ulrich would never admit it out loud, but lately it seems like odd is the only one of his close friends that doesnโt put him at least a little bit on edge. heโd never admit it out loud because he knows that it would hurt them so badly to hear it, and because the repercussions of saying such a thing in front of them would last longer than the feeling itself. itโs the dates, first and foremost. itโs the commitment, itโs the putting his feelings on the table and making sure that theyโre known. itโs sitting across, or beside, or close to someone who has been his best friend for years and having to admit that for all that theyโve given him, he still wants more.
itโs convincing himself that wanting more isnโt nearly as greedy as it feels, nor as tenuous. itโs admitting to himself that they wouldnโt be here if they didnโt look at him the same way. but heโs still working on all that.
with odd, however, he knows where he stands. they donโt talk about it, but sometimes actions really can speak louder than words. sometimes actions can be all thatโs is needed between two people who share a room, who share a bed. so much stands between them that theyโve never spoken about, but there is an explicit trust there. there has to be. he wouldnโt spend every night in oddโs bed otherwise. that explicit, implicit trust is what has him sitting calmly on a bench even as the minutes tick past. even as their meeting time comes and goes and heโs still standing alone. odd will be there. he can trust in that.
and so he is. loud as usual, running late and physically running on top of that. the only surprise is that heโs on foot rather than having brought his skateboard; though they all tend to use one more often than not, odd is the one who has it at his side almost always. maybe thatโs why heโs running late. ulrich unfolds himself from his sitting position, standing, shoving his hands in his pockets and allowing a smile. what else could he do in the face of such a sight?
โwhat did i say about calling me that?โ he asks, rolling his eyes in mock annoyance. // @odddellaโ
ulrich climbed from his position as odd ran up to him, the boy giving him a quick peck on the cheek. he laughed at the boy, full and boisterous, happy to be near. even if it meant that the boy would pretend that he didnโt love that odd had a nickname for him, even if it meant that he was always running late and he was always trying to catch up, at least he showed up.ย
he always showed up. even if it was late, even if he didnโt know what time he would make it, even if he showed up half baked half dressed and half witted, he always got there with a smile and a laugh and an apology.ย
it was all he had, at this point.ย
โi brought your favorite!โ odd waved the bag, gently, more or so just showing that he had the food than really gesturing to it. he was very much still trying to catch his breath, hitched and with a light sheen of sweat.ย โsorry about the whole mess look i got going on, but iโve heard it is literally all the rage to be looking like youโre running late 100% of the time.โ he panted, catching his breath while talking a mile a minute being neigh on impossible.ย โand you know me, always gotta be on the up and up.โ
he laughed again and it sounded like joy. out of breath happiness.
โi keep saying iโll be better about time management, but damn am i so fucking wrong about that.โ