Angry, Aware, Helpless

This is a blog where I will likely post many unpopular opinions and potentially controversial content, but ultimately the only thing I will ever post is the truth. I don't want any violent interactions, I'm not here for debates. I'm here to write down any thoughts of the world.

[once-there-was-a-purpose]

I'm honestly horrified at the behaviour of the British public. Don't get me wrong: toppling statues of slave traders? Protesting for equality? Both great. Good. Making a point.

Defacing war memorials erected in the name of countless individuals (white and black) that lost their lives to give you the freedom you have today? Heckling and bullying the young soldiers that have volunteered to clean that memorial for showing due respect to the dead and picking up your littered protest signs?

"All Cops Are Bastards": are they? No. There are 123,200 police officers in the UK; how many of these are responsible for acts of brutality and racism?

Show some fucking respect. Don't target and injure individuals doing their damned job. What do you think would happen if police didn't exist? If we didn't have an army, or some measure of law enforcement? Sit down, shut the fuck up and imagine that.

[once-there-was-a-purpose]

I crave human touch; I ache down to my skeleton, my flesh crawls with the need for it and I feel like I'm drowning.

Its not sexual; so rarely do people touch me that I want to cry just thinking about it. I don't know if I can go for another day without it.

Somebody please just touch me; I can't breathe

[once-there-was-a-purpose]

Democracy will never work; all it accomplishes is fracturing the population to distract us from the real problems. We're too busy screaming "You're wrong!" At each other that we never stop to think "what do we really need?"

Why is the word 'dictatorship' inherently evil? Some of the greatest, most equal empires were founded with a single leader at the head. The problem? Their inability to step back from their prejudices; their impure intentions.

What we need is a single leader with a single goal; save humanity, and save the planet. This individual has no prejudices, has the ability to look at the bigger picture; an aching desire for equality and prosperity for everybody.

People are afraid of losing control. I get that, but humans were never made for a democratic system. Any successful social animal species runs on what is essentially dictstorship: a single leader. There are, of course, exceptions, but humans are NOT one of them.

Corruption? It happens, but that's because even the greatest dictators were run by their own emotions; could not see the bigger picture.

I wish to God that you people would look at the bigger picture; think, just for a second, about anything but the bullcrap that has been shoved down your throats since you were small.

We are distracted with the illusion of control and made to fight ourselves so They can slip, unnoticed, over our heads.

Just. Fucking. Think.

[whumpster-dumpster]

When the magic user overexerts themself so much that they don’t even actually realize how bad it is. One of their friends has to point out to them that there’s blood trickling from their nose, and Whumpee can only smear it with two fingers and look at the blood in dazed surprise. “Oh…” they say faintly. Then their legs turn to jello and they crumple.

[descaladumidera-deactivated2020]

Choose between collaring Tony and collaring Stephen?

Definitely collaring Stephen. Sorry, this is law. I don’t make the rules. He gets strangled so fucking much and he always looks so pretty while being strangled! He needs a collar.

[soulmatetours]

i know everyone makes fun of ya dystopian fiction and books like the hunger games or divergent, etc. like “lmao one teenage girl can’t save the world” but uhhh 

that is literally????

what’s happening?????

right now?????

like idk about you, but i can smell a revolution coming

and she’s leading it. 

[thesasukecomplex]

As as a fellow autistic swede, I don’t sense anything revolutionary from her. The only reason she even got famous was because her parents hired a PR company to capitalise on her sitting outside our government. The PR company earned millions (sek) by marketing her and when criticised, claimed to have no connection to her despite being business partners with her mother, who’s also a famous person in Sweden. She also got special treatments from her school, allowing her to skip school whereas other autistic students had to attend no matter what. Adults are taking advantage of an autistic teenager to push their own agenda, and to capitalise on her hyperfixation. Another PR company is currently behind her, and ALSO has business relations to her mother to capitalise off this girl. She has no idea that these people are taking advantage of her success. Also, she’s not a saint that will save the climate. She is a teenager who sat outside the Swedish government, and became a climate symbol with the help from her famous mother. I don’t doubt that she is passionate about the climate, but she is being exploited real good. There are many more ways to support the climate than to actively stand behind a literal child being exploited by parents and capitalists.

