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⌠ NAM JOO-HYUK, 25, CISMALE, HE/HIM ⌡ welcome back to gallagher academy, JAEMIN ‘ JAE ’ WOO! according to their records, they’re a SECOND year, specializing in DRIVER’S ED + COVERT OPS; and they DID go to a spy prep high school. when i see them walking around in the halls, i usually see a flash of ( lipstick stains on shirt collars, sweaty sprints at dawn to start the day, being shirtless for no apparent reason, soft smirks when he’s up to no good ). when it’s the ( cancer )’s birthday on 7/17/1995, they always request their HAEJANGGUK from the school’s chefs. looks like they’re well on their way to graduation.

#gallagher:intro #i think i did really well on this to say what time it is

ofeva:

– JAE HAS A HABIT OF ASKING QUESTIONS THAT MAKE HER HESITATE. is she happy in the unknown ? eva takes her time with her answer, mulling over her words as she studies his face, eyes tracing the curve of his jawline until her gaze flickers back to his eyes. she doesn’t know how he can ask such things with ease when she feels like she’s at war with her inner turmoil, and she wonders if it is as simple as it looks to be him. ” i’m not sad with that. and i guess that’s enough for me, there are a lot of things in life i’m just never going to know for certain. i’ve come to terms with it, “ she says. ” are you getting tired of asking me questions and getting nonanswers ? if you really wanted me so badly, you’d quit speaking in hypotheticals. i think you’re just not used to being rejected. “ eva’s pretty sure that’s where his persistence comes to play in the first place, and she’ll test him, pushing every button she can reach up until their last moment together. but the fact remains that if he wanted a stupid date, well…he’s still never asked her. even now, as they hang on the precipice, she’s not sure what her answer would be, but she’s quite familiar with the feeling : want. but that also means she’s quite familiar with shutting it down.

” well, if i’m at risk of inflating your ego, then i’ll probably just keep my thoughts about you to myself, “ she says, ” though i think you probably already know most of them. “ that he’s impossible and persistent, a thorn in her side but also a COMFORT, when everything about this year seemed to spiral. he’d taken on an impossible task of trying to understand her, and even now she doesn’t believe he succeeded, but he’d tried. and she’d WANTED him to. eva does think jae is special, that he has value, but probably not in the ways that he already believes he does. even so, she’ll keep that to herself, any kindness hidden behind a secretive smile when she looks back up at him. ” jae – “ she cuts herself off, not sure what she was going to say. but he looks back at her and her expression is soft, almost gentle. ” i’m tired. will you just let me say goodbye to you like a normal person ? just take a fucking break from trying to figure me out or anticipate my next move and…let me. because i haven’t really gotten to do that a lot in my life, usually i’m lucky to get to leave in the first place and there’s not time for much else. so, i just – thank you for everything, “ she says, a sigh that’s soft and sweet punctuating her words. she tries to revel in this moment because what she said was true, she’s not often offered the ability for parting words, and instead of ruminating where she might go next or whether she might find him again, she just wants to be sure that she’s gotten the chance to say – ” and goodbye. “

her answer is disappointing , not at all anything jae would agree with nor want for himself , and one he thinks is more suited for someone ordinary and boring , definitely not eva . so there’s a scoff , subtle as it leaves his lips in more of a huff . " you get to have more than just not being sad , " he begins , and he's close to leaving it there , it would be acceptable to , but his mouth opens once more and he doesn't slow his thoughts to stop it . " — you could thrive , you know ? be happy , actually live a bit , for you . " he doesn't know everything about caledonia or mr. stewart but he knows eva didn't pull her own strings , knows she's been used for other people's gain rather than her own and it pisses him off . he's so used to doing exactly what he wants for himself at all times and he knows he could help her do just that . he'll fall quiet , finding it a challenge to explore the possibility of a non hypothetical , to ask her something direct and true and without a veil he can hide behind when she answers with something he doesn't like . " look , you know i want you to stay , but you're not , so . . . regardless of what i ask you or what i want , it's all hypothetical because you're not . " he's not used to not getting what he wants , but he's more focussed on what she wants , and had she wanted him , perhaps she'd have a reason to stay and there'd be no need for what ifs at all . but jae also knows that she's not quite as likely to say yes and go along with whatever he wants when he wants , he knows she has a habit of shutting him down and rejecting him , and while he believes he takes risks , attracted to that sense of danger , he's not quite prepared for that rejection without the safety of hypotheticals or jokes . even just the idea that he'd ask her something like that without the intention of a game , without solely thinking about the prize at the end of the night would be new to him . he's not ready for it , can't form the words even in his thoughts , let alone on his lips — the idea of her turning down something that’s real plays once in his head and that's enough to scare him off , shutting down the whole thing in an instant . he'll disguise his dilemma with a stub of his cigarette , ridding it of its embers as he uses it as an excuse to look away .

