Coffee and Ramblings

[onthefritzblog]

Dream

I'm so tired now In a way I've never known I live inside this broken home With a heart that can't be sewn Yes, I'm worn out In a way I can't conceive Oh, I wish I could believe That there is something more for me It's time to go Turn the key and fall asleep I can wake up in a dream Where your words aren't what they seem This time I'll go Turn the key and fall asleep Let my weary mind sink Down with my heart into the deep I should have known Things are never what they seem We were always in between Ripping open at the seams I should let go Leave it all and take a bow Too far gone to fix this now If I could I wouldn't know how It's time to go Turn the key and fall asleep Time to wake up in a dream Where my heart belongs to me This time I'll go You can finally be set free Without a worry about me I'll be living in a dream

[thelovejournals]

I’m sorry you were not truly loved and that it made you cruel.

Warsan Shire (via thelovejournals)

[onthefritzblog]

Back then

All I can say is I knew you then When you worshipped the night and the touch of my skin Back when home was the seat next to me When the long drives we took would set us free I knew you when you had no care in the world When we danced through the night, you spun while I twirled I knew you for a time, before all the shadows came Before I morphed into just a person to blame It's strange to say I don't know you now I don't know what you like or what you think anyhow I don't know if you still sing or laugh like a kid But I knew you one time, and I loved you, I did

[onthefritzblog]

And they say such foolish things, like "Love, love, love, love is all you need" But everything inside is saying 'Danger, baby, love's gonna leave'

Brian Fallon, Among Other Foolish Things

[onthefritzblog]

Old Love; Clapton

I can feel your body When I'm lying in bed There's too much confusion Going around through my head And it makes me so angry To know that the flame still burns Why can't I get over? When will I ever learn? Old love, leave me alone Old love, go on home I can see your face But I know that it's not real It's just an illusion Caused by how I used to feel And it makes me so angry To know that the flame will always burn I'll never get over I know now that I'll never learn

[onthefritzblog]

Yesterday's adventure

[onthefritzblog]

Multi seasons hike into the Warner mountains

[onthefritzblog]

Tennessee

I wasn’t expecting anything out of that night

but I swear I’ve never seen a star shine so bright

and I danced like the world was steady under my feet

when I felt your brown eyes staring straight into me

with a word you knocked me to my knees

as your voice carried over like a cool summer’s breeze

cause for years I’ve been hiding from the stars and the sea

but that night you insisted that I deserved to be seen

with your hand on my back and a drink in my own

i remembered what it felt like to feel at home

and we laughed about things that once made me cry

and for a moment we were content with just being alive

we fought to hold on to each word that we spoke

and pretended we weren’t attempting to try to catch smoke

and we clung to our stories which longed to be felt

and we fought to breathe as our souls started to melt

but the night couldn’t last, we knew this was true

and with the sun came the shadows and a sky too blue

and i left you alone there in the Nile to sleep

I knew you were never going to be mine to keep

You awoke something in me I was afraid had died

now I know there’s still something buried inside

and I’ll always remember those eyes and that smile

from the night I felt free for just a little while

and maybe sometime when the wind is just right

when the stars come alive and are shining too bright

I’ll cross your mind and you’ll look back and you’ll think

about the girl who was dancing, the girl you bought a drink

[saraincruz]

And I don’t wanna beg your pardon and I don’t wanna ask you why, but if I was to go my own way…would I have to pass you by?

(via saraincruz)

[hereinthequiet]

And you love like you’ve always been lonely That’s alright honey That’s alright.. Oh you love him with all of your body That’s alright honey That’s alright.. Oh you love him like he’ll be there for always Always honey yeah, always near..

Bones by Ben Howard  (via hereinthequiet)

[onthefritzblog]

But you couldn’t have known that home wasn’t a place for me. It wasn’t a collection of things under my care.

It was him. It was always him. Even before our paths ever crossed.

