vannah @onyxxio - Tumblr Blog

i literally feel so alone and numb. i want to fade into nothing. thats when the problems leave

my go-to is homemade smoothies.

if you make them right, they‘re 150 calories for 40 fl oz and they taste so good.

im literally obsessed. they take 5 minutes to make and they fill me up for the whole day.

my favorite thing to do is forcing myself to starve by not bringing food places.

i want small boobs.

no matter how much weight i lose , i still wont lose weight in my chest.

i was skinny before i developed an0r3xi@.

i dont want to be skinny.

i want to be elegant and fragile.

didnt take a picture but for breakfast i had

egg whites from 2 large eggs - 34 calories

and a quarter of an apple, sliced - 14 calories

overall: 48 calories

the rest of the apple will be my food for the day!!

im going to drink lots of water and chew sugar free gum when need be.

if mr. beast can fast for 19 days, so can i

Edtwt memes

i am actually so fucking tired of standing in front of a mirror for 30 minutes every morning and point out every thing wrong with me

having ana doesnt mean wanting to be beauty standard skinny, i wanna be flesh and bones

fuck recovery i want to be xxxs

can’t wait for the day my thighs won’t touch

yeah no fuck this shit im welcoming myself back onto tumblr because im spiraling back into my ed after 4 months of recovery. fake tbh.

ive decided that im not important to anyone anymore so fuck it!!!

logging out so my mom doesnt find out about my ed when she checks my phone

killing myself literally sounds amazing and i cant wait to do it 🥺🥺🥺

vannah