Pairing: Nurse Cameron Cade x Nurse Black Fem Reader
Cameron woke up first, feeling slightly disoriented. Every attempt to open both of his eyes seemed futile. He was feeling the effects of five consecutive nights on shift. Valentine's Day was on the horizon, and he wanted this year to look a little different.
It would be the first time he could properly celebrate the holiday without some looming exam over his head. Heck! Most of your dates for the first two years of your relationship were study dates.
Now that he had a year of nursing under his belt, he could start enjoying the beautiful things in life again. Which, in this case, meant advancing his relationship with you. Cameron was working up the courage to ask you to move in with him. You both happened to work at the same hospital, but stayed in apartments ten minutes apart. He was sure of his feelings for you, and he was good at reading your body language to gauge if you felt the same way. He was ready to take that next step.
Besides, there was an entire drawer Cameron cleared out for your scrubs when you spent the night. Which explained why your side of the bed was made and empty. Dragging his eyes to the side, he saw you standing in the bathroom getting dressed. Take down your rollers for a heatless curl look. Rollers that Cameron was roped into installing when you couldn't properly roll the ones in the back of your head.
It was soothing in a way to watch you pull apart the curls. Leaning into the mirror with a determined look. Ensuring that the voluminous look you were going for was achieved. Cameron got out of bed and approached you in the bathroom. Like metal to a magnet, you had a gravitational pull to him. Kissing your shoulder, he resumed watching you fluff out your hair in the mirror.
"Hi handsome." You greeted. Rubbing the growing patch of stubble underneath his chin. A place your fingers frequently traveled when you were in his presence. You were trying to convince Cameron to let the stubble grow.
Cameron wasn't totally convinced of the change, but if it was something you really wanted him to try, then he would give it a shot.
"I didn't know you were going in today?" His morning voice was so raspy, that he nearly jumped from the baritone alone.
"Gigi texted me that they are short-staffed for tonight. Two people called out."
Cameron hummed. He could imagine how the conversation played out. The blunt, foul-mouthed woman ran the Emergency Department like a military boot camp. She was everything you could ask for in a chargenurse. She offered her assistance, stepped in when you were clearly overwhelmed, and didn't allow patients to give her staff any shit. Cameron has heard the stories of Gigi, a 4'10 Filipino woman who goes toe-to-toe with physicians in the lobby.
Having registered now what you were saying, Cam stood up straight.
"Wait that means you are working on your birthday."
"Yeah."
"Sweetheart, you know how you get after working nights. You are gonna be too tired to celebrate."
"No, I won't. I promise." You excused herself from the bathroom. Stripping quickly to put on her scrubs. Always finding a way to add personality to the navy blue scrus. A scrub vest was pulled snug over a loose white shirt. Scrub pants flared at the ankle, touching the OnCloud sneakers.
Cameron followed her silently to the front door of his apartment. In his mind, he found himself reciting a Lil Wayne lyric.
'I hate to see you go, but I love to watch you leave'
You should have known that if you had turned around, you would have seen Cameron a little dejected. You could never resist his face when he was in this state. You stepped into his space once more, arms over his shoulder.
“I’ll be back sooner than you know it.” Kissing his cheek. Walked back near the front door. But you felt him pull on your scrub vest.
“Let me give you something to look forward to.” His hands secured themselves on your rib cage. Between the kisses, you could feel Cameron smiling. Your lips found a way to move in sync. But you had to be at work soon and couldn’t allow yourself to get too swept up in Cameron’s arms.
“I really have to go,” you murmured against his lips, reluctantly pulling away. Cameron’s hands lingered on your waist for just a moment longer before he let you go.
“Be safe out there,” he said softly, watching as you grabbed your bag and keys.
“Always am.” You flashed him one last smile before slipping out the door.
The drive to the hospital was quick at this hour. The sun had already set, and the city lights blurred past your windows as you mentally prepared yourself for the shift ahead. Working nights in the ED was never predictable, but something about tonight felt different. Maybe it was the fact that you were spending your birthday in the chaos, or maybe it was just intuition.
You pulled into the hospital parking garage, found a spot near the back, and made your way through the familiar corridors to the Emergency Department. The automatic doors slid open, and immediately, you were hit with the unmistakable energy of a busy night. The waiting room was already packed—patients slumped in chairs, a child crying in the corner, someone arguing loudly at the check-in desk.
Stepping through to the main ED, it was clear this wasn’t going to be an easy shift. Gigi was at the nurses’ station, her small frame somehow commanding the entire space as she barked orders into the phone. She spotted you and gave a quick nod of acknowledgment, mouthing “thank you” before turning back to her call.
The board was lit up like a Christmas tree. Every room occupied, patients waiting for beds, others waiting for labs. The controlled chaos you were used to, but tonight it seemed amplified. You dropped your bag in the break room, took a deep breath, and jumped straight in.
Three hours in, you were already running on fumes. The cute blowout was now wrapped up on the back of your neck, probably puffy now. You’d assessed three patients, started five IVs, and helped transport someone to the ICU. It was uncharacteristically busy tonight, and you couldn’t help by regret picking up the overtime tonight.
The only thing decent about the shift was one of the other nurses on it with you. All of them are type B nurses. Always prioritizing patient safety, but not afraid to crack a couple of jokes along the way. The second good thing was that since you were so busy, you hadn’t had a chance to notice how fast the time was going.
Having a couple of minutes between meds, you sat down in the breakroom, sipping from your water bottle. Your phone was impressively still on 97%. Only eight minutes left until the clock struck midnight. Then one of your coworkers entered the break room. You didn’t think anything of it, it was getting to the point where people started taking their lunch breaks.
Then another one of your coworkers entered the break room. Then another. You had a growing suspicion that something was happening; soon enough, there wouldn’t be any nurses on the floor. But an eerie chill went up your spine when Gigi peeked her head into the breakroom.
Looking up you were milliseconds away from saying something when the breakroom door opened one more time. Cameron entered, holding a single cupcake. It was lit with a candle in the middle, and you could tell it was your favorite, chocolate.
Like a choir, your coworkers started singing happy birthday to you, while you sat in your chair, robbed of words. All you could do was look to Cameron with a knowing look, feeling he was behind this entire plan the minute you told him you had to work today.
When the song ended, you stood up and blew out the candle, your coworkers erupting in applause and cheers. Your heart felt full despite the exhaustion settling into your bones.
“Thank you, everyone,” you said, your voice thick with emotion. “This really means a lot.”
Your coworkers filed out one by one, offering hugs and birthday wishes as they returned to the floor. Soon, it was just you and Cameron in the break room. He set the cupcake down on the table and pulled you into his arms.
“You really did all this?” you asked, looking up at him.
“Of course I did,” Cameron said softly, brushing a stray curl from your face. “You think I was gonna let you work on your birthday without doing something special?”
You kissed him, slow and sweet, tasting the smile on his lips. “I’m really grateful for you, Cam. Thank you.”
“Happy birthday, sweetheart,” he whispered against your forehead.
The moment was interrupted by Gigi’s voice crackling through the hallway. “Hey! Birthday girl! I need you in room 12. New admission coming in hot.”
You groaned, pulling away from Cameron reluctantly. “Duty calls.”
“Go,” he said with a grin. “I’ll be out here passing out cupcakes. Try not to miss me too much.”
You rolled your eyes playfully and grabbed your water bottle, heading back out to the floor. Room 12 was at the far end of the hall, and you could already hear the commotion before you got there.
Meanwhile, Cameron grabbed the box of cupcakes he’d stashed behind the nurses’ station and started making his rounds. He handed them out to the staff with a smile, chatting easily with a couple of your coworkers near the med cart.
“You’re setting the bar real high for the rest of us, Cameron,” one of the nurses teased.
“Just trying to make sure she knows she’s appreciated,” Cameron replied with a shrug, though his smile was genuine.
He was mid-conversation when he heard it—a loud, aggressive voice coming from room 12.
“I don’t care what you need! Get your hands off me!”
Cameron’s head snapped in that direction, his body already moving before his brain caught up. He recognized your voice next, calm but firm, trying to de-escalate.
“Sir, I just need to get your vitals. If you could just—”
“I said don’t touch me! What, are you deaf?”
Cameron’s jaw clenched. He set the cupcake box down and walked quickly toward room 12. Through the partially open door, he could see you standing near the bed, hands raised in a non-threatening gesture, while a disheveled man in his thirties glared at you with wild eyes.
“Sir, please sit back down,” you were saying, your voice steady despite the tension radiating off the patient.
“Or what?” the man spat, taking a step toward you. “You gonna make me?”
That was enough.
Cameron pushed the door open fully and stepped inside, his presence immediately filling the room. His expression was calm, but there was an edge to it—protective, unyielding.
“Hey,” Cameron said, his voice low and firm. “That’s enough.”
The patient turned to him, sizing him up. “Who the hell are you?”
“Someone who’s not gonna let you talk to her like that,” Cameron replied evenly, positioning himself slightly between you and the patient. “She’s trying to help you. So you’re gonna sit down, let her do her job, or we’re gonna have a problem.”
The man scoffed, but something in Cameron’s tone—or maybe the way he stood, solid and unbothered—made him hesitate.
“You threatening me?” the patient asked, though his voice had lost some of its venom.
“No,” Cameron said simply. “I’m telling you how this is gonna go. Sit. Down.”
For a tense moment, no one moved. Then, slowly, the man sank back onto the bed, muttering under his breath.
Cameron glanced back at you, his expression softening just a fraction. “You good?”
You nodded, your heart still racing but grateful beyond words. “Yeah. I’m good.”
“Good.” Cameron stepped back but didn’t leave the room, leaning against the wall with his arms crossed. A silent statement that he wasn’t going anywhere.
You took a breath and stepped forward again, reaching for the blood pressure cuff. This time, the patient didn’t resist.
When the LORD your God brings you into the land He swore to your fathers, to give you–a land with large, flourishing cities you did not build, houses filled with all kinds of good things you did not provide, wells you did not dig, and vineyards and olive groves you did not plant–then when you eat and are satisfied, be careful that you do not forget the LORD.”
– Deuteronomy 6:4-12
.When the LORD fulfills His promises and blesses us we tend to become comfortable and forget the LORD.
The Word of God counsels us to:
“Seek the LORD while He may be found; call on Him while He is near.”
– Isaiah 55:6
The danger of not spending any time with the LORD is that the longer we do so, the less we will come to depend on Him. Consequently we will not call on Him because we have grown distant from Him
If you have not made a habit of prayerfully studying the Bible, praying and seeking the LORD, I urge you to start now. He loves you and wants you to experience the joy and peace that comes from being in a close and loving relationship with Him.
“But even if we, or an angel from heaven, preach any other gospel to you than what we have preached to you, let him be accursed. As we have said before, so now I say again, if anyone preaches any other gospel to you than what you have received, let him be accursed.
For do I now persuade men, or God? Or do I seek to please men? For if I still pleased men, I would not be a bondservant of Christ.
But I make known to you, brethren, that the gospel which was preached by me is not according to man. For I neither received it from man, nor was I taught it, but it came through the revelation of Jesus Christ.”
-Galatians 1:10, the letter of Paul, the Apostle of Jesus Christ to the early Christian church in Galatia (written in 48-49 A.D. from Syrian Antioch, Paul's home base at the time, shortly after his first missionary journey.)
Dear Heavenly Father, as 2025 draws to a close, we thank You for Your constant presence through every joy and challenge. Thank You for unseen blessings, lessons in trials, and moments of grace. Forgive our shortcomings and heal our wounds. We release this year's burdens into Your hands. Fill us with hope, wisdom, and purpose for the year ahead.We trust the future to Your unfailing love. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
𓈒 ˙ ꪆৎ ꣹ ۫ 𖨂 𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 . .. . fallen entertainment idol!tyriq withers X tech balancer!black!fem!reader. ||
+ 𓍼 synopsis. it’s 208X and in this new age of advanced technology and humanity, shortly after a child is born, bio-ware linked implants are fused seamlessly into their brains and into their left forearm. when a deadly, digital poison awakens and spreads like wildfire, it plunges society into chaos, not only disrupting essential services and stacking insurmountable debts onto families, but threatening the very fabric of the implants. so, to avoid literal disintegration and contracting this virus or letting it consume, the two enhancements are shut off. now, survival depends heavily on charge chips ..
+ 𓍼 what to expect. an established acquaintance-ship. client & patient. tyriq is very sneaky & plotting. opposite social statuses! dollops of poor scientific / technological information. i’m a black woman in computer science & this futuristic / cyber society has always fascinated me! // this is a veryyyy old idea i had for a kpop fandom i was in! i use to write for stray kids & bts omg wordcount :: 3.6k++
─── NOT FOR ENHANCEMENT USE. DESIGNED FOR BIOLOGICAL STABILIZATION ONLY. EXCEEDING BASELINE MAY RESULT IN NEUROLOGICAL FAILURE, the warning was neatly printed into the carton’s backing.
“Wouldn’t it be cute if ..” turning an empty carton in her gloved hands. “.. I’dun’no .. There was a ribbon? Like, a cute one. Green. No - Purple. And neon, of course.” A quiet huff of a laugh. “.. With lettering.” Now, with her mouth curved, just a smidge. “I’m thinking: Nakko’s Circuit. Real classy.” And she just wanted to be included. More than she had already been.
