Confessions to, Sir

18+ | BD/SM | CNC | Sub Girl | Somnophilia | Married | Owned

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Discalaimer Post

This blog is specifically for 18+

Please be aware that BD/SM is all about consent. If it isn’t consensual, it’s assault. 

If you think you might be interested in BD/SM, do your homework. There are some aspects of it, things some people do, that can be very dangerous if done incorrectly (ex. choking, drugging etc.,). Know the risks, and know what is too much. 

If you are into collars and/or rope play, remember that ropes and collars are not actually supposed to be tight. You don’t want to cut off breathing or circulation. That is dangerous. Make sure you can slide two fingers under the collars, and be sure that ropes are not cutting into the skin. (Be aware you could have a health condition you don’t know about, such as heart conditions, APS, EDS, lung conditions, anemia, Sjogren’s etc,.) [I specifically bring up Sjogren’s because it often attacks moisture producing glands. The vagina is a moisture producing gland.]

If you use/need lubricants, be aware that some have chemicals that do NOT need to be in your vagina or ass, especially the vagina as it is very sensitive. Look for brands that have all natural ingredients or safe for sensitive skin. 100% coconut oil is also safe to use and has many other uses. (Also, do not feel bad about needing a lubricant.)

Best thing to do is have a contract between the sub and dom. BD/SM is really an illusion of who is actually in control. 

If you are interested, or do, CNC, sub drop is real and dangerous. Alway practice self care. Have a safe word, and only do this with a trusted partner. Doms, take care of your sub. Know your own body, and know your own mind. 

Doms, know what you’re doing. If you don’t know something, for the love of all that is holy, ask someone who does. There are articles by actual medical professionals that will break things down for you.

Subs, know what you’re getting in to. If you’re a virgin, you don’t know what you like yet. Experimentation is good. Asking questions is good. And don’t fall for some boy’s bullshit. And, there is no need to rush sex. Don’t let people pressure you into something you are not ready for. There is no shame in being a virgin, whether you are a teen or adult. 

(Best safe word system, which is easy to remember, is a stoplight. Green: Go, Yellow: Slow Down, Red: Stop. Don’t make it so complicated you can’t remember. If you tend to go, or are, nonverbal, use your fingers to signal a number. 1: Go, 2: Slow Down, 3: Stop)

If you are not married, or not ready for children, take precautions. If you are not responsible enough to take birth control or use a condom, you are not responsible enough to have sex, and you sure as hell are not responsible enough to have a baby.  

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My personal preference. Please don’t message me using dd/lg lingo. If you are in to that, fine, but I’m not, so please don’t ask me questions about pleasing your “daddy.” I won’t answer.  You may ask me questions pertaining to your dom, but say “dom.” I am a grown woman, not a little girl, and I’m not giving advice to children. 

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Also, I’m married, so no hitting on me. I’m claimed. 

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Confession #32

You've done several new things to me in the last few months, but I can't deny that I want more.

You made me fuck with the window open and told me that if I was caught I was to show them my tits and my pussy and then offer to let them put their cock in me. You made me fuck a cucumber more than once. You made me record videos to family members and an old friend. You've recorded me many times, but never like that. You told me that I would earn money each time you fucked me. You told me that you'd thought about letting someone else fuck me while you watched.

I love it when you're rough. I love it when you tell me what you're going to do to me. I love hearing that I've been a good girl, listening to your commands.

I'd love it too if you were rougher with me, grab my face, pull my hair, throw me on the bed, hold me down. Do things to me so suddenly that it shocks my system, and even though it's you I squirm and fight. I want you to deprive my sense. I want you to tie me up more. I want you to make me do little things to please you. I want you to tease me more. Even if I don't get anything for days, weeks. I hate how much I love the torment, the wicked smirk on your face. I want you to shove the vibrator in me and leave it in until it dies as I beg you to make it stop because I'm so over stimulated. I want you to randomly tell me to strip. I want you to randomly grab my tits, my ass, my pussy roughly. I want to dress up for you, let you tell me what to wear.

There are so many things I don't even know how to put into words, but at your command, you know I would do anything.

