hi everyone, it’s vivi. i am the person that @ofyourwarmth got close to on tumblr, as mentioned by @tenshiyudai. since the time i met isabelle, i have deactivated a couple writing and personal blogs because i don't like to dwell on things and lowkey i'm mentally ill. although, i'm regretting doing that now with all this coming to light. my previous personal blog was @pink-lemonadefairy / @fairyofthehollow, which i've since deactivated. before i did though, i changed the url to peanutbuttercupcake or whatever i don't remember exactly, so maybe that'll ring a bell for some people. anyways! i'm now active on this blog. i stumbled upon tenshi's post this morning in a LECTURE of all places through a mutuals reblog. obvi i couldn't focus because my head was spinning (and still is) so i thought i'd just explain everything from my perspective.
i want to share my side of the story to really drive home the fact that isabelle did some fucked up shit. for months, i believed i was genuinely crazy and ruined a perfectly wonderful friendship with someone i cherished very much, only to recently find out i had (sort of) been right all along. i let go of this whole situation, but finding out i was right about a lot of things makes me feel very validated. i do want to properly move on and process everything, and i hope writing this post will help me do that. this will be the first and last time i speak about this situation publicly. i'm sorry if everything seems all over the place, i truly thought i would never speak to isabelle again after our last conversation back in june and i would never have to think about all this again. i tried (and did) let go of things, so my memory might be a bit hazy. this might be really long and maybe it'll be difficult for some people to believe, but i can swear on my whole family and my dog that everything i'm going to say is true, even when i can't provide proof (due to deleted accounts). take my word for it or don't, but i have zero no reason to lie because i seriously don't have time for this shit.
so last summer, i created a blog called @blumisiu where i posted fanfics for boynextdoor and posted other k-pop related things. this is where i met isabelle. at the time, her blog was called pupdolls which soon changed to dollvrse. i remember liking a few of her posts and reblogging some of her work before we actually started talking to one another. one day, i sent her an ask and mentioned at the end of it that if she ever wanted to talk about our silly little kpop fantasies together, my dms were always open. she ended up reaching out to me through tumblr dms, but we quickly moved to discord (which she suggested) as it was easier to chat there. i had previously added her, because she made a post sharing her account and to be honest, i loved her posts and really wanted to be her friend. sue me!! i was trying to be more open and outgoing.
we ended up talking every single day, mostly about boynextdoor. there were moments where we'd share personal things to get to know one another, but for the most part, we mainly spoke about k-pop in the beginning. over time, we became very close. we continued to message every single day, and we shared our writing with one another. we would vent to each other about personal issues. she would come to me with any ideas she had about a story, and vice versa. i would even write personal blurbs for her if she was going through a particularly hard time to show my love and comfort her i guess. she did the same for me many times. i remember her posting a couple of fics for me. off the top of my head, this is what i remember:
how sweet (riwoo x reader)
glass bead (enhypen jake x reader)
some kind of anton fic (college / friends to lovers / growing up kinda thing. it was short)
i'm not sure if anyone will remember, but on @blumisiu i posted pas de deux (sungho x reader), which was for isabelle. i also posted an euijoo fic for her (pretty in pink) on @bananielle (a new blog i made last september) for valentine's day, aka isabelle's birthday! which, i was told by tenshi, she was lying about. she is in fact not a february baby. not even close.
we shared our birthdays in the old discord chat, and she told me it was february 14th. we had this convo in may, and here you can clearly see she says her birthday was three months ago, which would be februrary.
anyways. my memory is a bit foggy, but i remember me and tenshi becoming mutuals on twitter some time in january. isabelle had sent me a few of their threads and one thing led to another, and we started talking. they are so lovely and talented and we ended up having a lot in common. i'm not going to be detailed about this for privacy reasons, but over the next couple months i noticed similarities that were more than coincidence and being close friends. isabelle liked everything that tenshi liked. from favorite animals, to favorite foods, to favorite movies, to biases and songs and artists, etc. they liked similar things for very similar reasons.
a lot of other things over the next couple months made me decide to eventually go to tenshi and ask about what i was seeing, but the biggest thing for me was when isabelle said she was joining tenshi on their family trip in december. when i tell you she messaged me about every little thing they were doing...she texted me about the flight, how jet-lagged she was, their itinerary for the day, what outfits she packed, etc, etc, etc. i genuinely thought she was there with them. she sent me lots of photos, too. i should also stress that her going on this trip would put us in the same time zone, which she texted me as if we were. how the freak she did that i don’t know. i really don’t know. unfortunately, i do not have any screenshots of these interactions because i deleted my old discord (chococheezcake), and that's where we were speaking during this time.
just a little while after me and tenshi became mutuals on twitter, we followed each other on instagram. i noticed the exact same photos that isabelle had sent to me during this trip in tenshi's highlights. i thought i was looking too much into it, but something told me i was right in being suspicious and thinking the whole thing was weird. this is getting way too long ummmm. anyways i kept everything inside, told myself i was crazy and i couldn't just confront someone about such a huge thing based on a few instances and a gut feeling.