" you're no fun . " jae tells her , just in case she’s unaware , though he hardly thinks so when he's smiling at her . " ridiculously attractive , ten out of ten company , and the best in bed ? glad we're on the same page . " he has to hold his grin , which he only does as to not assume he's joking in any way . eyes will fix on her calling out his name , and he doesn't know what he expected to hear , though he knows what he’d like to . but her words stump him , he can’t fight them . he could , but he’s in a predicament when he believes she should get that chance . still , he hates this , how she can make him feel guilty , embarrassed , upset and lost , but also warm and grateful and soft — soft as he looks at her , lost as he doesn't want her to go , guilty he's wasted their time tonight but grateful she even allowed them to have it , and he's upset she's saying goodbye to him now , embarrassed by the warmth of his cheeks , inside his chest and how it lingers in his stomach . " eva — wait , " his fingers curl around her wrist on instinct , a step forward as he reaches out . " fuck — " sake , fuck it , fuck this , fuck me . jae curses just the once despite them all roaming in his mind . it's as far as his thoughts go before he's kissing her , never one to think before he acts — she doesn't help with that . there’s a haste in the way he'll cup her face with gentle fingers , his thumb gliding across her cheek before he pulls away , a soft frustration on his features , in his voice as his forehead will meet with hers . " i'll let you go , i just — " lips return , rushed in fear of not wanting that to be the last time . he knows it will have to be , once he pulls away from her again . he knows he’ll never be content with the memory of it , how it’ll occupy him for weeks and there’s a feeble ferocity in how he’ll kiss her , a battle with himself as to whether he should take his time and savour it or do himself the favour and allow her to go quickly . fingers will trail through strands of her hair as he knows their time is up , eyes not quite meeting hers as his gaze lingers on her lips once he’s created that distance again . his hands move to fix her hair , the stray strands he created tucking behind her ears with delicate fingers , only looking in her eyes then before he feels a tightness in his throat . “ goodbye , eva . ” jae manages a smile , forces it despite it’s sincerity . his eyes will follow her until they’re unable — he won’t follow , instead reaching back into his pocket to light another cigarette .

#♥ — interactions | eva #hahahahhahahahahhaa #i almost went to bed n then i saw u replied so #and i know we tryin to close ....#doesnt rly matter i made it longer jhsbjhsbsjhbsjhsb #this is all word vomit but its like 4am now #shud have just replied tomorrow but... thoughts #dont look at me

ofeva:

– EVA BLINKS, NOT HAVING EXPECTED HIM TO ADMIT SUCH A THING. and she hates how he keeps catching her off-guard like this, saying something she doesn’t expect because she always thinks she’s good at reading people. ” well, i guess now you’ll never know for certain ? pity. you always like to try and call my bluff, “ she adds, because, well…she can think of a pretty BIG time that he’d dared to and it worked out in his favor. but it’s true that it won’t work every time, she’d never allow herself to become so predictable, and tonight she’s not quite as emotional – determined to hold on to her self control around him. ” you’re really going to open yourself up to that kind of criticism from me ? though, i guess your ego can handle it, “ because she’s yet to learn what will dissuade him apart from the time that…that he thought he couldn’t trust her any more, which is interesting because she’s the most untrustworthy person that she knows. ” maybe that you keep asking me questions like this, “ she decides, because he is nosy as hell. ” you’ll just have to trust your instincts on that one, jae, i’m not going to spell things out for you all the time, “ she says this dismissively, a bit of a SHARPNESS to her words – she doesn’t think it’ll cut him anyway, but she doesn’t care if it does. she tries to push him away and he keeps inching closer. it makes her all the more glad she’s leaving, not sure how to handle having someone that could potentially care about her around. someone she could grow attached to. ” do i get to pick ? “ she asks, ” because i want the latter. maybe for others, but for me…the arrogance isn’t a turn on. “ that actually isn’t a lie – and surely, if jae were to think about it, the one time he had any success with seducing her was when he was the opposite of arrogant with her, instead he was caring and honest, gentle with her, and she’d hate to admit it but those are the kinds of things that entice her the most. ” it’s still a hint. and if it wasn’t, what would be the point of me saying it anyway ? you’re not going to find me either way, not unless i want you to. and i don’t want you to. “

