Perfectly Flawed @october-bird - Tumblr Blog

Unexpected side effects of medically helping oneself (tw): decrease numbers on the scale:

Love of the aforementioned decreased number on aforementioned scale

Disdain of oneself due to aforementioned love of aforementioned decreased number

Burning devil-may-care desire to continue eating chips like a fatass because it’s “canceled out now”

Fantasizing/window shopping for clothes I would buy once I Am (tw) Skinny ™ Again

Disappointment at having to potentially dispose of cute clothes that my Current Not Skinny Self wears once they become too big

Vague shame at going about all this the “easy” way

Terror about losing the taste for favorite food as a deadass side effect, because I’m a glutton, hedonist, and that dopamine ain’t gonna spike itself otherwise [at least as things stand]

Exasperation at [redacted] who thinks I should get me to the gym asap

Idk???? Where was this shit last year!?? You mean I could have just done this all along and not struggled uphill the whole time??

#weight loss #i am gymphobic until further notice #but i don’t discount the possibility of pacing myself literally and figuratively and making myself embrace physical activity #this also happened POINT BLANK at a time when i started feeling comfortable-adjacent to the body i have #injections will continue until morale improves

golddustdyke

no other social media site gives me what tumblr has given me . i love this place . it’s awful here. i’ll never leave .

rosa-dei-venti

i was fangirling over footballers with an internet friend the other day, over ten years after meeting her via a different blog on this very same hellsite fangirling over many of the same footballers. (Age is inevitable, maturity is optional, Alex Del Piero is still adorable.) And i realized that the only good things and people i’ve ever found on the internet - the internet friends who actually stayed friends, the new interests that enriched my life, the knowledge and jokes - they’re ALL from here. Nowhere else. Let the entire rest of the internet burn but keep this place. @october-bird

october-bird

I will forever be grateful for November 28, 2013 and the existence of the concept of “contrapposto” which collided our worlds @apis-vergilii🤍

#tumblr is what facebook twitter and other snapchats could only HOPE to be #cheers to it and to us my dear friend