No Shit, Sherlock

So Maybe I'm In Too Deep... Name's October-Grace Nightingale. I may be rude, but if you're my friend, I'll treat you with respect. December-Rose Nightingale is my baby sister. Mess with her and just see what happens. RP Purpose Only 1x1

[october-grace]

[autumn-winters]

Autumn nodded, taking a deep breath. “Okay. Do it fast, okay?” She sat up again, outstretching her leg. Looking at October, she worried her lip. “Baby? Never leave again without waking me and telling me or..leaving a note beside the bed first?” She nodded. “No. But..I need to do this.”

[october-grace]

"I will," she said instantly and then untangled herself from Autumn. "Let me just go grab something," she spoke as she rushed out of the room and returned almost immediately with an old shirt she had quickly grabbed to wrap around the girl's leg. "I am so sorry for going out without telling you. I-- I didn't think it would be a problem. I thought I would be back before you woke up," she sighed heavily. "I feel like an absolute idiot," she squeezed her eyes shut for a moment and reopened them to focus on the task in front of her. "Okay..." she whispered softly once she finished wrapping her leg.

[autumn-winters]

"We can go, then…" She looked up at October, her heart rate slowing to normal, and her breathing relaxed. "I..feel safe with you." This was it - she couldn’t do this anymore. She needed to get better; start talking about what happened. More importantly? She needed to get back into her jeep. "Can..we take my jeep?" She knew her father paid to have it fixed and detailed so the blood was gone. She couldn’t drive it, but..but she needed to force herself into it.

[october-grace]

Smiling softly, October pulled back a little to look at Autumn as she began to relax. "I love you," she spoke in a soft whisper and then looked around the kitchen and then back to Autumn's leg. "It's probably going to be a pain, but I am going to wrap your leg up and then we'll have to walk to the car," she smiled weakly and then her eyes widened at the suggestion. "A-- Are you sure?" she stumbled over her words and let out a breath. "I mean we can... if you are sure." 

[autumn-winters]

Autumn just cried for an amount of time she couldn’t place. All she knew, was that when she was finally able to stop, her leg was on fire and she was utterly exhausted with no fight left in her. “You’ll..stay by mme the entire time? Won’t let them commit me?”

[october-grace]

October held her for as long as she cried, she closed her eyes and cursed to herself for actually leaving her to begin with, she knew she shouldn't have gone out and left her alone. The gift upstairs was completely forgotten as they sat in the kitchen. "I will stay with you the entire time, yes. I won't let them take you away."

[autumn-winters]

Autumn suddenly wasn’t thinking about not getting blood on her girlfriend, and crawled into her arms, ignoring the pain in her leg as she did so. She clutched onto her shirt, which would leave distinct bloody hand prints. She cried into October, not holding the cloth to her leg. “No..they’ll..lock me u-up..they’l take m-me away f-from you…” Not to mention, that would involve getting in a car. “I’ll..be better, Roo. I’ll c-clean up a-and be b-better.. Just don’t l-leave and don’t..don’t let them take m-me from you..”

[october-grace]

As Autumn began to move towards her, October fell backwards to the floor so that she was sitting down and allowed her girlfriend to crawl into her arms, she herself not caring about the blood either. "Shh, Baby..." she cooed softly and pressed a soft kiss to Autumn's temple. She pulled back and reached for the cloth, placing it back on her leg, as she wrapped the other one around her securely as she cried. "No, they won't. But your leg needs to get looked at, CeeBee." She sighed softly. "I won't leave, I promise. I love you."

[autumn-winters]

Autumn let out a silent, airy groan as her thigh was touched with the cloth. “I just..I had a dream and he was in it and then..and then I woke up and you weren’t there and your mom said you left to be with..with someone else, and then I really woke up..and you still weren’t there, and then I thought someone was in the house, and they weren’t but the knife was in my hand and my wrists are still sore from last time and I just..I needed to go away..”