jae likes figuring things out and finding answers , he wants to come to concrete conclusions when he does . so , he doesn’t sit comfortably in the realm of never knowing something for certain , not when he had the chance to and quite literally allowed it to pass by without even a thought at the time . so , there is a pause , a moment of deliberation . " and you're happy with that ? never knowing for certain ? i think you’d have fun with me . " jae says with ease , a genuine belief in his tone , and really he doesn’t know why he’s trying to convince her but , when she’s so against it , it’s like a need to prove her wrong . though jae is just trying to keep hold of a possibility that they’ll have the opportunity to go on some stupid date , to still know each other in however long and have the option to , even if it’s just to be shut down when he asks . but maybe it's just where they differ . that fucking one percent . he smirks , a little lazy as it is light before there's a nod following . " i'm curious to know what you think of me , yeah . . . and you might even grow my ego so be careful . " he warns her with a playful glint in his eyes , because criticism or not , he’s quite good at twisting words and meanings and manipulating something into whatever answer he wants to hear ; she already knows that . there's a scoff that leaves him , though a smile still plays loosely on his lips . " when have you ever spelled anything out for me ? " an inhale of smoke before he releases it in a cloud , he thinks it’s the opposite . " if you want the latter then , surely to ruin your night , i have to go with trying to get you back to mine instead . i'll even try the whole . . . modest thing if i have to . " doubtful , and his words are empty anyway when he's already decided he'll give her what she wants by not getting what he does . he doesn't want to run the risk of pissing her off tonight , not enough to risk losing her company altogether . " exactly , it doesn't really mean anything so you can just tell me . " jae says simply , more or less an attempt to ignore the fact she wouldn't want him to find her . logically , he gets it , but he's quite offended by that , takes it a little personally . " — but if that's what you want , or don't want … " jae takes his gaze from her , suddenly hesitant but he’ll attempt to disguise it with a glance up to the sky instead . though , he can’t quite help how his eyes will fall straight back down to her . “ you know where to find me if you change your mind . ”

#♥ — interactions | eva #hi bestie <3

ofeva:

– HE GLARES AT HER AND ALL SHE CAN DO IS SMILE IN SATISFACTION. she shrugs her shoulders. ” i just think it’s interesting…that you’re trying so hard to prove this point to me when you’d never think to ask me anyway, “ she remarks. she’s just not the sort to let something slide, ” so, i guess we’ll just have to settle on the fact that i’ll never know. and i won’t take your word for it. “ however, eva finds herself resting comfortably in unknowns all the time, and that’s perhaps where she likes it best. both options are not ideal anyway : the idea that she’d have a miserable time is stifling, the idea that she’d actually have a good time…terrifying. still, she’ll remain stubborn as ever. ” i don’t think it is, “ pedal on the gas, so to speak, she’ll push forward, ” but i guess it’s better to know that it’s not something you hate about me. “ she’s never minded being hated, disliked, it’s something you grow used to. but she does think it would sting more than most if jae disliked her, mainly because she thinks he knows her better than the rest. it doesn’t hurt so bad to be hated by someone that doesn’t know you, but by someone that does…yes, she wants him to like her. she won’t read into it more than that. ” that wouldn’t be a bad idea, “ sometimes she doesn’t even know what’s going to come out of her mouth before it does, a truth or a lie, it’s whatever feels right in the moment. she wishes he’d laugh longer. a somewhat calculated smirk reaches her features when his gaze hurries away, raising the cigarette to her lips, amused by the way he tries not to stare. she’ll do no such thing, however. she doesn’t move far, just a little bit back toward the railing as her eyes trace his profile, watching his face mostly, exhaling smoke. it’s important to her, to take this time to try and memorize him, doesn’t care if she stares a little. ” give it your best shot. i guess i’d like to see what your idea of ruining my night would be, “ she says. ” there’s no point in giving you hints if i don’t want you to know the answer. you’ve just got to let it go, i can’t be convinced. “

