odysseus.

the most beautiful boy in the world.

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FINNICK ODAIR. a character study by nosta (28) she/her. this is a sideblog, main blog is @cashmiere .

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i just needed to see if i was right . @70th

"you're always right. it's scary, but oddly endearing."

annie is smiling, and it's still finnick's favorite thing to see in the whole world. when you grow up in district four, the ocean is the most beautiful thing you know you'll ever amount to witness before you're reaped and sent off to die. but then, annie smiles, and finnick realizes it's still the same it was before, back when she was just annie cresta from a few houses away, before she was even a career, a tribute, or a victor, or the love of his life. that despite everything they've put her through, every single drug they've put into her system to try and wear her out, annie is still here.

annie is still home. sometimes, it takes a while longer for her to come back, but she always does. just like him.

last year, annie forgot the color of the dress she was wearing when he first gave her a seashell necklace, and finnick cried in silence on the porch of the house, even after she reassured him she still remembered the whole date. maybe it's selfish, maybe he's just as selfish as they are, filling annie's mind with endless supplies of anti psychotics so she will stay put, but finnick wishes it didn't kill him inside, that annie couldn't remember it.

"you're wearing the dress," maybe it's a matter of coincidence; it probably is. she probably thought she'd look pretty in it ( and goodness, does she look stunning in anything she wears, but that dress is something else ), but tonight, finnick chooses to believe she finally remembered, "you, uh...you look absolutely beautiful."

she kisses him and laughs, it feels like time could just stop right now, he could die on his knees listening to annie laugh.

"happy anniversary," he gives a theatrical bow, offers his arm to her like he did that afternoon at the pier, "would you like to go on a date with me tonight, miss cresta?"

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You ever think about how the world handles finnicks trauma vs annies? Like annie’s “madness” is explained by her trauma, but nobody really considers finnick’s actions and behavior as a result of his trauma. Because finnick doesnt display his trauma in a “conventional” (ableist) way, it seems almost as if he’s not allowed to have any. His behavior is judged because it doesnt align with the idea people have of mental illness.

It also speaks of how the stereotype of the “mad” woman is almost seen as normal whereas a man with the same amount of ptsd cannot react like that. They always must do it in a “tough” way (take haymitch and his alcoholism).

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↪ 𝐹𝐼𝐿𝐿𝑂𝑅𝑌 ⅋ 𝐅𝐔𝐑𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 . ( a collection of sentence starters from season one of syfy's the magicians . adjust phrasing as necessary . this prompt will be updated as time goes on . )

it's always something with you , isn't it ? it's always an emergency .

look , this is your responsibility .

wow , nice trick . i'm sure you're a hit at parties .

so ... you think you're ready .

i called you . all weekend . where were you ?

okay , we have got to pull you together .

you can't run away hard enough , can you ?

i know where you were all weekend .

life is raw , everybody medicates .

i love you . call me , okay ?

am i hallucinating ?

come on , or you'll miss it .

can i start over ? please .

i'm going to make sure you don't remember a thing .

playing with time is such difficult magic .

don't bother trying to compare yourself .

it's good to be aware the world is blatantly unfair .

it's my fault that they said that .

if you think my family is some sort of advantage , you've been misinformed .

maybe i wouldn't let myself forget .

that was before i knew there was something else .

it's really okay if this is not your thing .

you're hurting yourself , & you're not okay .

i just needed to see if i was right .

we've been watching you for quite a while now .

hello ? do you need help ?

you feel right because you're starting towards your destiny .

for some reason , you're involved . so be involved .

look , hold that thought , okay ?

i'm obviously coming with you .

there's no such thing as safe magic .

what is this place exactly , besides a health hazard ?

you ask a lot of questions .

jesus , you didn't tell me you were dangerous .

it's a little bit bigger than messing up .

there's a bad story every few years around here .

can you just help me live with myself ?

i'm gonna tell you something deep & dark & personal now .

i'm trying to tell you , you are not alone here .

i don't know . i wanna be your friend , i guess .

you should hate me right now .

the last thing i wanted to do growing up was read fantasy .

let's just say life wasn't exactly non-stop fun growing up .

if you're guilty , i'm guilty .

come do something stupid with me before you go .

okay , you know what ? i'm not interested in your personal issues .

this isn't just some lark to me , just so you know .

i mean seriously , what do they expect , you know ?

look , you can't run away from you .

there's nothing i can do in this moment to stop the comet from crashing into the earth , is there ?

i keep trying to tell myself that this is somehow better .

you don't see color & want to go back to black & white .

you can't help , & i can't help you .

what the hell was that , you maniac ?

why would you ever trust anyone ?

i'm willing to teach the right people what i know . & i know a lot .

you're lucky i can fix this .

hey , have you heard of karma ? sometimes it's instant .

i'm generous with you , considering .

get me everything on this list . this week .

why even ask , if you'll just forget it again ?

that's not a real answer .

you're a much better liar than i expected you to be .

do you think you have a destiny ?

there is no destiny . no born heroes .

you can either step up to it or not , that's up to you .

this is your problem , that you should solve !