NIKKITA JOCELYN .. or, known on the track as NAKKO JOSS .. used to run races with her name stitched across her back and sponsors stacked shoulder to shoulder along the car’s flank. By twenty-three, she was a brand unto herself; paid premiums for her image, likeness plastered on billboards, holo-ads, clubbing attire, perfume bottles, glassware sets, and other luxury goods. She was one of the few women ever to crack the top tier in a world still obsessed with men behind the wheel.
Then the virus hit.
At first, it was almost invisible. During a qualifying round in Monaco, her forearm implant lagged by a fraction of a second. Next came the canceled interviews. Medical checks became excuses for absence. Her name disappeared from schedules, replaced by safer, healthier drivers. Precautionary suspension, they called it. Temporary. Sponsorships evaporated. And security credentials stopped clearing. Contracts auto-terminated themselves.
Her car; a purple Toki GTZ, the sixth make of its kind, was reassigned to a rookie with cleaner diagnostics and no risk profile. Newsfeeds stopped using Nakko’s tag, and when they mentioned her at all, it was in past tense.
And she fell. Sliding rank by rank until the world stopped saving a seat for her. It was sad, truly, how the world liked things labeled. Even millennia into the future. Sorted, catalogued, stamped, into one of the four: Lower. Middle. High. Ultra-Wealthy.
Anyways, Nakko’s Circuit? Nope, it didn’t exist. Officially, there was nothing there to shut down. Functionally, it kept people alive. It ran as an illegal, pay-in, but tolerated, rotated (to avoid pattern detection) race-loop webbed into abandoned infrastructure; old freight tunnels and transit spines. Collapsed overpasses. Service roads.
Winners didn’t take trophies. First, second, and third place walked away with two charge chips, plus two hours of access priority with you. And no, you didn’t bill for installation. Though, you have been contemplating it. As evil as it may be.
Charge chips were physical, single-use power and stabilisation cartridges that temporarily replaced what the implants used to do spontaneously. They are, quite literally, the only thing keeping the human body from rejecting itself.
“I can tie some reallll tight bows,” letting the words brush past your ear like a secret. Nakko pulled a stool underneath her weight and folded her arms over the worktable, the chilled top eating at her forearms. Between her fingers, she toyed with your Strippit tool now: its matte black frame warm from hours of use. “Green’ll look sweet against that dark .. color ..” more to herself than you.
You let yourself picture it then; neon cutting across and looking like something meant to be given. Which, it was. A reward for a good job done. A congratulations for that race won. An introduction to a new life, for up to two full weeks. But a finishing touch. .. Ehhh. “No.”
And that didn’t come off as mean.
Then, she asked why you had never brought any of her creative suggestions to life. Before finding Nakko how you did, you had a solo operation going on; building absolutely anything and selling it to keep food in your father’s belly and his medication within reach. Through your foggy gaze, there had been no room for color, or flair, or whatever that didn’t serve a purpose. If it worked, it stayed. If it didn’t, it went back on the table to be peeled for parts.
It was awful how he was done. In another life, you and your father would share a clean, nice home somewhere high above the city, among the Ultra-Wealthy. But, as it always happened .. inventions from the less-fortunate were stolen and rebranded with a new face. A rich face; that made a promise to better the future.
“Because ..” you began slowly, choosing the honesty that hurt less, “I’m pretty sure the last thing anyone’s worried about is whether it’s got a green or purple ribbon.” You paused .. and quieter, “They just want their two weeks.”
Nakko watched how extra careful you were being bringing the charge chip into the palm of your hand. She was just as careful backing off and away from your workstation, now heading for the mini bar — when a hollow boom echoed through the space, followed by a screeeeeee.
You were startled hard enough that the chip jumped from your grip. For half-an-instant the device was weightless, caught between your fingers and the cracked tile below. You swore like a sailor under your breath and snapped your hands closed just in time, the cartridge pinching softly into your skin.
You held it there for a moment, fingers curled tight, letting the shiver pass before you decided to look up. One drop would’ve destroyed the casing. Two would’ve cooked it. Either way, whoever that was would’ve walked out worse than they came in.
You straightened and clipped the chip back into its cradle.
“You hungry?” AHN SUMIN stood in silhouette, stark black against the pink glare from the hall. You cocked your head at the voice, unsticking the goggles from your forehead and squeezed the deactivated lenses into the front pocket of your coveralls: “What is wrong with you?”
You extricated your arm from the safebox and wiped your hands with the grease-stained scrap of T-shirt you used for a rag. Sumin apologized lowly while lifting a bag high, the brown paper soaked at the bottom with the oil of cheeseburgers and two buckets of french fries.
The door thundered closed and the sound of Sumin's heavy boots, tracking prints from the rain, ricocheted around the high ceiling, dressed in navy blue overalls, their black hair neatly shorn, cyberware along their limbs scuffed and scratched from rough use earlier in the week.
“What do you want?” you asked when you were close enough to the bar that you didn’t have to yell. Nakko was pouring herself a glass of beer from the longneck bottle with one hand and the other was un-taping the brown bag of carbs. “I can't bring my favorite girls lunch without some ulterior motive?" Sumin put their hand to their chest in mock outrage.
You went for another question: “How’d you get in through the back?” Nakko answered first; not with words, but with a fry lifted in your direction, a little point of agreement: What she said. She bit into it after, eyes on Sumin now.
With one chewed fingernail, Sumin tapped the scratched entry card that hung at their belt, the plastic worn thin at its edges. It opened a door alongside the clinic. “Inventory Runner -“
“Former .. Inventory Runner.” Yeah. You fired Sumin. They were effective .. no one ever argued that. But they were careless in the ways that mattered. Corners cut. Absolutely sloppy. “What is this though ..?”
“Uhm .. cheeseburgers and french fries, I had a coupon -“
You scratched at an eyebrow, “No .. this. This visit. You want something.”
Sumin’s mass of necklaces made from copper wire and assorted junk collected in the shadowed V of their coveralls, jangled when they dropped into the stool opposite Nakko. "I saw the notice.”
You took one of the french fries for an excuse to look away, putting the whole strip in your mouth. "Notice?" You said once you’d chewed and swallowed, "What notice?"
And Sumin reached into their side pocket and unfolded the yellow paper. "Found it hangin’ out of your cubby."
You had woken up this morning to yet another yellow paper taped to the door of your apartment, its words printed in the largest font anyone could imagine: 96 HOURS TO PAY OR VACATE
Translation: you were about four months behind on your rent. So, unless you could get your hands on $4,450, you’ll be homeless and in the streets by the end of the week.
“Look, don’t worry ‘bout me.” You took a fry and held it to your mouth, “I'll manage on my own. ‘Sides, I’m .. workin’ on it.”
Sumin crossed their arms over their chest, expression flat and unimpressed. "How are you gon’a come up with that in five days?"
You shrugged, sucking the salt from your thumb and index. “What else do you owe?” Sumin wondered. The bar no longer held your attention. Without looking back, you stepped away, grabbed the carton from your work table, and pushed into the next room .. where your client was laid back, waiting.
“Sorry about that ..” You set the box down on the desk and pumped a glob of sanitizer into your palm. He shook his head in response, letting his eyes open. He tilted his neck, eyeing how you were stretching the safety gloves firm around your hands. “Saw what happened to your ride .. How’s it?”
What about me? an acknowledgment that, yes, he’d noticed your priorities. But that awareness became nothing shortly thereafter. “Mm -“ he hummed. “You watch the races then?” No, you didn’t. But word traveled quickly down here; in the Lower Down. You figured the biggest reason it spread so rapid was because TYRIQ WITHERS was a face from the Ultra-Wealthy and a name people knew even if they’d never seen him up close.
Tyriq fell like Nakko, but much faster .. impossibly fast. And it didn’t start with him, but his twin sister. He told you the story during the first installation appointment; getting it out of him took nothing, like the telling was already at the tip of his tongue.
Since their adolescent years, the twin’s have appeared in clothing ads; streetwear to tailored professional lines to soft, domestic pajama pieces. Grew into their big-boy and big-girl features and became icons for nightlife venues, casinos, and grooming products; like toothpaste, deodorant, body butters, shaving cream + the razor set, containers of floss, feet-scrubs + their creams, collections of shampoo&conditioner, lip balms and fragrances, even washing detergents. She, having the feminine equivalents.
She got sick. He was in contact with; being close made him a liability. And overnight, their campaigns went silent. Schedules vanished. Appearances were postponed indefinitely. Management couldn’t scrape together a thing. What made matters even worse, the twins were adults; the industry needed their next young duo. A duo to remind consumers that, yes, a reset is possible in dying times. It took a while, but the next duo were found .. surfaced within weeks.
Tyriq Withers and his twin were archived, but their images still flickered across idle screens; default visuals on devices that no longer recognized them as current. Like that tablet a few spaces off; a thin, translucent sheet of glass.
“No. But .. you’re important,” you told him, and his ears perked at that. “Don’t get me wrong - anyone that races for Nakko is.” His shoulders slumped. “But, you .. you come from up-above; the privilege.” You planted onto an exam stool and cranked the height lever. The wheels shrieked in protest as it rolled closer. “There’s been a chunk of ‘em dropping in, throwin’ bills at Nakko .. securing a spot. Eyes are on you ‘nd your folk. You are looked at as if you are undeserving ..”
He blinked.
“.. Undeserving,” you said again, and clicked down on a button at the side of the procedure chair. The chair whirred softly and your client lowered, coming to the crown of your knees. “‘Nd I get it. I do. You already have. Had.” Then: “But, why’s ‘t that when you’re dying .. do you get to come down here -“ He opened his mouth to interject, but you waved a finger: “Yeah, yeah. Unwillingly. I know .. but follow me, ‘kay? .. Why do you get to come down here, and .. wiggle your way into something built by -“
“Nakko.” They were good friends, did a handful of magazine covers together.
“Me.” You’d been kind-of fine on your own. But the charge chips didn’t start moving until Nakko came in .. until her name pulled racers. Together, it stopped being just work. It became something people paid to watch. Something that when won, kept people alive. And that changed everything.
You loved Nakko .. you did. But she didn’t have the brain to go all the way, alone.
“Nakko in?”
You kept the grin from splitting through. After reaching back for the cartridge box on the desk, you plucked the first chip free from its socket. “You’re getting greedy, Tyriq .. you know the rules. It’s unfair.” With his sister given the last pair: an extra two weeks of life, his options for a fix were once more scarce .. his mind and body depleting under the weight of betrayal and desperation.
You met his stare. It didn’t waver. “You get a win .. you wait out the two weeks,” you said, a reminder.
“Well ..?” Tyriq sighed real deep, eyes locked on your movements. “C’mon .. is she?” You took up a mini screwdriver, its handle cool in your grip. “You saw the damage. I need a new car. She can help me ..”
“I’ll relay the message.” The tip found the first screw along the seam of his forearm implant. A low click, then the slow turn .. one, two .. until the fastener loosened and rose free. You set it aside without looking. Another screw. Then another. The casing began to give, panel breaking free to expose the housing beneath. “How is she?”
“Alive,” he muttered. You gave a huff, outwardly asking for more. So: “.. She’s up, rolling .. again. I thank you, truly.”
A smile. “No. Don’t ’thank me’. It was you. You’ve been keeping her .. awake.” Tyriq wouldn’t take that. You deserved all of the credit. And you saw a sweet gleam in his eyes; the same one he’s had even two installations ago. “Be proud of yourself.”
You sealed his forearm casing. The inner system reworked itself; a status light pumped, then chilled. It needed a moment. The body always did.
You eased back, setting the tool aside, and didn’t reach for the brain chip yet. “You know the drill.” Tyriq nodded small and redirected his eyes to his hand. He flexed his fingers and a sensation returned in dizzying waves; the forearm was accepting what it had been given before asking the rest of him to follow.
“What kind?” you thought aloud, unclipping the next chip.
“What -? What kind’a .. what?”
“Car,” you clarified, finally glancing his way. “You need a new one, so .. what kind?” A pause. “I’m sure you’ve been through Nakko’s garage .. Anything catch your eye? What’re you considering?”
“Simple. I’d like something simple.” He did well with simple .. the last four races proved that much. And you knew you couldn’t talk him into something out of his standard, for pushing him now would feel like stacking the deck. Cheating, even. You figured. He was up, racers wanted him got.
“Why?” you asked anyway, curiosity pricking. “Though .. I’d be quite nervous too. You’re a newcomer, yeah. So .. it’ll take time getting used to the mechanics of what the Lower Down has to offer ..”
His mouth twitched, barely a smile. Barely. He wouldn’t be opposed if it had revealed itself.
“Used to things that did too much for me,” he answered, the other hand itching a spot at the back of his head. “Up-above, you spoke into th’car ‘nd it drove you. Always corrected you.” A mumble, and a deep breath: “Down here .. at least I know it’s my hands makin’ th’ mistake.”
The monitor flipped green, signaling the forearm was good to go. You leaned back against the desk, letting your hands rest for a moment. “You can be in full control of something that isn’t so simple,” you said, a teasing flick to your voice. “Flying, hm? How about flying?”
