Not going to be a princess that needs rescuing anymore. I will be my own hero. I have been so submissive to your selfish hedonistic ways. Changing and adapting myself to fit into the ‘right’ girl for you, to live in the little box that you drew for me. I completely lost myself in your vision of the world. In a world where you don’t have to work hard to achieve things, in a world where you felt insecure about the car you drove, in a world where you hate on luxurious goods because you won’t appreciate the craftsmanship, in a world where you belittle my desires.
It feels almost unreal the boys in my past, that at one point, they were the most important person in my life. That my life revolved around theirs. This could not be more far from right. This is my life after all.
You’ve taught me to say ‘no’. You’ve taught me the value in sticking to my guns. That there will always be those who doubt you, and even if they are close, to retaliate. To fight for my life. You’ve taught me how dangerous love can be in the wrong hands, that there will be people in the world who will step on you to feel better about themselves, even at your lowest points. You’ve taught me that I can not be in a relationship where there is no affection and love.
You’ve taught me how to love better, how not to lose myself again.
