my one ton secret journal of wonton noodles

wanton or wonton? To be honest I no idea what to use this for so this is going to be my private journal (?) If you know who I am please drop a message :) Singapore

[oneton-noodles]

Bkk meals

16th - macs 17th - breakfast - roadside restaurant lunch - Japanese ramen Dinner - meat lover club 18th Lunch- roadside street stall Dinner - asiatique 19th Breakfast+lunch - chatuchak street stalls and noodle place Dinner - durian from roadside stall + coca 20th Lunch- chinatown fishball noodles Dinner/supper - roadside stall noodles+egg from 7-11 21th Lunch - restaurant at road junction Dinner - son tam nua

[mypokemonranch]

[bewbin]

what the fuck venasaur doing?

[asscroissant-deactivated2015070]

his best

[oneton-noodles]

I dont even feel like writing anymore. Maybe its not more of a feel. My mind is one giant mess right now and my heart is even more cluttered. I want to write but i have no idea how to. How you do focus and pen down your thoughts and feelings when you have a trillion things going on in your mind making you feel emotions you didnt even know existed. Life so far hasnt been great. Perhaps im compensating for my empty life, with no good grades to show for, little close friends, no significant other, by sleeping 15hours a day. I wish the armour of the "happy" me which I put on when im with others will become the real me someday. Why do i put on such an enthusiastic facade when im with others. Im a hurt soul, but people think that im a unscathed soul that thinks the world is perfect and no one is in pain based on my smile. Im hurting a lot, but i do not dare to tell others that im hurting. I rather let them think im healthy and happy. Why? Why do i put on a fake mask when im with others. Why am I afraid of letting people know the real me? Rejection sucks big time

[oneton-noodles]

Self reflection time

Oh yeah im back after 5 days of inactivity. Well I have realised I am able to sleep for an ungodly long period of time 16hrs on average each day on tues wed thurs fri HAHAHAH wtf I thought everything would work out, but i doubt i will. I realise how fucking idiotic i was to think cambridge set some trick mechanism question so i drew the most idiotic answer ever in the history of mankind. Sigh. Maths was kind of depressing too. 84 for A. Wow. Bell curve. Such strong. But there isnt any other choice to do well in life isnt there,only the a lvls cert. If physics was too hard and i got many wrong, I would want to fail the rest and repeat j2. BUT THIS THOUGHT has kept me from doing work. Sigh. Life is not easy Actually life could have been much easier if i bothered to put in effort in j1 Oh well Regrets I can turn back time Either do my best for As Or if really cmi then retake As But there may be the stigma of a repeater Because the egos of children nowadays are getting larger and larger. Oh well What can i do except wallow in self pity Can this infatuation also go away pls Like seriously God/fate/buddha/the divine force watching and manipulating the very universe im living in now, can you help me with either meeting the girl im very infatuated with right now, or making this infatuation disappear please. Tbh i prefer the former HAHAHA I really need help dont i :( Okay bb tumblr for now time to study

[oneton-noodles]

If you’re in a relationship with someone now, once you’re done reading this, go out of your way and bust ass for them. Go give them a massage. Make them a sandwich. Help them with their project at school. Pick them up from work with flowers. Do whatever you think you can do to see that person smile, to make their day better. And, hopefully, once you see them smile, or laugh, or even cry (good cries not bad cries), you’ll feel a happiness in yourself for doing so.

[oneton-noodles]

Time

Maths P2 is tomorrow, and I really wanted to do very well for the paper 2, and wanted to initially spend almost 70% of the past 5 days studying maths and the rest studying other subjects. BUT I spent 100% of the past few days dreaming and thinking of you, constantly looking at images of you. I cant believe how much time I have spent infatuating over you. This is the strongest and more intense infatuation ever and what I am doing isnt certainty making it go over. At least, since I am acknowledging it on tumblr, I can psycho myself to forgot about you for the next 24hrs (and possibly the next few days) and focus on my A lvls. 

confession of the day/month/the whole tumblr: I really desire and hope with all my life/heart that we can meet one day and become close friends. I cant believe I have dreams of us doing activities together, crying together, celebrating each other’s birthday. But the sad thing is that you’re attached and we will most likely not meet each other, unless i attend one of your rare events and choose to talk to you. SIGH this is extremely sad. Even I cannot believe how much i want to be with you. You’re really 100% my ideal type, I have never looked at something and spent so much time obsessing over you, and you’re the first person whom mine first thought was “holy fk she’s so damn cute i cannot” and i felt the tsunami of infatuation crashing down on me

[oneton-noodles]

What am i doing with my life, Im quite sure i was almost over you, yet I chose to inflict pain and suffering on myself by thinking and dreaming of you

[safelyendangered]

Find me on facebook / twitter / patreon / instagram

[safelyendangered]

‘Week nights at 8’

[oneton-noodles]

WTF HAHAHHA

[invisiblebread]

“Get Me There”

Invisible Bread [website] [facebook] [twitter] [bonus panel]

[oneton-noodles]

Thank god this is private, if i were to use my twitter for this I would have to scale all my tweets down to a much more pg13 lvl and much less creepy

[oneton-noodles]

Weird me

I dont like texting people one on one because I find it weird, but when I'm not texting anyone one on one, I miss texting HAHAHA

[oneton-noodles]

Thank god I will never read what I posted, it's too cringy

Just spent the past 4hrs napping trying to dream of you, even though it was time wasted, it was fun :)

[oneton-noodles]

[oneton-noodles]

Incapacitated by infatuation

[oneton-noodles]

Seriously cannot stop thinking about you

The thought of us together is like this image, i just want to spend (waste?) a lot of my precious time enjoying and savoring every moment of it, even though its a fantasy that will is likely to not happen.

As you can infer from my phrasing, I really do want it to happen

[oneton-noodles]

emotional self-harm (?)

I thought this strong infatuation would disappear by today, why did I decide to look through your instagram again? Sigh the feeling is back, fortunately it’s not as intense anymore. But why do I still keep creating fantasies of us together when it’s clearly impropable? You’re just so damn cute (the closes to my ideal type) and I sadly cannot stop thinking of you. 

You’re the first and only person so far that I dreamed of spending quality time together, laughing together, crying together, going through up and downs together as a 2-person strong team, being the best person for each other, and becoming an even better person as time progresses. The thought of introducing you (or bluntly “showing you off”) to my close friends has never occurred in my mind. Oh well, time to engage in emotional self-harm by constantly imagining scenes of us together

Sigh when will this stupid infatuation go away, we don't even know other at all, and there’s like a 1% chance that we will meet, let alone become close. But the funny thing is, I would gladly take that 1% chance and try my best instead of doing nothing