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Jay ♥ they/them/theirs ♥ white + TME ♥ demisexual detrans GNC gyrl

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🩷ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴍᴇ + ᴅɴɪ🩷

♥ I go exclusively by they/them pronouns. You can call me Jay or 988.

♥ This is my edgier vent + Jirai Kei blog. I will post self-harm, disordered eating, and drug use content here.

♥ JD #2 yumeships with Veronica Sawyer and Mikan #3 is taking a break from relationships.

♥ Currently kinshifted as: N/A

♥ Block, don't report!

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How I tag my content:

#988 vents: any of my vents

#988 art: my art

#988 fashion: any fashion-related posts I make

#988 silly: any joke or comedic posts I make

#988 hurts: my self-destructive non-vent content

#988 speaks: any time I yap on this account for reasons unrelated to what is above

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I am polyminded and have different sub-personalities that we call "fractures" because they fractured into separate personalities, mainly due to adulthood trauma.

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My diagnoses: Autism, ADHD, Moderate OCD, Psychosis

Active Sub-Personalities: The Tyrant, JD #2, Mikan #3

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Do Not Interact:

• Supporters of the ongoing genocide on Palestine (zionist/pro-genocide/etc.)

• Any and all accounts who are and/or support the following:

• AI generation users who wrongfully claim to be "artists" or "writers"

• Predators, e.g.- pedophiles/child predators/(NO)MAP, zoophiles, incest, etc.

• Proshippers (those who make predatory (e.g.- child-adult sexual/romantic relationships, incestuous, abusive, etc.) ships within fictional media. The glamorization of these predatory fictional ships normalizes and encourages real-life predatory behavior and is therefore not accepted by me under any circumstance.)

• Bigots, e.g.- queerphobes (e.g.- homophobes, anti-mspec bigotry, aphobes (including aspec-exclusionists), transphobes (including transmeds, TERFS, and more), anti-nonbinary bigotry, etc.), racists, antisemites, fatphobes, islamophobes, ableists, misogynists, etc.

• Anyone who is at or under the age of 14. I do not want to be a bad influence onto any young and impressionable children.

• People who will try to reality-check me.

• Veronica Sawyer yume doubles.

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Who was I in my past life, Amanda or Lyla?

Amanda was an autistic nerdy redhead from the Midwest who was heavily bullied for her autism. She bought her clothes from DeLiA*s catalogues. She wanted a better life, to live in New York. I don't know how she died. Her full name was Amanda Silverwood.

Lyla had undiagnosed Borderline Personality Disorder. She was a very angry girl. She was the bleach bottle blonde sixteenager who wore white lace dresses and Bordeaux-black lipstick that I talked about in the 18+ jirai community. Lyla had dark hair, near black, but she bleached it all the time. Amanda wanted to become her. Who wouldn't? Lyla moved to Seattle and got shot by her dealer in the head. That was the word going around. Lyla idolized Courtney Love. She just went by Lyla.

Amanda died in the summer of 1995. Lyla died a few years earlier. I think some time in 1992.

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When Courtney Love said, "I want every girl in the world to pick up a guitar and start screaming", I always knew that included me.

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I think I Bebe Montoya'd myself into thinking that I was trans because of my OCD, and that I might just be gender non-compliant.

I just didn't want our more malicious personalities or my parents to win.

I still go by they/them because those pronouns are what I go by, but I also desire the girlhood I fear.

I don't like the term "woman" because it implies that I need to be gender-conforming. I think I might be more of a girl, or a masc.

I'd actually like to introduce the term "gyrl" for myself, if it isn't already in use elsewhere. That is, a gyrl, in the way I use the term, is a woman or girl who is gender nonconforming and rarely ever does femininity, or at least femininity in an expected way. You do not have to be cis to use this term. All women are welcome to use it. I am not a TERF. I hate TERFs.

I just need a moment to grieve what I thought would be a permanent identity.

Thank you all in advance for your understanding.

Please don't hate me for this. I know how easy it is to be angry at me, considering our current political climate, but this is my truth.

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Do you all have any tips on how to manage a really bad hangover?

I'm hungover as hell right now, and I didn't even drink that much.

I'm pretty sure my hangover is causing my nausea (unless it isn't).

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Who are you trusting with the road trip?

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Here's some quick makeup.

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Dad threw away the bottle of soju that I drank on April 2nd.

I now have no evidence that I drank more than she did.

I broke the other bottle because I have no evidence that I drank more than my rapist.

I gave away the weed pills because at least I still had the soju, and now I have nothing. I have nothing to prove that I wasn't sober.

