Sylus x MC: No Way Out
Literally just realized I never cross-posted my first fic, lol. Sorry for the repeat if you follow me on AO3, I promise I've got a grassland romance fic coming soon.
Summary: A rewrite of my absolute favorite Sylus card. I really enjoy just how hurt his VA made him sound, and I wanted to reflect that in this.
Contains: AFAB MC, hurt/comfort, kinds enemies to lovers (ish??), Sylus in Pain, blood and injury, like a lot of talk about blood, an MC who swears constantly (she's earned it ok), SFW
AO3
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I'm going to fucking strangle him, she thinks.
She's standing there, in a public park, on a gorgeous day. It should be the perfect sort of afternoon to relax after a hunting shift, and that had been exactly her plan. But Sylus, sitting relaxed and carefree in front of the fountain, has apparently seen fit to obliterate any chance of that. She's still breathless from sprinting to the coordinates her hunter's watch had specified. Sure, it was a relatively short run, but it was enough to have her adrenaline running high and her mind racing in preparation for dealing with a wanderer. She can feel a prickling sensation under her skin as she pants for air; a sensation which is not helped by the prickling of embarrassment as a middle-aged passerby gives her a judgemental look and makes a point of walking a wider distance from her than is strictly necessary.
She throws him a glare that tells him to mind his own damn business before turning the glare back to the true source of her ire.
He's wearing sunglasses, making him even harder to read than usual, but the slight smirk on his face is all too familiar.
No, he's too damn tall for strangling. Bastard hot man. Maybe I'll drown him in that damn fountain. That could work, she muses.
Despite the warmth of the day, Sylus's jacket is still hung around his shoulders, making his silhouette even sharper, more striking. The fountain spreading out behind him gives the whole picture a strangely artistic look, a statuesque man before a sculpture of angels and cranes, a slight mist hanging in the air as the water crashes back into the pool behind him. And somehow, that makes the whole situation even more irritating.
"Did you send a request to be rescued?"
She tries to make her voice cold, icy even. Unfortunately, the effect is slightly undercut by her puffing from the recent exertion.
His one shoulder rises and falls in a careless gesture, expression inscrutable. "I encountered a wanderer, and needed some help."
The words come out in a way that strikes her as odd; almost choked, perhaps?
Even in sarcasm he can barely lower himself to ask for help. What an ass.
"Well," She makes a show of looking around, spreading her arms wide, "Where's the wanderer?"
"I made it run away."
Her eye twitches. She can't start swearing here, in the middle of a public park. She doesn't need to go through that particular bit of remedial training with her superiors again. So instead she forces a slow breath out through her nose and asks, "How did you know I'd be the one to show up?"
Sylus lifts his phone, and her own smiling face looks back at her behind a pair of rainbow, heart-shaped sunglasses. Underneath the picture is a geotag.
Didn't I disable geotags last week...? I thought for sure I did so that Zayne wouldn't see that I got takeout at 1 a.m. again. Shit, does that mean he knows? Ugh, i don't want that nutrition lecture again-
"Let's flip a coin," Sylus's voice halts her train of thought. He tosses a coin from who-knows-where up into the air and catches it with the same hand. "The outcome will determine many people's fates tonight."
What the hell is he talking about? Is he going to blow up a building or something? Ugh, no, he wouldn't have called me if that's what he was up to. I don't need this right now. I'd like to enjoy my afternoon without a hail of bullets, thanks.
She rolls her eyes, opening the watch's interface, scrolling through to cancel the assistance flare, marking it as resolved. There's the tiny splish of a coin landing in the fountain.
He's damn lucky no one else responded. Or maybe I'm unlucky. Six of one, half a dozen of the other, probably.
"I'm busy with work, Sylus, stop messing around. Today, you-"
She's not sure when he stood up, but suddenly his strong arm is around her neck, pulling her close to him. Her heart, much to her irritation, skips a beat. Just like it always does when he's close, damn the man. And he's certainly close now. Close enough to feel the heat of him, to catch the smell of metal polish, oiled leather, andâŚ
...blood?
