Omnivore

My sarcasm might kill me.

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So this wasn’t really supposed to be a blog about my life and how I was getting it together. Except per usual. I didn’t stick with it. Here is why. After moving back home I became a full time babysitter for my nephews. For the entire month of May I was a housekeeper, rule-maker, and meanie. Then June came and I started my summer job and turned 21. As well as got engaged to this handsome fella. ♥ So my idea to piece together everything fell apart before all the pieces were even there. 

That brings me to the point of this whole post. How I had to start planning my wedding without one of my oldest friends. We became close in High School. And then started College together. I went far away she stayed close to home. Last year we had a falling out because she always ditched our plans. It came to the point were I just wanted nothing to do with her. 

So, I dropped her like a potato and moved on. 

Or so I thought I did. 

Our friendship never really came to a close, it just faded off into a minuscule line of dust. So this summer when I got engaged, my heart pulled a little bit as I was trying to plan out my bridesmaids and maids of honor. As I knew life to be up until last year this dear friend was always going to be in my future wedding. She had been there for  me through just about everything. 

So, I reached out to her last week and we met for lunch today. in a couple of weeks were going to meet up for lunch again. We are going to take it slow and work on being friends again. But the connection that made us inseparable is just no longer there. 

Anyways moral of the story. You can burn down all your bridges, but in the end there will always be more wood to build new ones. 

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-Well, that's a wrap for Junior year. -Today I finished finals, moved home, startes unpacking, and finished out the night playing zombies on call of duty 2. -I'm also so exhausted that I'm not really sure what I'm writing.

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So, I actually just skipped an assignment and then decided to not do another because I would rather pack and study for more important tests. 

Anyways. This is my Love. His name is Jacob. We look at each other like this quite often. We’ve been together for a little over a year, and truly its one of those relationships where I could see myself marrying this man tomorrow. 

He’s absolutely great. He’s funny, smart, and loves helping people. He strives to be nicer everyday and has almost as much patience as God. He understand and never forces anything. While at the same time standing firm and not backing down. 

He’s the love of my life and I could not be any happier that he walked into my life and decided to stay.

More sappy love stuff will definitely come up about him later.

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Can I pour my heart out without this being a Blog?

I’m not much of a writer. I mean, I write papers but that’s quite the extent of it. I’ve tried doing to whole Diary thing, but I always forget about it. Probably because I hide it and then it takes me ten years to find it. But I've been walking this very narrow path lately and truthfully the bottom line is, I need to be more honest with myself. Which has actually led me to being write here. Writing a post about my feelings. Although whats the difference between a post and a blog? 

That’s what I’m going to try and find out. This summer is the summer of journal-ing / blogging / posting / expressing my feelings. By the end I hope to be more clear minded and at peace about what is going on in my head. 

This journey will start one week from today. The day that I move back home from my Junior year of College. The day that I move from living in an apartment with my 3 roommates to my house full of 7 people. 

The day when I’m going to start talking about actually trying to become the person that I want to move on to be during my senior year of college, and beyond.