Tyriq laughed at you like you’d lost it entirely. He stopped. His eyebrows were floating, lips parting a fraction, a mix of disbelief and amusement flashing across his face. “.. Flyin’?” he echoed, the word tasting foreign on his tongue. He shifted in the chair, lifting his back from the cushion. “You .. you mean like - what? Up in’a air?”
“The only rule, as you know,” and with a grin, “is to get over the line first .. second .. or third.” You lean closer, letting your fingers tap gingerly on the edge of the chair. “Checkpoints aren’t just along the streets .. they’re up in the air, too.” That was enough to paint a picture; the twists, the drops, the vertigo .. he was sick to his stomach.
“I think I’ll stick to my simple,” a nervous laugh buried under that. Then, eager despite himself, “You pilot one’a ‘them F-22’s?” No. But the Lower Down had their versions; vehicles that took to the air on repurposed thrusters and borrowed tech.
“Somethin’ like that ..” You looked away to grab the carton, and placed it into your lap. “But I don’t - I haven’t, y’know?” A light shrug, one shoulder lifting. “I play around wit’it every so often. Tune it. See what I can do. .. But it’s a lot.”
“Show me sometime?”
And your head went left and right, “Ermm.” Not that you were embarrassed of that ride; the one from late junior year and upgraded piece by piece during senior year, it was that letting someone see it felt like handing over a part of yourself you didn’t usually explain. And Tyriq was just your client. This ease that he felt is meant to end the moment the work was done.
You didn’t make plans with clients. Didn’t blur things past the chair. You’d seen it before; clients mistaking professionalism for promise and friendliness for something owed. Wanting more time, more favors, more of you.
“It’s at Nakko’s,” you said automatically, “might’ve seen it before.”
“Nah. You got’a show me sometime.” It wasn’t flirtation .. at least, not exactly .. but it had an oomph to it. Charm. He was charming. Very. And his charm was effortless and not at all pushy. “‘M sure it’ll be fun,” he finished, like that settled everything.
“Mm .. Must not’ve found a group?”
Lump forming in this throat: “A group?” He didn’t realize you were setting a boundary.
“.. Friends.”
Without missing a beat: “You’re my friend.”
“No.” Which wasn’t cruelty. But now, he did understand that whatever friendship he thought was here, it didn’t apply. Not yet.
The workshop door cracked open with a nasty crunch, steel rails screaming against the frame. A sliver of blue light cut across the floor, and widened as Nakko pushed through.
To him, she offered a short, casual nod. “Hi, ‘Riq.” To you, her voice softened but carried a burden: “I gotta run for the day .. something came up.” She hugged her arms around herself, a baby sniffle betraying the ‘I’m-Fine’ look she conveyed.
You got up from the stool, mindfully, and took two gentle steps forward, hands open in a soft offering of calm. “What’s going on .. Joss?”
Her eyes switched from Tyriq to you, reluctance flashing there, then away again: “Sumin’s out. There’s like .. five fries left .. yeah, about. I had the last burger.” Nakko pivoted on her boot. You followed instinctively; two steps, three, before stopping small with a silent, frustrated groan. You turned back, suddenly remembering your client.
Tyriq had already slid off the chair, having tugged his jacket sleeves up and over both forearms, smoothing the fabric like he hadn’t just been half-open on an operating chair moments ago.
“What are you doing?” you snapped.
He stared up from his zipper. “What does it look like?” A chuckle. He reached for his gifted cartridge box, clicked the lid shut, and slipped it neatly into his pocket. “My sister’ll finish this for me. Thank you.”
“What?”
“Hurry,” he said, nodding at the wall. “Before she gets away.”
“Thank you,” you breathed, hardly loud enough for him to hear. Later, you’d realize it was a shit idea to leave Tyriq Withers in your workshop. But for right now, you were moving.
You shoved out of the clinic door and took off down the hallway, boots slapping hard against concrete slick with rainwater. Puddles had formed where the ceiling sagged and leaked, each crash-down sent cold splashes up your cargos.
You skidded to the open window at the end of the hall and leaned out, rain misting your face as the city rang below. Neon bled across wet pavement. Down at the curb, Nakko was climbing into a car, door swinging shut with a dull thud. The engine revved, lights bleeding before she pulled away, swallowed by traffic and rain.
Your chest stiffened.
You turned and ran back the way you’d come. The entire clinic felt wrong the second you crossed the threshold .. You went into your workshop; the drawer you never locked sat open, yawning. The rows of cartridge cartons were gone. Gone. Grew legs, hopped down, and gone.
It didn’t take long for the pieces to fall into place. Not with the timing. Not with the cartons. Not with the way he’d smiled. He stole from you. From your patients. “Fucking asshole ..”
CHASE INFINITI
Makeup by Amber Dreadon, hair styled by Coree Moreno and styling by Wayman Bannerman & Micah McDonald ahead of attending TheWrap Power Women Summit, December 2nd 2025
"This film was an incredible opportunity for me. And more than anything, I thought it was an opportunity for me to write a love letter to cinema, to all the things I love about going to the movies. [...] In many ways it's most important movie I've made, straight from me to all of you." - Ryan Coogler
SINNERS (2025) BEHIND THE SCENES (1/2)
Dir. Ryan Coogler
Hey girly! Maybe a Austin Butler x Reader where the reader is a big artist (like Beyoncé level or sum like that) and she was in a previous relationship with Austin and they broke up, until they meet up again and it’s sorta like a one night stand for a couple of days or over time, until one day they have like a sit down conversation about what they are. Her fans still think that they are broken up until the last night of her tour where they are spotted leaving together and the media kinda goes crazy. Just an idea! Luv your work!
PLEASURE OVER MATTER
He hadn’t seen her in years. Not on stage. Not on screen. Not in the flesh. But when she moved—hips golden-lit under spotlights, mouth wrapped around lyrics the world knew by heart—he remembered everything. The way she used to whisper his name like a prayer. The way his hoodie clung to her hips when she wore nothing else. The way love, when it was theirs, had once tasted like freedom and fever and something holy.
Now she’s back. Or maybe he is.
All it takes is one look. One name on her lips. One night.
And suddenly, the years apart don’t matter.
Because some fires don’t burn out—they wait.
Serafina Russo was not born—she was conjured.
There was no other way to explain her. No womb could have carried that kind of beauty. No bloodline could have passed down those features. She looked like the gods had argued over her design, each one desperate to etch a piece of themselves into her—
and somehow, they all won.
Her skin was kissed by something richer than sunlight. Golden, yes, but not warm—blinding. The kind of glow that burned straight through a man’s ribs if he stared too long. And Austin always stared too long.
Her hips weren’t just curved, they were carved—intentionally, like marble given mercy. Her thighs moved with the heaviness of someone too sacred to be rushed, too revered to be real. When she walked, the air shifted. When she stood still, time did.
Her lips were the color of sin, her eyes the color of every dream he’d ever begged God to forget. But there was no forgetting Serafina. There was no resisting her either.
He didn’t even want to.
In his mind, she didn’t bleed like other people.
She bled rosewater. She breathed incense. She spoke in a voice laced with silk and sharpened with scripture.
Serafina Russo was a cathedral. And Austin Butler?
He was the fool who walked in without kneeling.
She was a star—undeniably, irrevocably. The kind that didn’t just light up rooms, but rewrote gravity the moment she stepped into them.
Every breath she took was news. Every glance sparked theories. And when she moved, the world paused to marvel—
not just because she was beautiful,
but because she was unreachable. Untouchable.
She held enough power in the curl of her smile to make or break a man’s career, though she'd never use it.
That was the cruelest part of it all—Serafina didn’t even know the weight she carried.
She didn’t walk like someone important.
She walked like she was still holding a coffee in one hand and a script in the other, still laughing into Austin’s neck on a fire escape in Brooklyn, still his.
And once, she was.
There was a time before the cameras, before the headlines, before the stylists and the contracts and the world stretching their hands out just to touch a piece of her.
Back when her hair still smelled like his shampoo.
Back when her laugh was something only he got to hear, soft and sleepy against his chest, muffled by morning light and shared dreams.
That’s when they fell in love. When she was still Serafina, not Serafina Russo™.
When he could trace scripture across her spine with his fingertips and feel her tremble, when they lived off dollar pizza and chased auditions and swore they were going to change the world together.
He had found his faith in her body.
His home in her voice.
His salvation in the way she whispered “stay” like it was the only prayer that mattered.
But they were young.
Too young to know that even sacred things need tending.
They tried to grow a forever with no roots, tried to climb and carry each other at once, tried to build a cathedral on scaffolding.
And when it all fell down, neither of them knew how to save it.
Not then.
Now the world called her a muse, an icon, a phenomenon.
But none of them knew her like he did.
None of them knew the quiet Serafina.
The one who cried during toothpaste commercials.
The one who snorted when she laughed too hard.
The one who once clutched his hand under the table at dinner because the noise was too much and her anxiety was chewing holes in her ribs.
And Austin?
He hadn’t stopped loving that girl.
He loved her still—in the in-between moments.
In the silence between texts.
In the ache behind his ribs when he saw her name in headlines, smiling in dresses he’d never unzip again.
Because you don’t stop loving your religion. Even when the church burns down.
It had been years.
Years since he’d last seen her in the flesh—
and even longer since her voice last bent around his name like a ribbon, slow, warm, and impossibly soft, like it was something precious she didn’t want to break.
She never called him Austin. Never Butler, never some clipped placeholder tossed out for convenience.
No, from the very beginning, he’d only ever been sweet baby.
Sweet baby, come here. Sweet baby, look at this. Sweet baby, murmured against his collarbone in the dark, when she was curled around him like devotion itself.
Sweet baby, said with a sleepy smile when she’d pull him into the kitchen by the hem of his shirt, dancing barefoot to some old record neither of them knew the name of.
She gave the name weight.
Gave it heat.
Turned it into a thread that tied him to her, no matter how far he ran or how long it had been.
And God—how he missed it.
He missed the sound of her.
Not just the words. The texture of her voice.
That slow, syrupy lilt, poured thick with affection and always just a little amused, like she knew something the rest of the world didn’t.
Like he was the secret.
It haunted him in quiet moments.
In the echo of morning traffic.
In the spaces between piano keys.
In the silence that followed his name when anyone else said it—flat, weightless, meaningless.
No one else had ever called him that.
Not with her tenderness.
Not with her certainty.
Not like it was holy.
Was it inconvenient, the way her memory lived in him? The way her voice still stirred things he thought were long buried?
Yes.
It was maddening.
Unfair.
But so is any form of worship.
So is being remembered that way—utterly, ruinously, intimately—by a woman who once folded her entire world into the sound of your name.
And the worst part?
He couldn’t even hear her voice anymore.
Not in the real way. Not how it used to crack ever so slightly when she laughed too hard. Not how she hummed when she thought he was asleep. Not how she whispered "sweet baby" like she was tucking the words into his chest to keep them safe.
All he had left was the ghost of it.
And God help him, that ghost had teeth
But he was a mere man.
Flesh and flaw, stitched together with far too little discipline and far too much memory. So when the opportunity came to see her live—truly see her, breathing and brilliant and untouchably near—he didn’t hesitate.
Of course he said yes.
Of course he did.
And now here he was, seated in one of the exclusive VIP boxes that ringed the stadium like altars around a sacred space. Below him: thousands of voices chanting her name like scripture. Around him: the gleam of the elite. A-listers, legends, heirs to dynasties and kings of industries, all dressed like they knew they’d be seen. Diamonds catching light. Silks draping just so.
Power made fabric.
And him?
Sweats and a black hoodie.
Not just any hoodie, though.
Her hoodie.
The same one she used to steal and wear around their tiny apartment back in New York, sleeves swallowing her wrists as she danced barefoot on hardwood floors, headphones in, humming tunelessly as she folded laundry or watered the plants they always forgot about.
The one that smelled like her longer than it ever smelled like him.
The one she used to tug over her bare thighs when she was cold but too lazy to get dressed properly, shooting him that sleepy smile, all teeth and nothing guarded.
It still looked the same.
But it felt heavier now.
Like it had absorbed the ache of the years in between.
Like it remembered her better than he did.
He pulled the sleeves over his hands, slouched back in the velvet-lined seat like he didn’t belong here—and he didn’t. Not anymore.
The industry still knew his name. But this room? This moment?
It was hers.
She owned this stage. This city. This life.
And yet—
Somewhere beneath all the spectacle, all the lights and legacy and thunderous applause—
he still remembered the girl who called him sweet baby, standing in his hoodie with suds on her forearms, singing off-key into a wooden spoon.
And he would’ve traded everything—every accolade, every deal, every second of fame—
just to hear her say it again.
Just once more.
And then she stepped onto the stage.
It wasn’t an entrance.
It was an arrival. Like the universe had gone still to let something holy pass through.
She didn’t walk. She descended. All lights turned to her. The crowd roared, surged, screamed—but Austin?
He went silent. His body forgot breath. His bones forgot weight.
His mind could only hold one truth:
Serafina Russo was not human. Not anymore.
Not up there, in the light, wrapped in gold and sweat and power.
She wore the stage like a second skin, every step choreographed to seduce, every breath timed like it was meant to drive mortals to madness.