What the hell...?
Her eyes dart across the dark material of his shirt, underneath the cover of his jacket. She's grown familiar with the streaks of dark red that swirl across the fabric, since it seems to be one of his favorites. And the large, dark splotch that she spies spreading across his sleeve and side is definitely not part of the usual pattern. And the streams of blood leaking from two punctures on his arm are certainly not typical.
"Sylus, you're bleeding!?" She stammers out in shock, trying to process the strange turn in the situation. The last time she'd see blood on his shirt she'd been...
Well. She'd been the one who had opened that wound, hadn't she? A shot to the heart, point-blank range-
No. Focus on the problem at hand.
"What happened-"
Just as the words start to fall out of her mouth, a single long digit is pressed against her lips, startling her into silence.
"Shh," He drops his finger from her lips. It's somehow both a relief and a disappointment, though she refuses to think about why she would be disappointed by the lack of contact. "Let's go. If we don't, we'll be stuck here."
She isn't sure what he means by that. But she reasons that it's probably not wise to argue with a bleeding man. Not that he gives her time to; his arm is already tucking her to his side and guiding her to walk with him away from the park and all its potential onlookers.
As a hunter, she's seen a lot of injured people. Civilians and other hunters alike. For civilians, the reactions vary wildly. Some cry, some scream, some are in the complete silence of shock. Hunters, on the other hand, tend to have more predictable reactions. Barking out succinct updates on their status and position to their partners, maybe requests for backup teams. In the worst cases, calling for assistance to retreat.
Sylus isn't like either of those. This doesn't surprise her, of course. Sylus isn't like anyone in any way she can think of. She barely even counts him as human most of the time. The current situation seems to support this, as well. Looking at him now, as they duck into an alley across from the park, she would never guess anything was amiss, except maybe for the lack of movement from his left shoulder, slightly stiffening his gait. His head is held high, his steps are sure, and he carries himself with the same usual air of arrogant nonchalance.
At least, he does at first.
The minutes roll by as he guides her through a labyrinth of narrow side streets, so quiet the sound of their steps on the cobblestones echo off the walls, and dark even at the height of midday. Side streets like these would normally have her at least a bit on guard, but the man at her side is an entirely different class of threat than whatever petty criminal she'd find here. At least, he would be, under usual circumstances. But with the passing of time, she notices his bearing begins to change, albeit minutely. His steps drag just slightly more against the rough path. His posture sags, just a fraction of an inch, but enough that she can tell. There's a slight labor to his breathing that she's never heard from him before.
And damn her, it's fucking terrifying.
This is a man that she's seen tear another person asunder. A man she's seen stop bullets in midair. A man she's seen take a gunshot to the chest, and then look her in the eye with a cold smile. A man who stood with her in a building as it went up in a blaze around the pair of them. And now, in this strange, wrong moment, he is a man struggling to walk down a street and stand tall.
Idiot, use your head, she chastises herself, you know how to help someone who is wounded. The fact that it's the leader of fucking Onychinus, and maybe the most terrifying person you know, is beside the point right now. For right now, he's a person who is hurt. And you're all he's got.
She curves around him, pressing her shoulder to his side for support, her hand settling just above the stiff leather of his belt. She shifts herself closer, trying to help distribute some of the weight onto herself. Given the height difference, it isn't terribly effective; but she does feel a decent amount of pressure settle across her shoulders, as well as feeling a slight lean to his spine against her arm. And a twitch of a muscle in his side relaxing slightly under her palm. The strength of his arm, even loose as it is across the back of her neck. A surprisingly tight grip of his fingers on her waist. And warmth, radiating from his core. Trapped against her, where their sides meet. Bleeding through her vest, her shirt. An uncomfortable, restless warmth, spreading through her body; collecting in her cheeks, her chest, her stomach.
"You really like helping others."
The slight rumble of his voice, a bit hoarse from effort, startles her. He seems almost surprised, though she canât imagine why. Helping others is her entire career, after all.