[october-grace]

October grimaced herself, knowing the pain she was probably feeling, her gaze shot straight up when Autumn began speaking. "I will never leave you, not for anything in this damn world because the thing I want the most is sitting in pain right in right of me. I love you so much, CeeBee," she breathed out. "Can you hold this on your leg?" She asked as she looked around for stuff she could clean the mess up with. "I might have to take you to the emergency room to get your leg looked at."

[autumn-winters]

"It’s..like a apple exploded, Roo.. I have to c-clean it up..before your mom..she’ll s-send me away.." Autumn’s hand was shaking as she held out the knife, and unable to keep her leg bent, straightened it out in front of her. Her shirt was now covered in blood, and on her thigh, it was hard to tell where the blood started and where it ended. "It hurts.."

[october-grace]

October let out a soft breath and shook her head. "Don't worry about the mess, CeeBee." She paused for a moment. "My mother won't send you away, I promise." She gave her a weak tiny smile as she reached for the knife and took it out of her hands, standing up straight, she placed it in the sink. Looking around, October found an old dish towel and ran it under the water before she returned back to Autumn. "Here let's clean your leg up a bit," she said softly dabbing at the blood. "Baby? What happened? Why'd you do this?" She asked.

[autumn-winters]

Autumn watched in a disconnected way, as October removed the other knives. Her thigh had been done a number on, and she was now crying - balling her eyes out. “I-I..your kitchen..I’m sorry for making a mess..I’ll clean it up…I’m s-sorry. D-don’t tell your mom I made a mess..she’s so nice to me..I’ll clean it u-up..okay?” She curled up some, causing her leg muscles to flex, and reopen any wounds that had stopped bleeding. She clutched the knife handle, but so the tip of the blade was more towards her chest/gut, her hand resting on her knees, the end of the blade handle, facing October.

[october-grace]

"Hey, shh... don't worry about the kitchen! I don't care, I will help clean it later. Just..." October let out quickly. "Baby..." she said softly. "Give me the knife," she continued "Please, just give me the knife and let me help you." She finished as she held out her hand. 

[autumn-winters]

Nothing was right at that moment - October’s mother was out and October was, too, and she was having an anxiety attack because of a dream. It made her relive the horror and then she was convinced someone was in the house. So she took a knife out to look; but no one was there. Except now she had a knife in her hands and the light reflecting on it made it..beautiful.

Before she knew it, all the knives were surrounding her as she sat in the kitchen in a corner, blood still dripping from her right thigh as she debated with a knife loosely to her wrist.

[october-grace]

October stepped out for a little bit as she noticed Autumn was soundly asleep, she had been making a lot of progress the past week and figured that leaving for a little bit wouldn't have been that big of a deal, as she strolled drove along, she spotted an antique jewelry store, smiling to herself she quickly pulled over and rushed out of the car and into the shop, it was breathtaking gorgeous in there. Looking around for a moment she came across a few necklaces that caught her attention straight away, she looked at each of them and then finally decided on one, she purchased it from the friendly old lady who works there and quickly made her way back to her house. 

Finally arriving back at her house, she turned the car off, grabbed the little gift bag and made her way inside, going straight up to their room to check on Autumn, however when she walked in her girlfriend wasn't in her bed anymore, placing the gift on it she turned back around. "CeeBee?" She called out as she made her way out of her room to look for her. "Bab--" she began again but fell flat as she saw her in the kitchen with knives around her and bloody dripping from her leg. 

October breath hitched in her throat at the sight and she lost all her motor skills for the time being. "Fuck..." she whispered after a moment and then quickly moved into action once she came back to reality, she rushed over to her girlfriend. "CeeBee, Baby! Are you alright!?" She let out in a panic as she began to pick the knives up from around her, she didn't want to reach for the girl's hand in case it freaked her out and she did something even worse.

[autumn-winters]

Don't move! Just stay there, okay?

[autumn-winters]

Autumn outreached her hand and gently caressed October’s cheek, smiling. “You’re blushing, Roo.” She teased. Her own blush appeared before she dropped down and pressed her lips ever so softly to October’s. “You’re the love of my life, October - and I’ll never let you go again..”

