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𝔬𝔡𝔢𝔰𝔰𝔞 𝔴𝔦𝔩𝔡𝔢𝔯 penned by 𝔟𝔞𝔯𝔟 !

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⎯⎯⎯⎯  * ✰ outgoing 𝖘𝖓𝖆𝖕𝖈𝖍𝖆𝖙

[odessatm]

sclczcrs‌:

𝒈𝒂𝒃𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒂  :  did  i  just  sleep  for  14  hours  straight ?   yes 𝒈𝒂𝒃𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒂  :  do  i  need  snacks ?   immediately 𝒈𝒂𝒃𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒂  :  do  i  volunteer  you  as  tribute  ?   absolutely  .  come  get  snacks  w  me 

odessa : how you managed to do that is beyond me odessa : but am i impressed ???  most def odessa : i am HONORED to have the ability to do that w you  odessa : what kinda snacks are we getting ?  

[odessatm]

usrethan‌:

              “imagine,” ethan said, leaning over the small circular table of the hole-in-the-wall family breakfast joint he frequented, “we get our food, i tip the waiter a twenty because he was kind and asked me how my day was, we take teddy–” he raised the yellow leash of his retriever, who was investigating one of the flower pots near their table, “and we drive out to a beach for the day. we wait until nightfall, start a small fire, i have the brains to have already grabbed marshmallows, chocolates, and graham crackers–and, boom. we feast, we let ted pretend he’s part mermaid, we claim we’re foreigners who didn’t know any better if we get caught.” ethan grinned at the person across the table, knowing it was a selfish recurring wish of his to spend a day by the water. people had things to do, places to be–but sometimes you caught the right person at the right time, and sometimes they were up for the spontaneity of it all. that, mixed with a homeliness that fell on him and someone he loved at the end of a happy day, was all ethan ever hoped for and thought about. “thoughts, feelings, reservations?”

    it was almost COMFORTABLE to be sitting here with him , like old times. it was a familiar place to be , one she hadn’t visited in a while due to busy scheduling and overall avoidance of anything that reminded her of him. the set-up was still the same by the looks of it though she couldn’t be 100% sure. does anything look different to you ?  the question lingered in her mind since she sat down , but it felt like such a dumb thing to ask. however , being across from him was the most stress-inducing  thing she’d done all week. anything that felt remotely content was thrown out the window the more time had passed and the colder her food got. 

she listened to his proposal , mindlessly shoving a piece of strawberry around her plate in the process. her stomach practically flipping around like an acrobat on show night , to say it simply. ring-cladded fingers intertwined together as she dropped her fork , elbows now resting on the tabletop. “ are you asking me on a date ?  “ she blurted out , ocean hues looking past him and to the booth behind. it was a spur of the moment question , but a genuine response. it sounded like a date right out of her dreams , something so simple yet intimate. the thought of it drifted her away to better times between the two , ones that replayed when it got too late to be up or when the air got too cold for california weather. “ ... i don’t know why i asked that , “ she admitted , eyelashes fluttering as she looked down at her lap. if things couldn’t get more dicey , odessa had the knack to make it happen. “ i—i’d love to do that , though. if you still want to. where are we saying we’re from ?  germany ?  france ?  “

[odessatm]

holy crap, is that VICTORIA PEDRETTI over there ? nevermind, it must be ODESSA WILDER, that GAMING youtuber. isn’t it crazy that they’re TWENTY-TWO and already have  9.9M subscribers?  i heard that they’re known to be GULLIBLE, but also pretty ALTRUISTIC, just like a typical CANCER. (  dancing under purple fluorescents, the lingering fragrance of peaches and plums, manicured hands cladded in silver rings  ).

death & abuse tw

southern accent like that one cat video vc  well hi !  my name is barb and i use she / they pronouns. i’m super excited to write and plot with y’all aaand yeah , i hope y’all love odessa as much as i do !!!  her pinterest is right here if you’re interested and yeah , let’s get this mfing ball rolling !

background info

odessa didn’t have the best start coming into this world. she was born prematurely with underdeveloped lungs , so she had to stay in the NICU for about a week. her mother passed away a few hours after childbirth due to complications , but her last request was for her one and only child to be named odessa , the name of the city where she grew up. 

her father , already the abusive big bitch that he was, blamed odessa for her mother’s death since day one. 

growing up in their small trailer , he treated her like anything but his daughter. he was physically and verbally abusive , always taking his drunken anger out on her. however , the only thing that really stuck with her was him calling her a killer , as if she purposefully murdered her own mother. it didn’t do a lot to help in the mental health department !!!

through it all , she stayed like a light. a ray of sunshine. she wanted to be everything her father wasn’t , and that meant staying positive through it all. she tried her best to be a good person , putting everyone and everything before her own self because that’s what a good person does in her book !!!  

i mean she’s bound to crack under all the stress and lack of self care but we’ll get to that later eyes emoji

around the time she was sixteen , she landed herself a boyfriend oOOOoooH. he was very sweet and charming , everything she looked for in a significant other. long story short , he ended up being a big piece of shit as well and did everything her father did. she tried leaving a couple of times , but he’d guilt her into staying with him. 

the only thing that kept her sane was video games. she had a secondhand ps3 that she bought herself from her many days of dog-walking and played it religiously. it didn’t matter what game , she loved them all. from gta v to fallout 3 , she was all over that shit !!!  her friends suggested she make a youtube channel and despite how silly it sounded to her , she made one. it was just a hobby but by the time she was 18 , she had over two million subscribers. 

after gaining some more of a following and that youtube money started rolling in more steadily , she got up and left amarillo and moved to l.a. when she was twenty. it was a big culture shock to move from a small texas city to one of the biggest and most populated cities in america , but it gave her freedom. freedom from her father , her now ex-boyfriend , and from all the haunting memories that were left behind. 

since then , her following has only grown. it’s hard to stick out in the gaming community , but her calm approach to games is a breath of fresh air. she keeps her cool throughout her gameplays and keeps blowups to a minimal , so people find it hilarious when she snaps and starts cursing at the screen. 

personality

personality wise , other than being kind-hearted and an overall positive person , she can be very naive which has gotten her into many sticky situations djefnhrgn

she likes to believe in people , she likes to fix them and many have taken advantage of her offerings

other words , she’s dumb

sensitive with a capital s. can and will cry at anything remotely emotional

a hopeless romantic don’t even smile at her she will fall in love

however , she has HUGE trust issues and doesn’t stay with people for long if at all

loves her friends more than anything. she def has taken the mom friend role seriously

lives and dies by her aesthetics. all her gaming consoles / controllers / accessories are a cute shade of baby blue. would rather lick sandpaper than go on screen without lipgloss and her signature rings on. 

connections 

i say this every time , but honestly .... just fuck me up. i’m cool with anything and everything. friends , roommate(s) , people she collabs with , rival channels , enemies , fans , ride-or-dies , exes , crushes. just fuck it up !!!

[dailywomen]

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[movieprincess1998]

The Love Witch (2016) written and dir. by Anna Biller

[larmoyante]

She felt everything too deeply, it was like the world was too much for her.

Joyce Maynard, Labor Day (via larmoyante)

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