Right. Wounded crime boss. Focus.
"Well," she starts, affecting an irritated tone to cover her distraction, "if I didn't take you with me, you wouldn't have let me go."
"How are you so sure?"
The amusement in his comment is almost lost under the strain. He's getting worse, she realizes. She should've been putting pressure on the wound ages ago. But how to do it while still supporting him with her left arm? She tries crossing her right arm over his front, but again his height proves problematic.
Dammit.
"Lean down a little." She commands. The deep, throaty chuckle it earns her would tempt her to swat him, were it not for how breathless it sounds. To her surprise, he replies without further comment, allowing her hand to make contact with the wound. Itâs hot, wet and tacky under her palm with a mix of old and new blood. Underneath the layer of blood and cloth, she can feel a deceptively small hole. A puncture, then. And a deep one, if the amount of blood is any indication. Even the relatively light touch makes Sylus inhale sharply. She feels the muscles across his torso tense, though he doesnât recoil.
What the fuck? How did a wanderer do this?
A small growl of frustration escapes her as she realizes there's no way to apply an appropriate amount of pressure from the current angle. "Lean down a little more."
He looks down at her, a single gray eyebrow arched. "When hunters accept a rescue mission, do they always tend to the wounded?" Despite the light tone of the question, she notices some of his consonants are starting to drag.
You'd have a lot easier time catching your breath if you stopped fucking talking.
Sheâs startled by the strength of her own irritation, the thought jumping unbidden into her mind. Ugh. Calm down. I guess if heâs still asking questions, heâs not about to pass out or something. I donât know how Iâd carry him if he didâŚ
"No, we just escort them to the hospital." She puts some pressure to his back, reminding him to lean. To her surprise, he responds without resistance. "We only care for them when they're troublesome, like you."
That barb earns her a slight smirk. She doesn't expect it to be such a reassuring sight. Usually it makes her want to punch him.
They manage to start walking again. It's quite awkward, he's bent almost double and she's moving sort of sideways.
"So what happened exactly?" She asks, then notes with frustration, "You're still bleeding."
Why hasn't he healed himself? I've done worse to him than this. Hell, half the wanderers we've fought have.
"It's nothing. The sun's too bright," he says, like that explains anything at all.
She glances up. The sun is, indeed, glaringly bright today. Not a cloud in the sky, either. She's rarely seen him in Linkon himself, but on those rare occasions, she supposes they have all happened at night. Or maybe heâs just being facetious, she can never completely tell with him.
"Oh good," she teases, "I discovered another one of your weaknesses."
She could swear he intentionally leans more weight on her at that, and she swallows a grunt.
Two turns later, she finds herself looking at a, frankly, aggressively average-looking motel. Maybe a bit smaller than average, but certainly not what she'd pictured their destination to be. She hesitates slightly, checking to see if there's another turn to take. But Sylus continues ahead, seeming to know where he's headed, and she goes along with him. Fortunately, there seems to be a lack of visitors at the moment, thereâs a single car pulled up next to the motel, and no one outside. Nevertheless, her eyes don't stop scanning their surroundings for potential dangers, even as they come up to the door underneath a neon sign reading OFF CE, the âIâ occasionally blinking to life.
They enter the office, and she vaguely realizes what an odd picture the two of them must make as they enter. Sylus is half bent-over her, now obviously bleeding and breathing heavily. She's wrapped around him, in her hunter's uniform, with his blood covering her hand and beginning to dye her sleeve.
An inconspicuous sight, they are not.
Fortunately, the only person in the small office room is a pre-teen boy, who is deeply engrossed in a mobile game. She's pretty sure she recognizes the sound effects to be from Light and Dark Raiders: Dragon Team Descent.
She briefly wonders what level he is, before Sylus raps sharply on the desk with his free hand.
"I want room 503."
The boy starts, guiltily putting his phone into his pants pocket. As he does, she notes the abandoned textbook and scratch paper on the desk beside Sylus's hand. Her nose wrinkles slightly of its own accord.
