Inspiring Title

The first half of 2013 I lost 20 lbs and was the strongest I'd ever been. I moved to The Greater Boston area in October and my habits crumbled. Now I'm back where I started a year and a half ago and I am going to try again. Girl, 16, 5 ft 8 1/2 in Current weight: 165.8 lbs Goals: •155 lbs - Shorts •150 lbs - Sweatpants •145 lbs - •140 lbs - long summer dress •135 lbs - bikini •130 lbs -

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I'M SICK SO EVERYBODY BINGE, UNTS UNTS UTNS UNTS

I feel so bad, I just want to get better so that I can go to zumba!

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052614

I did pretty well yesterday. Went to zumba in the morning and didn't binge on candy even though we just got a bunch of stuff from Europe. Sadly, we had a sub for the zumba class, who sucked soooo bad, but I still got the same work out.

I woke up this morning with a very sore throat and I might blame the pineapple for that. I had some last night, and I've heard somewhere that might be the cause of it. To feel better I just had a yoghurt and some tea for breakfast. I might take something more though.

I don't have any particular work out planned for today, so we'll see if I'll be able to keep myself within limits.

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052314

Walked to and from school, and mowed the lawn too. Simple, but good. The froyo plans were cancelled. Good? I feel a bit hungry at the moment, but I think it's just because I'm bored. Tomorrow it's time for zumba! It's going to be so nice since I couldn't go any other time this week. I did go 3 times last week though, which was nice.

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Okay, so I downloaded MFP instead of fatsecret. I let myself have food until I reached the mean of my budget and my need to stay the same weight. The big breakfast disrupted it all, but with the help of LOTS of pretzel nibblers I got through my day.

At the moment we have no fruit, no good bread and no frozen pineapple at home. THAT WILL CHANGE THOUGH!

I walked to and from school. It's about 1.4 miles. Not very much, but it's uphill/downhill and I go there almost every day.

I'll be getting froyo with some friends tomorrow. It's "fat-free," but I don't believe it. (Seinfeld, hmmm...)

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052214

Last night I binged and fell asleep on the couch. When I woke up (at 5.30...) my stomach felt awkward, my teeth disgusting and my whole body sore. I just had 2 bowls of cereal with a glass of juice, which is a lot, but it's better than my normal post-binge breakfast. My plan for today is to walk to school and also to download fatsecret again.

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Dragged myself to the gym. Ran only 15 minutes because the machine decided that it didn't want to keep on going after a while. I was too let down to start over so I did two sets of the same arm routing I tried yesterday.

I didn't have a very good start to my day today. I woke up post-binge and felt awful (still do), but what is worse is that I didn't even have sore arms from my last work out. I was looking forwards to that so much! That's the reason I decided to do some sets again today: to see if I can feel sore tomorrow at least.

Breakfast was alright, but I should've eaten just cereal and milk. I had 3/4 of a bagel, a red apple and a cup of black tea.

I'm feeling quite sick right now, which is not very fun. Especially not since we're going to an amusement park later.

Keep on fighting is the only thing to do!

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Good news: I'm still sore! Planning to go to the gym tomorrow morning to do some arm exercises and hopefully make them sore as well.

Bad news: Ice cream will be, and is, my fall. All other foods I can control, but ice cream, that's something else. I ate a lot of it tonight, but I forgive myself.

Went grocery shopping with my family, and since it's weekend they wanted bagels. I'm going to try to eat a half and maybe an apple? Maybe a bit more depending on when we're eating lunch.

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Wooooww... I'm so sore that I can't even sit down in the car without moaning audibly ^^

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It was sooo hard to get out of bed this morning to go the gym. I did it though!

I hope today isn't another of those I-am-hungry-all-the-time days.

Just finished my breakfast of cereal, milk and apple.