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Calling all Doms, and even subs if you wish

Comment or submit a submissive/sexy dare you want me to do. Any type of submissive dare is welcome.

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Conffesion #31

I know I've been away for a while. I am an adult, and sometimes life gets busy.

This post is an order from my dom.

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A week ago, we celebrated your birthday by me giving you unlimited power over me for one day. You could order me to do anything, even something that might have been stated against in our contact.

You teased me and teased me, told me what you might make me do, and then you came home with a large cucumber and a pack of condoms. You were going to make me buy them myself, but it was just more convenient for you to get them.

You teased and teased me some more, getting me very desperate for you, and then you told me to strip my clothes and lay down on the bed. You continued to tease me until I was very wet for you, and then you took out the cucumber, handed it to me, and told me to put on a show. You made me fuck the cucumber until I came around it, and my pussy was throbbing so hard when you let me pull it out.

Of course, you replaced the cucumber with your cock and fucked me hard until I came around you as well.

You've teased me for several days now. For three days in a row, you edged me several times until finally today you gave me a choice. You edged me so many times that I was desperate. Your choices were that I could post online that you made me fuck a cucumber and came with a cucumber, or we'd wait till later when you could open the window, make me buy another cucumber, and make me fuck another one.

You let me go with option 1, but you decided that it wasn't enough. I needed to earn the right to cum, so you made me record a video that started with, "Hi Mom and Dad," and then made me say that I like being fucked like a whore and that you made me fuck a cucumber.

And I'm so needy for you that even writing this out as me wet and ready.

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Confession #30

I torture myself sometimes with what I read. It's part of our contract that I can't masturbate/cum without permission, and when I'm involved in self torture, like reading heavy smut, you tend to deny that permission. So basically, I feel needy, and I'm trying at the moment not to act too needy because we're grown adults who are busy and have other things going on, and I fully understand that the mental wellbeing of my dom is important, just as my own mental wellbeing.

That being said, I've got some serious cravings happening, so the best I can do is write it out.

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Man, do I want to be tied up right now. Spread-eagle me on the bed and tie my wrists and ankles. Spread me naked, and blindfold me. Don't let me see you coming. Gag me. Don't cover my ears though. I want to hear what you plan to do to me. I want to hear you tell me what a defenseless slut I am tied up for you like that.

You're a busy man, so use a vibrator you can control. Shove it in me, and when you feel like it, turn it on. Change the power level as you please. Change the mode as you please. Leave the door open to the office so you can hear me moan.

Come in and suckle and tweak my nipples, just enough that it drives me crazy, and go back to work. Play again with the settings.

Come in and replace the gag with your cock and make me use my mouth to satisfy you.

Maybe that's all I get day one. You untie me to sleep, but you make me sleep naked, and you wake me by fingering me, getting me worked up early, but still not given satisfaction.

Tie back up, and gag me, blindfold me once more. Maybe this time, don't use the device. Make it worse for me. Come and edge me yourself, your fingers playing with my pussy. Work me just enough to make me need you, and get back to work.

Play with me throughout the day. And when you feel like it, come and shove your cock in my needy pussy. Get yourself off, but leave me unsatisfied.

Make me beg. I'll do anything at this point, and you know it, but don't give in just yet. Leave me suffering for a bit longer. Maybe I get nothing that day either.

Once again, untie me to sleep. Let me shower. Let me eat, and retie me down. Spend the day periodically teasing me once more.

Make me beg all day. And when you feel like it, fuck me hard and rough, then finally let me cum. Or maybe you leave me for an hour or two have you fuck me, then you let me cum when I least suspect it. And because I begged so much, maybe you only let me cum once, craving more. You can let me stew then, and make me cum more later, or you can leave it at that, and make me be extra good to get more because you know I would.

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Confession 29

Ways to keep the momentum going when you're busy.

Want me needy for you even if you don't know when you have time to do anything yourself? Make me keep myself needy for you, so I'm always ready when you are. Plus, you know it ups the torturous level.

Make me edge myself at least once an hour. If you want, I can even send you video proof.

Make me wear things that give you a glimpse of things. I know you'll be looking, so it'll be on my mind.