[star1412]

Stand behind her. She doesn’t deserve this. But absolutely talk about how disgusting the adults are for putting her there.

[once-there-was-a-purpose]

We can't cure cancer.

We can't cure genetic anomalies like cystic fibrosis.

We can't vaccinate against every deadly disease.

Well. We can, I'm sure, given enough time...but we can't.

Why?

Because overpopulation is a colossal issue as is. What do you think would happen if an additional billion people survived each year? Chaos. People need to die early. It's the terrible truth.

[realitista]

When Will the Planet Be Too Hot for Humans? Much, Much Sooner Than You Imagine.

Plague, famine, heat no human can survive. This is not science fiction but what scientists, when they’re not being cautious, fear could be our future.

[skeletonducc]

Do you ever get stressed out about the fact that if humanity doesn’t stop with all this pollution and climate change crap within the next two years we are literally at the point of no return and I and loads of other people my age won’t get to live out full lives and we will get to see how it all ends and so many people still don’t believe that this is happening which makes it harder to fix and we are literally on the brink of the end of the world and oh god I can’t breathe

[once-there-was-a-purpose]

We're already past the point of no return. We'll start doing something about it when we have a week left to live.

[once-there-was-a-purpose]

Me: *gets blackout drunk to deal with the increasing intensity of my depression and mental illness*

My housemate: lol cool ok

Me: *attempts suicide and major self harm whilst rolling around naked because blackout drunk*

My housemate: you monster how dare you get tf out

Me: *homeless* can I have my half of tv money

My housemate: have the tv idc

Me: ...

[once-there-was-a-purpose]

Like Lead.

I want to go.

It's so heavy, I don't like it.

Like lead.

But my head isn't there...

Yes it is. Its just floating, like helium.

Balloons.

Remember, childhood? Happiness?

No, ignorance.

There were 50 of us, clinging to balloons in shades of cerulean and lapis,

We were so excited, then.

I was sad, as I watched the balloons slip from our fingers.

There were notes, tied to the strings. Messages, for beings over yonder with no prior knowledge of our life.

Our ways.

They held the church address; a letter, to be sent back when the balloon had been recovered.

An anonymous communication.

I want to go, like that balloon.

I want to drift, higher, higher, carried by the whims and tides of the earth.

What message would I carry?

Don't send me back.

[once-there-was-a-purpose]

The Dog.

You'd put a dog down,

Kindness, you call it.

I agree.

It's hurting, you can't make it stop. It's crying; its shivering; its bleeding.

If I cried, would you put me down?

I can, you know.

I can make myself shiver. Bleed.

I don't like pain, but I want to sleep.

Please. Help me.

You won't. Why? I'm begging you.

I'm crying now; please.

But that would be kindness.

Do I not deserve...kindness?

Perhaps not.

[once-there-was-a-purpose]

Soul, Bared.

It's visceral,

Superluminal,

Subvocal.

It's eternal,

Ineffable,

Indescribable.

Its existential,

Nihilistic,

Numbness.

Its excrutiation,

Seeping,

Oozing.

Its monochrome,

Panoptic,

Prismatic.

It never stops.

It never starts.

It is always.

It is pain.

[once-there-was-a-purpose]

This is pouring yourself into your work. An abstract art installation, made by and of me.

[once-there-was-a-purpose]

I want people to look at me walking down the street and need to do a double take.

I want them to watch and see my anger and murderous intent in my charming smile and the set of my jaw, my uncanny intelligence in the flash of my eyes.

I want them to stand in front of me and ineffably feel like sheep paraded before a wolf.

I want them to feel the tension in my body and my mind as it stretches and comes to a peak. Because someday, soon, it might. Just. Snap.

[cheetodeity-deactivated20201213]

When I was unemployed I fucking hated being bothered about finding work every single day and when I finally found work I was hoping I’d heard the last of that but nah I still get regularly bothered about this stupid fucking horseshit anyway. 

[once-there-was-a-purpose]

Yet you hate the military, which if nothing else saves thousands of young people without other hope for a stable career from homelessness, poverty and a life in prison or on the streets.

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[freshlysqueezedmeme]

[once-there-was-a-purpose]

Being a nihilist because you're cursed with hyper-intelligence and you physically cannot un-realise the meaninglessness of existence.