Algebra. No wonder he was playing on his phone.
The boy blinks at the two of them, and for a moment, she thinks she'll have to explain that they're not criminals (well, she isn't), or victims of a mugging, or something. But, to her surprise, the kid asks no questions. Just pulls out a key card from a drawer, and a first-aid kit from a side table, putting them both on the desk before immediately returning to his game. She wonders how often this happens, that Sylus shows up here bloodied and half-conscious. Surely it can't be that often? But then, why does she care in the first place? This is Sylus. The man who kidnapped her, regularly kills those who upset or betray him, and rules over the N109 zone like a tiger over jackals.
"Thanks." The slight mirth in his voice surprises her, and she just notices the slight traces of a warm smile leaving his face as she turns her gaze to him. The contrast between her most recent though and his soft expression is jarring. Whatever the situation is here, Sylus clearly knows this child and vice-versa. The thought that this child, who is playing games, doing schoolwork, and occasionally checking in the odd customer, is wrapped up in the chaos and lawlessness of the N109 zone settles uneasily in her stomach.
But, before she has much time to think about it, Sylus is moving forward again, and she's bound to go along with him. The odd pair walk down a narrow, carpeted hallway, toward the elevator doors at the end. Her arm is beginning to ache from holding pressure in this position, but she does her best to hold steady as Sylus uses his free hand to push the button, still holding the kit and card. She tries to think of something, anything to say, as they step into the elevator together. But she canât stop listening to the short breaths he takes, and trying to calculate the amount of time heâs spent bleeding. When did she begin to worry over this man like a mother hen? He was the last person alive who she would consider needing any sort of care from another person.
And yet, he does. So she will give it. Because no one else will, right now.
Her sleeve is now soaked, and as they exit the elevator, she canât help but note the trail of dark red droplets staining the carpet in their wake.
Sylus slides the key card through the reader, and despite the worries about his current state, she canât help leaning forward to get a glimpse of where the leader of Onychinus makes space to lick his wounds on occasion. However, perhaps to her slight disappointment, itâs as seemingly average as the rest of the motel. Although, once inside the room, she does note that thereâs an extra half-room sized space that houses a kitchenette and some cupboards. Sylus gives a slight shrug of his uninjured shoulder, and she realizes that she is still holding onto him as she studies the new space. Her hands leap from him as though burnt.
Rather than face his infuriating smugness at her distraction, she busies herself with opening a side drawer with her clean hand, slightly hoping there will be an object of interest to redirect her thoughts. Unfortunately, itâs completely empty. It seems silly to be disappointed, considering the current situation, but she had half-expected to find a secret arsenal hidden in the room. It certainly wouldnât surprise her given Sylusâs usual business. Unfortunately, there doesnât seem to be anything for her to âborrowâ from her charge.
âIs this your safe house in Linkon?â She wonders aloud, heading over to the sink to clean the blood from her hand before it has a chance to completely dry. She rolls up her soaked sleeve (the shirt is definitely ruined, sheâll have to get a replacement), trying to prevent it from continuing to drip. She really doesn't want the poor kid at the front desk, or whoever the cleaning person is, to have to clean up more blood than is strictly necessary. The cool water sluicing over her hands and washing away the stickiness is calming, grounding in this unreal situation.
Deep breaths, that's what Jenna said at that training. Although that was about not telling rude onlookers to go fuck themselves in the ass⌠I think that still applies to this situation? The purpose is still to calm down.
âCan I get some help?â Despite the breathlessness, his tone stays airy, perhaps slightly irritated.
She turns from the sink, towards the sound of his voice. He's sitting on the floor of the shower, having apparently already dropped the jacket from his shoulders and discarded the sunglasses. The sleeve and abdomen of his shirt are soaked through, dark and heavy on his frame. The puncture- no, punctures, there's another she hadn't noticed, and a graze across his ribs -are clearly visible, the fabric frayed and partially plastered into the wounds. A small stream of blood is already starting to reach past the open first-aid box on the tile and slither lazily towards the drain. He pulls at his shirt collar on the injured side, unable to manage the buttons on his own.
