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5 years later & he still gives me butterflies

How I made these Pandan Coconut Waffles

❤️

I envy girls with curly hair, I wish I had curly hair

can't wait til I get to have kids of my own & I can stop borrowing everyone elses lmao

quick sketch

I need to learn how to want to focus on myself, instead of putting so much energy into other people and having none left. I'm constantly stuck on him. We've been together for almost 5 years & he's still constantly on my mind for the majority of my day. I spend too much time thinking about what he's doing, who he's talking to, where he's at. I act like I don't care but its insane how much I do. This isn't healthy for me. I've been using our relationship to hide from the fact that i'm insecure & depressed. Always wanting more love from him, more attention, for him to hold me close & tell me he loves me. Trying to convince myself that I have no reason to be depressed & insecure because I'm in love and I have someone who loves & cares about me. But love is not a solution to my depression, it won't fix it. Not love from him anyways. I want to be able to love myself completely & learn how to put myself first. I want to be able to find myself and figure out who I am. I don't understand who I am as a person & it's extremely confusing. I feel lost.

It's the most disappointing thing when you're telling someone you think cares about you how pathetic & worthless you feel & not once do they give you the reassurance that you're not. Not once do they tell you that people care about you & you are worth something.

what I do with my spare time

Cali Cali ❤️

Happy House Warming Jackie & Ron Ron!

i dont show him how much i appreciate him as much as i should

how much i wish we were back in hawaii

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