Make me edge myself in front of you at random times, even when you're busy, just to let you know I'm a good little slut.

Make me record videos where I thrust my hips down and play with my breasts like I'm on top. You know you'd like that.

Make me dry hump the pillow. I can't cum that way, but you know it will make me crave the real thing.

Need a stress break, but don't have time for much? Make me come in and go down on you. You can read while I use my mouth. ;-)

Imagine, this way I'm always ready for you when you want me. I don't mind if you're a little devilish about it.

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Confession #28

Tease me just enough enough to make me wet. Strip off my clothes and use me as the cum dump I am. Fuck me quick and rough leaving me needing more.

Once you've used my pussy for your own pleasure, make me lay down and pin my leg as you edge me. Get me close and back off. Do it so many times I beg you to cum.

Tell me I don't earn that way, and fuck me again, still giving me nothing but the pleasure of being filled by you, your cock stretching the walls of my pussy.

When you finish, tie me up this time, and edge me several times again, but up the stakes. Tell me I'm not allowed to make any sound as you edge me over and over. Tell me I'm not allowed to move even. Make me compliant to your every will.

You decide what to do next. Do you reward me for listening by letting me cum, or do you make me wait? Make me question which decision you'll make.

Maybe you make me even do a task to prove I deserve it.

Then let me cum. But don't let me enjoy it. Let me cum a few times, then edge me again so that I still need you. Stick your fingers in me and make me crave your cock some more.

Make me go to sleep then, naked. Order me around the next day, making me do various tasks for you, sexual or otherwise. Maybe you let me where just a tunic, so every time you make me reach for something I flash you. Maybe you don't let me wear anything. Maybe you just let me wear something flimsy.

Then, if I did good, fuck me again later, but make me wait. Tease me throughout the day making me need you. Make me wonder when I finally get relief.

And then finally give me what I crave for being good for you.

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Confession #27

I can't think right now, I need you so bad. My sleep was light last night, and in half of my dreams, you were teasing me. Every time I woke up, I was throbbing for you.

No need for foreplay right now. Come in and tell me to get on my hands and knees and fuck me from behind. And since I'm asking for it, don't give me the satisfaction of cumming. Just rough fuck me for yourself and leave me be, leaving me to steep in my need for you.

Don't give me anything more than that for today. Just take for yourself. Make me admit that I'm nothing more than your cum dump.

Tomorrow, tease me before you leave. Tease me and edge me until I'm squirming and begging, and then go where you need to go. During your breaks, make me send you pictures and videos. Make me edge myself. Come home and edge me and tease me some more. Fuck me if you want me, but still don't let me cum.

The next day, make me walk around naked for you. Make me edge myself in front of you while you masturbate and cum all over me. Tease me lightly, letting me think you'll let up, and edge me right before I go to bed.

The day after that is another busy day for you. Edge and tease me once more before you leave, and have me sent you more pictures and videos. You know how embarrassed I'll be thinking about you opening them where people can see.

The next day is your sleep day. Let me stew awhile. You know how desperate I'll be. Maybe this is the day we go shopping. Make me where a skirt or dress and no underwear. Edge me in the parking lot. Have me squirming while we shop. Fuck me when we get home, but you decide if I've been good enough to be allowed to cum. Maybe you stretch it out for a few more hours. Maybe you stretch it out for a few more days.

And when you think I deserve it, make me cum so hard and so much that I'm begging you to stop, and keep going because I was so needy.

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Confession #26

Now more than ever, I want you to really take control. Take away my worry about other things, and let me worry about your next move instead.

Tease me like you've never teased me before. Make everything else go away until my mind is on nothing else but the need of your cock inside me.

Come sit beside me and tease my breasts and tease my pussy. Do it hard, but not enough for me to cum. Squeeze my pussy, rub my clit, stick a finger in and stroke the spot and keep going.

Once I'm wet and needy, leave me be. Leave me so needy that all I can focus on is the throbbing. Turn up some music so I'm even more overstimulated, and let me simmer in those thoughts.

Come back when you think the teasing is starting to wear off and do it again until I'm begging you to fuck me.

