The girl with a broken smile.

unrequited-lover💔

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It’s so hard to pretend to be friends with someone special when every time you look at the person, all you see is everything you want to have.

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The present is in front of you but isn't for you.

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I used to think of you as somebody who would never ever hurt me, ever.

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Iindahin ko ang sakit na gumuguhit.

Ngingiti sa likod ng luhang pumupunit.

Walang Hanggan

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You kept yourself aloft for the longest time you could make. And that distant you made is the thing that betrayed you. You missed him so much. You build a wall. But, its you who climb that wall of yours and you sneak and peak a glance on him. You thought that distance and wall betrayed you, but no. It's your fault. You tried to stop yourself from falling when in fact falling in love is not even a crime. There's no fault being in love. The only mistake you could make when in love is to lost yourself while loving too much. In your case, you are too brave to stay in the dark and wilderness and yet too afraid in the idea of falling and being in love. Are you aware that you are lost? You are already lost trying to find a way out of love. You tried to escape from the reality of the unfair life. And now it feels like you are lost in the middle of the darkest forest, round and round you kept on trailing, going and taking the same path again and again like you are being bewitched.

[one-sided-lover]

This feelings taking control..🎧🎶

[one-sided-lover]

Naaalala mo pa ba.. Naaalala mo pa ba noong nakita mo akong nakaupo at nagiisa sa may bulletin board? Bigla kang lumapit at nagsalita “Kung mahal ka babalikan ka. Hindi na sya babalik. Wag ka ng umasa masasaktan ka lang.” Natawa ako sa sinabi mo dahil alam ko kung sino ang tinutukoy mo. Sabi mo pa nga “Wag mo na kasing kaisipin si Gerald di na babalik yun” wala naman akong sinasabi pero ang dami mong sinabi at pamula noon ikaw na ang pumalit kay Gerald hindi kase siya noon nagenrol nung semestre na yon. Palagi kang lumalapit sa akin tuwing may pagkakataon ka. Palagi mo akong tinatabihan sa tuwing makikita mo akong nagiisang nakaupo sa may bulletin kahit kagaano ka pa ka busy kase graduating ka na noon. Palagi mo kaming kinukumusta kahit walang kami kaya’t sa huli ako na lamang ang kinukumusta mo habang natatawa tawa ka sa itsura ng mukha kong halos hindi na maipinta kapag nagsimula ka na namang mang asar. Nakakatuwang alalahanin ngunit nakakalungkot isipin.

[one-sided-lover]

I don't know what's with you that every people like you. They want to know you. They want to be with you. They want your attention. They want you to notice them. Sometimes​ I envy you, 'Cause for most of the time it is you who matter.. and they forget the bullshit about me.💔

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“Sayang” by Parokya no Edgar (Boy) Sayang bakit hindi kita niligawan, Ngayon ako'y nanghihinayang. Kasi naman tatanga-tanga pa noon. Walang humpay na paghintay sa hindi dumarating na pagkakataon. Lagi naman kitang nakakasama, ewan ko kung bakit ba wala ka pa ring nagagawa. Kahit na napakadali mong kausapin ewan ko ba kung bakit hirap pa ring aminin. Madalas naman tayong naglolokohan. Dinadaan ko nalang sa biro ang tunay kong nararamdaman. Kaya siguro hindi mo sineryoso ang aking mga sinabi.. ‘yan tuloy walang nangyari. Sayang..🎤🎶 “Bakit kailangang sa iba ko pa malaman? Pinigilan ko ang damdamin ko sayo. Iniwasan kong mahulog sa pag aakalang trip lang ang lahat. Dinaan mo sa biro ang mga nararamdaman mo pero anong panghahawakan ko? Wala. Wala kahit ano! Kung mahal mo ko hindi dapat ganito.” (Girl) Kakalipas lamang ng isang sem nung makita kita na mayroon ibang kasama. Magkahawak ang inyong mga kamay. Ang dibdib ko ay sumikip. Ang paglunok ko ay naipit. Aking napatunayan na nasa huli ang pagsisisi. Para bang gusto kong umiyak ngunit para saan pa? Wala namang magagawa. Sayang..🎤🎶 “Sabi nila gusto mo daw ako. Pero kung gusto mo nga ako bakit ang bilis naman yatang naglaho din. Akala ko hindi masakit makita na iba ang hawak mong kamay ngunit mali ako. At ang mas nakapagpasakit ay ang malamang minsang ako'y iyong inibig at tayo'y pinagramutan ng pagkakataon.” 💔

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I have written so many piece. And for so many times I have tried not to write things about you. But I can’t. I still always find myself writing things about me and you. How I wish I could find myself forgetting the idea of you. That for maybe I can move on.

Unspoken Word

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I wish that we could be like this..

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Fear not the darkness..

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Nalilito ako. Nalilito, Hindi sa nararamdaman ko pero sa nararamdam mo. Sigurado akong gusto kita pero hindi ako sigurado kung gusto mo din ba talaga ako.

[one-sided-lover]

Hindi mo pwedeng sabihin kasi hndi ka naman nila pakikinggan. Hindi mo rin pwedeng isigaw na lang kasi hindi ka rin nila maiintindihan.

[one-sided-lover]

Jeffrey says..

Jeff said I should be thankful about G’s existence. Because of him I was able to know in early time their true colors, their character and attitude. I thought they we’re my friend but suddenly they weren’t (fortunately). My old friends were too colorful which blinded me to what’s going on that time (to what they were doing behind my back). I was fooled and I was too late to realize it. And there was this man, whom I thought was the root of all the bad things that happen to me. I blame everything in him. I even pushed him away. I tried to ignore his presence but to him, everything I did was nothing. He never let me down. He always believes the good in me. He never left me. He was always right there beside me ready to give me company. Even if I was hurting badly, he never show pity in me, so do I. I did never let him see tears falling from my eyes though he was always there whenever I burst out silently. I don’t want him to see how fragile I am. I want him to see the jolly and strong me. Yes, I do fake smiles, feels as if I did not cry beneath my hair in front of my face. I want to be the woman he wants me to be. He wants me to ignore those toxic people in my damn life. He wants me to learn to forget the bullshit they do upon me even how hard it could be. He wants me to realize what matters and not. Now I realize, He is a blessing and an angel in disguise wearing a green uniforn in black pants trying to be the bestest friend that could ever be to me. And therefore, I am thankful for he exist and lives in my life.

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Dumistansya lamang ako.. hindi kita nakalimutan. Gusto ko lang ng pansamantalang katahimikan pero bakit kinalimutan mo na ko agad? Natagalan ka ba masiyado sa aking pagbabalik kung kaya’t nainip ka at mas piniling huwag akong alalahanin? 💔

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Hindi ko alam kung nagkakataon lang ba yun o sinasadya ng tadhana. Pero salamat na rin nan'dyan ka parati.. .

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I never stood out. And I will never standout. I will always be right behind.

TheGirlBehind