ollio (s/he/they)

welcome to the shit show.

[olliocatxo]

her careless selfish desire had burned her to her core, so much so that she was unable to feel any new pain that could possibly hurt her more.

[olliocatxo]

i’m in the process of trying falling in love with myself again

[olliocatxo]

i don’t know what i want anymore

[olliocatxo]

how can i prepare for a future when i’ve barely gotten over the past and can barely cope with the present?

[olliocatxo]

it’s exhausting trying to take care of the past me, current me, and future me. every day is a constant balancing act trying to cope.

[olliocatxo]

real lessons aren’t learned without experience.

[olliocatxo]

sometimes when you pop into my mind randomly during the day and in the silent hours of the night, there’s a part of me that wants to believe it’s because you’re thinking of me too

[olliocatxo]

11.17.2020

i’m running on pure caffeine and stress at this point. how much longer can i keep going?

[olliocatxo]

i hate that you’ve become a stranger to me. i hate knowing that you might never look at me the way you once did.

[olliocatxo]

some people are draining. not in a bad way, but it just requires a lot out of you when you’re with them. but then there are some people that fill you up. their simple presence gives you a moment of peace and clarity you can’t find with others. their presence breathes life into you.

[olliocatxo]

not everyone has the emotional tools to show up for you in the ways you need. that doesn’t mean they love you any less. it also doesn’t mean you need to stay.

wnrs

[qvotext]

[fernpellerin]

sketchbook page, november 2020

[dualvoidanima]

‘melt’

[olliocatxo]

there are so many things i have left to tell you, but now all that we can do is say goodbye

[olliocatxo]

11.7.2020 - 2:48 pm

being outside, feeling the sun’s warmth saturate my existence, i feel alive. 

yes, rainy days have their moments. they can provide a sense of peace where it feels like you exist in a vacuum - time and space mean nothing. 

but seeing the sun’s light reach across the horizon, bringing colors into focus, i feel at peace. 

[olliocatxo]

we see the same sunrise and the same sunset every day, just at different times. it’s almost like realizing they’re the right person, just at the wrong time.