BIZARRE total drama island themed dream the other night. that's all i'll say.
Ykw never mind I’ll say it. Cody and Noah Totaldramaisland hiding behind a sofa during some challenge and taking the time to talk to each other like really talk. And they’re getting way more vulnerable than they would be normally and sitting really close to each other (so they aren’t spotted and forced to return to the challenge of course) and they’re talking about their failed attempts at establishing relationships throughout the course of the game. At some point Cody puts his head in Noah’s lap which is like whoa dude what are u doing but they’re in this strange space where both of em wanna see how far things go. Noah starts running his fingers through Cody’s hair as they’re talking. They gaze deeply into each other’s eyes. As they continue talking they hit upon the root of the matter which is that both of them are transfem but can’t acknowledge that part of themselves let alone speak those desires out loud, but talking so openly and vulnerably has made them at least someone recognize those repressed desires in themselves. Cody asks Noah why he grows his fingernails out long. Noah asks Cody why he lets his hair get so long in the back. They both have this mutual understanding of it but still cannot fully recognize and accept these desires within themselves. They leave knowing each other just a little bit more and themselves just a little bit less.
I haven't watched this show in like a decade. WHY was I dreaming about this.
I. couldn't get this image out of my head.
