i found solace in the strangest place, way in the back of my mind. i saw my life in a stranger's face and it was mine. i had a one-way ticket to a place where all the demons go, where the wind don't change and nothing in the ground can ever grow. no hope, just lies and you're taught to cry into your pillow but I survived
❛ ✶ ( BRUNA MARQUEZINE , CIS FEMALE , SHE / HER ) . who the hell is blasting ALIVE by SIA at one in the morning ? nevermind , that’s just CLARA DOS SANTOS from APARTMENT 1404 . apparently , they are a TWENTY TWO year old DANCE TEACHER from NEW YORK CITY , and they’ve been living at the complex for THREE YEARS . i heard they can be a bit - RETICENT , but they make up for it by being so + CANDID — which makes sense , considering that they are a VIRGO ! when i think of them , i imagine HER OLD BALLET SLIPPER, WAY TOO MANY SCRUNCHIES & GIFTS FROM HER STUDENTS . and of course , don’t forget to follow them at ( @TOSANCLARA ) !
hello my loves! i'm barbie and i'm currently rewatching hamilton for the 342th time just for the sake of it but i'm here to tell you guys about my little babe clara. feel free to add me on discord 𝒋𝒖𝒍𝒊𝒂'𝒔 𝒈𝒊𝒓𝒍𝒇𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒅#7581 and give this a like so i can message you and love you and your muse down.
TW: EATING DISORDER!!
AESTHETICS
“fuckin’ right i’m relentless, watching from tall windows as the world passes them by, scrunchies, neat notes, loves going to museums, dipping your feet into a swimming pool, a steamed up mirror, the rooftop of a building, breathless laughter, knows directly when someone can’t be trusted, sheepish shrug after winning, dancing alone in your room at midnight, coffee stains, takeaway coffee cups, a girl is a gun.”
STATS
name: clara dos santos
age / dob: twenty-two, august 26th
gender: cis female
pronouns: she / her
orientation: bisexual
occupation: dance teacher
sun sign: virgo
mbti type: istj
BACKSTORY
the first time clara managed to execute a perfect arabesque was the day she finally saw sincerity in mother's smile. being carried from rehearsal to performances, barely staying in her mother's arms for too long, clara learned from a young age there was only one way she could have her mother's attention and that was through dance.
since first day of pre-ballet classes, she knew she was born to perform and be a great name in the company just like her mother. she worked more than the other kids, rehearsing until crazy hours everyday to get every solo there was. and in time she it, she became one of the best dancers they had, being second only to her mother which at that point felt like first place for her.
that was until puberty, when her body began developing and she didn't fit the companies' standards anymore. she was constantly caught over the weight they had set for her and went as far as starving herself for days to fit a performance outfit, only to pass out minutes after her set.
with her temper, she would often engage in arguments regarding her weight either it was within the company or in her house, being talked down by her mother for not losing enough pounds again. the winter show was the final straw, at seventeen years old, when she figured out a couple of minutes before entering the stage that her mother had her replaced for their duet performance. she stormed out without saying a word and never came back.
the next day she was out of the house, sleeping on her grandmother's couch until she managed to get a place for herself and never spoke to her mother or anyone from their old company again. she took a break from dancing for a while, trying to focus on school and finishing her senior year.
upon graduation, she regained her love for dancing when one of her grandmother's neighbour asked her to help around her little dance school. she’s now working hard on that and trying to become the teacher she never had. she wants to create a safe space for people who want to grow up and follow the career she once dreamed of.
she’s also trying to figure out who she is after all these years that she only lived to follow her mother footsteps
HEADCANONS
she's still a very disciplined person from all the years she had to be that and she can get really competitive over the silliest things.
the kids are the only ones who get to see her good side because with others she's often really direct and sarcastic in any chance she gets. she's extremely judgmental and holds nothing back, something years of having classmates look down on you taught her, she's always defensive, waiting for someone to come at her so most of times she'll take the first step.
get her a few drinks though and she's that girl you meet in the bathroom calling everyone pretty because that's who she wishes to be all the time.