She could never, before this very moment, have imagined Onychinus's Sylus ever looking like this. Like a wounded, wild animal; stubbornly refusing to die, but unable to continue on under its own power alone. And yet, still assessing her with those crimson eyes, seeing if she will balk or break or abandon; wash her hands of the whole thing and let him fend for himself. Perhaps daring her to do so.
But that isnât who she is.
She turns off the faucet and walks over to him, muttering, âAt least have the decency to say âpleaseâ next time you ask.â Another jibe, meant to pull out their usual banter.
Instead, he exhales a âsorryâ, as though he was holding his breath.
She doesn't expect the pang of disappointment or the accompanying anxiety that comes with the apology where a teasing quip should be. This is, quite simply, not the Sylus she is used to dealing with.
When did I start becoming used to him?
Probably somewhere in between Sylus threatening to take her hand off to get rid of the energy linkage, and Sylus easing her nerves over text the night before a banquet, or maybe Sylus helping her pick out a pair of sunglasses, or sending his stupid bird to check on her all the time.
In between dozens of small moments, it seems
She kneels down, squeezing into the uncomfortably small space between his outstretched leg and the shower wall, and begins undoing the buttons. It's easy to imagine, with his panting breaths as she uncovers more and more of the toned body underneath his shirt, what this might be like in another situation. Far too easy.
No, no no no no. Do not imagine that right now. Professionalism. I'm a model of professionalism. I am not going to imagine fucking the shot-up sexy man.
The sound he makes when she brushes the skin over his sternum makes her resolve considerably weaker.
âDoes it hurt?â
His slight grimace and narrowed eyes, at least, help dismiss any untoward thoughts of hers. âYour hands are cold.â
âI just washed them. Bear with it.â
She gingerly begins to tug at his left sleeve with one hand, her other maneuvering the collar of the shirt so that removing it takes as little movement from him as possible. Fortunately, his shirt (and her sleeve) seem to have soaked up a decent amount of the blood, so it isnât terribly difficult to examine. Sheâs never seen wanderer marks like this. But she has seen Sylus with a nearly identical wound before, just slightly left of his sternum instead of on his arm.
A flare of anger rises in her chest. The fucking bastard lied. And, worse, she took him at his fucking word .
Idiot. This is still Sylus. Of course he lies, itâs his whole deal. Heâs a black market arms dealer, murderer, and smuggler.
âA gunshot wound?â She seethes, even as she leans around to look for an exit wound. Two gunshot wounds, really, both in his upper arm. Three if she counts the graze streaking across his ribs, which has opened up slightly after removing the shirt. And no exit wounds. She hopes they havenât hit the bone.
Of course the bullets are still in him. Itâs probably the only reason he didnât fucking bleed out.
She sits back to glare at him, trying to ignore that his face is even paler than usual. For his part, Sylus unflinchingly meets her gaze, which is even more infuriating. He could at least have the decency to try and fake an ashamed expression, rather than having this⌠curious impassivity. âWanderers donât shoot guns. Is this an old grudge or a new one?â
He gives a small, humorless huff. Which is, decidedly, not an answer.
âYou always cause trouble,â she growls, refusing to back down from his stare, âbut youâre never honest about it.â
He doesnât bat an eye at her fury. Heâs eerily calm, actually, even lacking his usual air of arrogance as he keeps his gaze.
âIf youâd like to keep your involvement with the N109 zone to a minimum, then you shouldnât care too much.â
Thereâs no condescension in his words. Itâs a straightforwardness that is foreign to her interactions with Sylus before now. Sheâd think it was sincerity, were it not for the recent lie.
She gives a sharp snort, âBut I thought you liked my âexcessiveâ concern.â
A strange, small smile pulls at the corner of his lips at that, along with a small hum that she canât quite interpret the meaning of. It disarms her once more, leaves her reeling, the angry wind taken out of her sails. She wishes, not for the first time, that she could read desires like he can, just to be able to piece out all the thoughts he doesnât say.