The moment the bass hit, her hips began to roll—slow, controlled, like sin had rhythm and she’d learned it in her sleep.
She didn’t just perform.
She possessed. The stage, the music, the crowd.
Every curve of her body told a story, and every soul in that arena begged to be part of the plot.
And Austin watched.
Watched as she tilted her head back, lips parted on a half-laugh, sweat catching the spot just below her throat—the same hollow he used to press his mouth to when she was tired and soft and his. Watched as she paused mid-chorus, holding the mic out, letting the crowd scream her lyrics back like they were prayers.
She smiled.
God, that smile.
It hadn’t changed. Not really.
Just sharpened. Polished. Hardened at the edges from years of fame and distance and being too much for this world to carry.
But he saw it.
He saw her.
The girl who used to dance in the kitchen in his hoodie, messy hair piled on top of her head, singing those same lyrics into a wooden spoon while pancakes burned on the stove.
Only now, she danced for everyone else. Not him.
And that hurt in a way he hadn’t prepared for.
Because she wasn’t just up there as an icon.
She was up there performing the life they could’ve had. The softness she used to show only him, now weaponized and amplified and fed to thousands.
And they devoured her. They cheered for her. They worshipped her.
But they didn’t know her.
Not like he did.
Not like he still did.
And in his old, worn hoodie—the one that still smelled faintly of her hair and laundry detergent and something soft and vanilla he could never quite name—
Austin Butler sat in the velvet seat of his VIP box, surrounded by the richest and most powerful people in the world,
and felt like a boy again.
A boy watching his whole world shine just out of reach.
And in that moment, he didn’t want fame.
He didn’t want the flashing lights or the accolades or the access.
He just wanted her. Not the goddess onstage.
Not the siren wrapped in rhinestones and adoration.
Just the girl who called him sweet baby and meant it.
She was mid-verse when it happened.
Right foot forward. Hips rolling in time with the beat. Lights blooming like fire across the crowd. A thousand voices screaming her name in perfect unison. Her body moved on instinct—eight-counts stitched into muscle memory, sequins catching the heat of the stage lights, thighs glistening, sweat dripping, the goddess in her element.
But then—
a flicker.
Something in her peripheral.
Something that didn’t belong.
And she turned her head.
Just slightly. Just enough to see into the haze beyond the lights, into the shadows where the VIP boxes loomed like gods watching mortals.
And there—
there he was.
Slouched in the corner like he hadn’t meant to be seen. Dressed in a black hoodie and sweatpants like he’d wandered in from another life. Not styled. Not polished. Not preened for the cameras.
Just him. Austin.
But not just any hoodie.
His hoodie.
Her hoodie.
The same one she used to steal on quiet mornings, tug over her bare legs, sleeves swallowing her hands while she padded around their old apartment barefoot. The one that used to smell like cedar and cologne and comfort.
The one she used to wear when she was his.
Her mouth went dry.
The lyric caught in her throat mid-line, barely noticeable to the roaring crowd, but to her?
It felt like a collapse.
A full-body stutter.
Because he wasn’t just looking at her—
he was seeing her. Not the star. Not the siren. Not the woman dripping in diamonds and rhythm.
But her. The girl who used to fall asleep on his chest before the credits rolled.
The girl who once whispered “don’t leave, sweet baby” in the hush of dawn.
His eyes were wide. Not greedy, not possessive.
Just wounded. Wounded and reverent.
Like seeing her cost him something. Like he’d bled for it.
Her heart pounded once.
Then again.
Then again.
So loud she could barely hear the music anymore.
She missed a step.
A half-beat hesitation, a falter in the sway of her hips. One of her dancers instinctively closed the gap, covered for her. The lights spun. The bass hit. The fans screamed.
But her eyes were still locked on his.
It was seconds. Maybe less.
But in those seconds, the years unraveled.
The versions of her she’d shed to become this idol, this entity, this myth—they all flooded back.
And for the first time in so long, she didn’t feel like Serafina Russo™, international phenomenon, choreographed perfection.
She felt like Serafina.
Just Serafina.
Twenty-four, barefoot in a kitchen, smiling into his shoulder, wearing that exact same hoodie and humming off-key.
Loved. Known. Real.
And then—like she’d touched something too hot—
she looked away.
Snapped her gaze down. Reclaimed her rhythm. Spun like she was reborn in fire, tossed her head back and let her hair fall like a curtain between her and the past.
But the damage was done.
The tremble in her chest wasn’t the beat.
The burn in her lungs wasn’t exertion.
It was him. Him, in that hoodie. Him, with those eyes. Him, who had no right showing up like a prayer she didn’t know she was still begging for.
And though she performed the rest of the song flawlessly, flawlessly enough to earn a standing ovation and light up every trending topic online—
she couldn’t shake the weight of that look.
She couldn’t stop seeing him, seated in shadow, clinging to the one piece of her she thought he’d let go.
The lights went down.
The stage dimmed in a final sweep of gold, the crowd roaring beneath her like a crashing tide. Her dancers huddled for bows, glitter still clinging to their shoulders and necks, breathless and shining with sweat and victory.
People clapped her on the back.
Patted her arm.
Sang her praises.
And Serafina barely heard a thing.
Her ears rang with his silence.
That look.
That goddamn hoodie.
Still burned behind her eyes like an afterimage of a dream she wasn’t ready to wake from.
She nodded through congratulations, offered polite smiles she didn’t feel, let the crew peel her away toward backstage with gentle pressure and soft words—but her steps were too quick. Too sharp. Her body moved like it remembered something her mind was desperate to chase.
He had been there. He had really been there.
And now he was gone.
The moment the dressing room door clicked shut behind her, Serafina didn’t even sit. She ripped off her mic pack with shaking hands, tore free the ear monitors, tossed them onto the vanity like they were burning her.
A bottle of water was pressed into her hand.
She drank. Swallowed hard. It didn’t help.
“Do you need a second?” her manager asked, catching her eye in the mirror.
She nodded. She didn’t speak. If she spoke, she’d say his name. And she couldn’t do that.
Not yet.
Not when her throat still felt like he was in it.
As soon as she was alone, she paced. One loop, then another. Palms pressed flat against the table. Then the door again.
She had to know.
She slipped out quietly, heart racing beneath the thin silk robe draped over her costume. Her feet still bare, makeup clinging to her temples and collarbone, lashes beginning to loosen—but none of it mattered.
She wasn’t Serafina Russo right now.
She was just her. Frantic. Raw. Searching.
She moved past assistants, through corridors, ignoring calls of her name. She checked the greenroom. The bar. The wings near the main hallway.
Nothing.
He wasn’t there.
Her stomach dropped. A sick kind of dread bloomed in her throat.
What if he’d already left?
What if that look was all she got?
What if he showed up only to disappear again?
But then—
“He was in one of the VIP suites,” someone murmured behind her, to someone else.
Serafina snapped around.
Heart in her mouth.
“Which one?”
She didn’t care how sharp her voice came out.
Didn’t care who heard.
“Which box?”
A brief pause. A glance.
“Far left. Upper tier.”
She was already walking.
No. Not walking. Hunting.
Feet slapping softly against the cool hallway floor, her pulse pounding louder than the after-show music still playing somewhere in the distance.
Every step felt like dragging the past into the present with her bare hands.
Every step said:
Please still be there. Please don’t make me forget this twice. Please, please, please.
And when she reached the door—just barely cracked, light slanting from within—
she hesitated.
Hand raised. Fist ready to knock.
Breath caught on the ledge of a thousand unspoken words.
Because if he was on the other side of that door—
if he was still there, still in that hoodie, still looking at her like she was something holy—
she didn’t know if she’d be able to let him go again.
He had been standing there with his hand on the door, hoodie sleeves tugged down over trembling fingers, ready to disappear into the night like a man who’d just witnessed a miracle he didn’t deserve to keep—when he heard the shift.
Bare feet against polished tile.
The whisper of fabric dragging behind skin.
The kind of silence that doesn’t ask permission—just enters, fully and all at once.
And when he turned—
She was there.
Framed by the half-open door like some kind of apparition,
hair damp with sweat from the stage, lips parted like she’d been running,
eyes wide and dark and locked onto him in a way that made the blood rush out of his head so fast he had to reach for the nearest chair.
Her robe clung to her collarbones like it had been thrown on in a hurry, and beneath it, the glimmer of stagewear still caught the light in soft, scattered places—like pieces of armor left behind by the goddess who had descended from Olympus and come looking for him.
She hadn’t changed. And yet—
she had.
Older. Sharper at the edges. Carved by the world into something harder, brighter, less breakable than the girl he once knew. But God—God—she still had that same mouth. The one that used to press against his throat in the dark, whispering sweet baby like a promise.
And those same eyes.
The ones that used to close slowly when she laughed.
The ones that had once looked at him like he was the only thing on earth worth keeping.
And now they were on him again.
Still. Unblinking. Full of something that looked dangerously close to remembering.
He didn’t move. Couldn’t.
His hand still hovered by the door, but his body refused to follow.
Because for all the ways he’d tried to imagine this moment—dreamed it, feared it, begged for it in his sleep—nothing had prepared him for the reality of it.
For her standing there like that.
For her choosing to find him after the show.
For the heat in her gaze and the hunger he thought he’d only imagined.
His chest rose and fell too fast, breath catching like a wire pulled taut inside him.
Her name echoed somewhere behind his ribs, rattling like a secret he couldn’t say out loud yet.
Because to say it would be to admit he still remembered how it felt to wake up with her legs tangled in his, to make coffee while she danced offbeat in his kitchen, to bury his face in the curve of her neck and whisper stupid nothings just to hear her laugh.
And she—
God, she looked at him like she remembered all of it too. Like her body hadn’t forgotten.
Like the space between them had never really existed.
Her eyes dropped to the hoodie.
That old thing.
His old thing.
Her old thing.
Still hanging loose around his frame like it had been waiting for her return.
And her lips parted, just slightly, like she wanted to say something.
But nothing came.
Just that look.
That heavy, electric, I never really stopped looking for you kind of look.
The kind that hurts more than any goodbye ever could.
The kind that builds an entire life in the space of a second—and burns it down just as fast.
And Austin…
he didn’t breathe.
Didn’t blink.
Didn’t dare.
Because Serafina Russo was standing in front of him for the first time in what felt like a thousand years.
And somehow, impossibly, impossibly—
she was still his favorite ache.
“Sweet ba—”
Her voice caught. Just for a breath, just long enough for both of them to hear it.
“Austin,” she corrected, softer this time. Controlled. Almost ashamed.
She shifted her weight from one foot to the other, the thin silk robe clinging to her frame like it, too, remembered the shape of him against her. Her fingers twitched at her side, a nervous tell he hadn’t seen in years—but still recognized instantly.
She used to do that when she was unsure of something, when her heart moved faster than her mouth, when she wasn’t quite ready to admit how deeply she felt what she felt.
And now she stood there, chest rising too quickly, eyes locked onto his with a flicker of something she tried to mask as curiosity but looked a hell of a lot like hope.
Her gaze searched him—those same ocean-blue eyes that once looked at her like she hung the moon, that had cradled her body with a reverence she hadn’t found since. Eyes that used to speak whole paragraphs when words failed, that used to soften the moment she smiled, that used to tremble when he cried into her shoulder during nights they pretended they were going to be okay.
But now…
They were quiet.
Still.
Guarded.
And it terrified her.
She wasn’t sure what she expected—wasn’t sure if the years had twisted her memory into something more tender than it had ever been, or if she’d just let herself forget the sharp edges. But standing here now, facing him in the aftermath of her own unraveling, she realized that what scared her more than the silence was the possibility that maybe… maybe this was just a concert.
Maybe he’d come out of obligation. Peer pressure. Curiosity.
Not longing.
Maybe he hadn’t come for her—
Not the girl who used to dance around in his hoodie,
Not the girl who used to kiss his knuckles when they ached from late-night self-tapes and piano chords—
but just for the spectacle.
The name.
The myth she’d become.
Her throat felt tight.
She blinked, still searching his face, waiting for any flicker of recognition. Any softening. Any sign that what they were hadn’t been entirely erased by time and fame and the distance between who they were and who they are now.
Because if this was what she hoped it was—if he had come for her, if he had worn that hoodie because it meant something, if he had looked at her during that song because he’d felt the same pull—
Then maybe she hadn’t been insane for feeling his name under her skin every night since.
But if it wasn’t—
If this was just a night out, a favor to his actor buddies, a casual “yeah, she was good” when someone asked—
then this moment, this fragile, breaking thing blooming in her chest,
was going to crush her.
So she stood there, heart thudding beneath ribs that had held too many old loves, too many memories of him pressed against her in the dark,
and she whispered, barely above the sound of her own breath—
“Did you… mean to come?”
And it wasn’t just a question.
It was a confession.
A plea.
A thousand memories folded into four trembling words.
“Fuck, ba—”
His voice cracked, the word half-born, half-choked, caught in his throat like it had come out of instinct, not permission.
He closed his eyes for a breath, jaw tightening, swallowing it back down.
“Sera.”
He said her name like it was a wound. Like it was a balm. Like it was both.
“Of course I did.”
