I deserve better

I’m no longer engaging with the systems which want me constantly smaller and daintier and out of the way. I am a human with value regardless of my weight.

[ohesthetic]

see this whole blog is so wild now because like. now that i’m basically healthy? i am so ashamed of myself. like i tried to keep boundaries with my “no kids” rules and deleting posts that got rb’d a lot because i didn’t want to promote it for anyone but like. i did. i did promote my eating disorder i caused active harm in the world

[pupppylover-deactivated20181221]

real winnie the pooh drinking honey 

[chuck-e-cheese-anime-faces]

so epic…….,..

[otherworldlydreamer]

self love as told by winnie the pooh  🍯

[sheisrecovering]

Now when I look in the mirror and start to have a negative thought, I don’t stop and say “you’re beautiful, you’re gorgeous, I love you, you’re perfect the way you are”, because I don’t believe that. So what I say to myself is “you’re healthy and I accept you. And that’s all I need to do is accept you.” You express gratitude in the health, and express reality and accepting yourself rather than convincing yourself of something you don’t believe. — Demi Lovato on Ashley Graham’s Pretty Big Deal

Follow my new instagram for my blog!! I recently changed my personal account as well so I’ll be switching the handle back soon 😊 Looking for recovery accounts to follow back (personal or not)!

[giveyourselfcredit]

[cockroachmotherfucker10]

If recovering from your eating disorder means that you “lose control” then

[desultory-suggestions]

You are worthy, even when you don’t feel like it.

[attainablerecovery]

[ ID: tweet by @/larsaddams: “this may seem like an obvious message but i know some people still need to hear it: eat when you are hungry. rest when you are tired. you don’t need to “earn” it. you deserve to have your body’s most basic needs met simply by merit of being alive” ]

[ohesthetic]

i’m keeping all the contents of this blog up because i’m a writer and someday i’ll be ready to talk about all of this, and i want access to all of the feelings i had when i was sick

[themauvesoul]

Hate diet culture so much bitches will b like “don’t eat processed carbs they’re so bad for you” like and??? So what?? God did not give us grain and stone to grind it with for no reason. Bread is inevitable. Bread is food for the heart and the soul. U think I’m gonna give that up in pursuit of instagram fitness?? U think I’m gonna deny myself the simple pleasure of toast with jam so I can endlessly chase an ever-shifting standard of beauty that ultimately means nothing? In 20 years I will no longer be beautiful and in 60 my body will be vacant food for other, smaller creatures. But the taste of fresh bread? Of homemade donuts and still-warm pie? I will carry the taste on my tongue into whatever follows this life. So like. Stop telling me I should diet lmao. I’m not abt to martyr myself just to get a man to look at me.

[ohesthetic]

i feel incredibly trapped by the knowledge that even if i lost enough weight overnight that i stopped hating myself, it wouldn’t be enough. i have big hands and thick wrists and wide feet and no amount of weight loss will change that. i have round cheeks and chubby fingers. i am destined to always be large.

[dykecostanza-deactivated2024112]

the horse in brokeback mountain when jack and ennis just started fucking in the dirt

[mwagneto]

losing my MIND

[dragelton]

[mwagneto]

[taurus-deactivated20210526]

[justcatposts]

Cutest photoshoot ever 

(via)

[cockroachmotherfucker10]

Hey, whatever drove you to your eating disorder, I just wanted to say I’m sorry.

Weather it was a fatphobic comment overheard during class, or bullying, or a “health” obsessed parent, or a society saturated in diet culture, or trauma, or anything else; I’m sorry.

You were wronged. You may never hear it from the people or things that influenced it, so hear it from me.

You deserve better.

I’m sorry.

[hope-recovery-strength]

Friendly reminder....

That food is simply a conglomeration of energy and nutrients that help power your cells which keep you breathing and thinking and moving

That calories have no moral value

That weight is an arbitrary measure of your relationship to Earth’s gravitational pull and in the scope of the universe the difference between Earth’s gravitational pull on any given human compared to any other human is infinitesimally insignificant

That the mirror will lie to you

That you are not a bad person for taking care of yourself or nourishing yourself or addressing your needs or taking up space