Hello! Guess who's going through a bit of a tough time because, at 28, it slapped them in the face that they very, very probably have ADHD? I am beginning to grasp how much it affects my life and ability to accomplish stuff and am feeling very frustrated. On the other hand I try to look at it this way: it's one of the best things that has happened to me this year, because now I can start looking for real solutions and let go of a certain idea of how I should function (which is also a very deeply painful grieving process : I may never have the life I wanted). I am however extremely frustrated and overwhelmed with everything (like : how am I going to be able to juggle everything I want to do because I'm a stubborn overachiever AND go through this revelation and take all the medical appointments I need to go to to get an assessment etc. ).
Now everything that went 'wrong' in my life makes so much sense, especially why I have always felt like my brain is a mess lololol. I am so angry, though. Nobody saw that, even though I have been talking very clearly about my struggles for years. Nobody helped me identify it. Not even the therapist I have been seeing for 4 years. I was too good at school and lucky enough to have no learning disabilities, so all my obvious symptoms were overlooked and when I went into adult life everyone was like "geez, we wonder why Mélina seems to be struggling so much! She's so smart! Guess she'll just have to learn like the rest of us and be a little bit less lazy and quirky!"