He finally breaks the staring contest between them, reaching over to retrieve a pair of tweezers from the first aid box.
âTurn around.â
âHuh?â
âYou donât need to see this.â He mutters, still wearing that strange not-quite-a-smile, âIâd rather not give you nightmares about me.â
That would be a first for him, sheâs never gotten the idea that he much cared if he was fit for her nightmares or not. But heâs fixed her with that same oddly pretensionless look. So what can she do but heed him?
She turns her head to the side, and tries not to flinch at the quiet, pained noises he makes. Even worse is the slight squelching noises of the damaged flesh, which is nauseating to hear (though sheâd never admit it). Sheâs had numerous injuries over the years, from wanderers, accidents, and her own lack of grace; but she finds herself currently grateful sheâs never had to try and dig bullets out of herself.
âIs there local anesthetic in the first aid box? I can administer it for you.â
âNo need,â he grunts, as something metallic clinks to the tile, rolling before coming to rest against her foot. A 9mm hollowpoint bullet, the top blooming out like a bloody flower. A few more moments and pained noises, and its twin joins it. She takes this as her cue to be able to turn around.
The sight twists her heart with worry once more.
Sylus is leaning back against the tiled wall of the shower, face ghostly in color, chin tipped up slightly. Though heâs still conscious, his eyes are unfocused, and lacking their usual vividness. His mouth is hanging open as he forces himself through steady breaths. His injured arm is limp at his side, with fresh blood streaming from the wounds down his arm and dripping steadily onto the tile.
âYouâve got to be kidding me.â She mutters to herself through her teeth. Enough is enough. He called for her help, and heâs damn well going to get it.
She steps carefully around him, trying to find space for herself in the close quarters. Itâs certainly not an easy feat, with him being nearly as broad in the shoulders as the wall heâs leaning against. She finally manages to squeeze herself in by squatting down in front of him, her knees between his. Sheâs pleasantly surprised to find hemostatic gauze in the first aid kit, though she supposes she shouldnât be; the kit is probably specifically put together for Sylusâs needs.
He grunts as she packs the wounds. Though sheâs doing her best to be gentle, thereâs only so much she can do at this stage. She knows it isnât a permanent fix, but it should be enough to get him back to the N109 zone, and whatever passes for his version of safety. She does manage to staunch the bleeding as well, and that is a relief in and of itself right now. She takes out the alcohol wipes and begins cleaning the area surrounding the graze.
âYouâre skilled.â His words are slurred slightly. If sheâs being honest, sheâs impressed he can still manage coherent speech. Maybe, now that heâs out of the sun, his healing is returning to normal speed. She hopes so. âI thought you were the type who usually comes out unscathed.â
She gives an affirmative hum as she concentrates on cleaning the area. Then adds, âbut, because you keep messing around, all of my time lately has been spent on you.â
She waits for a response, but there is none. So she continues, âI donât often get to take on very difficult missions.â In her periphery, she can see his face tip slightly towards her, watching. âMy marksmanship skills are getting rusty.â
âI see, youâre not exactly pleased.â He says quietly. Almost regretfully, though perhaps that is just her imagination. His head lolls back to center as he continues in a more airy tone, âIâll find a few dangerous wanderers for you to use as training dummies later.â
She rolls her eyes as she discards the wipe, and reaches for the bandages. She's about to ask Sylus to lean forward, so she can pass the bandage more easily around his ribcage, but he beats her to the punch; closing the small distance between them to rest his forehead heavily on her shoulder.
âGive me a few minutes,â he murmurs.
And God, she tries to do that, she does try. But she isn't properly balanced for his weight, and it isn't more than a few moments before she falls backward, flat on her ass. Sylus doesn't seem to be fazed. He simply shifts to a kneeling position, head remaining in place. She can feel his heavy breaths, puffing through her shirt, just below her collarbone.