[onthefritzblog]

"A Wish" I wish to feel smaller Under your sheets I wish for the whole truth Every time you speak I'm thinkin' about how you care half as much for me As I watch you arrive, smoke cigarettes, sleep... And I guess it doesn't matter what I say or what I seem You stuck what I felt for you in the pocket of your jeans Ignoring me the morning after isn't enough And I swear I'm gonna cry I'm sick of tryin' to be tough And my blood won't stick To the confines of my veins And your heart Is gonna tear mine away And I wish to feel smaller under your hands Though you seem satisfied As you slip mine down your pants And I'm thinkin' about how you care half as much for me As you lift up my shirt after asking politely And I guess it doesn't matter what I am or pretend to be 'Cause it's her you'll always love and it's her I'll always envy I want to end this now so dreams of you won't keep me up But I swear I'm gonna cry I'm sick of tryin' to be tough And my blood won't stick To the confines of my veins And your heart Is gonna tear mine away And it's hard to find What I want When it's buried beneath the biggest rock I could pay lots of money To help lift it with machines But I'm not sure you'd cooperate Not sure you'd come clean And I wish to feel smaller Under your sheets I wish for the whole truth Every time you speak And I'm thinkin' about how you care half as much for me As I watch you arrive, smoke cigarettes, sleep... And I guess it doesn't matter what I say or what I seem You stuck what I felt for you in the pocket of your jeans. Ignoring me the morning after isn't enough And I swear I'm gonna cry I'm sick of tryin' to be tough Yeah, I swear I'm gonna cry I'm sick of tryin' to be tough And my blood won't stick To the confines of my veins And your heart Is gonna tear mine away Is gonna tear mine away

Gregory and the Hawk

[rutabagarabitowitz]

This is how it works You’re young until you’re not You love until you don’t You try until you can’t You laugh until you cry You cry until you laugh And everyone must breathe Until their dying breath. No, this is how it works You peer inside yourself You take the things you like And try to love the things you took And then you take that love you made And stick it into some Someone else’s heart Pumping someone else’s blood Walking arm in arm You hope it don’t get harmed But even if it does You’ll just do it all again.

(via benchwarrants)

[onthefritzblog]

. . .

Take your hands off of my neck. Ive spent too much time trying to catch my breath. All I have is a headache, and a pain in my chest. You have the rest.

Take your knife out of my heart, and give me a fresh start, with someone new. I know you did, and I want to too, come on, take away my blues

Cause I’ve spent too much time underneath your ghost, praying you’d come home

I’ve spent too much time wishing you’d change your mind, come on, give me a sign

Take your veil off my eyes, come on show me all your lies, it’s the least you can do. Was it all just a dream, a nightmare we went through? You know I bleed for you

Take this weight off of my back, I swear I’m gonna crack, I’m coming loose. How can you be so free while I’m dying at your feet? You know you’ve got me beat

Cause this worlds got me feeling so alone, I can’t do it on my own

This pains tearing me down, but they can’t hear a sound in this god damn town

I don’t know who I’ll be, without you standing next to me, you said you’d be the better man, I thought you’d at least be a better friend And who have you become, baby it’s been so long, where did we go wrong, come on, sing me a sad song

You’ve kept me in the dark, and erased me from your heart, Maybe loves just a lie, just a way to pass the time

So take your hands off of my neck, you’ve stolen my last breath, this is me saying goodbye, to you and your better life

[wnq-writers]

I wanted autumn to last a little bit longer. Everything was already dead, but I still wasn’t ready to see everything get buried.

VàZaki Nada (via wnq-writers)

[onthefritzblog]

“Mulholland Drive” by the gaslight anthem

[onthefritzblog]

Star-crossed

Love made me callous, distant and cold The flame it ignited has grown tired and old My heart aches for you to come break it again So I'll know there's still something buried under my skin What I wouldn't give to feel alive once more To stop chasing these memories of our time before To close my eyes and not see your smile And be free to rest, if only for a while If I could hide from your ghost, haunting my soul Maybe once again I could feel whole But to be honest, I think, if we went back to the start Even with what I know now, I'd still hand you my heart