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it’s M’s birthday today and so i finally gave him his present (Ninja Creami) and he’s so chuffed! he had no idea what id got him cos we’d agreed to just spend the money doing smth nice on holiday instead. but i booked that too 🌝

so i got new furniture last week and sorted bits of the house didn’t i.. i posted a pic on instagram of the gym and my mum replied saying it looked good, so i sent pics of other furniture too. and she wants to come see it when it’s done.

then on sunday morning she asked if she should bring M’s bday presents to the cinema or wait til next weekend when we go for a meal.

i said she could bring them to the cinema or could come to ours for a bit after the cinema, thinking she’d come and see the house like she wanted to.

instead she just went “we’ll just park near you instead”

shit like this always pisses me off because they rarely come to our house and it’s always been like this. when we lived in salford, they’d often go to the trafford centre and not visit us, despite us being a 10min drive from it. and i barely saw them back then either, so it made me feel shit that they could be bothered driving all the way there, but cba driving an extra 10mins to see their daughter at uni.

and now it’s the same even though we live 20mins from them. they don’t often come round, it’s usually us going to them. but they often come to the town near us, which again is 10mins away. and not once have they ever messaged asking to pop round whilst they’re nearby?!

i just find it kinda rude and also hurtful. like yesterday after giving M the gifts, my mum said they best get back and make tea…. then her and my dad both commented on the fact they’re not even hungry… like exactly so you could have just come to ours for 30mins to actually spend time with us couldn’t you?! cos sitting in the cinema isn’t spending time together really cos you can’t exactly talk.

ugh.

my day in photos!

we did the food shop and a tip run this morning. then went to a few shops to find some nicer door knobs for the kitchen cabinet. then went to see Disclosure Day.

honestly we didn’t enjoy it. i love the premise but it was just so so so slow. my mum loved it though.

got home and noticed a bloody screw in my tyre. it barely even pierced the rubber though so i think im safe thank fuck.

my parents got M a load of plants for his bday and we have no idea what the one in the photo is lol

and then he put our new doorknobs on!

i plan to sit on the sofa and do nothing for the evening now. other than making food at some point.

my friend was round last night and we got pizza and chatted for ages which was v nice. i also finished cleaning the house before she arrived and now it feels soooooo much better with all the new furniture and way less clutter. theres still a little clutter but it’ll be gone once we get a shed so its really not that bad, nowhere near what it was like before anyway.

i’ve got classes soon and the main road is closed from 11.30-2.30 for the carnival parade, so i guess im stuck at the studio for that entire time (classes finish at 1.30) cos i literally can’t get home without a 40min detour lol. stupid town only having one main road through it.

one of the girls is coming round after classes for a bit which should be nice. M is out with his mum for his bday and then we’re just chilling tonight. and going seeing Disclosure Day tomorrow with my parents!

lol came on my period 2 days early 🫠

tbh though i’m glad to be out of the god awful mood i’ve been in for over a week. i’ve felt like a nice human again today and everything felt fine rather than insanely difficult.

Ms friend quit his job last year with no plan. didn’t have savings. hadn’t even spoken to his gf about it. so she had to start paying for everything and work overtime to afford it. he then decided he was gonna change career. found an online software engineering course, was adamant he’d walk into a high paid job at the end. he didn’t. took him a good 6 months to find a job. he started it over a month ago and he’s yet to get paid. he got told he isn’t in the paid employment stage yet?? guy is clearly being scammed.

anyway his gf is pregnant.

cos of course. of course she is. 🙃

genuinely why is it always the couples in shit situations or shit relationships that get pregnant so easily. and almost every couple i know that have a lovely relationship and have everything in place and start trying, they all struggle. it infuriates me.

wanted to get shit done today so built the shelves for the porch and sorted the porch out. also prepped the doors for the kitchen cabinets and they’ll go on later. then i just need to put stuff away tonight and tomorrow after work. but i only have like 1.5 hours after work tomorrow before my friend comes round. should be fine though there isn’t much to sort now!

and now i want a new kitchen bin cos mines old and ugly. the one i want is £140?? there is no need for them to be so expensive istg. i refuse to pay that much for a bloody bin.

oh also we might get married next year 🥰 we will be eloping cos neither of us really like weddings or want to pay for one lol. we’ve been looking at potentially going to Slovenia and getting married in the mountains / by a beautiful lake or something!