as tenshi has now revealed, isabelle did not go on this trip with her. the entire time, she was lying to me about visiting all of these places and doing xyz.
a couple months go by, and i continue to notice similarities and situations that made me believe tenshi and isabelle were the same person. i know this sounds batshit insane and it might be hard to believe with little proof, but i say this with absolutely everything in me that something was not right and things weren't adding up.
one day in june, i had enough. i decided it was better for both of us for me to be an adult and simply ask what was going on rather than pushing it away. it wasn't fair to either of us for me to keep it inside. i ended up sending a message to tenshi on twitter, explaining my concerns and saying i was really confused. i explained that i thought her and isabelle could possibly be the same person. i was not mean, not accusatory, nor did i pick apart their personality or whatever and target them. i truly, genuinely just wanted an explanation as to why i was seeing so many similarities. i will not share that convo between me and tenshi because it's private, all i'll say is that it was short and ended in me apologizing and saying to ignore whatever i said. later on that day, isabelle sends me these messages and we have this convo that ultimately ends our friendship:
i defo lied when i said i never had doubts about who she was as a person and i had gotten over it for a long period of time. i lied bc i was so scared of losing her; if admitted to having doubts about her i felt like that would really put the final nail in the coffin and idk. i just wanted to try and save the friendship i guess. i really cared for her. + also i will absolutely take full accountability (and i did back then, too), that i should have gone straight to isabelle about any concerns i had. me and tenshi had spoken yes, but we weren't very close. i took full responsibility of this and apologized to isabelle and tenshi about this. i have since deleted my responses and my chats in this discord conversation. i did it around late august or early september. i had finally confided in a close friend about the situation at that time after keeping it to myself for a few months. after doing that, i felt ready to really let go. it sounds messed up, but i wanted to push back or whatever against isabelle and take away everything i ever gave her in our friendship; whatever kindness and comfort i ever offered her. no, at that point i did not know she was catfishing me, all i know is that i took a hard look at our last conversation and felt she treated me unfairly. i deeply understood her standing up for her friend, but i never understood how she weaponized tenshi's autism and used it against me, sort of implying that i had an issue with them and who they are as a person. i would never, EVER, in my life do that to someone. after she mentioned this, and went on about how they're just super close, i felt the need to stress that my issue was never about how close her and tenshi were as friends, nor was it tenshi's personality. i had valid suspicions about them being the same person. the line got blurrier and blurrier as time went on, and i was looking for some kind of explanation. that was my one and only concern.
i admit i was very emotional and sensitive at this time. i was panicking and wondering if i had truly just fucked everything up for no good reason. i was not logical or stable. i ended up sending a message to her the next day i think, or just a little while later, that was basically a goodbye. even though isabelle said we just needed some time apart, i truly believed she would never want to speak to me again after what i did so i figured saying goodbye first would hurt less. she responded to the message, but i didn't trust myself or my emotions so i deleted discord, basically leaving her on delivered. a couple weeks later, after lots of thinking, i knew i needed to apologize to isabelle and tenshi. i did so, and i took accountability for my mistakes, but i also said i didn't regret bringing it up because it was seriously something that was bothering me and getting in the way of me and isabelle's friendship (mostly on my end).
all she said was to keep a package she had sent me. we weren't regular penpals, but i had sent her a letter for her birthday earlier in the year and she wanted to return the favor. i told her i was not going to do that, largely because i felt so guilty about hurting two friends and causing so much disruption. there were photocards in there and a letter from isabelle, as well as a necklace tenshi made for me and some photocards from her, too. i felt like i was abusing the kindness from them both by keeping the package, and that it would be very selfish of me. i sent it back as soon as it arrived (literally a day or two after the whole confrontation).
i spoke with tenshi earlier and she informed me that isabelle took the package back. all she gave tenshi was the necklace and a couple photocards, but she's kept the rest of her stuff too i guess. wild asf!!!
i did not speak to isabelle after this final interaction, and i did not speak to tenshi after i sent my apology. since june, i have not interacted with either of them.
i believe i'm partially the reason isabelle deactivated, though. maybe the whole reason. i want to stress that i was not looking for this, like i was not actively seeking this out, i just happened to stumble upon this post. i will not share the blog or the screenshot of the ask, but basically, i was looking through an &team blog because i read one of their posts in and team x reader tag and i really liked their writing so i wanted to check out more of their stuff yeah whatever you get it. basically, this ask was from @ofyourwarmth, and in it, she mentioned "her" height. it was not her height!! again, i do not have proof of this (it’s on my deleted discord acc) which sigh just makes me sound like a psycho but isabelle told me multiple times that she is 5'1 (154cm i think). i also had a conversation with tenshi early on in our twitter dms where she told me her height and that isabelle had always been a couple inches taller than her. basically!!!!! isabelle was using tenshi's height in the ask.
