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23. Pennsylvania. |hockey|beards|tattoos|nature|

[obviouslytara]

what I look like after the past year of my life. #goofyaf

[obviouslytara]

Most people know me as being this (slightly) funny person who is almost always smiling and laughing at something absurd. While many people believe im a happy person, I dont think that Ive been that person in a long time. Before, most days I could make it through the day without having a mental breakdown, or getting mad at something so trivial, but lately I can't even make it a few hours before i start hysterically crying. I am an emotional mess. I can go from one extreme to the next in a matter of a minute. It comes in waves and I don't know how to escape it. i know that it must be extremely tiring for the people around me, but not as tiring as it is for me.. Just like anyone feeling this way, I just want to have good days where I can go home and feel okay and carry on like any happy person, but instead I fall asleep sad and I'll be honest, I've cried myself to sleep way more than I can count. I stay in bed way longer than I should, and my self confidence is at an all time low. I don't know what people who feel like this do, but I know I choose to self harm. Now it's not always me taking a blade and cutting my wrists, but I'm not saying it never was. I don't like the feeling of knives on my wrists which maybe sounds weird but it's true... but I don't mind the feeling of punching or biting myself or ripping my hair out. Sometimes I'll even go as far as not eating for a day or two. I feel mentally, physically, and emotionally drained. I don't know when this feeling started or when it's going to end, I don't know who I'll have by my side to help me get through it. I dont even know if any of this makes sense.. but to all of my friends who are still with me today even after Ive been a total cunt to you, because im sure i have been, thank you. Thank you for being the best people I can surround myself with to help me understand that I'm not alone.

[obviouslytara]

my christmas gift to instagram. **not that great of a gift, I know

[obviouslytara]

lit.

[obviouslytara]

split.

[obviouslytara]

my highlight is 🔥. . . . . . . @loraccosmetics #unzippedgold on my eyes, @billiondollarbrows brow powder in taupe, @cargocosmetics picture perfect illuminating palette on my face and #boundlesslashes mascara and i cant forget the @michaelkors lip gloss bc I'm fancy. (dual ended rollerball) #mua #motd #highlights #blackandwhite #iwishiwasbetteratthis .

[obviouslytara]

I cover up my real freckles just to have a filter to give me some anyway. #blackfriday

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My favorite look on Tommy😍

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[pharaohofthesymbiotes]

Promised Love

[thisiselliz]

they never kissed or went on a date goku rawed her and died twice and had a green man raise his son

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[wetheurban]

California Topiaries by Marc Alcock

In his captivating series, California Topiaries, British photographer Marc Alcock documents the relationship between houses, plants and trees in the Californian suburbs. In some cases foliage is considered an architectural statement, while in others it seems to devour the very building it surrounds.

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