His voice dropped—quiet, but shaking with weight.
“You think I didn’t want to be here? You think I came because of some hype or some Hollywood peer pressure bullshit?”
He stepped closer, just once, just enough for her to feel the pull between them stretch taut like an old thread that had never truly snapped.
“You were amazing,” he said, shaking his head slowly, eyes flicking over her face like he didn’t know where to land. “More than amazing. I didn’t even have the words. Still don’t.”
His voice was hoarse now, like he'd been shouting all night but hadn’t made a sound.
“I watched you walk out on that stage and it felt like the breath just left my fucking body. Like—like I’d been holding it for years without realizing it. And then there you were, and I—”
He dragged a hand down his face, his other hand still curled into the fabric of the hoodie like it anchored him to the moment.
“I didn’t come here for the show, Sera. I came because I needed to see you. I needed to know you were still…”
He faltered.
Still what?
Still glowing like a star?
Still the girl who called him sweet baby in the middle of the night?
Still his, somewhere deep down?
“Still real,” he finished, voice fraying. “That you weren’t just something my memory made softer than it was. That I didn’t dream all of it.”
He was standing so still, hands at his sides like he didn’t know whether to reach for her or let her go again.
“You were everything,” he said, lower now. “You still are.”
And then, quietly—
so quietly, like it slipped past all the guards he’d built around his heart:
“I still hear you sometimes. When it’s quiet. I hear you laughing. I hear you calling me that stupid name. I haven’t worn this hoodie in years because it still fucking smells like you.”
His breath hitched.
“I’m here because I couldn’t not be.
She chuckled.
It was quiet, almost hesitant—like she hadn’t meant for it to slip out.
But it did.
And the sound was warm.
It was softer than anything he'd heard in years. Not polished for cameras. Not thrown to crowds.
It was hers.
And it was his, too.
Because Austin remembered that sound—down to the pitch.
It was the same laugh she used to give when he forgot to buy milk again, when she tripped over her own socks, when they laid tangled up in each other at three in the morning, whispering nonsense in the dark because sleep felt less important than the way her fingers traced the veins in his forearm.
That laugh used to live in his bones.
And now, hearing it again—
It undid him.
His knees almost buckled from the sheer familiarity of it. His breath caught in his throat. Something inside his chest twisted, slow and deep, as if his heart was remembering its original rhythm.
She shifted her weight—nervous now, chewing on the corner of her lip, her gaze flicking down for a second before rising back to meet his.
And God, those eyes.
Brown, deep, endless. Eyes that once knew every inch of his soul, eyes that could read him like scripture. But now? Now they looked at him like she was searching for something—some remnant of the boy he used to be. Some flicker of the man she used to love.
“Do you still like the beach?” she asked.
So simple.
So gentle.
But it hit—like a memory, like a doorway cracked open to everything they’d buried.
He blinked, brows drawing together—not in confusion, but recognition. Like his heart caught up before his body could move.
He nodded.
Of course he did.
He always had.
She smiled—a little sad, a little unsure, like she didn’t quite believe this wasn’t a mistake yet. Like she wasn’t sure she was allowed to ask for this, after everything.
“There’s a spot near here,” she said quietly, “by my apartment.”
Her voice was soft, unsteady.
She rubbed her hand along the edge of her robe like she needed something to hold onto. Her other hand hung loose at her side, fingers flexing with the tension she clearly didn’t want him to see.
“A private one,” she went on, eyes not quite meeting his now. “It’s quiet. No one goes there after ten. Just… water. And stars.”
She breathed in, shallow and slow.
Then—barely above a whisper, the words almost folding in on themselves as they left her lips:
“Do you… maybe want to… go?”
She didn’t finish the sentence.
Didn’t say with me, didn’t say tonight, didn’t say to talk or to remember or to pretend, just for a little while, that we never let each other go.
She didn’t have to.
It hung in the air between them like a thread spun from something sacred.
Fragile.
Trembling.
It wasn’t just a question.
It was an offering.
A way back.
A trembling invitation to step outside of time and memory and fame and mistakes and just… be.
And Austin—
he couldn’t speak at first.
His throat was tight, and his chest felt full, like her words had poured directly into the hollow parts of him and filled them with saltwater and sunlight and her.
He looked at her like she was unreal.
But she wasn’t.
She was here.
She’d come to him.
And now she was offering him a piece of stillness.
A place with no stage, no spotlight.
Just ocean and stars and the chance to love her quietly again.
And the answer rose in him like breath returning to a drowning man.
The drive to the beach passed in a blur—
not from speed, but from silence,
the kind that filled the car like fog: thick and quiet and clinging to every inch of skin,
the kind of silence that wasn’t empty but brimming, humming low with everything they didn’t say, everything they hadn’t said in years.
Serafina kept one hand on the wheel, the other brushing absentmindedly against the curve of the wine bottle nestled between them, the glass catching flecks of moonlight like it was holding a galaxy in its belly. She drove barefoot, as she always used to—her long legs stretched out like poetry, robe hitched up around her thighs in careless elegance, the scent of salt and stage sweat still lingering in her hair, in her collarbones, in the air that hung between them. She didn’t speak. Neither did he. They didn’t need to. The silence said enough.
And when she finally turned onto the narrow, hidden path that curved toward the sea—a road so familiar she could drive it in her sleep—he felt it:
his chest pulling tighter, his ribs shrinking around his heart like it already knew something was about to break open.
They didn’t rush.
She parked with precision, killed the headlights, and stepped out into the night like it belonged to her. The wind caught her robe, and for a moment she looked almost unreal—her silhouette a blur of silk and moonlight, hair tangled in the breeze, the hem of her sleeves catching around her fingertips as she reached for the bottle like a relic.
No glasses. Of course. Just them, and the wine, and the promise of something older than forgiveness.
By the time they made it down the dunes, the beach was nearly silent save for the slow, eternal rhythm of the tide kissing the sand. A private cove, carved into the edge of the coastline like a secret, cliffs curving in like arms—protective, ancient, patient.
She dropped onto the sand first, settling into it like someone who’d done this many times before, and he followed, folding beside her with careful gravity, his hoodie sleeves pulled over his hands like armor.
The wine passed between them in slow sips—warm and bitter, heavy on the tongue. It didn’t taste good. It wasn’t supposed to.
It tasted like now. Like everything they weren’t saying.
And for a long time, neither of them broke the quiet.
They just sat, shoulder to shoulder, thigh to thigh, watching the water pull itself in and out, in and out, as if it were breathing for them.
Then she spoke. Not loudly. Not dramatically.
Just enough.
“I used to think we’d end up somewhere like this,” she murmured, her voice frayed and thick and low, like she wasn’t quite sure if it was safe to say out loud. “Somewhere with no cameras. No questions. Just... sand, and old music, and you not leaving.”
Austin’s breath caught in his chest like a hook.
He didn’t look at her. He couldn’t.
“You still could,” he said, and the words came out barely there, like they’d been hiding in his lungs since the day he left and had only now found their way to the surface.
She turned to him slowly then, her profile illuminated by starlight, eyes wide and glassy with something that wasn’t quite tears but wasn’t far off.
“I don’t know who we are anymore,” she whispered. “I don’t even know if I know me without you.”
He turned too.
Met her gaze.
And in that moment, the weight of every almost, every not now, every wrong time, right person cracked the air between them.
“I haven’t felt like me in years,” she confessed, voice trembling just enough to make him feel it in his bones. “But tonight... when you looked at me from the crowd... I remembered.”
That did it.
He reached for her hand—not forcefully, not suddenly. Just... there. An offering. An answer. And when their fingers touched, it felt like gravity finally made sense.
She looked down at their hands, then up at him.
Then, without a word, she rose.
Sand falling from her robe, hair tangled, skin glowing.
And she walked toward the ocean like it had called her by name.
She let the robe fall.
No hesitation.
No show.
Just... release.
Her back to him, her spine elegant in its honesty, the gentle sway of her hips like the sea had remembered the rhythm of her body and was moving to meet it. She stepped into the waves without flinching, her breath catching only once, arms folding briefly across her chest before the water welcomed her, pulled her in, cloaked her.
Austin sat frozen.
Heart pounding.
Then, slowly—like peeling away years, shedding guilt, fear, pride—
he rose.
Removed the hoodie. Then the shirt. The sweats. Piece by piece.
Like a man peeling back armor.
Like a man returning to something holy.
He stepped into the ocean.
The cold struck him.
But the sight of her—half-submerged, head tilted back, hands lifting to slick her wet hair away from her face—stole the rest of the pain.
She turned when she felt him.
Eyes meeting his like magnets.
No coyness.
No words.
Just raw, naked, knowing.
He moved to her—slowly, reverently—until the water covered them both to the ribs, until he was close enough to see the droplets clinging to her lashes, until he was breathing her in again.
And then—
he touched her.
His hands found her waist, her skin cool but familiar, her breath catching when his fingers slid against her ribcage like he was relearning a language he hadn’t spoken in years.
She let out a sound then—not quite a sob, not quite a moan.
Just need.
Just memory.
Just her.
Her forehead dropped to his.
They stood like that for a long time, water lapping at their waists, their hands pressed to each other’s skin like they were checking if it was really real.
And when she finally whispered his name—so soft, so broken, so full of everything they’d never stopped being—
He kissed her.
Because there was no other answer.
He kissed her.
Not gently.
Not carefully.
But like a man who had known hunger in all its forms and had finally, finally found the only thing that ever truly fed him.
It wasn’t a kiss made for storybooks or songs or even redemption.
It was raw. Cracked. Desperate.
Like his mouth had spent years remembering the shape of hers and couldn’t wait one second longer to return to it.
She gasped into it—just once—surprised not by the kiss itself, but by the weight of it.
By how much was in it.
How much he hadn’t said, hadn’t screamed, hadn’t sobbed over the years they’d spent apart.
His hands were everywhere and nowhere all at once—cupping her jaw, then sliding down her waist, then gripping her back like he was trying to memorize her spine again by touch alone.
And she let him.
She sank into him like the tide itself—parting her lips, letting his name spill out in broken syllables against his mouth between each frantic breath.
Austin.
God, the way she said his name.
It didn’t sound like a name anymore.
It sounded like home.
He pulled her closer—chest to chest, ribs to ribs, water slapping softly against their hips as the sea rose around them, swallowed them whole. His mouth moved against hers like he couldn’t bear the idea of stopping. Not now. Not after years of watching her from a distance. Years of seeing her smile on red carpets and in magazine spreads and not knowing if he had ever really been real to her at all.
But now she was here.
Now her hands were in his hair.
Now her body was pressed to his, wet skin to wet skin, and her breath was shaking against his cheek like maybe—just maybe—this was undoing her too.
He kissed her deeper then.
Let his tongue slide against hers with aching reverence, with a need that said I would’ve waited a hundred more years if I knew it would still feel like this.
Let his teeth catch her bottom lip in that way she always used to love—just enough pressure to make her gasp, to make her fists tighten in the back of his hair and tug like she couldn’t stand how slow they were moving.
And she kissed him back like she’d missed him in every lifetime.
Like she hadn’t kissed anyone really since him.
Not like this. Not with meaning.
The kiss was slow and messy and relentless.
It was the kind that left both of them breathless, hearts pounding, mouths swollen, tears brimming without either of them realizing they’d started crying somewhere between I missed you and please don’t stop.
He broke away for a moment—just a second—to rest his forehead against hers again, noses brushing, both of them shaking in the waist-deep water.
“I never stopped wanting you,” he whispered, voice hoarse, lips slick with salt and wine and her.
“Not for a second. I tried. God, I tried.”
Her eyes were glassy, lips red, throat tight.
“You left.”
His breath stuttered.
“I know.”
He leaned in, kissed the edge of her jaw, the place just beneath her ear, desperate to make amends with his mouth if he couldn’t with words.
“I’ve been paying for it every day since.”
And then—softly, like a vow:
“I’d undo it all if it meant getting to kiss you like this again.”
She swallowed.
Hard.
Their lips met again—this time slower, heavier, as if the kiss had roots that reached years into the past and was only now pushing through the surface.
It wasn’t just skin meeting skin. It was recognition.
A mouth remembering another.
A rhythm long forgotten suddenly playing again in perfect time.
Austin moved like a man haunted.
Like every second his mouth wasn’t on hers was time wasted, moments lost.
His hand cupped her jaw so gently it almost hurt, thumb brushing across her cheekbone like he couldn’t believe she was real—like if he pressed too hard she might shatter in his hands, turn to sea foam and memory all over again.
She kissed him back like she was starving—
not for lust, but for truth. For something solid. For something that didn’t ask her to be perfect, or polished, or famous—just loved.
Their mouths moved together like poetry returning to its native language—
soft and wet and open,
her lips parting on a sigh that caught in the back of her throat,
his tongue sliding slowly over hers like he was tasting the years he’d lost.
And God—he kissed her like he had missed her in every cell of his body.
Like her mouth was the only thing that had ever made him believe in softness.
Like kissing her now might undo the ache he’d been swallowing for years, one quiet, aching swallow at a time.
The kiss deepened—
not rushed, never rushed, but ravenous in the way only two people who’d known each other that intimately could be.