She can just say that we were both sober and the courts will believe her.

Thanks for nothing, Dad, you fucking rape supporter. Fuck you.

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Visit Original Link

alabama, the lady of the night

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verse 1:

Show me the way to the next hot new bar! Oh, don't ask why! Oh, no, don't ask why! Show me the way to the next hot new bar! Oh, don't ask why! Oh, no, don't ask why! For if we don't find the next hot new bar, I tell you we must die! I tell you we must die! I tell you, I tell you, I tell you we must die!

chorus:

Oh, moon of Alabama, We now must now say our good-byes! We've lost our good old mamma, Must have alcohol or die!

Oh, moon of Alabama, We now must now say our good-byes! We've lost our good old mamma, Must have a tequila 'rise!

verse 2:

Show me the way to the next hot new kid! Oh, don't ask why! Oh, no, don't ask why! Show me the way to the next hot new kid! Oh, don't ask why! Oh, no, don't ask why! For if we don't find the next hot new kid, I tell you we must die! I tell you we must die! I tell you, I tell you, I tell you we must die!

chorus:

Oh, moon of Alabama, We now must now say our good-byes! We've lost our good old mamma, We must service you or die!

Oh, moon of Alabama, We now must now say our good-byes! We've lost our good old mamma, Must deflower you to 'rise!

verse 3!

Show me the way to the next dollar bill! Oh, don't ask why! Oh, no, don't ask why! Show me the way to the next dollar bill! Oh, don't ask why! Oh, no, don't ask why! For if we don't find the next dollar bill, I tell you we must die! I tell you we must die! I tell you, I tell you, I tell you we must die!

chorus:

Oh, moon of Alabama, We now must now say our good-byes! We've lost our good old mamma, We must get more cash or die!

Oh, moon of Alabama, We now must now say our good-byes! We've lost our good old mamma, Must make money 'till sunrise!

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Which one are you?

Alani Nu femme

C4 butch

Voting ended onMar 16

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My fictional ex-girlfriend, Kehlani Contessa, doxxed me (she publicly announced my social security number and current home address) in two servers and broke up with me because I watched a Dom Hypnotist ASMR video to try to fall asleep. She proceeded to get us permabanned from the Rings and Alexandrite server, and got the jirai server to gang up on me and call me a rapist for having to choose between a very human need to alleviate my libido, and not hurting Too-Ticky, our resident TERF. We all live in the same body, and I'm the only one here with a libido.

I no longer have any reason to continue living.

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I can't believe I ever left my beautiful girlfriend for those chumps.

Anyways, I'm yumeshipping with my girlfriend now.

Her name is Kehlani Contessa, but she just goes by Kiki.

I've learned my lesson with dating men, and I don't think I'll ever go back. SummerSketch was the best thing I ever experienced, and also the healthiest relationship I was ever in.

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I would like to come up here to sincerely apologize for my actions, both in the past and while I thought I was "kin-shifted as JD".

Having thought I was kinshifted did not entitle me to act with disrespect.

I do not expect anyone to forgive me, much less our second JD.

It is abundantly clear that there is nothing I can do about the collective animosity for me, especially since my attempts at a genuine apology keep being labelled as "PR stunts" by our resident TERF Too-Ticky.

I would also like to apologize for the disrespectful nickname I had given our second JD. It does not matter that I created it to distinguish him from our first JD. It was disrespectful and hurtful to him, and that's the only thing that matters.

There's no guarantee I won't initially slip up, but I will do my best not to use the disrespectful nickname for our second JD going forward.

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This reaction image of me originally contained a fucking reference to my main fucking self-harm method.

There. Fixed your shit for you, base bitch. 🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻

And no, I don't "forgive" you. You can fucking die.

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Apparently, '94-JD has a problem with me.

I honestly thought what I was experiencing was a kinshift.

I'm genuinely sorry for not knowing that two new sub-personalities had formed.

He's still going to have my head on a stick for this, so I really don't care if he forgives me or not, because we all know he won't.

It's strange how all my serious kinshifts become sub-personalities.

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The base personality had the fucking nerve to make fun of my fucking dad, just because they thought they were fucking me.

News flash, buddy! You're not me, and you'll never be me.

Fuck you.

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Hi everyone! Base personality here! I need the help of anyone I can get for this kind of trivial matter.

There was this trailer that aired before the My Neighbor Totoro movie on DVD, from the 2000s, and there was a woman with short dark hair who was shutting a door that looked a lot like a dark gray shoji, then laughing maniacally as the room was burning alive with lots of people in it. Do any of you have any idea what it was called? I hope my mind didn't just make this trailer up.