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September 8 20203

It's gonna be funn been yet again almost a year since I hoped on well gonna start my CNA classes on the 11t and the go back to work soon after I'm excited

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Night time Oct 11th 2022

It's almost bed time and yet I find myself wide awake and alone yet again. It's almost comical. Self-sacrifice mentality gets me nowhere in this life and I feel like my presence is no longer needed or wanted like my use is simply strokes someone ego and nothing more.y wants needs are not of concern It's simply a robot to stroke the ego of the ones that deem it

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Paloma - My Oh My (Official Music Video)

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Silva Hound ft. Mick Lauer and Jonathan Young - Royal Flush

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Drawn To The Sky - "Demons" (feat. SayWeCanFly) (Official Lyric Video)

Sometimes I just can't find the words to describe how I feel but music finds a way

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Oct 11th 2022 again

I hear the words of the other around me but I'm just numb to it all there is maybe one at best that I hed her advice but for now I just look forward to her text and msgs it's what I enjoy in a world bleak and cold she brings and fire to me and keeps me smiling she knows how to keep me happy and excited even on a boring day at work. Funny thing is I use not be able to see how she cared for me till recently I always thought it was just one way. In away it is my wants and needs are still ignored

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11th of October the year of 2022

Been a bit of a uphill battle mental lately its like all I do is struggle . Moral is down heart is broken. The things I love to do no longer interests me. Feel alone I feel like no one cares anymore everyone says they do but I feel like I don't even matter I give all I can to everyone around me and I just don't feel like it's enough I feel like I'm not enough for anyone or anything like I'm supposed to just give untile I die and there's nothing left of me. Like my need wants and desires are irrelevant. Why do I live like this? Feel like only one person will ever get me but also fill like she only sees the side she like of me not the rest of me. And even with then seems like life gets in the way and I hate being in last place on that run

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October 4th 2022

It's been ages since I started a new job but here I am.

Life's kinda in flux right now alot of stress and alot of work hopefully it pays off sooner then later it's been hell lately and I kinda had alot go on since the last time I wrote in here I found out someone was a money hunger snake and just tried to make me lose my home and all i had.

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8-24-2021

I been on and off this blog thing and tie some of my important memories and moments into it and now I find myself in love with a ghost from my past I'm willing to make extreme sacrifice and jump lots of hoops to win there heart back but at the same extreme I'm scared that I be left again I know the reason we split before was ages old and we was 2 different people then we are now but still every day I feel like my life is not complete without you.

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3-4-2021

Ok so the move is over and just trying to get settled back in and makenthe bestbout life.

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2-19-2021

Another day closer to the move date. About a week away now and im about drained already. Hopefully i have a enough space somewhere in the house to set up a little work area for me have a lot of toys im looking into like lazer etching vinyl cutters sewing machine and embroidery machine. Hopefully a glowforge they just look so dang cool

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2/17/2021

Still here atnthe same work place. Feels anbitbodd being here almost 2 years but i guess i kinda grew roots here. Unfortunately we having a bit of snow storm andnice storm or just a really shitty artic front

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12-6-19

Today gonna be hard but I'm hear and trying to make the best of it. Got the work party today. Then today is dads birthday hard to believe it's been 7 years since you passed on. Well I may do a part two for today so I have a record of how I felt about this party and all that. Till then peace out and best of times to you all.

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12-5-19

Tomorrow is gonna be interesting. My 1st worl Christmas party and the expert me to dress nice. Dude I'm so not feeling this and it's ok but at the same time its not because I'm be outta My comfort zone having to dress up. I like my baggy lose comfortable gear not the stuffy dress up bullshit. I honestly hope non of it fits since in losing so much weight. The I can just get out of it