Oh, Apathy

My heart is nuclear

[oh-apathy]

I wish I could talk to you it’s probably not a good idea. I would most likely be a trigger

Still lost

my hair is longer.

I’m a teacher now

[oh-apathy]

Lost

[oh-apathy]

Hi

[feral-ballad]

Franny Choi, from Soft Science; “Shokushu goukan for the cyborg soul”

[Text ID: “I am / just trying to sleep. To feed. To fill / myself and grow larger from it. / Or: I am only trying to slither back / into my first skin. / Or: I am only trying to remember how it felt not to leak.”]

[feral-ballad]

Nayyirah Waheed, from Nejma

[Text ID: “all the women. / in me. / are tired.”]

[feral-ballad]

Aria Aber, from Hard Damage; “Rilke and I”

[Text ID: “Whether you want it or not, in you sleeps a woman of war,”]

[oh-apathy]

My hair is longer now I look like my indigenous ancestors

[tulipsofthemorning]

slip slidin' away.

[sumeiru]

redbeanbaby

[oh-apathy]

When you’re too tired to cry so you just lay on the floor eating hot Cheetos and scroll through TikTok

[sumrot]

[oh-apathy]

I’m a mom, student, wife, employee

But I just want to feel like me again. I don’t know who I am

I’m gaining weight and breaking out. My clothes are too tight or too big nothing fits right. I can’t write like I used to my lack of motivation is killing me. First world problems lol

My dad laughs at me and asks if I have ever actually struggled in life.

[oh-apathy]

“And you could hurt me but you wouldn’t know what to say.”

[oh-apathy]

I feel explosive…

I’m tired and I need sleep.

I’m so anxious all the time and I don’t know how to calm myself down. I should probably sleep

[oh-apathy]

Te voy a comer como un perro salvaje

[azacello]

Wishing myself a very dark academia move as I change houses for the 7th time since coming to med school feat. my usual desk set up

[feral-ballad]

Dulce María Loynaz, tr. by James O’Connor, from Absolute Solitude: Selected Poems

[Text ID: “I am not I. I am barely my own shadow.”]