[october-grace]

"Shh..." October let out as she shook her head, the blush growing just that little bit deeper and she grinned as she saw a blush form on Autumn's face in return. "It seems you are too," She let out quietly before she slowly and gently brought her hands up to cup her face, kissing Autumn back just as softly. "And you're the love of my life, CeeBee - and I'll never let you go again either," she smiled softly as she rested her forehead against Autumn's.

[autumn-winters]

Don't move! Just stay there, okay?

[autumn-winters]

Autumn laughed as she took the picture, and then a couple more. She lowered the camera a little to simply look at October and smiled at her. God, she’s beautiful.. She took one more before putting it away and walking over to them. She had been out of the hospital for a week, and next week she had her first therapy appointment that she was terrified to go to, but knew October would be there. The bandages still hugged her wrists and would for another week to ensure there was no infection and to keep the stitches from popping - they’d be taken out in a couple days, at least. “Your smile is the best thing that’s ever happened to photography..”

[october-grace]

October chuckled as she fell back into a sitting position on the grass from where she was crouched down as Sasha began to lick her. "Okay, okay! Stop!" She laughed out not even realizing that Autumn was taking some pictures of them. She then looked up and grinned as Autumn began to walk over and stopped in front of them. A soft blush danced it's way across her face at her words. "And you're the best thing that's ever happened in my life..."

[autumn-winters]

Don't move! Just stay there, okay?

Autumn grabbed her new camera - the one that cost so much, she laughed when she bought it, knowing her father would wonder why the hell she spent so much on a camera. She had bought it after two panic attacks on her way to Walmart; the first getting in the car and she actually threw up after getting out of it - and the second when they had to pass an aisle of hunting equipment (knives included), causing Autumn to nearly b-line it back outside. But she eventually got her camera. She discovered photography after writing began eluding her after the incident, and not only discovered she loved it, but that she was amazing at it - like her mother apparently was.

Now she was with October at a nearby park - a five minute walk that was still a chore to make, but as long as October was with her, she could gather the courage to make it there; and even have a good time, too. Autumn was still shattered, but October had found every last piece, so now it was just a matter of finding their places. “I have the perfect shot! Sasha, no! Stay with mommy!”

[october-grace]

"Come here, Sash!" October called out as they finally reached the park, her eyes drifted to Autumn and a soft smile appeared on her face. Slowly but surely they were putting Autumn back together and she promised she'd be with her every step of the way and so she has so far. She laughed as Autumn began to tell Sasha to stay with her and she held out her arms to embrace the dog as she scampered back to her.

[october-grace]

Being back home is seriously fucking weird...

[autumn-winters]

Autumn’s face lit up a bit. “You know if you did that, all I’d be doing is eating PEZ and having sex with you for giving me the PEZ, right?” She started laughing - the first entirely genuine laugh since she left October all those months ago. “Wait..our place?” With effort, she turned her upper body around some to look into October’s eyes. “I..like that. I like the sounds of that a lot..”

"Come on let’s go and play!"

[october-grace]

October bit her lip, trying to hold back the massive grin tugging it's way onto her face as she heard Autumn laugh. "Don't think I'd have a problem with that," She shook her head before she chuckled. "I've really missed that laugh of yours," she let out softly before tilting her head to look back at her and she smiled softly. "Yes, our place." She nodded. "Me too."

"And what are we playing?"

[thebright-eyedwanderer]

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[october-grace]

You don't have to do this on your own, Like there's no one that cares about you You don't have to act like your alone, Like the walls are closing in around you

You don't have to pretend no one knows, Like there's no one that understands you I'm not just some face you used to know, I know all about you

And you should know that someone cares about you, I know all about you

[october-grace]

Being back home is seriously fucking weird...

