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I have to let you go.

I'm afraid of what that will mean. And so because I am afraid I am doing it. This is the summer of facing my fears and not letting them consume me.

I'm almost positive it's because today he's moved on.

Most days I'm fine. I cope well.. but today.. I don't know why today feels like this..

It's a complicated set of emotions

You need space And I want to give you the world You need time And I want to give you mine You need to be apart And I want to be apart of you Matter fact Better yet It's more like this You need space Baby, I'll give you galaxies I'll enroll in astronaut academies Just so I can give you all the space you need (the moon, stars, and heavens, included) You need time I'll go back into the trash can containing all the time we wasted bickering arguing fighting We knew times But I'll recycle it Baby, just so we can know new times You need to be apart Baby I respect that Dont you ever neglect that Im not your God or your setback So if you need to take a step back Ill be holding the map warm while your gone Protecting the vision weve had for so long Doing my best to make you feel supported While God takes his time on you, making you perfect. Ill lead us in prayer while He leads you heart...I promise

You ever have a day where it feels like someone knocked the wind out of you? And then every time you manage to catch your breath they knock it right out of you again?

Trying to hold onto something

Anything Just a little something.

Introduce all of yourself

Be real from the jump Thank God for Lauren Hill

I just need a place where I can be completely honest

Without worrying about judgment So tumblr it is lol...

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LMFAOOOO

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BUT WHERE IS THE GIF OF RALEIGH AND PENTECOST FROM PACRIM????

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Bruh … the last gif is fuckin gold.

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1. Roadtrips 2. Doing nothing with someone 3. Putting a smile on a stranger’s face (in a non creepy way) 4. Taking photos 5. Wearing exactly what I want to wear 6. Dorkiness 6a. My dork-radar going off letting me know that they’re an oddball too

7. Not having to say anything 8. Being able to say anything 9. Finding shoes in my shoe size (shoutout to the #bigfootedgirls) 10. Spontaneity yielding serendipity

(This is a work in progress)

11. One on one conversations on the train

12. Making sure service sector employees feel seen and appreciated

13. Laughter with strangers

14. Transnational Solidarity Movements

15. Singing Hillsong music as I walk down the street

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16-19. THAI FOOD

20. Punny humor

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21. Writing down stories I’ve never told before

22. Hope

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23. Preaching and evangelism

24. Being with him after getting off stage and feeling like I got a sneak peek into the future.

25. Warm days

26. Thrifting at name brand stores--challenge accepted

27. Coffee Mate coffee creamers

28. Candles

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The Project

is one of self-love.

Like an anchor hitting the ocean floor, it struck me with grace & force that I can’t give what I don’t already have.

Love isn’t meant to be an amalgamation of references—drawing from what I’ve seen others do, how I’ve seen others love, and picking and choosing the actions I want to reenact.

A healthy Love, like a healthy plant, needs deep roots in fertile soil. I neglected tilling my inner ground a long time ago…well, more like abandoned it.

He’s let me know with grace and force that it’s time for my Reclamation Project. And it starts right here

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It’s time I pick up where I left off

Life is never being ________ enough.

Never having the right _______.

Life is constant discomfort in __________...

Life is a venn diagram; one circle is always you and the other changes with every person who you think has something you’ll never have. They’re always the right circle because you think you deserve to be (the) left. In the middle, where they intersect, is always the same commonality--your motivation and self-disappointment--you’re both human.

Life is good days and bad days

It’s highs that make you feel like Uranus

And lows that make you feel like your anus.

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Life is

searching for everything that will make you happy

Life is running for

the look, the talent, the validation, the love,

and running in a huge circle.

Life is ending up right where you started only now with cuts and blood

because you ran right into the mirror--

which started this whole mess.