i know it's such a small, minute detail but truly this felt like some kind of sick gift from the universe that could possibly confirm my suspicions. because why are you saying you're xyz when you're not?! why would you lie about your height!! why would you be using your friends height instead like what!! in short, i sent her an ask about this. here is the response and her confession:
u are the motherfuckin inbox like what even. i couldn't message her on tumblr bc she didn't follow me, and i wasn't going to risk asking her to do that. like what if she blocked me. i didn't know how she'd respond. i took an impulsive and emotional risk and regretted it for a second, but now i'm so glad i said something! mind you, this was the first time since JUNE i had spoken to her. i had not been bringing up tenshi's name around her prior to this. also the audacity to act like you aren't in the hot seat rn... like YOU have explaining to do the fawk. also i never asked for proof in my ask, and i also NEVER asked for proof back in june. i just wanted an explanation vro🥀
things isabelle lied about (the more major things anyways):
going to a boynextdoor concert with tenshi. she texted me before she left and sent me photos after the concert was done. she said taesan completed her hand heart thing when that actually happened to tenshi and it was riwoo who did it.
when we first met, isabelle told me she was living in japan. at one point, she said she would be applying to fashion school elsewhere (though it was somewhere she had grew up). around october-ish, we spoke about her moving back and starting this new chapter of her life that she was so excited for. come to find out, absolutely none of that is true. she never lived in japan, nor is she enrolled in fashion school, nor does she have housemates, despite telling me these things. in the second to last photo, you can see that her "housemates" made her food - if you check the date, it clearly comes after her experiencing that "heartbreak", which is another thing she lied about.
this is when she apparently flew back to visit her family in japan. &team were having a concert there at the time and this is what she had to say about it.
used tenshi's heartbreak as her own....for some reason. reheating someone's nachos of despair...right. in april, i went the states to visit family and i distinctly remember isabelle coming to me totally heartbroken about a guy. she sent me something she wrote as her way of "coping" -- girl bye. it was really tenshi going through all of that and writing that story. i believe she even posted it to tumblr if i'm remembering correctly.
if you read @tenshiyudai 's post then you can see some of the work that isabelle stole from her. unfortunately grrrrrh, isabelle sent me these messages on our old discord chat (small interruption bc i don’t think i mentioned it but i deleted my old discord acc and made my new one around late march) but i remember her talking to me about the catboy taesan fic, sending me drafts and asking me to beta read it. i also remember her sending me that racer heeseung blurb as well as the 3:30am fic with euijoo. i vividly remember her speaking about her writing process and why she even wrote it in the first place. she said something like basing it off of rose's music video i think and she was just struggling a lot at the moment and needed the comfort. here are some instances where she spoke about the camboy nicho fic she STOLE and her writing in general.
there's more, but this is the gist of it and i also don't want to share isabelle's business (like her real identity or whatever) because it's not my place and clearly she's been going through something to act like this. not that it's right, but i don't feel it'd be productive to give out her personal information or whatever.
as i was writing this i realized i sound absolutely insane but i swear on my heart i'm not making this shit up. i'm not creative enough to do that plus i'm lazy as shit. there's much more to this -- so many more "coincidences" but this post would be way too long if i mentioned them all and i'd probably sound even more wack. i am seriously going off of my memory here, that is how many times i've turned this situation over in my head. literally over and over again for months. my brain is melting so i'm going to end it here.
i believed everything isabelle told me. i confided in her about things, i took the time to write things for her when she was struggling, i put a lot of time, energy, and effort into our friendship because i cared for her so much. i truly thought (and hoped) we would be friends for a long time. we spoke every single day, and to find out she was fake and fraudulent that whole time is a lot to process. when i first started getting suspicious, i told myself i was crazy and needed to relax. over time, though, i couldn't ignore it. my intuition knew something was not right. i could feel that i was being lied to, even though i didn't know exactly how. i could sense the dishonesty and saw the lines being blurred from the get-go. truthfully, i'm insulted that she thought i was dumb as a fucking rock and i'd never notice what was going on. while i'm hurt, i already grieved our friendship, so i am not going to waste my time dwelling on it anymore. i knew deep down i was right, about something, at least, and i'm happy the truth came out. so remember folks, always listen to your intuition and be mindful about who you speak to online!!!!
please show lots of love to @tenshiyudai and acknowledge that they are the person who put the time, effort, and love into writing the works that isabelle stole. i know a lot of people (myself) included, adored her writing -- that love, attention, and adoration deserves to be given to the rightful author. ♡
tagging some moots n ppl i saw interact w tenshi's post 4 awareness sorry for dragging y'all into it: @blueberrybeomgyu @ruasgrl @eyesforfuma @joocomics @zynz0