she’s right , he didn’t think to . but now he’s here he doesn’t know why he didn’t . " maybe i regret not asking . " it comes out with more ease than he thought but it's different with eva when he doesn't just automatically hide what he's feeling , he can be honest about it . " — but you'd never say yes , so i don't regret it THAT much . " not exactly what she said but he'll find a loophole , negate the blame a little . jae hums for a moment , in thought . " fine , then , i like it about you . " the only reason he wouldn’t like it would be if she were mean to him but he also thinks that’s really hot so he doesn’t dislike it about her at all . " do you hate things about me ? " because if she does he'll need to figure out something he hates about her to even the field , and he is kind of curious . " can't tell if you're lying and it is bad or . . . " sort of a joke , since they're now in potential lying territory , but he'll move a little closer . his eyes don’t drift away from hers as he inspects her , as if he's trying to figure it out . he has no clue . he’s been drinking , that’s what he’ll blame it on . gaze will drop again to catch her smirk which will only pull one onto his own lips , watching as she smokes . she’s so hot . jae’s pretty sure she knows it and everything is intentional . he’s not complaining . he takes a drag from his , a raise of his brow at her support . " see i'm tied between trying to get you back to my dorm room or ignoring you for the rest of the night . . . but i think you'd find pleasure in either , to be honest . " jae says with a laugh but part of him knows he couldn't ignore her anyway , at least not all night . though getting her back to his still has potential . the thing about jae is : he doesn’t really let things go . " it's not a hint . i don't know if you know this but continents are kind of big , eva — you could be anywhere . and i'm not exactly going to come and try to find you . " though he might if he had a city name to go off .

#♥ — interactions | eva

ofeva:

– “OF COURSE THEY’RE UNMATCHED,” SHE NODS IN AFFIRMATION, and for a moment there’s no ounce of sarcasm, like she really believes him, until she adds : “ because you don’t have any, of course. isn’t that what you said ? ” she taps her chin in thought playfully before she winks at him, teasing. she doesn’t actually know what sort of game he’s playing, bringing up dates and all that, but she won’t agree just so that he can turn her down. eva’s never really been the casual date type, she was honest when she said that. he’s right, though. she isn’t kind, not inherently – she does love how it comes naturally to some people, how their first instinct is to help others or put themselves second, and she thinks that’s SWEET, it’s endearing, and she’s fascinated by it…but she’s never learned how to do it herself. “ no, it’s…not something that comes naturally to some people, i guess. but i think you like that about me, ” since clearly he doesn’t mean it as an insult, and she does kind of like that he seems to understand, even if she’s being coy. “ i’ll remember you said that, ” though if this is the last night, there will be no need to remind him of the way he gave her permission to lie. still, anything that sounds like a ‘get out of jail free card,’ eva will always file away for later. she likes bumming cigarettes off jae best because she feels fancy, like an actress in a black and white film when she takes one from him. he does sort of have the charm of an old movie start when he’s in a suit, too, she can picture it. her eyes meet his as she holds it up to her lips, already knowing he will look at them before he lights it for her. it’s probably not in her best interest to be out here with him, she’s not very good at goodbyes, but she couldn’t resist. it’s probably worse for him anyway, she’s always worse for people than they are for her. “ you couldn’t ruin my night, ” she says with certainty, though it’s unclear how she means that. “ if i did know, i wouldn’t tell you. we already talked about that, you won’t change my mind. ”

jae will keep a bit of a grin , even if it falls slightly at her addition , narrowed glare in her direction . " i don't have one now , and it's not like i have them often , but i've had dates before . . . and i always guarantee a ten out of ten experience . " he’ll say confidently , and he thinks it’s enough grounds to make better late than never count for him , not that he's even asked her . though maybe he should have , but the fact he’s even debating whether he regrets not doing it makes him shut down his thoughts quickly . he's not sure there's anything about eva he doesn't like , or he just hasn't discovered it yet , but he isn't actively looking for something , either . she hesitates a little , and when she flips it back to him , he lifts his shoulders gently to shrug . she’s right , though . " like's a strong word , but i don't think it's a flaw , no . " flaws are kind of subjective anyway , but he wonders if she was kind if he'd be half as intrigued by her as he is now . " i'll just assume everything's a lie from now on . " he teases with a short laugh , a smile on his lips remaining , because at least she'll remember something about him . he doesn't think he'd forget her and maybe it's selfish , or just vain , but he wants to be remembered by her , too . his gaze will fall to her lips a moment , just as the flame ignites , before flickering back up . he can't stare for too long or he'd have to kiss them again . the thought does run through his mind . jae's not expecting that response , rather something blunt or in agreement , so he’s a little surprised by the compliment — because obviously he’s taking it as one . " good to know . . . though , now i am tempted to try . " something about pursuing the impossible is just so alluring to him . she shuts him down so quickly that he scoffs . " okay , fine . ” except not really. “ — what about the continent ? or timezone ? " he'll try and find out what he can while he can , even if she's refusing .

