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updates elsewhere

i have other places where i update ppl on my life anonymously & i just updated one of those places. it is a bitchy rant abt things & how everything seems to get fucked over in my life one way or the other & usually that means taking one HUGE step forward & then two GIANT LEAPS backwards. It just doesn't matter anymore. Things will work out in the lnog run but, short term? Hell. fucking. no.

i am staying up all night, listening to #music

i feel so gd good from a good night's rest on a REAL BED! so good, in fact, that i am going to stay up all night & listen to the High Fidelity soundtrack & drink coffee & twttr a lot. i already had two things of water (2L) & am refreshed af. i am having fun!

#energized

i dunno why but i just feel.....awake! i know why i feel like this: i slept on a regular damn mattress last night/earlier today & i am R.E.S.T.E.D.! No more floor. No more busted mattress. Good things. I am back to abt 100%. Also, i found a *GOOD* e-cig battery in my drawer so no more struggles w/ that. I am slamming water as well bc it is abt time i start to drink H2O regularly again! #yeah!

score-a-lore

found an ecig battery that works! v v v good! the battery i have rn is sort of crapping out on me/is very old so i will have to buy another 1k maH EGO battery but until then, this EGO-T will work just fine. i am thinking abt buying three or four batteries the next time i go in & just keep them @ a smaller maH. they will be cheaper that way. i think that is what i'll do. i know my habits. to hell w/ those big ass box batteries. they are expensive as hell & have the same (shitty) lfiespan as the cheap batteries so i am going to avoid those. + they are hard to carry around! i want something much smaller but the tanks i use (T2) are v good. always reliable + cheap cartomizers (coils, they call them). 510 Vapor in Imperial, MO. is the best place around if you ask me. decent/normal prices & a great shop w/ high-end products. i still rely on getting my 125mL e-cig juice from MyFreedomSmokes.com bc it is the cheapest that way, but 510 Vapor is p good in regards to local convenience (the 'rents live right down the road). be back in a bit!

d/l'ing stuff

particularly Google services that need to be updated. Gonna start using Google Now & service like that again &...yeah. i am also excited abt "Vue", the smart glasses that do all kinds of stuff (music, calls, notifications, etc). If they use some sort of Google OS (in a way), then it could be rlly good. i don't think there is any type of visual component other than the (bone-conducting?) speaker but if they aim for an actual lens that does things, it will completely fail. It is a hard thing to do. But i, personally, would like to have a pair of Google Glass that LOOKS like the glasses i already wear now only w/ just the speaker & not all that other shit & use it like the Personal Assistant on Google Home. i have said all this shit 100 times before. so i need some suggestions as to what to write abt on Medium.com bc i told my friend i would write something every three days & that it would be *GOOD*. so i need some subject to write abt that i would like. Probably the perfect smart glasses thing. :) be back in a bit!

things are all goofied up w/ my tech

i have so many online names & bullshit, i am just changing everything to tomskee or a variation of the name tomskee. i am also going to get back into Medium.com for weekly writing. i am also going to possibly do something w/ #litebytes (which is a legit brand, just w/o a website ATM. lol. i am also going to build a landing page w/ this blog integrated as well as lots of other info for tomskee.org but i will def need a PC for that. so that's where i am at rn be back in a bit!

what a nightmare

lol i just spent a *GOOD* 20 minutes changing my twttr name back to (at)tomskee bc i was sick of olearytm & wanted the old name back & while doing so, i had to go to twitter.com MULTIPLE times & was a total.fucking.nightmare. Like, terrible. anyway, it is changed & i am going to make the URL for this blog tomskee.org (as i own it for abt another three years + more after that) & wait for a Chromebook to build the ACTUAL tomskee.org (which is long overdue) that will incorporate this tumblr's posts. Inline. anyway, i am glad i have the twttr handle back. feels good. streamlining stuff all around, rlly. going w/ a more minimal theme for this blog as well as other things. i have too many accts on the internet rn. also had dinner, abt time for coffee, good times be back in a bit!

hello there

so today was cool. i visited my sister & saw her new (ish) dog, Lacy (that is p lazy) & gave her the paperwork i needed for the dentist appt (she works in a dentists office) & then went to the 'rents & hung there for a bit & i also got a pizza. Came home, had pizza, napped for a bit :) so today was a good day & now everryone is talking abt how tomorrow is daylight savings time & i could gaf less abt it. i mean clocks usually set back automatically so no real need to be worried. :) i forgot that i sort of own a "brand" called #liteytes that i am doing nothing with. i *WILL* do something w/ it. someday. maybe. haha. be back in a bit!