âDoes it hurt?â She murmurs. He gives a grunt in response.
Her mind wanders as she begins winding the bandage around his chest as gently as she can. She hates this. Hates how seeing a force of nature brought low fills her veins with an icy dread. Hates seeing him pale and shaky and damn vulnerable. She knows he can stop bullets. She knows he can tear a manâs very atoms apart on a whim. Hell, he can look a giant fucking bird wanderer in the eye as it drops giant stone feathers on him without a second thought. Itâs unnatural, to see such a power reduced to the same level of humanity as everyone else.
But in the next breath, she realizes that she likes this. Not the hurt, or the exhaustion, of course. She isn't a sadist, even if she sometimes thinks he is. But so often he seems more like a weapon than a person. Something to be pointed in the direction of what you want obliterated, and released like a bullet from a gun; cold, unyielding, unfeeling. But, maybe, not all of the time. She's heard concern in his voice in the heat of a fight. Playfulness radiating out of a simple text. Gentleness, in the grip of his hand as he leads you through a dance. And now, right now, he's a person in pain, vulnerable and reaching out for help.
The two sides of a coin, the Leader of Onychinus and Sylus. Equal and opposite and baffling. They can't both exist on the same side together, and yet, a coin can't only have one face.
âYour tender loving care is going to last the whole night, huh,â He drawls against her shoulder.
And assholiness. Definitely assholiness, she thinks as she moves to wrapping his arm.
âWhy donât you just instantly recover and head back to the N109 zone to wreak havoc, then?â She retorts, though itâs missing her usual venom. Itâs too good to hear him starting to banter again. This doesnât stop her though, from cutting his responding chuckle a bit short with a rougher yank on the bandage. âYouâre either the source of trouble or in trouble,â She pauses a moment, before a genuine question bubbles out of her mouth.
âArenât you tired of living like this?â
âItâs almost like youâre telling me to join you, and become a member of the hunterâs association.â Thereâs a slight mocking edge to his voice, and she briefly wonders if punching him in the gunshot wound will make him pass out. It almost seems worth it. But instead, she finds herself giving into the impulse to match his tone.
âDo I make hunting look easy? Weâre required to memorize the hunterâs code, and take assessments during the holidays.â She finishes tying the bandage with a tug, lacing her words with teasing doubt, âCould you handle that?â
Thereâs only silence in response. She wishes she could see his face, get some idea of what heâs thinking. But his forehead remains on her shoulder. She becomes aware, once again, of his breath; less heavy now, and steadier, but no less warm. And now that sheâs unoccupied with tending to him, she becomes terribly aware of all the other sensations. Soft hair brushing against her ear and cheek, the nudge of his nose against her collarbone, the smell of sweat and blood and something underneath that she canât place.
A strange, visceral impulse to wrap her arms around him makes her muscles twitch.
Where the fuck did that come from? Iâm not going to do that, absolutely not, Iâm just helping him. Heâs probably had to do this alone dozens of times and-
Her thoughts begin to swirl, out of her control.
And it should not feel like a knife to her heart (a sword to his) to think about that. To think of Sylus wounded, maybe unconscious on the floor from blood loss (so much blood) until his evol kicks in to restart the healing. Breath choked and mouth leaking red (you must press on)-
How many times, Leader of Onychinus? How many hails of bullets, stabbings, poisonings, beatings⌠How many more, Sylus?
She swallows down the rising lump in her throat, bottles and corks the swirling thoughts for later. But she still finds herself asking,
âBe honest with me. Why are you doing all of this? Do you not care about your own safety?â
She feels the shift in his face, feels what could be a sigh across the base of her throat. âThere are shadows even in the places where the sun doesnât shine. And it just so happens,â his voice shifts slightly, into something odd, self-mockery, maybe, âIâm a person who likes to live in the dark.â
Likes to, or must? She wonders. Before today, hell even before thirty minutes ago, she wouldnât have considered Sylus to be a man without a choice in⌠well, anything. Now⌠now she isnât so sure.