Her arms wrapped around his shoulders, her fingers slipping into the damp ends of his hair, tugging just enough to make him groan low in his throat, a sound that rumbled against her lips and made her tremble down to her knees.
And he kissed her like that sound—
full-bodied, soul-deep, every part of him reaching for her.
His hands slid to her waist beneath the water, his palms splaying across the curve of her spine like he was trying to relearn every inch, every memory, every heartbeat he’d ever touched.
She moaned—quiet and broken—into his mouth, and it gutted him.
He pulled her tighter.
Their bodies flush now, naked and salt-soaked, skin shivering but flushed from the heat of what they’d kept buried for too long.
The water sloshed around them in soft waves, cool and alive, but neither of them noticed the cold anymore—because her skin was fire against his, and her mouth was warmth he’d been denied for far too long.
When they broke apart, it wasn’t because they wanted to.
It was because they had to breathe.
And even then—
even then, his mouth hovered just inches from hers, their foreheads pressed together, noses brushing, breath mingling in hot, uneven pulses.
Austin’s hands didn’t move.
They stayed at her hips, anchoring them both to the moment, to the truth of it.
His thumbs stroked slow, reverent circles into the hollow above her hipbones like she was something holy—like this wasn’t a woman, but a temple he’d left behind and had been searching for ever since.
His eyes opened first.
And when they met hers—glassy, dazed, lips swollen and red from the kiss—he nearly sank to his knees.
Because she looked at him like she remembered everything.
Like her body still spoke his name.
Like that kiss hadn’t reopened old wounds—but had stitched new ones shut.
And in a voice barely more than a breath, he whispered, “You still taste like home.”
She swallowed.
Tears brimming, lips trembling, the moonlight catching in the curve of her throat as she exhaled like she’d been holding that breath since the day he left.
And when she said his name, just once, just soft,
“Austin,” he pulled her back in.
Because there were still more years to kiss into her mouth.
More apologies to press into the line of her neck.
More I missed yous to trace down the curve of her back.
More time to reclaim.
They were still breathless from the ocean when he caught her wrist, gently tugging her back toward him. Her feet dragged through the sand as she stumbled into his chest, laughing softly, saltwater clinging to her lashes. But his hands were already moving—one splayed warm and wide across her lower back, the other rising to cradle her face like she was made of something too breakable to grab and too sacred to let go.
“Let me look at you,” Austin murmured, barely above a whisper.
And he did—eyes roaming like he was memorizing her all over again. Her cheeks flushed from the ocean air, collarbones glittering with sea spray, skin still damp, nipples hard from the chill. She stood completely bare before him, her body kissed by moonlight and time, and he looked at her like she hung that moon herself.
“I’ve thought about this moment so many times,” he said hoarsely, thumb brushing over her lips. “And I told myself when it came… I wouldn’t rush. Wouldn’t waste a second.”
His fingers traced her jaw, slid down her neck, over her shoulders. She shivered—not from cold, but from the heat curling low in her belly. His touch was soft, reverent, almost maddening in how slow he moved. Like he wanted to drive her insane.
He dipped his head to press a kiss just beneath her ear. She gasped when his lips lingered, when his tongue flicked out to taste the salt there.
“Still sensitive here?” he asked, already knowing the answer.
Then lower—his mouth brushing her throat, her collarbone, the swell of her breast.
He didn’t rush to her nipples—not yet. He kissed around them. Above. Beneath. Her stomach jumped when he kissed the space just beneath the curve of one, and then the other.
Then—finally—his tongue flicked over one nipple, slow and deliberate. She arched toward him with a strangled moan, and he pulled it into his mouth, sucking gently as his hand slid down her side to grip her hip.
“I used to dream about this mouth,” she whispered.
He hummed against her skin, switching to the other breast, flicking his tongue before sucking again—harder this time, just enough to make her gasp and claw at his shoulders.
“You dreamed about me?” he murmured, lips gliding lower now—down her stomach, across her ribs.
“Every night.”
He knelt before her like she was holy, pressing kisses to her hips, her thighs. His hands slid behind her knees, nudging her legs apart until she was open for him, dripping from the ocean and arousal, her curls damp and clinging to her skin.
And still—he didn’t rush.
He kissed her inner thigh.
Then again.
Then the other thigh.
Licking, sucking gently, moaning low at the taste of her salt-slicked skin.
“You smell so fucking good,” he rasped, voice shaking. “Can I touch you here?”
He didn’t wait for her to nod. He waited for her to beg.
“Please,” she whispered, breath shuddering. “Austin, please—I want your mouth. I want all of you.”
He groaned like it hurt to hear that, and finally—finally—he leaned in, pressing the softest kiss to her slick folds.
She whimpered.
One more kiss.
Then his tongue flattened and dragged slowly from her entrance to her clit, and her knees nearly buckled.
“Oh my God—”
“That’s it,” he murmured against her, holding her steady. “Let me hear you. I’ve been waiting to hear you again for so long.”
And then he went in.
Tongue swirling, teasing, flicking over her clit with unbearable patience. He didn’t rush. Didn’t go fast. He savored her—like he wanted to remember this taste forever. Every lick was slow, languid, laced with filth and worship. His tongue moved in practiced strokes, each one calculated, cruel in the best way.
And his hands—God, his hands.
One stayed on her thigh, spreading her wider. The other slid up, fingers gliding over her slit, gathering slickness and circling her entrance but never quite slipping inside. Just teasing. Just threatening.
She was shaking. Moaning. Clutching his head with both hands as her hips rolled against his mouth.
“I’m gonna cum—Austin, I’m—”
But he pulled back.
She nearly sobbed at the loss.
He looked up at her, lips wet with her, pupils blown. “Not yet.”
“Aus—”
“Not yet, baby,” he said, dragging two fingers through her folds, finally slipping one inside. She cried out. Then two—stretching her, curling, pumping slow as his thumb circled her clit.
“You don’t get to cum yet,” he murmured, kissing her inner thigh again. “Not till I say. Not after years. Not until you feel what you do to me.”
She was gasping, clawing at him, hips rocking down into his hand like her life depended on it.
Then—and only then—did he whisper:
“Now, baby. Now give it to me.”
And she shattered, moaning his name as she came hard, hips jerking, thighs clenching around his wrist.
He didn’t stop kissing her thighs the whole time.
Didn’t stop whispering.
“Good girl.”
“Let go.”
“Let me have it.”
“Let me have all of you.”
She was still trembling when she reached for him.
Her hand slid into his hair—wet, sandy, soft—and tugged him up from where he knelt. Their eyes met as he rose, and she kissed him before he could say anything. Hard. Slow. Desperate. She tasted herself on his lips, but she didn’t care. She wanted to. She wanted to own him—mouth, body, memory.
“You’re mine too,” she whispered into the kiss, dragging her tongue along his bottom lip before biting down gently. “You think I forgot what this mouth does to me? What it sounds like when you moan for me?”
He was breathing hard, chest heaving against hers. “Say it again.”
She kissed his jaw, then lower. “You’re mine.”
He nodded once, jaw clenched like he might fall apart from just that.
Her hands moved down his torso—slowly, fingers gliding over every line of muscle, every scar, every sun-kissed patch of skin she used to claim with her mouth. His abs were still tight. His hips still cut sharp like they were chiseled out of marble.
“You kept working out for me?” she teased, nails trailing along the V of his hips.
“I never stopped,” he murmured, breath catching. “I wanted to be ready if I ever saw you again.”
She hummed, smiling into his skin. “You are.”
And then she dropped to her knees in the sand.
He gasped—visibly startled—and stared down at her, wild-eyed. “Sera…”
But she was already kissing his stomach, his hips, nipping at his skin like she was starving. She looked up at him with dark, hungry eyes, her wet hair clinging to her bare shoulders, mouth parted.
“You gave me your devotion,” she whispered. “Now let me give you mine.”
Her tongue darted out to trace the line of his pelvis.
He shuddered.
She took her time, just like he had—slow, exploratory kisses down his thigh, the base of his length, and finally, finally, she wrapped one hand around him. He was already hard, thick and twitching from everything he’d just done to her, and she moaned—moaned—at the weight of him in her hand.
“I missed this,” she said softly. “I missed how heavy you get for me. How hot you are in my mouth.”
He swore under his breath, head falling back.
Then her mouth was on him—soft lips, warm tongue, slow strokes. She didn’t rush. She let him feel it. Let him moan. Let him thrust into her mouth just a little while her hands steadied him. Her eyes never left his.
He was falling apart, fists clenched at his sides, breath ragged.
“Fuck, Sera—please—I’m not gonna last—”
She pulled off with a wet pop and stood up again, body pressed to his.
“That’s not the part I want you to lose it in,” she whispered against his jaw. “Come here.”
And she led him to the hoodie again, dragged it over the soft sand, and pulled him down with her until they were both lying on it—her on top now, hips straddling his, her breasts brushing his chest as she kissed him again, deeper, dirtier, needy.
She reached between them, lined him up, and paused—just an inch away from sinking onto him. Her eyes fluttered shut as she whispered:
“I dreamed of this too. Every fucking night. I touched myself to the sound of your voice, to the memory of your breath on my neck.”
His hands gripped her waist, trembling.
And then she sank down, inch by aching inch, until he was fully inside her.
They both gasped.
It was perfect. It was like time hadn’t passed at all. Like they were never apart.
And she didn’t move yet. She just sat there, full of him, holding his face in her hands.
“You still fit,” she whispered. “You always did.”
He moaned, nearly undone. “Baby…”
She started to ride him—slow, smooth, hips rolling like waves.
She took her time. She made it last. She let him feel every second of how much she’d missed him, how deeply he still lived in her body, how completely he still owned her pleasure.
And when she leaned down to kiss him again, she whispered right into his mouth:
“Don’t hold back. I want you to fuck me like the world ended when I left.”
He swore time stopped the second she sank onto him. The second her body took him in like it always had—greedy, wet, warm, home.
And now—now she was riding him with all the slow, aching grace of a dream made real, a fantasy that dared to manifest beneath moonlight and ocean wind. His hoodie was bunched beneath her knees, sand clinging to the backs of her thighs, and the way she moved—fuck—it was like watching poetry take form. Like sex and godhood and beauty had all crawled into the shape of her, and said, this is who you worship now.
He looked up at her—truly looked—and his chest tightened with so much emotion it almost hurt. Her hair clung wet to her shoulders, strands curling down her back as she rolled her hips against his, slow and deep, head tossed back in something like reverence. Her lips were parted, cheeks flushed, breasts bouncing softly with each movement, nipples still swollen from his mouth.
She wasn’t trying to be sexy. She was sexy. In that messy, overwhelming, sacred way a person becomes when you’ve craved them for too long. Her eyes—when she looked down at him—held galaxies. Old memories. New questions. Everything they’d lost. Everything they were still willing to burn for.
Austin couldn’t breathe.
Not properly.
Not with the way her walls clenched around him every time she rocked her hips just right. Not with the way she moaned his name like it still meant safety. Like it still meant home.
He ran his hands along her thighs, up to her hips, gripping just tight enough to ground himself.
And all he could think was—God, she’s real. She’s here. She’s fucking mine again.
“Look at you,” he whispered, voice shredded with emotion. “You’re so fucking beautiful, Serafina.”
Her lips quirked, but her eyes stayed soft. “Yeah?”
He nodded, barely able to speak through the lump in his throat.
“I’d die like this,” he breathed. “Right here. With you on top of me. I wouldn’t even fight it.”
Her body stuttered—just for a second—and her hand came down to his chest, palm splayed flat over his heart like she needed to feel it race. Her expression crumbled into something tender, something real, and she leaned down to kiss him slow and deep, never breaking rhythm.
And as she moved, as she fucked him like he was made for her, like she’d been waiting to reclaim him with every slow grind of her hips—
All he could do was stare up at her like he was seeing heaven. Like the ache in his chest might finally break wide open and let her pour in.
She was still on top of him, hips rocking slow and deliberate, every roll sending sparks through her spine and thunder through his veins. His hands gripped her waist like it was the only thing anchoring him to the earth—but she wanted more from him. Needed it. Needed him so deep in this moment with her that he’d never find his way out again.
Her breath caught, and she leaned forward, mouth brushing his, eyes molten as she whispered:
“Open.”
His brows twitched, confused—but obedient.
He parted his lips for her.
She brought two fingers to his mouth—her fingers, slick with ocean and sweat, shaking with want—and slid them between his lips.
“Get them wet for me,” she whispered.
He groaned, instantly, eyes darkening as he closed his mouth around them, tongue curling without hesitation. He tasted salt. Her skin. Something sweeter. His lashes fluttered and his hips bucked up instinctively, aching to thrust deeper into her.
But she held steady. Controlled. Her free hand splayed over his chest again, grounding herself in the pounding of his heart.
When she slipped her fingers from his mouth, they glistened.
She didn’t break eye contact as she brought them straight down between her legs—right to where they were joined, right to her aching clit—and began to rub slow, tight circles.
Using his spit.
Using him.
And the way he moaned beneath her—ragged, desperate, wrecked—was enough to make her whimper.
“You see what you do to me?” she whispered, breath trembling as her hips rocked deeper now, her slick fingers working in tandem with his body buried inside her. “You feel how wet I am for you? That’s yours. It’s always been yours.”