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Finnick thinks Annie is grossed out by him being into pain and lending total control… finnick my boy have u even thought that Annie might also feel catharsis by BEING in control

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“hey,” running her fingers through the damp, curling ends of his hair, annie tugs on them until finnick’s head rests against her breast, his body crushing hers. “you left me for a second.” @70th

"you stopped 'cause you thought i couldn't take it. i saw it in your eyes."

he doesn't like dragging her into this. perhaps, if things were different, if annie wasn't such an essential part of his existence, he could do without touching her, without feeling the softness of annie, the scent of annie, the jagged nails raking across his flesh. but finnick is weak, and because he is so weak, he caves in every single time. and he loves it at the moment, because it feels real, because it allows him to go away to a place where he's not the capitol's hearthrob. because there are no snake tongues wrapped around him, or touches that make him feel sick. nobody pleases him in the most sickening of ways.

it's just annie. just his arms around annie, his tongue on annie, his hands on her skin and hair.

finnick hates it afterwards because it feels like he's doing to annie what they do to him. he's heard the whispers, he knows what people assume he seeks annie for. and he hates the way he begs annie to choke him until he can't breathe at all, to tie him up, to do what she wants to him because he loves her, he loves her madly, and the idea of corrupting her with his fucked up thoughts brings terror to him.

"it felt like you were scared i was gonna pass out," he's rubbing his hands together, as if he's washing them in a frenzy, as if he's desperately trying to get rid of the filth on his fingers. he shouldn't do that, all his fingers have on them is annie now, sweet, beautiful annie, "i didn't want to tell you this, but i wanted to... pass out, i mean. i know i've never done it around you. i don't give a fuck, i just wanted--"

you're so fucking selfish, finnick. you're so fucking bad to her.

"i'm sorry. i'm so sorry," he focuses on her heartbeat for a moment, seeking to ease the panic rising up his throat like bile, "i'm so fucking sorry, annie."

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Capitol people writing rpf about finnick . capitol people writing trashy erotic books about finnick. Finnick is this world’s harry sty/les

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Finnick has an ear piercing on his right lobe 👌🏻

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An odesta playlist maybe? 🥹

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This song is giving that poem from finnick to annie!!!!

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finnick: i'm fine, really!

annie: you keep referring to that fish you're gutting as "mr snow"

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Just my personal opinion, take it as you wish , but even if finnick hadnt been trafficked by snow, he would still engage in hypersexual behavior and countless sexual affairs as a coping mechanism for his ptsd and fetishization of his persona from such a young age. His bpd’s response to trauma is hypersexuality and Self-destructive behavior.

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“I’d kill for you. Please ask me to kill for you.” “No.” Is a top tier ship dynamic no I do not take criticism

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The idea of a person being capable of incredibly immoral acts but held in check but their love of their partner sends me every time

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yes

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pairs well with this one

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@70th pls Annie 🙃

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finnick "what do you mean it's not a good idea to dress my son up in an octopus costume for his first day of school" odair

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"so, congrats on the baby."

they're being watched, from the corner of his eye, finnick can see not only the security cameras in the studio lingering on them, but also caesar flickerman's security team looming closer as they speak. and because he is particularly good at playing dumb, he never flinches, keeps the same charming smirk on his lips as he shakes peeta mellark's hand with slow, steady movement.

"just one year into your games and you've already got a bun in the oven - quite the fast swimmers you got there, baker boy," one time, the new wife of a relevant judge from the capitol told finnick she wanted him to impregnate her so her child would be 'as beautiful and manly as he was', because her husband was 'old and ugly and didn't have fast swimmers like he did'. at age seventeen, after hearing that, he puked twice inside her bathroom. for some reason, right now, that memory refuses to go back to the depths of his brain, "take good care of her, baker boy. treat that girl like she's liquid gold," keep her alive, no matter what. i will do the same. @sunpersists

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not me sending @70th random ic asks because i'm bored during a zoom meeting

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Finnicks sense of humor is an odd combination of : sexual innuendo + Self deprecating jokes + dad jokes