#♥ — interactions | eva

ofeva:

– EVA MEETS HIS EYES WITHOUT ANY HESITATION AND NODS : “ yes. ” she’s not sure what it will take to shut him down at this point, but she’s trying. it’s even more important to her to not give him an inch now because of the fact that there’s SOMETHING there that wasn’t before and she doesn’t want to humor it. she does genuinely believe that it’s unwise for anyone to care for her. “ just because you know a couple things about me doesn’t mean you know what i’m LIKE, ” she retorts, mainly because she’s both comforted and uncomfortable by such a notion and she doesn’t know where to stand. wanting to be known but being terrified of it. this sort of banter was easier when she felt more elusive. “ anyway, i’m just being honest with you. i thought you wanted that. ” considering how forlorn he looked to see her in the sublevels. he’s the one that offered a smoke, so she’ll WAIT for him to offer his, an expectant look on her features as she leans back against the terrace. she almost leans back just a LITTLE too far for a beat, testing the limit. “ it’s hard to talk to you because you’re irritating. not because it’s my last night. ” so much for not lying to him.

his eyes will squint a moment before he tilts his head , a slow grin forming . that was too quick , and he most definitely believes he’s worth a thought at the very least , especially when he’s given her plenty to think about . “ okay — if you say so . . . you’d be missing out , though . my dates are unmatched . ” coming from the guy who just said he didn’t do them . but he wants her to want to do them with him , purely because she doesn’t . maybe it’s wanting what you can’t have and jae’s never been great with that . “ you’re right , but i know you’re not kind . . . and i don’t mean that in a bad way . ” because it’s easy for that to sound like an insult and he’s not trying to be offensive . it’s not like anyone ever got anywhere being kind , anyway . “ oh , no , i’ve changed my mind now , lie away . ” jae thinks she’s lying already , but the invalidity comes completely from the fact he won’t believe she wouldn’t want him . so he won’t thank her for keeping up the honesty , even if he does appreciate it in general ( just not right now ) . he’s already shifting in his pocket for his pack once they’re outside , it’s those fancy af ones in the cool boxes . black is high key on theme , too and jae is that extra . so he’ll hand her one , wait for her to clasp it before he’ll extend his hand out to light it for her when she’s ready . “ not my intention . . annoying on the other hand , maybe . . . but i’m not trying to ruin your night . ” if anything he wants to make it better , so he’ll shrug , actually letting it go before letting a second pass as he lights his own cigarette . “ so . . do you know where you’re going yet ? ” he’s hoping she’ll tell him this time .

#♥ — interactions | eva

ofeva:

– “I THINK NEVER WOULD BE BETTER ACTUALLY,” SHE SAYS WITH A POINTED GLANCE. because again, if he asked her, she would have said no, regardless of how relentless, because she’s also incapable of making such a step. they’ve already gone as dates ONCE, even by accident, and twice is where it would start to feel like a pattern. “ NO, let it go because you’re wrong and you’re insufferable, i’m doing you a kindness by trying to spare you the trouble, ” and eva pays attention to things and she knows there are people checking him out right now. so, maybe the smile on her lips is a little smug, bordering on happy : he’s still here with her regardless. “ fine, i’ll humor you. let’s go, ” she’ll agree to that, he knew it too. she turns on her heel toward the terrace without a look back to make sure he’s following – she knows he will.

“ do you really ? ” it’s spoken like it’s a game , like he doesn’t believe her , because he doesn’t , and he’ll get to the truth eventually . but she’s being so stern that it’s not as familiar as the back and forth he’s used to with her , so there is authenticity in his tone . jae feels a little lost , really , not sure why she’s bothering with the attitude but he’s not unequipped to deal with it , a smile on his lips . “ a kindness ? that’s not like you , eva , i thought we were passed that . . . and trust me , it’s no trouble . ” jae’s aware when he’s being annoying and eva is no exception to it , especially if she’s being this stubborn and he can’t figure out why . she’s quick to accept , so much his mouth almost goes to talk again , as if she needs more convincing , but instead he’ll bite his lip with a nod as she goes on ahead . so hot . he’ll trail behind with a little spring in his step to catch up beside her . “ is it really that hard to talk to me on your last night ? ” he poses as a joke , almost , soft laugh . but . . it is hard , or it will be , when he has to end the conversation .