Austin was gone. Absolutely feral. His eyes were glued to where her hand worked between them, his hands shaking as they slid up to cup her breasts, as if he needed something to hold onto or he’d dissolve into the sand beneath them.
“Jesus Christ, Sera,” he rasped. “You’re gonna kill me.”
She smiled—sweet, wicked, dizzy with power. “Good.”
Then she sped up—her hand, her hips, all of it—and the look on his face when she started to fall apart on top of him again?
Was pure devotion.
Her hips picked up a steady, desperate rhythm now, slick fingers rubbing tight, purposeful circles as she rode him deep and slow, like she was memorizing the way he felt inside her all over again. Her breath caught on a moan as her head tipped back, body arching with every roll of her hips, every glide of her fingers against her clit. Her name spilled from his mouth like a prayer—over and over and over again.
She didn’t. Couldn’t. She was too far gone now, chasing that release like it owed her years of lost time, of nights spent alone, touching herself to old memories and faded voicemails. Her thighs trembled around him, chest heaving, her moans raw and soft and real.
And Austin—God, Austin was barely breathing. Just watching her was enough to push him to the edge. The way her body moved above him like it belonged on some ancient statue, like it was meant to be worshipped under moonlight and wind, not hidden behind closed doors. The way her brows knit when she pressed harder on herself, so close she was nearly sobbing.
He surged up, arms wrapping tight around her, and slammed his hips up into hers with a groan, burying himself so deep it dragged a shocked cry out of her throat.
“I’m here,” he growled against her shoulder. “I’ve got you—I’ve always fucking had you.”
Her arms clung around his neck now, her whole body curling forward, folding into him as they moved together, desperately, perfectly. She was shaking, breath hitching with every thrust, every press of his cock inside her, thick and deep and just right.
“Aus—Austin, I’m gonna—”
“Come for me,” he whispered, voice tight, low, reverent. “Come on my cock, baby, I need to feel you—need to feel that pussy grip me like you used to—”
And she did.
With a broken cry, she came hard, clenching around him, her body pulsing and shuddering as her orgasm tore through her like a storm. Her mouth opened in a silent moan, forehead pressed to his, fingers tangled in his hair.
And he didn’t stop moving. Not until she was done trembling. Not until she gasped for air.
Only then did he let go.
His arms wrapped tighter around her and he buried his face in her neck as he finally spilled inside her, hips jerking up with every wave. He groaned her name into her skin, voice strained, mouth open, completely lost in her heat, in her grip, in everything that made Serafina Serafina.
His.
His again.
His always.
When it passed—when the aftershocks quieted and their breathing started to sync—he didn't move. Didn't pull out. Didn’t let her go.
He just held her there, still wrapped around him, hearts pounding together, bodies sticky with sweat, salt, and years of craving finally satisfied.
Serafina nuzzled into his shoulder with a soft, shaky laugh. “We’re insane.”
Austin smiled, wide and tired and full of awe, his hand sliding up to cradle the back of her head.
“Maybe,” he murmured. “But baby, I’d go insane for you any day.”
The ocean whispered beside them, tide lapping softly against the shore, as if nature itself had decided to hush in reverence. Their clothes were somewhere—scattered, forgotten, sand-stuck—but neither of them moved to find them. The air was cool now, but not cold, not with her skin pressed to his like that, not with his arms looped around her waist like they’d never let go again.
Serafina lay sprawled across his chest, her cheek resting just over his heartbeat, and for a long while… they just breathed.
Her fingers trailed lazy circles against his ribs. He watched the stars move across the sky behind her, his other hand gently smoothing down her spine, again and again. Like he had to keep touching her to prove she was real.
She was the one who finally broke the silence.
“I thought I imagined you sometimes.”
Her voice was soft, still rasping from moans and ocean wind.
Austin looked down at her, brushing a damp curl from her cheek. “What do you mean?”
“I mean,” she sighed, “there were nights where I’d swear I felt you in my bed. I’d wake up and think you were still there, still wrapped around me. It felt so real I’d reach for you.”
She lifted her eyes then—those eyes—and they glittered even in the dark.
“But you were never there.”
Austin’s jaw clenched, and he swallowed hard.
“I wanted to be. God, Serafina, I wanted to come back so many times.”
“Then why didn’t you?”
That question hung there, suspended between them like sea mist. Fragile. Heavy.
He took a breath.
“Because I thought I’d ruin you,” he admitted. “Because we were so young, and I didn’t know how to be good to you yet. I thought maybe letting you go was the most loving thing I could do.”
Her face shifted—soft, sad, sharp all at once.
“You didn’t ruin me, Austin,” she whispered. “You made me.”
He blinked. She sat up just slightly, resting her weight on one palm, the other still tracing slow lines across his bare chest.
“Every good thing I’ve ever created, I created because I loved you once. Because I knew what it felt like to be seen like that. Touched like that. Wanted like that.”
Her voice dropped to a murmur.
“And I still do.”
He sat up to meet her halfway.
“You’re it for me,” he said quietly. “You always have been.”
Silence again—but this one was rich, thick, knowing. Her hand cupped his face and his eyes fluttered shut into the touch, like a man starved finally tasting something sweet again.
“You still like peaches?” she asked, teasing, thumbing his bottom lip like a question.
He cracked a breathless grin. “You still sing in the shower?”
“Only when I’m trying to annoy my neighbors.”
They both laughed, soft and quiet.
Then she leaned in and kissed him again—different this time. Slower. Deeper. All tongue and memory and warmth. All forgiveness and longing and that old, undeniable pull.
When they pulled apart, she smiled.
“You’re staying the night.”
It wasn’t a question.
Austin nodded.
“I’m staying forever, if you’ll have me.”
She bit her lip and reached for his hand.
“Come on then, sweet baby,” she whispered. “Let’s go home.”
The bath was steaming, fragrant with something floral and decadent—of course it was, it was Serafina’s. She’d always had a thing for luxury, even if it was just a handful of rose petals and eucalyptus oil she picked up from the corner store.
Her back was against his chest, her legs spread lazily between his under the water, toes brushing his shins. His arms wrapped around her waist, and his chin rested on her shoulder, both of them damp, glistening, and blissfully boneless after hours of getting reacquainted in every room of the apartment.
The marble bathroom echoed soft classical music from the speakers in the other room—her playlist, he knew without asking. Something French and wordless and smooth. The kind of song that made everything feel like a film.
Serafina reached for her phone resting on the edge of the tub, her hand slick and pruned from the water. She didn’t even need to open any apps—her lock screen was lit up with notifications.
TMZ. DeuxMoi. E! News. All of them variations of the same thing:
"Serafina Russo Spotted with Ex-Lover Austin Butler: Reunited at Last?" "That VIP Box Kiss... Is Hollywood's Favorite Couple Back On?" "Inside the Beach Rendezvous of the Year—Sources Confirm She Was Wearing His Hoodie!"
She scoffed under her breath and shook her head. “God, they’re so annoying. I haven’t even posted anything—how do they—”
Splash.
Her phone hit the bath mat across the room.
She blinked.
Austin just leaned in and pressed his lips to her jaw, slow and possessive. “I don’t want to hear about anyone else’s version of us right now.”
“Austin—”
“No,” he murmured, kissing down her neck now, tracing the slope of her shoulder with his mouth. “No one else gets this. Not tonight. Not tomorrow. Not until we’re done.”
His voice was lower now, rougher, a little more dangerous as his hands slid slowly over her waist, fingers parting her thighs beneath the water.
“You said you missed me,” he whispered against her skin. “So let me make up for it, Sera. Let me give it back. Every minute we lost.”
She sighed, head falling back against him as he dragged his tongue along the curve of her neck, his thumbs brushing between her legs underwater now—barely, teasing.
“W-we need to eat,” she tried to argue.
“Later,” he growled, his hand finally dipping between her thighs. “You’ll survive.”
He curled two fingers inside her, slow and deep.
She gasped, hips twitching up from the water. The sound echoed off the marble, scandalous and wet and sinful.
“God, Austin—”
He bit her shoulder softly, soothing it with his tongue.
“You think I came back to be gentle, baby?” he rasped, his other hand sliding up to squeeze her breast, water sloshing around them. “I came back to ruin you.”
And he did.
On the counter.
On the kitchen floor.
Against the window while the city lights watched and whispered.
In her bed, on the balcony, on the stairs when she tried to go get her phone back.
Days passed like hours. Food went uneaten. Headlines came and went.
But inside that apartment?
Time stopped.
They were in their own world again—starved, sacred, home.
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In which Tyriq and Celeste love each other in her most vulnerable state.
Celeste sighed as she leaned back against her man’s chest, the sound slipping from her lips like something she’d been holding all day without realizing it. His body was warm behind her, solid and unhurried, anchoring her there as she rested against the cool marble of the kitchen counter. The contrast made her melt all the more. A small, involuntary smile curved her mouth as his fingers worked patiently through her hair—hair that tonight was hers, fully and unapologetically, freed from honey-blonde bundles and careful installs, allowed to exist just as it grew from her scalp.
Tyriq moved slowly, reverently, as if he understood that this wasn’t just hair. His fingers scratched her scalp in gentle circles, soothing, attentive, learning her the way a man learns something precious—without rushing, without demanding. Every now and then he paused to detangle a section, murmuring something soft under his breath, his touch deliberate and grounding. Tonight had been his idea, fully and without prompting. He wanted to help. Wanted to see her. Wanted to care for her by caring for the parts of her the world rarely did.
And Celeste felt it—felt the difference so deeply it lodged in her chest.
Her ex had never done this. Not once. He’d turned his face away from moments like these, dismissed them with lazy phrases and small cruelties masked as tradition. He’d told her it was a woman’s business to manage her hair, to tend to it alone, to keep it hidden when it wasn’t “done,” as if her natural self were something private, inconvenient, or burdensome. He never touched it. Never asked. Never learned. He loved her best when she was polished, finished, presentable—never when she was simply herself.
When she had told Tyriq that—quietly, almost offhand, unsure why it still stung—he had stopped moving entirely.
He’d looked at her like she’d just spoken a foreign language. Like her words didn’t belong in any reality he recognized. His brows had drawn together, confusion giving way to disbelief, disbelief hardening into something close to anger—not at her, but at the idea of someone treating her like that.
“Stop playin’ with me, Celeste,” he’d said, voice low and earnest, reaching for her hand. “Come here.”
And when she did, he’d pulled her close like he needed to reassure himself she was real, that she was safe now, that no part of her was too much or misplaced or meant to be left alone. He touched her hair then like it was an extension of her spirit, like it carried history, softness, strength, and home all at once.
Now, standing there in the quiet of their kitchen, his fingers still careful and sure, Celeste felt something settle inside her—a deep, steady warmth that had nothing to do with desire and everything to do with love. This was Black love in its quietest form. The kind that listened. The kind that learned. The kind that stayed. The kind that knew taking care of her hair meant taking care of her.
Tyriq pressed a kiss to the side of her head, right where her curls pooled against his chest, and she closed her eyes, letting herself rest fully against him.
For the first time, she didn’t feel like she had to hold any part of herself back.
“I talked to Marcia—you’re booked in for Thursday,” he murmured quietly, the words meant to sound casual but landing like care wrapped in velvet.
Celeste hummed in response, a soft, content sound that vibrated in her chest as he gently patted the marble counter, guiding her closer. He moved with that quiet attentiveness that still caught her off guard—the kind that didn’t announce itself, didn’t ask for credit. He secured a towel around her neck with careful hands, adjusting it just so, making sure it wouldn’t slip, making sure she was comfortable before anything else.
She paused then, really looking at him.
His sleeves were rolled up, forearms dusted with the faint sheen of water and life, his hands steady and capable in a way that told her he’d take this seriously. His tongue peeked gently from the corner of his mouth—not absentmindedly, but on purpose, an unconscious little tell that always appeared when he was focused on something he cared about. It made her smile before she even realized she’d done it.
She reached out and poked at it without thinking.
He made a soft sound of protest and turned his head, pretending to bite her finger, teeth barely grazing skin, playful and gentle all at once. Her laughter burst free—unfiltered, bright, spilling into the kitchen like music—and his smile followed immediately, wide and satisfied, like seeing her happy did something essential to his spirit.
Then his hands were on her again, firm and supportive as he guided her back, carefully laying her along the cool marble. One arm stayed braced at her side, the other steady at her shoulder, as if the ground itself couldn’t be trusted unless he was anchoring her to it.
“’S alright,” he said softly, voice warm and grounding, eyes never leaving her face. “I’m here. I’m not gonna let you fall.”
And something opened in her at those words—something that had once learned to brace, to balance alone, to make herself small enough not to need catching. This wasn’t just about a towel or water or hair or appointments made without being asked. This was about presence. About a man who didn’t just love her in public or in polished moments, but in the quiet, vulnerable spaces where she was horizontal and trusting and undone.
Love, she realized, didn’t always shout. Sometimes it showed up rolled-sleeved and barefoot in a kitchen, making appointments, detangling curls, steadying bodies against marble counters, promising—without ceremony—that she would never have to hold herself up alone again.
She reached for his wrist then, squeezing lightly.
“I know,” she whispered.