boy, did i sleep well!

that chaise chair is so gd comfortable to sleep on! i have been sleeping on the floor for two months & this has been a nice change! also, my living room is more or less "complete" looking. i am going to see abt going to the 'rents later. Becky is on her way to work, so, no going over there. tbh, i think the 'rents aren't going to want to drive in the snow (yea, it snowed) so i will more than likely spend the day inside today drinking coffee be back in a bit!

where i stand rn

so, good things are happening. i met w/ Kevin & though we were not able to meet w/ Claire abt the rent subsidation thing, we WERE able to contact the 'rents & get the down payment for Laclede taken care of (thank-fucking-GOD!) & i got on Budget Billing w/ that & i also made a payment to Ameren UE (that i surprisingly owed ($55)) so now i am ONE-HUNDRED-PERCENT taken care of as far as bills go. e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g.! (this is a v good thing). Now i just have to wait for Claire to meet w/ us ASAP & then, BAM, April i will have rent subsidation. i rlly rlly rlly hope she is able to meet w/ me EARLY next week! i am listening to the #HighFidelity soundtrack & chilling out & admiring how i rearranged my living room. had coffee all is good

ahhhhh hahahaha

i feel better. i just updated an alternative blog acct w/ some cathartic things to get off my chest & i feel a *LOT* better! in other news: it is 4:09 AM & i just had coffee & i have not been to bed yet (who knows if i WILL sleep?) & i am just Googling random shit & sometimes posting to twttr & more or less being bored but waiting for the day to start so i can finish cleaning up my apt & making things look nice. i did a hell of a lot yesterday but there is still more to do today. Appt w/ Kevin later. idgaf abt it. no good news there. will result in literally ZERO (0) getting done abt anything so i may as well yank his fucking dick for a few more appointments until he gets burned out & transfers me or, i don't give a fuck what he does. lmao! that's abt it for now, be back in a bit!

schedule rearranging

trying my best to get ahold of the 'rents ASAP so i can reschedule w/ Tayla (my therapist) so i can get in next week & possibly do a two-hour session bc we have so much to talk abt. i txt'd the 'rents & hope to hear back. as for rn, i am just sitting here thinking of something to do as i already ate dinner & am quite full (vegan veggie wrap w/ sesame oil, greek seasoning & pepper sauce) & i am thinking abt making coffee again but that would just digest dinner quicker & give me no real pick-me-up rlly. anyway... it is so weird hearing a massive SPLASH of water outside my door every few seconds bc it is raining af & there are no gutters on the roof. sounds like buckets are getting tipped over! i would like to listen to some music but i am down to 2G (again) & i cannot listen to anything "streaming" w/ that speed :/ this is why i need an external drive w/ WiFi. (another time) be back in a bit

dead gutter

the gutters on this building are gone. they removed them & before they could put new ones on, it started raining. ironic, i guess. now my balcony is experiencing mist w/ the occassional giant SPLASH of water from "unregulated" water flow on the roof. see why we need Big Government? (just kidding). but the weather is quite enjoyable outside & i want to walk in the rain & get soaking wet & if i had a place to go, i would do so. but i am stuck inside, penniless, hopeless, bored, & w/o anything to do besides tweet (which is what i do 90% of the time anyway). I suppose it is good that the internet is more or less "free" (for now). i mean $35 p mo gets me just abt anything i want as fast as i like for 1GB & then slower....things that i want, after that! good deal if you ask me. the only thing that is a hang-up rn in my life is that the e-cig battery that i have rn is on the fritz & it needs to be replaced & i am constantly charging & then re-charging the gd thing. nbd bc i can always just keep doing so & be good to go on nicotine bc i have plenty of juice. & the whole system is a hell of a lot better than cigarettes, anyhow. be back in a bit