#♥ — interactions | eva

ofeva:

– “I DON’T REALLY DO THE WHOLE DATE THING,” eva parrots, tilting her head in his direction. “ though it kind of sounds like you’re trying to ask me RIGHT NOW. it’s a little late for that, jae, ” she tells him. she wouldn’t have said yes anyway. once was fun, but the memory of how soft he kissed her hasn’t left her mind ; the frustration in his voice when she’d reminded him that she was leaving lingers. once was fun, but it was too intimate. for that reason, it can’t be twice. “ you’re wrong, jae. let it go. ” she tilts her head toward the dance floor, her voice sharp and cold, “ if that’s all you want to talk to me about, you’re better off chatting up someone who actually wants to fuck you tonight. ”

with her response he’s feeling a little smug because one , they’re once again the same in everything they do and two , there’s just as much potential that she’ll be all his , as well . “ i’m not asking you — but better late than never would definitely apply if i was . ” though jae’s incapable of making that step , to make it more than just friends who fucked that one time . even if it would have been nice just to have the excuse to talk to her all evening . “ let it go ‘cause i’m right and you’re just too stubborn to admit it ? okay , i’ll try . ” jae will smirk , though trying is unlikely . still , there’s a smile remaining on his lips , gentle shake of his head . “ that’s not it , no . want to go out for a smoke ? ” jae nods toward the exit .

#♥ — interactions | eva

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ofeva:

– “YOU’RE JUST BEING DIFFICULT,” SHE SAYS, pointing out the fact that he’s saying words that don’t really mean anything to her. “ if you ever catch me labeling myself as anything, i’m probably lying to you, ” jury’s out on if she’s even telling the truth now. eyes narrow slightly, though it’s almost playful. even if he thinks so, he’s wrong. “ then i wouldn’t say you’re all mine, ” eva points out, “ pretty presumptuous to assume i’d even want you…you know what they say : been there, done that. ”

" i can't tell the difference , so . . that'd be a good sign to know . " jae will joke , except he thinks he can tell . . . he THINKS . " but i could be — unless you have a date . " brows raise a little in questioning before he sips his drink . maybe he is curious to know , though it's not like jae would see that as much of a hurdle he’d have to overcome . there's a laugh that leaves him , lips pursing slightly before he smirks . " am i wrong , then ? to presume ? " he asks , innocently , despite his smile , because he’s knows she had fun .

#♥ — interactions | eva

ofeva

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jae will keep his eyes on hers as he waits for her response . he knows it might be difficult to summarise how she’s feeling , though he’s not at all surprised it’s not fulfilling , he didn’t expect it to be . he’s trying to find the words to say , but he’s not at all accustomed to death , not like this , anyway . gallagher has helped a little but he’s definitely not attended as many funerals as he could have given what work his family is involved in . “ he should have suffered , ” jae will begin with a mutter , a little nod to himself because he wishes she had got that chance . though , in a matter of seconds , he shakes his head , changing his mind . “ he would have done , even if you didn’t get to ensure it — he would have thought of you in his last moments . you would have haunted him , even if it was only a second . ” he actually has no idea if it has any truth to it at all , but eva deserves that at the very least and so he’ll say it with such conviction . “ — and , uh , if there’s still things you have to say to him , you know , let me have it . ” jae offers , a little lightness in his tone as if he already knows how ridiculous it seems but he’s not sure how else to allow her to get it out if that’s what she needs to do .

“ i’ll call it being stubborn . ” he’ll quip back , gentle grin on his lips , he can’t think of any other reason for her not entertaining him . “ keeping busy is good for you . ” jae nods , she could call him out on anything , define him as this or that , insult him , even . . and jae will always find a way to flip it , make use of the situation and keep his ball in the court . there’s a lick of his lips , as if to force himself to think about it first , not answer too quick despite the words coming to mind immediately . “ treacherous . ” jae smirks a little , half a joke . “ — perilous , maybe … enticing . ” jae will humour her , or try to , even if they’re all true to him . and realistically he could go on and on and on with words that he believes suit her . though , when he really thinks of eva he thinks she resembles fire , that fickle flicker even when it’s steady and controlled , a potential for destruction if it finds the opportunity . except right now , it’s extinguished , smoke still soaring up in spirals and waves and the heat still there , the opportunity to be ignited always there . it’s not any less beautiful , no fault in the change at all . but he does acknowledge there’s been one . her casual words bring a smile to his lips , eyes lighting up in approval . “ ooh , write me in a pack of cigarettes and we’re even . ” maybe she’s rubbing off on him but he’s incredibly fond of her writing him into her will , however morbid that may seem .