And he smiled like that was everything he’d hoped to hear.
“I dunno why you don’t be washin’ it when it’s in the sew-ins, ’Leste,” he said, tone earnest in that way that always gave him away—like curiosity had gotten the better of common sense.
She groaned softly, head tipping back just enough to show her protest. “Tyriq, please.”
“Deadass,” he continued, unfazed, already too invested to retreat. “I know you’re supposed to. I googled that shit. That’s why you always be carryin’ that rat-tail comb everywhere—must be itchy as hell.”
She shot him a look over her shoulder, lips twitching despite herself. “Stay out of grown folk business, lil nigga.”
He barked a laugh, deep and delighted, the sound filling the kitchen like music before dawn. But he didn’t stop what he was doing. If anything, he got more careful.
Tyriq poured the shampoo into his palms and rubbed them together slowly, the rich scent of cocoa butter and shea blooming instantly—warm, familiar, unmistakably theirs. It wrapped the room in something ancestral, something soothing, a smell that felt like childhood kitchens and aunties’ bathrooms and Saturday mornings that took their time. He hummed under his breath as he tested the water with his wrist, brow furrowing in concentration until it was just right—not too hot, not too cool—because he refused to rush her comfort.
“See,” he murmured, more to himself than to her, “can’t be burnin’ you.”
Celeste watched him then, really watched him, her chest tightening at the sight of a man who cared this much about something he’d never been taught he should. Sleeves rolled, hands sure, attention undivided—he approached her hair like it was sacred ground, like each curl carried a story worth listening to. When his fingers finally threaded through it, careful and patient, she exhaled without meaning to, the tension leaving her shoulders in a quiet rush.
“Move up a lil, baby—scrub right there,” Celeste murmured softly, tilting her head just enough to guide him, voice gentle but sure like muscle memory speaking.
He clicked his tongue immediately, feigning offense even as he adjusted his hands a fraction higher, ever so careful. “‘M not supposed to,” he shot back, brows knitting together with exaggerated seriousness. “That might affect hair growth and shit.”
She paused, then slowly turned her head to look at him, eyes narrowed in mock disbelief, lips twitching at the corner. “My bad,” she said dryly. “I forgot you were a proud graduate of TikTok University.”
He laughed—deep and full, the sound spilling warm into the kitchen as the water continued its soft rush. “Nah, don’t play me,” he said, grinning, “that algorithm be educational if you know how to use it.”
Still, he listened.
That was the thing.
Even through the jokes, even through the teasing and the back-and-forth, his hands followed her guidance, slow and respectful, fingers massaging just where she’d asked, pressure adjusted like he’d been doing this for years. The shampoo foamed gently at her roots, white against dark coils, the scent of cocoa butter deepening as steam rose around them. His movements weren’t clumsy or rushed; they were intentional, thoughtful, like learning wasn’t beneath him and care wasn’t optional.
Celeste watched him from the corner of her eye, the humor settling into something warmer in her chest. This—this—was what she hadn’t known she’d been missing. A man who could laugh and learn in the same breath. A man who didn’t shrink when corrected, who didn’t take instruction as insult, who treated her body like shared territory rather than a responsibility she carried alone.
Celeste let out a soft groan before she could stop herself—a sound of relief more than anything—as his fingers finally found the exact spot she’d directed him to, rubbing slow and steady the way her scalp liked best. Her shoulders dropped immediately, tension melting out of her like ice under warm water, and she laughed when his head snapped up.
He tsk’d, dramatic and offended, pulling his hands back just enough to make a point.
“Yo, chill,” he muttered, shaking his head with a crooked smile. “It don’t take much for me.”
She snorted, eyes closed, grin spreading across her face. “Please,” she shot back, voice lazy and amused. “I could breathe on you and you’d get bricked up.”
He laughed, loud and unrestrained, the sound echoing off the kitchen tiles. “That’s not my fault,” he said, leaning back in, hands returning to her hair despite himself. “That’s a you problem.”
“And yet,” she murmured, humming as his fingers resumed their gentle circles, “here you are.”
“Here I am,” he echoed softly, tone shifting just a touch—less teasing, more tender—as he worked the shampoo through her roots again. His thumbs slowed, pressure perfect, movements practiced now, intentional. “Exactly where I wanna be.”
She opened her eyes just long enough to look at him, to clock the way his focus never wavered, the way he watched her face for cues like her comfort mattered more than proving anything. Then she closed them again, trusting him completely, letting her weight rest back into his chest.
She felt him begin to rinse her hair as she looked up at him, the focus in his gaze was endearing, loving, all of it made her chest sore as she gently turned to peck his wrist.
“Did I ever tell you about the first time I saw you?” Tyriq asked quietly, his voice softer than it had been all night, threaded with something that made her still without meaning to.
Celeste hummed in response, shoulders relaxed, eyes half-closed as his fingers continued their careful work. “At that party—”
He shook his head, a small smile pulling at his mouth, almost shy despite the confidence that lived in him now. “Nah. That was the first time you saw me. Not the first time I saw you.”
Her eyes opened then, curiosity flickering as she glanced up at him. He adjusted his stance, leaning his hip against the counter, hands never leaving her hair.
“It was at your nephew’s soccer game,” he continued, like he’d been holding the story in his chest for years and finally found the right moment to set it free. “I was refereeing that day. Hot as hell, dusty field, kids yellin’ like they was playin’ the World Cup.”
She laughed softly, already smiling.
“You had on this white blouse and black slacks,” he said, shaking his head in disbelief even now. “Looked way too damn professional for a football field. Like you’d just stepped out of a hospital board meeting and somehow ended up surrounded by Capri Suns and orange slices.”
Her lips parted, surprised. “You remember what I was wearing?”
“I remember everything,” he said simply.
He continued, slower now, eyes distant but warm. “Your nephew—he lit up the second he saw you. Wouldn’t stop starin’ your way, kept missin’ the ball ‘cause he kept lookin’ over at you on the sideline. I was yellin’ at him to pay attention, but he wasn’t tryin’ to hear it.”
Celeste smiled wider, heart tugging. “That sounds like him.”
Tyriq laughed softly. “I looked up to see what had my man so distracted—and that’s when I saw you.”
He paused, fingers brushing gently at her nape. “You were gigglin’, crouched down on the sideline, tryin’ to get him to focus. Wavin’ your hands, makin’ faces, tellin’ him the ball wasn’t gonna be nice just ‘cause his auntie was there. And when it rolled too close to him, you flinched at the same time he did, like you was ready to take the hit for him.”
Her throat tightened.
“I ain’t even hear the whistle for a second,” he admitted quietly. “Just stood there lookin’ at you, thinkin’… who is that woman. All dressed up, laughin’ that loud, showin’ up like that matters. Showin’ him somebody cared enough to be there.”
His voice softened further, almost reverent. “That was it for me. Didn’t know your name. Didn’t know what you did. Just knew you were that kind of woman—the kind that shows up loud and loving, the kind that makes a little boy feel ten feet tall just by bein’ seen.”
He glanced down at her then, eyes full in a way that made her chest ache. “I went home that day thinkin’ about you. Wonderin’ who you were. Hopin’ I’d ever run into you again.”
Celeste swallowed, emotion warming her chest. “So the party—”
“That was fate catchin’ up,” he finished with a soft smile. “But that field?” He leaned down and pressed a gentle kiss to the crown of her head. “That’s where I first knew I was in trouble.”
“And then you got me into your bed—well,” she corrected with a lazy smirk, glancing at him over her shoulder, “air mattress. I’m startin’ to think you preyed on me.”
“Preyed is crazy,” Tyriq shot back immediately, hand to his chest like she’d wounded him. “That’s a wild allegation.”
“Well what am I supposed to think, Mr. ‘If you an auntie out there and you older than thirty-five, let me know,’” she said sweetly, dragging out every word as she unlocked her phone. “You said it with your whole chest.”
The second the clip started playing—the grainy lighting, his old haircut, the audacity of his confidence—Tyriq snorted so hard it startled both of them.
“First of all,” he laughed, shaking his head, “that video did numbers for reasons I can’t control.”
“Uh-huh.”
“And second,” he added, pointing at the screen, “I never said you. I said aunties in general. That’s community outreach.”
She burst out laughing, leaning back into him. “Community outreach is insane.”
“I was givin’ back,” he insisted, dead serious now. “These young niggas ain’t appreciate maturity. I was tryna balance the ecosystem.”
She turned in his arms to look at him fully, eyes bright, mouth curved in that grin he swore was gonna be his downfall. “So you just happened to referee my nephew’s game, memorize my outfit, watch me giggle on the sidelines, then wait patiently till fate dropped me in your lap?”
He lifted a shoulder, unashamed. “When you say it like that, it sound strategic.”
She squinted. “You are dangerous.”
“Nah,” he said softly, hands settling at her waist, thumbs tracing slow circles like punctuation. “I’m intentional.”
Her laughter faded into something warmer.
“You ain’t preyed on,” he continued, voice gentle now, the teasing easing into truth. “You saw me. I saw you. And somehow we kept runnin’ into each other till we stopped pretendin’ it was coincidence.”
She hummed, thoughtful. “Still took me to bed with an air mattress.”
“And you still stayed,” he shot back, grinning. “That says more about you than me, Doc.”
She laughed again, shaking her head, then leaned in to kiss his jaw. “You lucky I like you.”
“I know,” he said easily, kissing her temple. “You keep reminders.”
On her phone, the clip replayed again—him younger, louder, reckless with confidence—and she watched it with a different smile this time.
“Crazy,” she murmured. “You was fishin’… and caught me.”
He squeezed her a little tighter.
“Best catch of my life.”
She shot him a look out the corner of her eye, lips twitching with mischief, then leaned back into him just enough to let the words land clean.
“Actin’ real smug,” she said lightly, “for someone that can’t fall asleep without my titty in his mouth.”
Tyriq froze for half a beat—then let out a low laugh, the kind that started in his chest and shook through him like she’d struck something true and familiar.
“Wow,” he said, dragging the word out as he tightened his arms around her waist. “So you just gon’ expose me like that.”
“You expose yourself,” she replied sweetly, patting his hand. “Every night. Soon as the lights go off, you start scootin’ closer like a toddler that lost his pacifier.”
“That’s not fair,” he protested weakly. “That’s comfort. That’s regulation.”
She laughed, full and bright, tilting her head back to look at him. “Mmhmm. You be knocked out in thirty seconds with a mouth full of nipple like the world ain’t never done you wrong.”
He shrugged, shameless. “What you want me to do? You soft.”
She rolled her eyes, but her smile gave her away. “You are grown.”
“And loved,” he added quietly, pressing a kiss to her shoulder, voice dipping into something more sincere beneath the teasing. “Which is why I sleep good.”
Her expression softened at that—just a fraction—but enough.
“Plus,” he continued, grin creeping back as he nuzzled closer, “you ever think maybe I act smug ’cause I know you gon’ let me?”
She huffed a laugh. “Don’t make it weird.”
“I’m already weird,” he said easily. “You knew that.”
She shook her head, still smiling, and rested her weight against him fully now. His chin settled on her shoulder, breath warm, familiar, safe.
And just like that—jokes fading into quiet—
they fit together again, easy as breath,
two people who knew each other’s softness
and stayed anyway.
“’Riq?”
“Yeah, baby?” His voice was already softer, already tuned to that frequency he only used with her, like the world had dimmed around the sound of her breathing.
“I love you,” she said, the words spilling faster once they were free, like she’d been holding them behind her teeth all along. “I love waking up to you. I love your kisses and the way you hold me, I love—”
He shifted then, lifting his head so he could see her face properly, his hand coming up to cup her cheek like he needed to steady both of them. His smile was gone now—not because he didn’t like what she was saying, but because it was hitting him. Deep. Clean. Right in the chest.
“Hey,” he murmured gently, thumb brushing under her eye, slow and reverent. “Breathe. I got you.”
She laughed softly through it, a little embarrassed, a little overwhelmed, but she didn’t stop. “I love the way you look at me like I’m the only thing in the room. I love how you listen, even when I’m rambling. I love that you learn me—really learn me. My hair, my moods, my people. I love that you show up.”
His throat bobbed. He leaned his forehead against hers, eyes closed for a second like he was committing the sound of her voice to memory.
“You be sayin’ all this like I don’t feel it,” he whispered. “Like I don’t wake up every day thinkin’ how I got so lucky.”
She pressed closer, hands fisting in his shirt. “I just wanted you to know it out loud.”
He pulled her into his chest then, firm and sure, one hand cradling the back of her head, the other spread warm across her spine. When he spoke again, his voice was steadier, deeper, carrying the weight of a promise instead of a reply.
“I love you too, Celeste,” he said. “In the morning. At night. When you talk too much and when you don’t talk at all. I love you when you’re tired and when you’re focused and when you think you gotta carry everything by yourself.”
She went still.
“I ain’t goin’ nowhere,” he continued softly. “Not from your bed. Not from your life. Not from the mornings you say you hate but secretly love ’cause we’re in ’em together.”
Her breath shook as she nodded into his chest.
“That sound good?” he asked quietly.
She smiled, eyes closing, heart full and calm and certain.
“Yeah,” she whispered. “That sounds perfect.”
