Hi friends! I just re-downloaded the Sims. (I got a new computer) and I think I want to come back and post again! People left the kindest comments on my last post and I genuinely want to say thank you for those. UMM, I kinda wanted to talk about what happened, not because I think anyone is just DYING to know, but just to use this as an outlet to talk about it. Trigger warnings ahead: honestly a lot so just read at your own risk.
January of last year, I found out that my step dad had r*ped me on my 21st birthday. I'm 30 now but I had always had a bad feeling about the events of that night. My mom and step dad had taken me to a bar my mom frequented for my 21st. My step dad had designated himself as the one to stay sober and take care of me that night while my mom got wasted. I remember being bombarded with drinks and my step dad refusing to let me drink any water. At some point I remember asking to stop taking jello shots but he pressured me to keep taking them. I remember tossing them under the table when he wasn't looking because I felt so sick. The last thing I remember is playing beer pong with my step dad and he literally was holding me up while playing.
Everything else is from witness accounts. Apparently before we left I went outside with him and he got me high as well, we were out there for a while and came back and he immediately told everyone we were leaving. My mom made the decision to stay at the bar and keep partying while my step dad dragged me out of the bar, barely conscious.
The next thing I remember, I'm waking up naked in bed next to my step dad. I had bruises everywhere, including a large bump on my head. I did not leave the bar with these from what people have said. My step dad said that I threw up on myself so he had to undress me and shower me off. So why did he not put me in something else? I could have easily fit into my mom's clothes or even his. How did I get all these bruises that looked like I got into a full on brawl? I fell a lot, apparently. Why didn't my mom come home with me to make sure I was okay? She's always prioritized partying over me.
I always had a bad feeling about what happened that night but it was my step dad, the only father figure I've had and he wouldnt do that to me, right?
It was confirmed that, yeah, he definitely would and did. I won't get into a story that isn't mine but I'm not his only victim. My step sister, his biological daughter, was his next victim. He started assaulting her when she was 14, just a few months after my 21st. He assaulted her until January of last year when she finally told me everything and we got him arrested.
I've lost family over this, including my mother and grandmother. I've felt immense guilt because I felt that if I hadn't gotten so drunk or done a million things different, maybe he wouldn't have r*ped me that night and maybe he wouldn't have started doing it to my little sister either.
I'm still working on a lot because of this and my depression and anxiety have been the worst it's ever been but I'm doing my best.
I got a new computer, new phone, and I'm starting over. Thanks for taking the time to read this if you did! There's so so so much more to the story but we'd be here for hours if I went into it all but yeah, just wanted to get it out there if anyone was curious and if you've been through something similar I'm so so sorry and I'm here for you.
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