“I used to think i couldn’t go a day without your smile. Without telling you things and hearing your voice back. Then, that day arrived and it was so damn hard but the next was much harder. And i knew with a sinking heart it was going to get worse and i wasn’t going to be okay for a long time. Because losing someone isn’t an occasion or event. It dosen’t happen once. It happens over and over again. I lose you every single day that we don’t speak and in all of the moments in between, in all the hours of silence that go by where i do nothing but think of you, i lose you when i watch certain films, listen to certain songs, and go to certain places that are tainted with certain parts of you and how you make me feel. I lose you every time i think of kissing you, holding you or wanting you. I go to bed at night and lose you, when i wish i could tell you about my day. And in the morning with a heavy heart i begin to lose you all over again.”
— A.Y.