But don't. Make me jello brained. Tease me and tease me. Overstimulate me. Edge me over and over and over, and leave me alone again.

Let yourself have that control. I know you need it, and I need my mind occupied, so this is a win-win.

Let yourself be a little wild. Command me to do things. Tie me up. Gag me. Record me. Take pictures of me. Make me beg.

Hell, tell me I'm not allowed to beg. Tell me I'm not allowed to speak. Tell me I have to just take everything you do to me in silence, and any word, any sound, only prolongs when you let me cum.

Fuck me then, but keep those orders going. I have to take it without making a sound. And don't let me come, but edge me a few times, maybe more.

Do it so many times that I break and beg, and then you punish me how you want, and it's even longer till you let me cum.

Prolong it for as long as you want.

I need a distraction. I want to be controlled. You need a distraction, so use me. Use me like your own personal slut because that's exactly what I am.

You know, I might even be breaking a rule right now. You may need to punish me. ;-)

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(This might not be as spicy as my others, guys. I'm going through some stuff, and I'm trying to rekindle my inner fire. It hasn't burned out, but it's low.)

Let's get angry. We both need that right now. News from the outside world has us down. You told me to get angry, and there's more than one way to do that, so let's get angry.

Maybe you're afraid to push me onto the bed right now. That's okay. But tell me to get up there, to get comfortable, and to spread my legs.

Kiss me. Just kiss me, but do it with fire.

Tell the world that you're not giving up on hope as you slide inside me.

Tell the world you reject its bullshit as you start rocking back and forth in me.

This doesn't have to be long. You don't have to tease me. Just let it be a quick therapy moment.

Tell the world that we will fucking win as you finish inside me.

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Confession #25

We'll be on the road soon. You like to have fun with that.

Tell me to wear a skirt and a loose shirt, one that can be easily maneuvered in the car. For extra fun you can tell me not to wear underwear. Or better, make me where that dress you picked out, the one that requires no bra.

Tell me to pull up my skirt so I'm visible. The possibility of passing taller vehicles and cameras will make me squirm. Rub the inside of my thigh while it's up, something simple that you know gets me worked up.

Make me lift my top or take it off. Cameras and tall vehicles won't be my only concern then.

Tease me the whole way there, making sure I know that I get nothing, at the very least, until we get back home, but maybe you hint it'll be longer than that.

We get to our destination early enough that you decide to edge me in the parking lot. Now you know what will be on my mind while I'm in the appointment.

Have what fun you can while we're in there. Maybe you touch me when they step away. Maybe you tell me to edge myself in the bathroom.

When we leave, edge me again. If this is the third time, or the fourth if you decided to do it before we left, you know I'll be very needy.

Continue to tease me while we go back. Maybe you even pull over somewhere to fuck me, taking your own pleasure and giving me none, making me even more needy.

Get me home and make me please you however you want. Make me earn my release.

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Reminder that Dom's have rough anxiety days, and rough depression days, and just general rough days.

Take care of your Dom. They're people too, with their own problems. Don't forget that.

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And a message to my own Dom,

I love you, and I'm always here for you.

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Confession #24

10 things I know I want:

1. Fuck me in front of a mirror and make me watch everything you do to me.

2. Finger me while I'm sleepy or sleeping.

3. Grab my pussy hard at random times.

4. Come up behind me and rub your hands over me, grab my breasts, tweak my nipples, grab my pussy, kiss my neck, and leave me needing more.

5. Press me against the nearest surface and grind against me, kiss me, tease me.

6. Make me spread myself for you. Make me masturbate for you. Make me touch myself where and how you want me to.

7. God, I just want to be fucked in a hot tub.

8. Dress me how you want to.

9. Make me send you pictures and videos of myself.

10. Edge me until I'm crying for release.

10 things I think I want that make me nervous, but I'm curious:

1. Press me against a window and fuck me.

2. Make me cum in public.

3. Make me bare myself in the car.

4. Fuck me somewhere semi public.

5. Make me wear one of those vibrators that strap to the underwear, and play with when we are somewhere very public.

6. Make me wear ropes under my clothes.

7. Tell me not to hold back my cries when someone can hear me.

8. Edge me for a week or more, several times a day, even after I cry with need.

9. Make me sit under the desk while you work and make me pleasure you on command. Make me do it naked.

10. Post pictures of me (obviously where no one can tell who I am) online.

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Confession #23

You like to embarrass me. You like to watch as my cheeks flush, and I turn away, avert my gaze. It doesn't take much. I embarrass easily.

