thinkin bout season 1 kurt being so starved for affection that he admitted to practicing kissing on his elbow. and how he was treated like a disease bc of his sexuality, and other boys couldn’t even stand being close to him or, god forbid, being touched by him even in the most innocuous ways. and how he put his dad’s feelings ahead of his own desires and gave up something he really wanted bc it would’ve made him stand out more, and he didn’t want his sexuality being a burden on someone else. and how later we find out he was thinking he could disappear and no one would even notice
and in season 2 two of his “friends” are literally scheming to keep another boy from even having to interact with him, doing the absolute most to keep kurt lonely (even if it wasn’t their main goal) to the point where kurt felt like he had to “set (sam) free” and spare him the humiliation of even having to be associated with the local gay kid bc again his sexuality is being treated as a burden on others. and his “friends” were also still making homophobic jokes without a second thought and his main bully threatened to kill him and still people barely noticed anything amiss
and in season 3 even after he’s met his soulmate who makes him feel loved and makes him feel seen, they can barely pat each other on the shoulder in public bc they know what kind of environment mckinley is and they’re still scared to fully be themselves
kurt was isolated, treated like a disease, beaten down, made to feel small, had his life threatened, thought he had to change a fundamental part of himself just to be accepted, all because of who he was and who he loved
and then in season 5 blaine proposes. and kurt is surrounded by everyone he’s ever loved and that’s ever loved him. and they embrace him literally and figuratively and hug and even kiss him. and all his friends are here, and his dad, and strangers that don’t even know him are here to celebrate him and his love. and it’s not small and it’s not muted and it’s not hiding. it’s big and loud and celebratory
it’s something straight out of a romcom or disney movie, something kurt always thought was only ever going to be a fantasy for him, but blaine made it real. it’s a spectacle, for sure, but it’s also a celebration of their love. it’s a bold statement for kurt, for blaine, for the show itself. it’s blaine ripping away anything that’s blocking kurt’s sun and shining a positive light on him. putting him in front of a hundred people who want to see good things happen to him, who are here to celebrate him. something kurt thought was an impossibility ten, five, even one year ago
and i’ve said it before but. whatever doubts kurt had in the beginning were nowhere to be found by the time he met blaine on the stairs. from the second blaine starts his speech, to the moment that ring goes on kurt’s finger, kurt’s eyes do not leave blaine. he isn’t looking for approval, for anyone’s thoughts, and certainly not looking for a way out. the proposal is a spectacle for sure, but blaine’s speech? it might as well have only been him and blaine in the room for how kurt acts. and no, things aren’t perfect after that. but kurt never, ever stops loving blaine no matter what struggles they endure
kurt loves blaine. and he chooses blaine over and over again. klaine doesn’t have to be everyone’s otp. not everyone even has to ship them. but the number of people sprouting up lately that seem hellbent on taking something so beautiful, positive, and meaningful, and warp it beyond recognition into something sinister and manipulative is so crazy and sad to me. all bc they can’t help but project onto kurt, or think that blaine is literally voldemort. i will never understand the people who think that way. but i will be forever grateful that glee gave us something as amazing as this to cherish forever