so completely raining

& i am enjoying the fuck out of it! i had to move from the chaise chair to the desk bc the mist was becoming strong as a motherfucker! i am going to find shit to write abt, blah, blah. nothing too exciting. i am just smitten w/ the weather today though. just...the best. i rlly wish i had a chance to see Tayla today but i just wasn't feeling it stomach-wise. #ill :/ i have an appt w/ Kevin tomorrow & i don't even wanna go to it. seems like one of the worst times ever. he is expecting me to have a bunch of shit ready to go & paid & stuff bc the dude doesn't seem to understand how money works & that it doesn't just magically appear out of nowhere so he is going to be let down & i could not feel any less sorry for him. #dumbfuck idegaf if i go to the appt. seems pointless. She will say "sorry we can't help bc of your debt" & then i will go home feeling even more poor than when i started the day. i am seriously in the depths of utter (sp?) poverty atm. like, i haven't had a lick of cash in God knows how long other than to buy a soda or this & that here & there. it's fucking pathetic. i hope that changes soon. oh & i am back to 2G internet speeds. bc life was treating me like a spoiled king before so, i had to have a "reality check". fucking bullshit. but @ least i will *HAVE* phone for a period of time. there's that *one-littttle-positive*. anyway, i got shit to do be back in a bit

hey

i missed therapy today bc when i was @ the 'rents, i was feeling a little bit under the weather & decided to go home so i wasn't miserable/sick in mid-conversation w/ Tayla. i wasn't even 100% done w/ my laundry & i headed back home (one pair of shorts still damp). but i am home now & the window & sliding glass door is open & it is a warm rain which is my favorite type of weather & i made a playlist that i am going to be constantly adding to of songs that i....just....like :) i made coffee & it kept me awake bc i did not want to miss this weather & i am done getting sick i think. haven't paid much attn to twttr recently bc i have been just sitting here listening to music. i just checked it a bit ago though & i think Google released a virtual whiteboard or some shit & i would like to have something like that. if it got hacked, all the ideas would be stolen, but. raining p good rn too so i am glad they replaced the gutters! lmao! the construction has been going nonstop for several days now & i guess they had to cut it short today bc of the weather. i plan on staying up late tonight for no other reason than i stay up late every night anyway. be back in a bit!

threw some things out

nothing of any importance whatsoever. just a few things i have been meaning to clean up for some time. it essentially was trash. & is trash now. so i have a lot of other things that i need to go through & more or less organize instead of "throw away". i also need a nice, convenient place for all of my therapy notes instead of a stack of papers sitting here on my desk. i also have old bills that i need to throw out. i am not going to minimize any paperwork tbh bc i *THINK* i need everything that i have. but i am going to organize it a little bit more thoroughly & put them in a nice drawer or something. i would like to know how many ppl actually practice minimalism? is it a lot? i have not met almost ANYONE who practices it. @ least irl. but i see a lot of ppl on YT practicing it & it seems like there are many (both popular AND unpopular) who are minimalists & the only difference is the quality of video. haha. (i rlly hate YTer's as i think they are thirst monsters, but some are OK). but regardless of whether or not ppl practice the lifestyle or not, i *DO*! & that is what is important. i still need to find a longform subject to write abt but i did do some writing on another blog earlier but i need like, Medium.com-ready material. lol. be back in a bit!

Spartanism

i think it is a v good thing. i know a lot of ppl practice (for a while, most not permanently) minimalism, but a lot of ppl do not practice Spartanism. That can barely be categorized as "minimalism" bc Spartanism is doing w/ basically nothing. it is well past the "only that!? you're crazy!" phase & well into the "i am just leaving the house to check the mail, coming right back" minimalism. i am not sure 100% of ppl who really practice Spartanism but i could (possibly) be one of those ppl. Of course there is a sense of "sacrifice" w/ such a lifestyle bc there most definitely is. In fact; you would definitely need some sort of reasoning or philosophy or something around the sacrifice so ppl didn't think you were a glutton for punishment! i am going to pursue Spartanism i believe. i think it would be an interesting lifestyle & certain things *ARE* absolutely necessary & the important thing is, is that you do not sacrifice what YOU want! Make sure that whatever it is you are giving up is something you most definitely can live w/o & make sure that you also have the things you want/need. See: i have been a minimalist since 2010 & i have been pairing down even more & more & more possessions all the time. regardless if i have the money TO accumulate stuff, i just never do. there is no point in it. BUT, i am actually looking to replace some things rn & rlly practice the lifestyle "full bore" bc i know that summer is coming up & i usually keep my clothing to minimum anyway, so, i think i can get by just fine 5 Liter backpack? i dunno. i will have to find out! Thanks for reading!

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