NULA

If you would be a real seeker after truth, it is necessary that at least once in your life you doubt, as far as possible, all things.

[one-with-one-less-home]

hello and a warm welcome to those interested in the experience of figuring (some) of life out

I feel as though it is important to express my goals for this new life that i search for.

I've figured that in my current state of life i find only happiness in the ideas of creativity. I have left my hometown for the opportunity to meet creatives all throughout this new city. i aim to blog/journal about my experience on taking control of your own life, and to give insight into anyone similar to you or i wanting the same.

Get A Job

Meet Those Of Who Are Creative

Don't Be Homeless

Find Own Philosophy To Apply

Grab The World By Its Balls

Finish Writing Book By End Of Year

[one-with-one-less-home]

1/2/2023

Approx. 8:30PM 1.2.23

It Reads: the idea of being at a point where i get to look back at my writings while being homeless and chuckle. is what gives me the power to do all of this. not only a good experience /story but also a reason to be proud of myself. ive been giving my CV to a bunch of bars telling them im fresh out of REDACTED with bar experience. with the reply always being from a man saying "did the exact same thing X amount of years ago with my partner" thanks sir this is the sixth time ive heard this today give the poor eighteen year old girl a job

[one-with-one-less-home]

31/1/2023

Approx. 3PM 31.1.23

It Reads: They say it gets easier but i find that it gets harder and harder. i have a shell that i felt couldnt be cracked. i thought in throwing myself in the deep end id be forced to crack it. its a naive idea to think by day three ill be a new person, things dont just get handed to those that want most. But do i even want anymore? its so easy to have a clear path for your future and the person you want to be. until your in it. im tired now like i was before why do i force myself to try?

[one-with-one-less-home]

30/1/2023

Approx. 9PM 30.1.23

It Reads: I had my first trial shift today i didnt walk out feeling confident. i felt quite glum and defeated but now i feel content. im sticking with the whole "take it as it comes" perspective. reassuring that only i get to control how it effects me. i wont let the small things get in the way of the bigger picture

[one-with-one-less-home]

29/1/2023 12HR TRAIN

Approx. 3PM & 7PM 29.1.23

Exert #1 It Reads: I expected to be smashed in the face by reality today on the train. Maybe when i get off or something wrong happens then i will. But its as if i graduated again feared the overwhelming feeling of change, or being scared of the new. but im truly fine... for now?

Exert #2 It Reads: I bit my tongue after arriving im overwhelmed but ill settle. can say tho im sick of sitting on trains. im keeping myself in check. tho im just anxious for work

[one-with-one-less-home]

29/1/2023 MOVING DAY

Approx. 1AM 29.1.23

It Reads: This will possibly my last writing in REDACTED my last writing in REDACTED. This place still has its beauties that i admire, but ive grown old and out of. Imagine this but bigger. A entire city rich with culture, ill be homeless, it scares me a bit. But no more then fearing indolence for myself. its me against the world and thats okay aslong as i keep myself ill be good