ears perked up and he looked at you with interest and curiosity. “He leaves in three weeks and I don’t know what’s gonna happen.”

“Are you saying you were nervous about telling me you’ve had a date?” JJ asked, laughing. “God, Y/N, I’m not gonna make fun of you. Hell, I’m proud of you for putting yourself out there.” You groaned internally. JJ wasn’t taking the hint.

“JJ,” you said with a quiet voice, “that’s not why I’m being so, you know. I’m not really expecting much from a guy who leaves in three weeks but I thought long and hard about it, and I came to the conclusion that if something happens, I won’t be mad.”

“So if this guy ends up wanting to date you after he leaves, you’re okay with a long distant relationship?”

“My goodness, JJ,” you said, rolling your eyes. “What I’m trying to say is if this guy wants to fuck, I’m okay with it.”

JJ’s attention shifted. His eyes snapped to where you were standing and his mouth stood agape, opened because he couldn’t find the right words he wanted to say. His cheeks were heating up at your sudden and carnal confession and JJ didn’t know what to make of the situation. His mind was blank and it was like he could hear the ocean’s waves in his ear, clouding his judgement. He avoided your intent gaze.

“But I don’t know how and I want to show me.”

He couldn’t look away from you any longer. JJ couldn’t deny that you were attractive and he couldn’t deny that he found your innocence to be something that made it seem as if you were untouchable – the very concept he wanted to ruin. In truth, he couldn’t recount all the times he had fantasized about taking your virginity or hearing you moan for the first time, but he always kept these thoughts to himself in favor of both keeping your friendship and not giving you a bad impression. Besides, you were one or his best friends.

“You want me to show you how to fuck?” JJ asked carefully. “Like, what are you talking about exactly?”

You swallowed your nervousness, wishing you weren’t sober in this moment. But you opened the door for this conversation and there was no backing out now.

“You know, show me what a guy likes,” you said, shrugging. “Show me what kinds of things make guys orgasm and how men like to be treated in bed. I mean, I know I don’t owe men shit but I want to make this guy feel good if we end up fucking.”

JJ came to the realization that he had never heard you swore so much in his entire life. His brain was running too fast and his mind was spinning. He stood up from where he was sitting and walked around the room, trying to grasp what you were asking.

“So you want me to show you what guys like in bed? What would that even look like?”

You hadn’t thought that far. You assumed JJ would be on board with it, given his sexually driven nature, and hoped he would be the one to take the lead. But he was standing with his hands on his hips and looked at you, waiting for an answer. You mustered up whatever courage you had left to speak up.

“Teach me how to give you a blowjob,” you offered. “Teach me how to be seductive, how to ride a guy, how to give a good hand job, how to–”

“I’ll do it.”

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[obsessionsaremyhobby]

IM SO EXCITED OMG

[obsessionsaremyhobby]

hii love, could i get a ship? i’m 5’4 with brown hair and brown eyes, def a lil curvy. i’m straight. i’m always down to help people when they need it. i like making people laugh & smile. i’m definitely a people person, but alone time is a necessity too. i’m almost always singing, listening to music, playing instruments, or writing goofy songs. i’ve always been respectful of rules, but have grown to be more rebellious of them. i love road trips, kayaking, & bonfires. thx✨ps, you’re amazing 💕

I feel like you and Pope would be an amazing couple! You would both do everything possible to make sure the other Pogues were taken care of and happy, constantly loving on everyone. I think Pope would admire your rule following nature, and you would help bring him out of his shell a little with your lil rebellious side hehe. He’d ADORE your voice singing in the car or just jamming out on the beach. 

I feel like your best friend would be JJ. He would definitely try his hardest to get you and Pope to break rules whoever possible, and constantly tease you for the heart eyes you make at his friend, but he loves you to no end, and will protect you no matter what.

You and Kie would have an amazing friendship, going on road trips and swimming in the marsh to get some girl time away from the boys. She’d be the one who had pushed you to go for Pope, wanting you both to be happy! John B would be like a brother to you, always helping you out of sticky situations(let’s be real, it was probably JJ who got you into them) and be a good shoulder to cry on when you needed advice about anything in life!