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Third visit to the area gym today. Did a work out called "Plump Glutes Circuit" that I reblogged on my fitspo tumblr a while back. It consists of various exercises in three sets. I only had time for two of the sets, but OMG THAT WAS ENOUGH. There was this weird numb feeling in my legs afterwards, but I guess that means results?

Good news is that I can now eat lettuce without making faces ^^ I ate a ceaser salad at Starbucks yesterday and I actually forgot the dressing and still enjoyed the salad.

Today is one of those days when I get hungry real easy. I'm trying to eat many smaller meals so that the total calories don't add up to too much.

Weighed myself in pounds for the first time ever today. Turns out I now weight 149 lbs/ 67.5 kg... All my clothes that never fit at 72 kg still fit me and I don't feel too big. Still, I'm not satisfied, those 7 kg will be gone!

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Right. I've now moved to Boston! Feels unreal, but here I am. I've been able to talk to my family about a simple set of food rules that we really need to follow. A major one is that we eat pretty standard during weekdays, and then get to eat some treats during the weekend. That will make sure we enjoy the actual treats more and that we don't eat it as much.

I want to go opposite of the 'trend' that people come to the US and they gain weight because of all the cheap fast food and the humongous amounts of candy and snacks everywhere you go. I've done that once, but now I want to instead become leaner and healthier.

It might be hard, but I find comfort in all of the fresh fruit and vegetable markets I see everywhere. Luckily, Boston is a very active area where there are loads of gyms and people running everywhere. Where I'm staying at the moment there is a large gym which I used for the first time yesterday, and plan to keep on using as much as possible.

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I should start running again.

I mean, I'm moving to Boston. I HAVE to start running again!

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Okay,

today was okay.

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These past few days have been the worst. I've been sick and I'm pretty sure I've been eating a few kg of ice cream. Today I'm still sick, but feeling tired of my horrible sleeping and eating habits. I wish I could just commit, but I guess this constant struggle makes me stronger? I hope so.

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Had an awful binge last night and I'm starting over for the I-don't-know-how-many-th time.

I'm going to start eating fruit, and cereal + milk for breakfast. The milk is dairy, the cereal is grains and the fruit, well FRUIT! The only part missing is the protein.

Before my 10 kg weight gain which led me to where I was 6 months ago, I used to eat cereal and milk for breakfast every day. Back then it was chocolate flakes (I was 12, don't judge), but now I'm going for the puffy, fiber kind.

To be honest I've been counting calories for the past 3 weeks now. I wanted to teach myself more about portion control, but I decided after my binge yesterday that I'd stop again. Just like last time I did profit from counting though. I've eaten at least one kind of vegetable with my school lunch every day because they're low calorie. I'm now able to eat tomatoes without makes faces...

I'll be moving to Boston in exactly one months time, and I want to be healthier when settling in. I feel like it's going to be harder there because of the abundance of junk food and overall ready-made food.

A positive change lately though, is that I've got new coaches for volleyball. I do love my old coach, but she was too nice. My new coaches incorporate strength twice every practice, and I've had sore muscles constantly for one and a half weeks now.

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Weighed myself this morning. I expected to lie between 63 and 64, but... The scale said 65. I was completely shocked and I am still trying to make sense of things. I DID have a MASSIVE binge this weekend. Seriously, MASSIVE. What was so strange is that my pants were REALLY loose today. I could seriously fit both my hand in at the waist! My theories:

1. Gained a lot of muscle. I know that you don't gain muscle that fast, but I am so confused, and I have been doing lots of volleyball lately.

2. Still holding food from the binge in my stomach. I don't think so, but could be?

3. Gain, but that I don't feel it. I could have gained on other places of my body than my stomach?

I really don't know, but I'm treating it as a gain.

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Very sore from the volley I played on Wed and Fri. Was inspired by the strength we did though, and did my own strength-stretch program. It took me about 40 minutes and it felt SO good.

Having guests over tonight and going to the movies, so there will be food in great quantities. Probably lasagna and candy.