[autumn-winters]

In that moment, and left over doubt Autumn had about who October would choose completely disappeared. October was hers and she was October’s. And in that moment, everything in the world felt right. “Do..you think your mom could brng us some blankets from home? Some pillows..and I may or may not have a stash of PEZ…” She wanted to feel at home - needed to - and sleeping in a white room, with or without October was torture. She wanted to build a blanket fort, putting the mattress on the floor and hiding themselves away where she could forget where she was and why she was there. She practically giggled at her next thought before singing it out loud. “Do you want to build a snowman?”

[october-grace]

October smiled softly before a slight chuckle escaped her, standing up she leaned over and pressed her lips to Autumn's softly, pulling away she grinned. "You and PEZ... I swear. You know what, I am going to buy one of those giant fish tanks, but instead of fish and whatever else, I am going to fill it with PEZ when we get our own place. I'll ask her, but it most likely that she will." She replied as she stood completely upright and moved back around to push Autumn back into the hospital. Just before they entered the building Autumn began to sing something and she let out a breath as she shook her head. "God, that movie is everywhere." she laughed softly before finally entering the building, making her way to Autumn's room.

[october-grace]

Being back home is seriously fucking weird...

[autumn-winters]

"You when you go get PEZ - gotta know when to send the pictures, right?" She blushed slightly, forcing her stomach to not give up what it just took down. She frowned to herself when October said she knew it hurt to move her wrists. They did..even eating hurt. "Can..we go back now, Roo? I don’t feel safe out here.." Owen was gone, but there was a small lingering in her mind that probably had to do with the fact that she could barely sit up and feed herself t the moment, and it made her nervous. She hoped it wouldn’t last. "And I’m cold.."

       Autumn kissed October back, being happier than she had ever remembered being with the woman. “Sleep with me tonight, Roo?” Part of her was nervous October would leave for the night, though not entirely sure why. “How’s..your mom? She’s been nothing but..well, a mom for me since..everything, you know?” She shrugged. “I never knew what it was like to have one, and ..she lived up to every fantasy I ever had and then some. And I’m so sorry for everything, too..I adore your mother. Do..you think she hates me for all this? What about you? I..put you in that position twice to..to watch me- and I still don’t know if I can handle this, Roo… I’m scared..”

[october-grace]

Shaking her head, October smiled. "Naturally." She replied before her own smile fell at what Autumn had said. "Y-yes, we can..." She didn't mean to stammer, but she was still worried about her.

Pulling back from the kiss, she moved around to the back of the wheelchair and began pushing her back towards the hospital. "Of course." She replied with a smile even if Autumn couldn't see it, but as soon as the woman continued to talk, she stopped and moved back around to the front of the wheelchair and crouched down in front of it taking Autumn's hands in her own as gently as possible. "My mother is fine and believe me when I say she doesn't hate you in the slightest." She sighed softly. "CeeBee, I love you - I'm madly and deeply in love with you and we're going to get you through this, okay? We're going to get you past all of this and live happily ever after together."

[october-grace]

Being back home is seriously fucking weird...

[autumn-winters]

"Apparently. But I have all my original ID because it’s who I am..I’m Autumn. April is a pretty name and all, but..it’s not me." At the mention of him being dead, Autumn couldn’t help but smile. "Hope it was painful." She looked to October, nodding towards the ID. "Hey, I have two identities now. We could do spy work." She laughed, feeling a huge weight from her shoulders, and she reached out to take October’s hand, trying not to wince from the pain of moving her wrist. "He can’t hurt you, either..or us."

       The word ‘us’ felt so good on her lips. “You have to eat a good breakfast tomorrow, then, okay?”

[october-grace]

She nodded. "I like Autumn better. It's who you most definitely are, couldn't think of you with any other name. Well, other than CeeBee of course." She bit her lip and then chuckled. Smiling as the other woman did at the news and then she shook her head playfully. "Who you planning to spy on?" She smiled softly. "Baby... stop trying to move your arms so much. I can tell how much it hurts you. But yes, he can't hurt either of us anymore." 

Getting off the bench, she moved forward and pressed her lips against Autumn's. "I promise to eat a good breakfast tomorrow." she spoke out against her lips.