I'm Old

honestly

[extramadness]

[4nimalparty]

[benvironment]

I think this might be the most Scottish photo I’ve ever taken! An hour ago at Loch Stack in Sutherland.

[ogiichan]

I think I’m really going to do it this time. I feel so stuck. 

[ogiichan]

I’m nothing. I don’t feel important at all. It’s so hard to be content all the time when your nothing to anybody. I feel so unwanted. just unnecessary 

[ogiichan]

I’m glad nobody is reading these. I don’t want to bring others down by having them know how much I’m struggling right now. I say I’m struggling but I’m doing great? What’s wrong with me? Why aren’t my meds working anymore

[ogiichan]

How should I kill myself? I’m thinking about just driving into a wall reaaallly fast. Sorry about the car..

[ogiichan]

I’m sick. I’m trying to sleep and I can’t. I feel like I’m going to cry, I’m hungry, I hate this. Nothing is feeling real right now. I’m thinking about ending it all again. Maybe a week from now. Maybe monday? I’m not sure how.

[ogiichan]

I keep getting sharp pains in my head. I just don't feel like I care about anything. I don't know what to do.

[ogiichan]

I really don't understand why I feel like this. I'm taking my meds thatve always worked.

[ogiichan]

I thought I was done with this. the whole me wanting to kill my self stuff. Even with my meds the thoughts started creeping back about a week ago.