💛💛💛

[obsessionsaremyhobby]

my tumblr crush is absolutely @outcrbanx 🥰

@outcrbanx ya hear that!! you got a lil admirer! 💕💕💕

[milazka]

❀•° 𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐚’𝐬 𝐫𝐞𝐜 𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭 °•❀

hello! to celebrate (almost) hitting 1k, i wanted to recognize the work of many talented writers that i love to read! so, here’s a bunch of my favourite fics by amazing people ! i’m sorry if you are not on the list, unfortunately, i cannot remember every fics that i read ☀️

my masterlist (yes, i’m promoting my own work haha)

↠ @spilledtee (my big sis that i love with my whole heart & the smut queen)

tidal waves [jj maybank series]

jail birds [jj maybank]

double the j [jj maybank & john b routledge]

just the two us [jj maybank]

she wants it [rafe cameron]

taste [sarah cameron]

↠ @outrbanks (the sweetest girl and my little sunshine)

breach [jj maybank series]

bloodsports [jj maybank series]

ten things i hate about you [rafe cameron]

bittersweet [jj maybank]

↠ @pogue-writings (the mom of the obx fam and a sweet talented angel)

bury a friend [the pogues]

dancing in the moonlight [john b routledge]

dating [jj maybank]

out of my league [drew starkey]

somewhere only we know [drew starkey series]

↠ @adoreyoudrews (an amazing girl and the angst queen)

we’ll be alright [jj maybank]

i’m with you [kiara carrera]

under our roof [john b routledge]

+ wicked game [5sos]

↠ @harrysbbby (my little australian sunshine and a super talented writer)

don’t forget where you belong [jj maybank series]

the rule of benefit [jj maybank series]

↠ @outer-banx (my sis and the one who inspired me to start writing here)

her touch [kiara carrera]

weed [jj maybank]

breakfast [jj maybank]

admiration [john b routledge]

↠ @obx-writings (an angel, like literally an angel fallen from heaven to bless us with her writing)

never have i ever [jj maybank]

give me attention [jj maybank]

lock screen [jj maybank]

+ it’s all water under the bridge [h2o x obx]

↠ @milaonthemoon (my saggy twinzzzz)

first kiss [jj maybank]

email [pope heyward]

↠ @myjjbaby (my sweet ellie)

summer lovin [jj maybank]

stick’n poke [jj maybank]

↠ @popcsheyward (such a talented writer)

hook ups [jj maybank series]

brat [jj maybank]

you’ll be fine [pope heyward]

↠ @drewsephsmiles (my fav brit and the best account to find drew content)

hungry eyes [jj maybank series]

100 ways to say i need you [rafe cameron series]

like a virgin [jj maybank]

quarantine with drew [drew starkey]

↠ @shawnssongs (amazing writer and such a sweetie)

better [jj maybank series]

grease [jj maybank series]

do you remember [jj maybank]

↠ @void-maybank (a sweetheart full of talent and the one who writes the best descriptions)

the romantic tirades of indie routledge [jj maybank series]

teenage fever [jj maybank]

steamboat springs [jj maybank]

↠ @collecting-stories (super kind to talk to an amazing writer)

the s'week [jj maybank series]

bookshop [pope heyward]

bath bomb [john b routledge]

talented writers that i haven’t had the chance to talk to a lot

↠ @summerintheobx

all helpful urges should be circumvented [jj maybank]

↠ @maybankiara

my god, you’re a sweet thing [jj maybank]

↠ @jjouterbanks

tatoo your name across my heart [jj maybank]

↠ @yungbludz (best smutty one shots)

masterlist

↠ @favefandomimagines

soul surfer [jj maybank series]

↠ @thirstystarkey

hate can sound like love [jj maybank series]

↠ @drew-starkey

in jail & needing bail [drew starkey]

↠ @softstarkey

they don’t know about us [drew starkey]

