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(captivating, bewitching); can’t ever make up their mind, loves astrology, listens to a lot of different music, always longing for something, trusts fate, believe in soulmates; listens to ballads in the middle of the night, massages and aromatherapy as the best self care, moodswings

[grickgrack]

[omg-whereismypizza]

November 4, 2024

The truth is - genuine connection is ease. It is peace. When you find it you will know. You will feel seen, you will feel like you are being mirrored back to yourself, like you are discovering a shadow of your own heart in another human being.

Slowly, through loving the right people, you will come to realize that the human beings who are meant for you in this life will not exhaust you, or hollow you out, or leave you feeling like you are hard to love. Slowly, you will come to realize that you do not have to romanticize the things in this life that hurt. You do not have to run towards the fire. Love does not have to feel like a fight, does not have to feel like battle, does not have to wound.

Slowly, you will learn how to lay down your arms. How to walk away from those who will only ever love you in halves. Slowly, you will learn that you cannot love someone into loving you, or being ready, if they are not. You cannot love someone into their potential. You cannot close their hands around your heart if they are not willing to hold it themselves. You have to let them go. You have to focus on the people in your life who bring you back home to yourself. You have to focus on standing up for that kind of connection, on honoring that calm, because it exists. It exists.

And I hope you learn to trust that, because when you come across it, when you ultimately experience it, it feels as if you are standing at a door you finally have the keys for. You enter it with ease. There is no fumbling through your jacket pocket trying to find the right way in. There is no desperately reaching into your bag trying to uncover the point of access. You are no longer banging your fists against the door, asking to be invited in. You walk through. Soundlessly. Softly. You take off your shoes. You hang your coat in the closet. You put on a pot of coffee. You're home. You're home.

[ur-daily-inspiration]

[remanence-of-love]

[metamorphesque]

― Clarice Lispector, Near to the Wild Heart

[omg-whereismypizza]

I think one of the most genuine feelings a person could ever feel is to finally lose the painful grip that has been holding them for the longest time.

[andantegrazioso-deactivated2018]

[theredheadfromvirginia-deactiva]

[danger]

[999m]

[omg-whereismypizza]

[omg-whereismypizza]

April 24, 2023

To you, my courageous one,

You have become deeper day by day, like a star meant to shine even in the darkest night. You turned out to be the person this world least expected you to be because you believe in the magic of your kindness and perseverance. This is your destiny and you owned it so well. So, give yourself a tap on your shoulder, too, for making it until here. For staying, hoping, and believing.

[omg-whereismypizza]

December 11, 2022

Give yourself the permission to grow, whether amidst ranging cities or in the forest of wilderness. You will never be too little or too much for something so grand, great, and beautiful. So dwell no more to puddles of regrets and lakes of apologies. Grow. Grow even if it scares you. Grow and keep on reaching the dream. Grow and journey to where you are meant to be. Grow and be as free as you can be.

[omg-whereismypizza]

November 10, 2022

To that “one” situationship.

I think you meant so much to me because after so long of being numb, you made me feel something. You re lit a fire in me that i forgot even existed. You see, my heart has been cold for so long but with the warmth of your presence it was lit like nothing in no time. See, the moments that i spent with you was more than just a fling. It wasnt just a moment. You knew how to stop time, that’s what your presence brings. And see me, I’m an overthinker. I think a lot but you calmed the voices in my head down and you dont find that too often in people. I dont find that too often in people. But I found it in you and I think thats why you meant so much to me. Its rare that I say that L word, but I meant it when I said it to you. You knew me through and through. At some point I started to realize that maybe I wasnt the one for you, because I was doing all this with intention and you really were just doing it for the moment. And thats okay but you were feeding me these fantasies and these dreams of us having a life together. When in reality is that people are seasons and seasons change. And the weather that started happening between us wasnt my favorite. I started to fall so in love with you and I seeing you drifting far away from me and that was painful to have to witness. Nobody loves loving someone more than the other person loves you. Its one of the most painful feelings you could feel. And although you werent hurting me intentionally, you knew what you were doing. You knew that you didnt want all of me for eternity, you knew it was just for a moment. And thats the issue, I dont hate you, I love you and thats the problem is that I love something that was never even mine. And was never intended to be. But I dont wish bad on you. Again, you made me feel something after being numb for so long so I thank you for that. But my message to you moving forward is that be careful how you deal with people like me. Sensitive, overthinking, big hearted, passionate people like me. Be careful with them. Because it hurts people like me. This hurts. You hurt. As much as you felt good, it hurt. But I hope you find what youre looking for, because clearly it wasnt me.

[eps-ilon]

[chanel-tiger]

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