these are my inspiration photos:

we’ve found a woman who plans elopements for couples and she goes to some amazing locations. so we might get in touch with her later in the year for a quote 👀👀

i am once again… so tired. i’m teaching tonight but don’t think i’ll stay for the class afterwards like i usually would. i wanna get the house tidy cos i have a friend over both tomorrow night and saturday afternoon. and currently there’s random shit in the living room and 3 doors waiting to go on the new display cabinet, and everywhere needs hoovering.

one of my neighbours house alarms goes off most days and it drives me insane, idk which house it is because it just echos around the estate so i don’t think it’s even on my street.

it went off 4 times yesterday afternoon. and then went off at 4am last night 🫠🫠🫠 just get rid of the damn thing it clearly doesn’t work properly my god.

this is gonna be such a Monday.

i’m in the office so i’ve had to get up early.

it’s raining.

my tram stop that’s 2min from my office is closed so i’ll have to walk 15min in the rain.

none of my teams are in the office so i’ll be sat alone all day. i’m only in for an interview in the afternoon.

ugh!

also just ordered a shelving unit for the porch for shoes!

spent a small fortune but it fixes 3 things that rly piss me off in the house so i’m very excited

lol we cleared stuff from the kitchen yesterday and it was annoying me that M likes having his protein powders etc out on the side so that he doesn’t forget to use them. i hate it cos it looks messy. he also suggested getting a cabinet cos we have space for one and it’d make the area look tidier.

so then i went looking for smth online and i ended up suggesting a display cabinet and we could get nice glass containers to put the protein powders etc in and then theyre ‘out’ but they look nice so its best of both worlds.

i couldn’t stop thinking about it today and wanted smth NOW so ended up reserving a cabinet at JYSK.. went to pick it up after getting the text saying it was ready, got there and they went “oh we left you a voicemail it’s not in stock”… the voicemail was left whilst we were in the damn shop. 20mins after the text saying it was ready 🙄

i couldn’t find anything anywhere else… ended up on ikea on the billy bookcase planner and got smth i liked for less money, and more storage. and then i figured i could get it delivered this week, and if im gonna do that i may as well get the storage i wanted for the gym too??

so i have and its all coming on tuesday lol. im meant to be saving but the house having STUFF with no home is pissing me off so i’ll be glad that things have a home and doesn’t feel messy! definitely worth it. and as of august i can save quite a lot per month so it’ll be fine!

i was in such a rubbish headspace earlier (have been for days) but then i ordered biryani and daal and that really cheered me up .. i think the house being tidier helped too. i rly hope my mood improves soon cos im bored of feeling shit most of the time

i ended up going to the studio cos the owners didn’t reply to me 🙄 so i taught the two people booked which is fine. i just cba cos i was tired lol.

had to message a friend who was coming to the next class and ask her to bring me a red bull so that i could get to the other classes 😅

then came home with mcdonald’s and then we went to the tip and i’ve just hoovered all downstairs. now i plan on doing nothing until i can be bothered washing my hair at some point!

there’s only 2 people booked onto my class today and so it shouuuuld get cancelled and those people moved to the other class that’s happening at the same time.. but i’ve still not heard anything from the studio owners so idk what’s happening and it’s in an hour.. so i’m gonna have to start getting ready just in case.

i actually cba teaching so i’m hoping it is cancelled lol. doesn’t happen very often for my classes luckily. i’ll still be going for the other 2 classes i usually join after though.

and then we’ve decided to do some cleaning and sorting in the house and go to the tip… but it’s raining all day so that’s annoying.

got to the studio last night and started class and immediately felt like my energy had all drained. it was commercial dance and i’m not very good at it anyway but i particular found last night hard.

for a start, i was stood in a spot, in the corner of the room, and 2 other people were on my side of the room but we were decently spaced out cos obv you need room to move. on the other side of the room there was only 1 person.

2 more people showed up that hadn’t been to this class before and immediately walked over to me in the corner and went behind me, despite there being NO room behind me?! so i just went “oh we have the entire room yknow hahaha” so then one of them moved to the other end. but the other stayed with me so then i had to move forwards.

and the whole class she just kept getting really close to me and it was really winding me up because the routine was hard anyway. so i was finding it difficult. but then also having fuck all room made it harder still.

i felt SO irritated, i could feel myself getting really worked up and i just wanted to leave and go home tbh. obv i didn’t though.

luckily stretch afterwards was fine and cheered me up.

then today i woke up and felt insanely drained again. i also felt a bit unwell but i can’t pinpoint what was making me feel unwell. i’m okay now but i do still feel tired. my mood has also plummeted the past few days too, which i’ve been putting down to us booking the infertility appointment cos the fact ive had to do that just makes me sad tbh.

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