↠ @lavenderpope

coconut breeze [jj maybank series]

↠ @pogues-never-say-die

an evening i will not forget [rudy pankow]

↠ @stargazingstarkey

do you trust me [jj maybank]

↠ @poge-life

did you just hit me [drew starkey]

↠ @o-b-x

truth or dare [jj maybank]

↠ @apoguecalledjj

caught [jj maybank]

↠ @obx-sos

watch [rafe cameron & topper thornton]

↠ @jjmaybankx

happy and sad [pope heyward]

↠ @thebutterflyonhischest

an orange & red sky [jj maybank]

↠ @angellissy

burning desires [hp x obx series]

↠ @johnbstwinkie

alone [jj maybank & john b routledge]

↠ @tomfreakinghollandneedsaoscar

thrift your heart out [drew starkey]

↠ @ptersparkers

that’s my girlfriend [sarah cameron]

↠ @queenk00k

red wine lips [rafe cameron]

↠ @overly-b

what you’ve been missing [pope heyward]

↠ @johnbrroutledge

what happens in the bell tower [john b routledge]

↠ @lefthandwritings

cherry [jj maybank]

i’ll do a second list in a few weeks/months with new fics because i love to read your works ! ☀️

[obsessionsaremyhobby]

THANK YOU SO MUCH I”M CRYING OVER HERE OH MY GOD I love you so so so much and you are one of the sweetest people I have literally EVER had the pleasure of talking to ♡ ♡ ♡ everyone GO READ ALL OF THESE !!!!

[milazka]

❀•°. mila’s 1k celebrations .°•❀

i just hit 1k ! i still can’t believe that 1000 people are following this blog! i wanna thank every single ones of you for your support, it means the world to me ☀️

mila’s rec list

to celebrate this, let’s do a game night ! you can send me in my asks;

cast your mutuals

would you rather questions

any questions that you would like me to answer

assumptions about me

anonymously send me your tumblr crush/friend crush and why

☀️ for a vibes check

🌻 for a moodboards

⚡️ for a first impression

💫 for a ship (send me a little description)

✨ for a short playlist

any other fun ideas that you think of!

tagging some mutuals to get this started; @spilledtee @outrbanks @adoreyoudrews @pogue-writings @void-maybank @shawnssongs @harrysbbby @im-blossoming @obx-writings @drewsephsmiles @thebutterflyonhischest @milaonthemoon @maybe-maybanks @jjouterbanks

[obsessionsaremyhobby]

CONGRATULATIONS BABY UGH IM SO PROUD OF YOU everyone GO follow and Stan because I SURE DO !!!! ✨✨

[milazka]

cast your mutuals as your favorite songs✨✨

ohhh love this one !

adore you by harry styles - @spilledtee

don’t you forget about me by simple minds - @void-maybank

here comes the sun by the Beatles - saltwater by geowulf - @outrbanks

harvest moon by neil young - @pogue-writings

toutes les femmes savent danser by loud - @milaonthemoon

robbers by the 1975 - @myjjbaby

red desert by 5sos - @adoreyoudrews

who can it be now by men at work - @shawnssongs

california by the lagoons - @harrysbbby

east coast girl by cayucas - @obx-writings

mystery of love by sufjan stevens - @im-blossoming

ophelia by the lumineers - @drewsephsmiles

sign of the times by harry styles - @thebutterflyonhischest

highway tune by greta van fleet - @jjouterbanks

[obsessionsaremyhobby]

oh my god new fave song HELLO I love you girly thank you so much!!!!!

