I'm only human, I've got a skeleton in me.

"Call me a traitor, I'm just collecting your victims." 33. Vegas born, bred, and sinfully fed. Cancer. I don’t subscribe to any labels. Love: Star Wars. Cars. Vans. Books. Tattoos. 🌈 ♋️📚🎰🎬🦺

[one-without-fear]

The dating pool is so horrendous, it’s no wonder I’d rather date my exes.

[one-without-fear]

I’m tired of craving.

[one-without-fear]

My intentions are always pure, I have no desire to be a shitty person.

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I can’t sleep anymore, not without some form of “anesthesia”.

My mind won’t shut down, it’s just constantly going.

[laterkiss]

happy pride month 🏳️‍🌈

[one-without-fear]

You are the knife I turn inside myself, that is love. That, my dear, is love.

[one-without-fear]

I had such a bizarre dream about you, something I haven’t done in idk how long. Unsure of what to make of it, or how it happened. But it happened in pieces, episodes.

Ep. I

We ended up at someone’s wedding, you knew I was coming, but I had no idea you’d be there. Apparently we’re mutuals of someone, unbeknownst to me currently. I was there to officiate and you were there as a guest, not alone. You kept trying to to talk to me all night, and I had zero interest. Until you finally cornered me, with tea in hand.. said you had tried to call me to give me a heads up. Sent a dozen texts, but nothing would go through. I wanted to be left alone, I didn’t want to hear anything you ever had to say again. We talked, you cried, I listened. We walked out, I unblocked you. And I did the ceremony.

Ep. II

I ended up in your little blip of a town, to pick something up. I was driving an empty U-Haul truck, and it was raining. Hard. I must’ve missed a sign somewhere, saw red and blues in the rear view. And before I knew it, I drove off the road, hanging by my seat belt.

That woke me up, I could still feel the belts.

Ep. III

Went back to bed, and just woke up again from another dream. You came by my house, to talk about something. I invited you up, cause I’m in the middle of something in my house. Went to my room, and said: “Make yourself comfortable, I’m gonna hop in the shower real quick, I’ll be out soon.” I played music, did my business, until I felt hands on my back. Didn’t speak, didn’t turn around.

Woke up.

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I have 5 jobs.

I have 183 credits.

Leaving Vegas probably, leaving memories and nightmares.

Had my first, first date since 2018?

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DGIFMYT

IMFYMTB

IWSMSTFYA

[one-without-fear]

I am manifesting a coffee and books date though.

I’ve worked for 45 days straight, with nothing to show for it.

I just want a date, nothing else. That’ll hold me off for another 5 years lol.

[one-without-fear]

I cannot remember the last time I’ve been so irate. So numb. So confused.

Silver lining, I’ve been alone for about a year. And I’m about to be really, really alone in August.

Here’s to new chapters, new area code, and forgetting every person who has left, ghosted, or worse.

[toiich]

Suzanne's Career (1963), dir. Éric Rohmer

[sugar-petals]

i fucking love ryan gosling for saying this. he gets that if a movie hits like crack and gives us something ‘more’, the certain something beyond market value, we will naturally go full barbenheimer on our local theaters.

[didanagy]

Sleepy Hollow (1999)

dir. tim burton

[jennywebbyart]

Both. Both is good.

[kehlanifenty]