âIf youâre curious about my world,â his whisper at her ear sends chills racing down her spine, âyouâll have to step beyond the border between light and shadow. You must be the one to make that decision.â
Thereâs something thick in the air, something tense. A breath being held. She looses a halfhearted laugh to try and assuage some of it.
âYou act as though youâre giving me a choice.â
He draws back then, and she expects him to resume leaning against the wall. Instead, he remains within a breath of her face, crimson eyes filling most of her view. Theyâre focused precisely now, practically electrified intensity. Itâs like staring at a paused lightning strike, and she needs to look away, break the contact.
A warm thumb touches her chin, a finger curling underneath it, and they drag her gaze back to his. Thereâs the curl of his smirk, ever-so-slightly narrowing his coreless eye.
âOf course,â his voice is breathy now, and gentle , in a way sheâs never heard it before, âI did give you a choice. And itâs precisely because youâve never chosen something that surprised me.â
She vaguely realizes her lungs are burning. Ah. Sheâs forgotten to breathe. The slight gasp of an inhale she takes seems loud, too loud in this tiny, silent space. And it carries the scent of him into her lungs, warming her chest. The thumb pressing just below her lower lip is a burning contact point, begging her to take it into her mouth. To lave her tongue over it slowly.
Insanity. This must be insanity.
A deep, throaty chuckle barely registers over the static in her mind. âMaybe someday.â
Someday what?
But he leans back, settling against the tile with a smug look on his face, and the electricity dissipates. She is left dazed, confused, and flustered, wildly trying to find some sort of grip on what just happened.
âYouâre going to lose your balance like that, sweetie.â
âI⌠what-â a sense of dread settles low in her stomach. Then, mortification, as she realizes she was leaning closer, chasing the strange electricity that had evaporated as quickly as it had come.
I shouldâve fucking punched him.
She grinds her teeth together to avoid aiming one at him now.
"Well, apparently you're beginning to feel well enough to be your usual infuriating self," She leans back to stand up, deeply grateful to not be sitting on the hard tile anymore. "So, you likely don't need my help anymore, and you can make your way back to the N109 zone."
His smile is devilish. "So quick to leave your charge behind. Unfortunately, i doubt I'm in any shape to get back to my ride with the sun still out. And the gauze will need to come out in a little while anyway, so i can heal them faster."
"And?"
"And, since you've done such an excellent job with the bandages, I can't exactly manage that myself. So, I'll be needing your further assistance. Unless, that is, you mean to leave me to me own devices."
Absolute motherfucker.
She quickly starts assessing her options, there has to be some sort of out.
"I could just leave. Luke and Kieran can help you when you get back."
He gives a little nod, "You could."
The "but you won't" hangs unsaid in the air between them. Her better nature has backed her into a corner, and they both know it.
An irritated sigh escapes through her teeth as she holds out her hand to him, "Come on, I don't want all my hard work going to waste because you pass out from the change in altitude, and you crack your head open or something."
"So very selfless, miss hunter," he grins as he takes her hand. She yanks him upright, though it takes considerable effort. He reaches out to brace his good arm on the shower wall to keep from swaying off balance, the remaining half of his sodden, ruined shirt slipping to dangle from his shoulder.
"Altitude sickness?"
He gives a small laugh as he steadies himself. She remains close by, honestly a bit worried he will end up in a heap on the floor. And God, what would she do then? He'd be too damn long and heavy to move effectively.
Better safe than unconscious.
She tucks herself back against his now-bare side, and quickly realizes that maybe, just maybe, putting the side of her face directly against him like this was a mistake. She can feel the muscle of him firm against the curve of her jaw, and his deep chuckle against her ear as it rumbles through his chest nearly makes her breath stop. Again.
"And eager to help, too. A model example of a hunter."
"I liked you better when you were bleeding out." She grumbles, vaguely aware of him shaking the last bit of his shirt off.
If I dont kill him or kiss him before sunset it will be a fucking miracle.
