[milazka]

cast your mutuals as colours ✨

blue - @spilledtee & @void-maybank

red - @outrbanks & @im-blossoming

orange - @pogue-writings & @drewsephsmiles

pink - @myjjbaby & @adoreyoudrews

purple - @shawnssongs & @milaonthemoon

yellow - @harrysbbby & @obx-writings

[obsessionsaremyhobby]

you're the cutest and I'm wearing yellow RN awwww :)))

[obsessionsaremyhobby]

500 Followers Celebration!! 🎉

Hi!! I woke up to over 500 followers and I’m literally shook! I can’t believe it!! I’m doing a lil celebration to thank you all while I catch up on the last of my requests!! Thank you all for your amazing support of my writing ❤️❤️

- ✨Ask me a question! I’ll answer honestly!✨

- ✨Go anon and tell me a secret!✨

- ✨Go anon and tell me your Tumblr crush!✨

- ✨Send in a lil bio of you and I’ll ship you with a character!✨

- ✨Rant about literally anything!!✨

I love you all so much and thank you again for supporting me! ❤️💋

[harrysbbby]

OMG CONGRATS MY BBY ❤️❤️❤️

[obsessionsaremyhobby]

I love you so much thank you so much bubby ❤️ 🥺✨

[obsessionsaremyhobby]

500 Followers Celebration!! 🎉

Hi!! I woke up to over 500 followers and I’m literally shook! I can’t believe it!! I’m doing a lil celebration to thank you all while I catch up on the last of my requests!! Thank you all for your amazing support of my writing ❤️❤️

- ✨Ask me a question! I’ll answer honestly!✨

- ✨Go anon and tell me a secret!✨

- ✨Go anon and tell me your Tumblr crush!✨

- ✨Send in a lil bio of you and I’ll ship you with a character!✨

- ✨Rant about literally anything!!✨

I love you all so much and thank you again for supporting me! ❤️💋

[spilledtee-deactivated20230307]

Congrats babe so proud of you ❤️

[obsessionsaremyhobby]

Thank you so so much lovie ❤️❤️ you are the sweetest gem ❤️ you have no idea how much I look up to you in so many ways 🥺❤️

[poguesofthebau]

Hiii! if you’re still doing ships I was wondering if I could have one 🥺🥺 I’m 5’3, 20, blonde hair hazel eyes and fricken annoying freckles! I love theatre and singing, and I absolutely love adventure! I have a passion for the ocean and wanna surf and swim and dive and go hiking and explore!! i’m pretty outgoing and energetic, but sometimes I like to be alone and just read! idk if that enough but yeah hehe that’s me! :)))

dude ANNOYING freckles????? freckles are SO CUTE i wish i had more and i wish u knew how cute they are!!!!!! ur beautiful boo don’t hate on ur frecks!! <3

i ship you with jj!! (honorary mention: you and kie?? yeah that’d be a forever thing. sister vibes!! like, all that shit kie says she wants to do in her future while pope is trying to confess his fuckn love for her is alllllll shit you’d be right by her side for and that’s a FACT)

you and jj would be like the king and queen of the obx. everyone knew both of you, or knew of you, and even the people who hated you at least respected your conquest of the island. there wasn’t a street in the outer banks that you and jj hadn’t stepped foot on together. for a couple of young kids, you’d have covered a lot of ground in your two years together. essentially every night of the summer between 8th grade and freshman year, you and jj would’ve been out roaming the streets. your first summer together, jj would want you by his side at all times. “you’re my girl,” he’d say with a smile. “can’t let ya get too far away.” you’d spend the days surfing together, or hanging out on the hms pogue when big john let you take it out on the water, and the nights exploring figure 8 and the outer parts of the cut. sometimes the other pogues would tag along for the adventure, but they very quickly realized they couldn’t exactly keep up with the lifestyle you two lived. both of you could walk all night, no matter how many hours you’d spent under the sun that day, and no matter how little food you’d gotten your hands on. the conversations that you two had basically kept you going-- you could talk to jj for the rest of time if it were possible. the other pogues, however, tired very easily and typically cut out on you guys two hours into the roaming. once it was just you two, jj would have you pinned up against a tree outside of some kook’s mansion until they turned on the porch lights and started yelling for the pogues of the obx (ha get it that’s me poguesoftheobx hehe) to get off their property. the two of you would sprint around a few blocks, laughing and panting with your hands laced together. 

