How do you deal with knowing that you are never going to have that someone?
How do you deal with knowing that the reason why you are never going to have that someone is because you tend to screw up every relationship that you have been in?
How the hell do you sleep at night knowing this kind of information?
I know the way I am.
I am not in any denial stage.
I know that because of the way I am and look I will never going to be happy with someone.
I will be miserable for the rest of my life.
I question everything, I try to find rationality behind everything and have trust issues.
Yes, you can say Iām pretty fucked up.
I donāt know why or who fucked me up.
All I know is that I will end up alone just like āHouseā
I am an asshole, I am a bitch, and I will question and analyze anything you say.
It is my nature.
Gosh it feels good getting this off my chest
