Make me wear skirts when we go out, long flowey ones. There's so many things you can do with that. Pull in up when we're in the car and mess with me, make me go without underwear. Hell, even a thong in that would embarrass me in public because I wouldn't be able to stop thinking about it, or what it meant you were going to do to me later.

Edge me in the parking lot then make me shop while I'm wet and throbbing with need, trying desperately to keep my face composed, my breathing normal. And if it starts to calm down, make me go to the bathroom and edge myself. Which in being honest, freaks me out a little.

Make me send you pictures and videos at the 'worst' possible times. I'll fret and be embarrassed as I wonder when you'll open it, who might see it, and even though you don't get to see me blush then, you know I will be.

Touch my breasts intimately at random moments. Catch me off guard. Watch my face go from playful to a slight moan as my cheeks to red. Grab my pussy. Just come in and cup me, squeeze me. Watch me squirm. Watch me blush. Do these during moments where I can do nothing. Caress me while we're watching a movie, where I'm actively trying to watch, so I just have to take it and force myself to keep my eyes open.

You can even slip a finger in me if you want, at the worst times.

I almost hate that the pandemic keeps up from a lot of places where you could do a lot of things. Like heaven forbid what you'd do to me in a dark theatre.

It doesn't take much to turn my cheeks red, and I know you love it, so do what you need to do.

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Confession #22

Sometimes my body and my brain don't agree. My disability makes me tired and groggy, but my brain is screaming for you.

Today, I spent most of the day in bed fatigued with a splitting headache. The few times I managed to drift to sleep, there you were, in my dreams, making me need you. I'd wake up throbbing and wet with need.

I don't think I've ever wanted more for you to come in and use my pussy while I lie there in a groggy, half-sleep state. Even if you didn't let me cum after, I just needed to be filled by you.

Being filled by you is an amazing experience in itself. You just finished teasing me for nearly three days, taking your own pleasure and giving me none, but just having you fuck me, just feeling your thick cock against my walls... mmmmmm

I always want you. I always need you. I never thought I'd feel like that, and I'm glad it's you that does it.

Just know that you have no need to masturbate to satiate yourself. My hole is always here for you, whether I'm sleeping, awake, not feeling well, or anything else.

I'm yours. Take me when you want me.

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I am a cum dump

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Confession #21

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't curious to see you be cruel, but only in regards to sex. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't curious how far you'd go. Skip the part where you say you'll do things just to see my cheeks flush with embarrassment, and just do it.

It's a fight in my mind. Part of me is afraid of how far you'd go. I've given you my permission to do just about everything, the only caution being my health.

You tested things when you fucked me while on the phone with your sister, and I admitted that the thrill was a turn on. But embarrassment isn't the only direction.

Surely there are times when you just want to grab me, rip my clothes off, bend me over, and fuck me because you can, because you need it, because you're frustrated. It's okay if you do. I give my full permission for you to do so.

Maybe I want to see your darkest sides. Maybe I don't.

Maybe I want you to grab me, tell me to shut up, tell me I'm a slut, as you force your cock inside me.

Maybe I want you to storm into the room and order me to strip for you. No foreplay. Just fuck me because you need it.

Maybe I want you to mess with me, make me need you so bad I'm begging, then tell me no. Make me beg you for days if you want, just so you can hear me beg, then fuck me when you want without giving me what I need so I still have to beg to be satisfied.

Maybe I want you to lock me in our room. Feed me, of course, but leave me there, naked, or dressed the way you want me. Make me do things for you. Do you want me to suck you? Do you want me to masturbate without cumming so you can watch me squirm? Do you want me to pose for you? Do you want to take pictures? Do you want to tie me up?

I'm not afraid of your darker sides. Maybe I want to see them.