as she'll fuel him with the hunger he'd held back , there's a gentle tug at his lips . jae has imagined how a kiss with eva would feel , anticipated it with incredibly high expectations … and with such an ease , she's immediately exceeded them . he's reciprocating her force just as easily , a hand brushing through her hair to hold her close to him as he'll feel hers on his neck . even if he got the head start , she's taken the lead — and for once in his life he'll gladly accept the silver instead of gold . it’s unexpected how she’ll pull away and for a moment he’s expecting some form of scolding , a push against him to separate them , but instead their closeness remains and he’ll glance to her with curious eyes . “ i know . “ jae murmurs , his lips connecting with hers again for a moment only to part once more , as if to confirm to her that it doesn't mean anything , it won't change anything — and he knows that . he's not using it as a means to hope for a different outcome , simply craves her in ways the both of them always knew he did . his initial intentions have always been clear , they haven't changed , but there's additions , unexpected moments of theirs that cling to his thoughts and force him to discover a different kind of desire in needing her this close . ” i know . “ he'll say again , a soft sigh escaping from his nose as fingers will loosen their hold . he's not frustrated with her , just the lack of her he'll inevitably come to know , how this is it . " but you're here now , " jae kisses her again , first on her lips , then landing ever so gently across her jaw , once , twice . " can we focus on that ? " he'll whisper toward her ear , trailing his lips across her skin as his legs will bend slightly , palms sliding across her thighs to lift her up before he searches for her lips again .

– EVA CAN TELL THAT JAE DOESN’T ENTIRELY UNDERSTAND, and she doesn’t expect him to. her position, as usual in her life, is unique, and she’s accustomed to dealing with things alone. the thing that is different that there are four other people who know what it feels like to stand where she is. and still, she finds herself inclined to open her mouth to a fifth, to tell jae about this thing that she knows he might not understand and there’s actually more comfort in the fact that he’s trying than if he’d actually been successful. ” i don’t know, i think…the worst thing about it is that i probably didn’t mean that much to him, that he was so important to me and all i wanted to do was prove this thing to him when i was just a pawn in his game. he could use me because i felt like that. i wish he would’ve thought of me in his last moments, but…no, my ego isn’t that large, “ eva admits. still, she thinks she deserves to haunt someone. ” i’ll keep that in mind, “ she says, ” but i don’t think i’ve fully gathered all of my thoughts yet. though i think it might be strange…i like not associating you with caledonia, you know. “ it’s a strangely kind sentiment, though, and once again she will remember the quick way that she wrote him off as insensitive…that’s probably just how he wanted her to think, because now she knows that he feels more than he’d like other people to believe.

” it can be both, “ she retorts, because all self preservation does take a bit of stubbornness. that said, he’s not WRONG. he brought that on himself, though, if he hadn’t been so arrogant then maybe she wouldn’t have needed to be so stubborn. he always talks like a lawyer, every conversation is something you can win. that’s probably why she anticipates some sort of witty answer, some retort masked with a charming smile as an attempt to distract her, but she actually doesn’t quite know what to make of his words. ” you sound like you’re talking about a journey rather than a person, “ she laughs, although she likes that. he’s looking at her like he’s thinking of more words than the ones that he’s saying, but eva doesn’t push it. the smile that lights up his features looks so genuine, she doesn’t want to ruin it. ” you got it, “ she pauses, she can’t help it, she’s grinning back at him with eyes just as bright, ” though you really should quit. it’s a terrible habit. “ it’ll probably be what kills her, if it’s not her own recklessness.

eva expected some form of acceptance from him, probably because he’d already established that he’d say anything to fuck her and he wasn’t shy about it, but it’s so soft that she almost forgets to kiss him back out of surprise. it should make her shy away. after all, eva is someone that says that she’s not interested in any kind of desire that weighs more heavily than lust, she doesn’t know how to handle something like that, but in the same breath she’s addicted to it : if you don’t love her, you should kiss her as if you do. she wants the energy that makes her knees feel weak, that makes it impossible to think about anything else but the moment that you’re completely caught up in, and she’s having fun forgetting exactly where she ends and jae begins. she’s confused at first when he breaks the kiss again, the frustration lingering in his voice causes warmth to bloom in her cheeks the color of overripe peaches. she can tell he doesn’t want her to go, that his reasons are selfish. ” we can, “ she agrees, ” but you’ll have to shut up first. “ as if she’s not the one who interrupted them in the first place, which is probably why there’s a moment of laughter that follows the gasp when jae lifts her up effortlessly. her legs wrap around him tightly, holding herself up a bit to kiss him back with certainty and aggression, like she feels the need to assert the same sense of control after he’s just manhandled her a little. like most things, eva knows that this moment is fleeting, that in a certain amount of time ( depending on how long he lasts ) this will be over and she’ll have to hold on to it like any other memory. eva also thinks that it will be a good one, so, she listens to his advice because she’s here right now. she’ll focus on that.