another one of your favorite activities to do with jj was night surfing. the two of you would hijack the van from john b while he was in the shower, sometimes paddling out onto the water, and other times just sitting on your boards in the sand just talking. that was one of your favorite things about jj: he was amazing at matching your energy. he was the first person to volunteer to tag along for whatever psychotic adventure you were going on, but he was also down to lay in the hammocks at the Chateau, you flipping pages in your book as he smoked a joint or took a nap. just like you, jj had a wide range in energy, and you appreciated his ability to adjust for you. unbeknownst to you, jj also loved that about you. as much as he wanted someone to go absolutely insane with him and do the stupidest shit, he also wanted someone who could reign him in, and someone who had a more peaceful side to them. peace wasn’t something that jj was very accustomed to, but it was something that he was always open to. the chaos that had been surrounding him his entire life sometimes became too much, so having someone who would ride roller coasters with him and lay in bed all day was euphoric for jj. and honestly, even your most serious, emotional conversations had resulted in the funniest inside jokes you and jj had. “sometimes i just feel like a fucking squid,” a quote from jj, was your personal favorite, but he preferred that out-of-context thing you’d said one time: “finding love in the galapagos islands.” those little phrases would slip out of both of your mouths at the randomest times. once, jj was having a very confrontational moment with topper, and you were there to witness jj tell topper to, “fuck yourself in the galapagos islands.” truly. those words. jj’s mouth. as willing at you were to tell that story at parties, you hated jj for the times he told people about. for example, when he told a group of tourons at a kegger about the time you told you mom you were ‘feeling a bit squid-ish’ as an excuse to get out of family dinner.

moral of the story, you and jj would be that couple. everyone knew it was you and jj until the end, with no ifs, ands, or buts about it. and, try as they may, they couldn’t hate you for being perfect for each other. it was the once in a lifetime, one in a million, wish upon a star kind of love, and somehow it was granted to you and jj. and no matter what bullshit came up, you both knew that you were it for each other. best friend, soulmate, twin flame kind of love.

[obsessionsaremyhobby]

This is literally amazing 😍 the effort you put in these is so freaking just UGH I LOVE 😘😘 thank you so so much lovie ❤️❤️✨✨

[obsessionsaremyhobby]

Can I get an outer banks ship? I have long wavy/curly dark brown hair and dark brown eyes. I’m about average height (5’4-5’5). I go with the flow and I’m the joker of the group. I’m athletic, competitive, argumentative, and easy-going. I’m also sarcastic, playfully mean, and low-key aggressive whoops haha. I’ve been told that I have a great sense of humor. I can also get pretty savage when it comes to roasting people.

I feel like you and John B would be so cute together! You would both be very chill and easy going, always being the life of the party! I feel like you would be one of the few people he’d open up to about his dad, and he would be your rock through everything. You two would crack jokes at the worst times to try and keep the mood light. You’d also both be competitive with each other in almost everything!

I feel like your best friend would be JJ. You’re like two peas in a pod an constantly roasting each other to see who could be the ultimate savage. He’d constantly make you laugh, and honestly, John B would get a little jealous of the friendship between the two of you, constantly making sure you knew you were his.

You and Kie would be so close, making fun of the guys stupid antics and having girl time away from everyone! You and Pope would have a good chemistry, similar to him and JJ, and he’d look at you like the little sister he never had!

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[obsessionsaremyhobby]

Hi! Can you ship me with one of the obx boys? I have short/medium length curly brown hair and green eyes. I’m around 5’9” and I have a slim build/figure. I love hanging out with friends and jamming out to music. I’m independent, creative, stubborn, and diplomatic. I can also be sarcastic and I’m 100% an over thinker.

I feel like you and JJ would make an awesome couple! You'd compliment each other’s qualities and allow the other person to grow! Maybe you’d get in some stupid fights here or there since you’re both stubborn, but you love each other so you’d get over it.

I think your best friend would be Pope! You both have a lot of independence and would have great conversations about anything and everything!

I feel like you, Kie, and John B would be the ultimate trio of sharing the aux in the car, trying to one up each other with the best song!

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