#u closed this so beautifully i need it on his blog #u know all my thoughts now but im yelling : )#♥ — interactions | eva

adamisms:

“ YEAH, WELL. YOU THINK EVERYONE WANTS YOU, ” he points out, with a playful roll of his eyes. maybe adam just hadn’t expected it to actually be true. “ dude, you so like her, ” he laughs, watching jae’s face as he tries to deny it. “ it’s okay, man. feelings are a good thing. ” he pats him on the back. “ why’s that a bad thing ? ” that’s basically what he did with orion, oops. “ when you want to spend time with someone, you ask them out. is she coming back next year ? ”

" am i wrong ? " jae says with a short laugh , he doesn't think so , but he also wouldn't accept it if so since recent events prove how right he is . he’ll let out a little groaned sigh , shaking his head . " i don't have feelings for her , that's not , that's so . . " gross . especially when it wouldn’t even matter if he did . " ‘cause that’d be basically saying that i do like her . which i don’t . ” jae will point out , in case he hadn’t enough before . though jae does want to spend time with her , but the suggestion that means he’s into her is . . not it , chief . “ nah , she’s , uh , leaving . i dunno . she doesn’t want to be here . ”

#♥ — interactions | adam

adamisms:

DON’T TEMPT HIM, OKAY. “ i always do, ” he chuckles, and adam would’ve told jae that he’s already slept with orion, but there are more important things ti discuss. “ no way. ” okay, maybe adam does sound a LITTLE surprised about all of this. “ you seem happy about this, ” he says after a moment, squinting at his friend. not smug, happy. “ you like her. ” not a question. “ you should’ve asked her to go with you tonight. ”

. . . i’ll tempt him . there’s a gentle smirk in adam’s direction , that’s his boy . “ why wouldn’t i be ? i told you she wanted me . ” and he’ll laugh , but it’s cut short by adam’s addition , a scoff replacing the sound . “ what ? no . no . . . no . i just — no . it’s not like that . ” he will convince himself , not thinking he needed to until literally this second . “ oh , yeah , ‘cause asking her to go with me after we fucked wouldn’t have been weird at all ” jae says sarcastically , giving his friend a look .

#♥ — interactions | adam

adamisms:

IT’S TOO BAD HE’S NOT GAY, because adam would totally hit that. “ i don’t know either, ” he laughs good-naturedly, because anyone with eyes can see orion’s out of his league. it’s not exactly news. his drink is brought to his lips, but the moment jae speaks again, adam nearly spits it out. “ really ? ” except he doesn’t sound THAT surprised, because it’s jae. “ after finding out she was a narc and everything ? ” not asked with judgment, just trying to understand the timeline.

maybe adam should hit that . . . just a thought . “ well , make it worth their while , at least . ” a soft nudge of his elbow into adam’s arm , he means fuck orion good tonight or what’s the point ???????? jae will divert his gaze just slightly , focussing on the liquid in his glass for a moment . “ yeah , after . she came to my room . ” obviously it was bound to happen .

#♥ — interactions | adam

adamisms:

“ AW, SHUCKS. you’re gonna make me blush, ” he grins. “ i do, actually. orion. they’re over… ” adam glances around before finding them, pointing them out. they’re currently talking to martina. “ — there. they look good, right ? ”

jae will grin , too , and if he was gay , adam would be top of his list . well , after steve , obviously . his eyes will follow adam’s direction , a small approving nod following once he spots them . “ yeah , don’t know how you’ve scored them . ” he laughs . . . you were literally just hyping him up , jae . he’ll clear his throat . “ i slept with eva . ” cue a little inconspicuous sip of his drink .

#♥ — interactions | adam

adamisms:

“ YOU LOOK LIKE A TEN, DUDE. ” adam’s not gonna lie to him, let’s be real. “ you’re not here with anyone, are you ? ”

jae’s little smirk shows his appreciation . “ you’re a ten , always . don’t need me to say it . ” he’ll shake his head at his question . “ no , no . why , are you ? ” jae wonders , he’ll make a mental note not to hit on them if so .

#HEHEHEHHEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHHEHHE #DENA #<3 #♥ — interactions | adam

@adamisms

“ on a scale from one to ten . . . i look like a ten tonight , right ? ” say right , adam .

#did i fotget to fdo this earlier ?#yes #did it take me ages #to ensure no tupos ?#yESSSSSSSSSS #♥ — interactions | adam

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